SOULFISH80   14,092
10,000-14,999 SparkPoints
SOULFISH80's Recent Blog Entries


Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Had a bad eating day today. But I tracked everything I ate, and found out I only went over my daily calorie maximum number by 100 calories, which is really not as bad as I thought. I'm not happy I did this, but I am glad I was able to stop myself from going into full binge mode. I did try to regulate the amount I was eating, even though I knew I shouldn't be eating the things I was eating. I realized that starting my day off with protein is definitely a good thing. I have been eating a small breakfast for the past few days, which leaves my starving by 11:30, and I feel like no matter what I eat I'm really hungry the rest of the day. So, a little here, a little there, trial and error, I am determined to figure all of this out. It is really a daily choice to live healthy, as we all know. Some days I don't want to really be conscious of everything I am putting in my mouth, since emotional overeating has been my method of drug abuse for the last 32 years. But I am really determined to stop it. Even though I am not pleased with todays actions, I am glad that I tracked everything I ate. Usually when I know I've eaten poorly for a day, I just give up tracking and kind of do what I want for that day, feeling defeated and unable to have a "perfect" day. I know healthy choices are not about perfection, but about making good decisions for my health the majority of the time. So, lesson learned for today. No matter how bad the day is, eating wise, it is better to track everything so I can see where I can do better next time. Lesson learned, atleast for today. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Tim is leaving town tomorrow morning to go to AZ to pick up our car. I am glad he is getting the car, but I don't want him to leave. I am so enjoying our time together this last month. He will go back to work soon, and with that comes lots of time apart, so I just try to soak all the luvins up while I can. I guess it's a good thing that I like to spend lots of time with the would be terrible if I didn't!

To end this blog on a good note, I did buy a pair of 18 size jeans yesterday, which was great. I am not fully in 18's, because not every pair of 18's fits right, but it did feel good to find a pair that did fit. I know the size is just a number......but it does show me that I am making a little progress already, and that is very encouraging. So, tomorrow is a new day. I might right my bike to work again tomorrow. I rode it yesterday, and it was a very easy way to burn 200 calories. Plus it forced me to stay at work for my lunch break, allowing me to make a little more money, ( I work commission, so the more hair I cut, the more I make.) So, all in all, things are moving in the right direction, one baby step at a time. Oh, and I also found a really yummy sounding new recipe to try, so my one new recipe a week goal is going to happen this week! I already bought the ingredients, and plan to try is tomorrow, thai basil chicken at 279 calories/serving. I love thai food, but have never tried to make it at home, I'm pretty excited to try it. So, what seemed like a pretty bad choices day, is now starting to sound like an overall good choices couple of weeks. It does help to look at the big picture sometimes.............or maybe always!!

Good night dear people. I hope your journey's are full of exciting new revelations on how you can be the best you possible. That is what I hope for myself, and as each day progresses, I truly think I am working to be my best.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

RIDMYCOCOON 9/27/2012 11:40PM

    Good things a brewin'! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MIAJOEB 9/27/2012 1:16PM

    I have a pair of lee's jeans from the eighties. I not only can get it on but it is that old skinny jean look... I think it is a 16 because the other pants with them were 16's.
I didn't know I had them till I cleaned out the closet this summer so my granddaughter could have some room in the closet.
So Proud of your commitment. Keep on sparking.

Report Inappropriate Comment
HIPPICHICK1 9/27/2012 12:07PM

    Oooh, I love Thai food too.
emoticon on the new jeans!
Wishing Tim a safe journey.

Report Inappropriate Comment
BEARGODDESS 9/27/2012 7:50AM

    Yay! for the size 18 jeans!!! It takes awhile to get into the rhythm of food tracking and staying below your calorie level. I still have to watch it, or I go over by 50 or so calories. I try to make up for it by staying on the low end for a couple of days. I've learned to have a good breakfast, including protein, and that sets the stage for the rest of the day.
You'll love making Thai food at home! It's surprisingly easy once you get the hang of it, and so delicious and healthy! I love using coconut in Thai recipes. (Or any time!) emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment

Weekend fun

Monday, September 24, 2012

I didn't get in fit mins the last two days. But I have been very busy, and enjoying life. So, I don't feel terrible, plus I got a really nice walk in this morning, and I have a good bike ride planned for tonight. I think it's all good. I got to see my nieces on Saturday. It was a quick visit, my brother and SIL were just stopping by. It was wondeful to get those smooches in! My nieces are 4 and 11 months, so you can imagine how scrumptious they are! I also was able to do some haircutting while I was there, including fixing my SIL's new mowhawk. I don't generally do many mowhawks on women, but on her, it really looked incredible! I also tried a new recipe yesterday that was healthy, delicious, and it passed the real husband liked it!! YAY! It was a standard chicken piccata sauce, used over bakes fish and veggies. It was super wonderful, and easy. Now I want to try lots of new sauces, because I see what a great way that is to change things up, without breaking the bank. I can use that piccata sauce over chicken or fish, and it's super tasty and so easy. So, I informed hubby that it's a new recipe atleast once a week now. And after last nights trial and win............I think he's excited about the idea.

Today I am going to the local junior college to see if I can qualify for some student loans. I figured there must be something good about being poor! I've got to atleast try. I love school and can think of a dozen things I'd like to study. So, may as well give it a try.

Look at that little lovely, I could just snuggle her for eternity.

Sweet, budding morning glory I saw on my walk this morning.

Light to brighten my day.

After I go to the junior college I am bringing my grandpa over for some potato/cheese soup with cornbread, and I'm giving him a pedicure. I don't spend as much time with him as I'd like to, so this will be a great opportunity to chat and get some quality g-pa time in. He has dementia, so his memory is hit and miss. But every once in awhile I get some good stories out of him. ( Especially if I give him a beer or two!)

Well, I hope you all have a great day. Looks like this week will be lovely. It's already started to cool down here pretty significantly. The leaves are falling and it's almost spooky time!!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 9/26/2012 11:32AM

    Aw sounds like you had a nice week and time with your nieces! Good luck with school!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MIAJOEB 9/26/2012 12:30AM

    Yes, take advantage of the possibility of educational assistance..
Or you could be like me and take all art classes and ... I am now a retiree who washes dishes because I did not make enough when I was younger....
The good thing is I do it in a school and get to smile at kids for two hours...
everything has its compensations....

Report Inappropriate Comment
KAI_ZEN 9/25/2012 11:53AM

    Gorgeous pictures! Thanks!

Report Inappropriate Comment
RIDMYCOCOON 9/24/2012 7:03PM

    Sounds like a really nice weekend! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
HIPPICHICK1 9/24/2012 2:03PM

    Sounds like a fab weekend!
I hope you get what you want out of college and Grandpa!
emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
VALERIEMAHA 9/24/2012 1:32PM

    What wonderful weekend *stuff* and goings-on...there's so much about this entry that I LOVE...and I hope you weaseled some story-telling out of gramps too!

YES! I highly recommend doing the school "thang" if you can work it out on the $$$ side of things. It's life-affirming on so many levels.

Report Inappropriate Comment
BEARGODDESS 9/24/2012 1:27PM

    Lovely pictures! I'm so glad that you had such a nice weekend spent with people you love! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
DRAK416 9/24/2012 1:21PM


Report Inappropriate Comment


Thursday, September 20, 2012

I restarted my goals, goal weight, fast breaks goals, everything. I was wondering why my nutrition page was not calculating the calories I needed to eat, then I realized that when I was pregnant I changed all my goals to healthy lifestyle, not weight loss mode. Sooooo, I'm back on track, officially. I'm really glad to have sorted all that out. As of today I am on a year long path to reach my goal weight. I hope I don't stop, no matter what happens. I would love to be looking back a year from now, and be a few sizes smaller, not to mention stronger and healthier. I hope I don't have trouble sticking to my calorie intake! I am set from 1250-1550. I've been eating at about 1400-1600 these last few days. My fit mins are set at 800 calories burned per week, which I've been doing atleast twice that. So, I guess it will all even out, maybe I can slow the fitness down a bit, and curb the calories a bit. We'll see. I'd like to exercise more and eat more.........but I guess that is not the ideal way to reach my goals. When I read The Spark, I calculated on my own that I needed to burn 200 calories per day and eat 1400/day in order to average 1-2 pound loss/week. But I've seen already that if I don't eat the right combo of calories, or not enough for breakfast, I can get really hungry at night. Which is always a very bad thing for me. I am a HUGE nighttime muncher. So I have to find a way to burn steady, and fuel smart. I know it is an equation that will take time to tweak. One day at a time, I'm sure I'll be able to figure what works right for me. What I realized is, as I loose weight, all my calorie in/out equations will change, based on what I weigh. Sooooo, I guess it really is one day at a time!

Do you guys rely on the SP calculators to determine this equation for you? Do you do the suggested calories burned, or do you do more? Less? And calorie intake? Does the suggested set up work for you, or do you calculate your own numbers? I'd like to know from those of you that have had some success what your opinions/experiences are on this?

Time to reasearch!
Have a great evening!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

ILIKECACTI 9/21/2012 11:04PM

    I'm trying to find the balance still too. I also get really hungry- which is not a problem durign the day when I'm busy, but a real problem when I'm home in the evenings. In all honestly I have not been diligent enough in anything to find what works and what doesn't- except that eating too much doesn't help weight loss- that I know from alot of experience, hehe.

Report Inappropriate Comment
ME_HERE_NOW 9/21/2012 6:42PM

    keep working to find the balance that is right for you, to keep you fueled and satisfied. spark on sista!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
RED-INK56 9/21/2012 1:33PM

    I'm still trying to figure out what's what with exercise and calorie intake for me. I do know that my eating and *not* exercising isn't working! emoticon But with getting support from my emoticon s, I know I'll find my way. Just have to emoticon

I love your background quote, by the way! So true!

emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
SIRENSONGS 9/20/2012 10:35PM

    It's a tricky thing to get the right combination that works for you. I'm still tweaking, but I think I'm just about there. Right now my calories are set for 1200-1550 a day, and my calories burned per week are set at 3000, but I usually burn more, and sometimes I eat less than 1200 (which I know is not good). My weight loss per week varies between 1-5 pounds, with a few weeks of no loss. The lower my weight gets, the harder it will be to lose, I know, but I haven't quite reached that point yet. Also, things tend to go wonky around my time of the month. The main thing is that I haven't GAINED any weight back at any of my weigh ins. Not yet anyways. I'm keeping my fingers crossed...
I used to be a nighttime eater too, but for the past little while don't get hungry after dinner any more. I don't know why that is, but I hope it lasts! I hope you figure out what works best for you soon! I know it can be frustrating to work things out, and someitmes you have to keep frequently changing your ranges in order to keep seeing progress. Good luck, and if there's anything I can do to help, let me know!

Report Inappropriate Comment
BEARGODDESS 9/20/2012 8:06PM

    I have my calories set at between 1200 to 1550 calories, but have to stay in between that. My calories which need to be burned are 1350 a week, but in order to lose, I need to burn TWICE that amount. I'm over 50 though and in menopause and it's a little harder for us to lose at this age. If I vary from this I don't lose or gain. When I did what I've written above, I lost 2 pounds a week. I think you'll need to hear from the ladies closer to your age to get a better opinion of what you need.

Report Inappropriate Comment


Wednesday, September 19, 2012

I put off coming back to SP for a about a month or so longer than I really had to. I was scared to fail again, and embarrassed to have "given up". After just over a week back, I really don't know what took me so long. It is never too soon to be happy. I really haven't pushed myself in any area this week. I'm not starving, I'm not running till I drop. I'm just doing what I feel is right and it's working already. I lost 6 pounds this first week. Now, I know that water weight.....teamed with being on (and now off) my period have a lot to do with the situation. But I haven't lost weight since I stopped logging on to SP 5 months ago. And suddenly, after a week on here, I loose 6 pounds. It seems pretty clear that I need all the things this community offers in order to reach my healthy lifestyle goals.

I was talkng on the phone last night to my best freind, and had no concept of time during the conversation. I ended up walking 3 miles, and burning 400 calories, without even noticing. So I think I might start calling friends while I'm walking more often. It is a really nice way to pass the time.

I had the best Swai fish the other night. It was lightly breaded in panko bread crumbs, seasoned with lemon pepper, salt, pepper and dill and lightly fried in a teaspoon of olive oil. It was so great, so fast and so simple. I loved it. I think it tasted better than fried chicken, and I LOVE fried chicken! What I liked is it wasn't swimming in oil, I used just enough to help brown the outsides, and help it not stick to the pan. If I had a cooking spray, I would have used that instead. It is truly awesome how I become what I surround myself with. Just logging on here each day, and reading a few blogs and articles has helped me see how little changes here and there really add up and help to create the blanced life I've been craving for more years than I can count.

Thanks to my dear friend Hippichick, I have a really delicious sounding new granola recipe to try out. I've been on a granola kick, but have been buying store bought. By making her recipe I will be doing myself such a HUGE favor nutritionally and I'm sure taste wise also. I'm actually really looking into making more and more items, sauces, seasonings, anything really, from scratch. I've eaten out, and bought prepared items long enough to realize that homemade is ALWAYS better. I just have to do a little readjusting in my head about how taking the time to make it from scratch is not wasting time, or hard, but rather adding so much to my life. I've had the working girl's mindset for 13 years now.........just throwing this, that and the other together because I'm too tired to make quality. Well the reality is, with a little forethought, and batch cooking, there is no reason to ever eat sub par quality due to time/energy restraints. I have 2.5 days off per week. That is plenty of time to plan meals and batch cook. I just have to realize the importance of doing these things, and put my nutritional needs above my lazy/entertainment/any other distraction needs.

Well, as usual, my blogs are more of a clearing of my mind process than anything else. I wish I wrote those motivating blogs that give hope and inspiration to others. I guess once I've had lasting success I will be more into that. For now it's still such a learning process. I use my blog time as a way to monitor the journey.

Cheers to us, may we all make healthy lifestyle choices for the rest of the day.

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

-STARRYEYED- 9/21/2012 11:05PM

    emoticon congrats your the 6 pounds! water weight or not, it must feel great! Fantastic!!!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
ILIKECACTI 9/21/2012 10:59PM

    I'm still trying ot get back on the wagon- I think I've been getting back on the wagon for a couple months now...
I'm also trying to cook more. And I'm not a cook. It's totally a learning process for me right now. And I too am trying to get into the mind set that spending time preparing food is worth it.

Report Inappropriate Comment
RED-INK56 9/21/2012 1:27PM

    emoticon Have to laugh - I use my blogs as brain-dumps too! I call it visceral vomit. emoticon (I love alliteration!) I live alone and don't talk to a lot of people since I was laid off earlier this year (however, my cat Tulie is a *very* good listener!). Being able to use my blog as a journal of sorts is very helpful.

I found your cooking comments quite inspirational! I too would eat either frozen entrees or tinned food rather than actually cooking. Now I want to improve my eating habits and not eat so much processed food, so learning to cook is key!

I've never heard of Swai fish...what is it? And would you mind sending me that granola recipe? Store-bought has so much junk in it, I'd like to learn how to make it myself. Getting a proven recipe would help! emoticon

emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
HIPPICHICK1 9/21/2012 10:21AM

    Batch cooking ROCKS!! Enjoy the granola.
emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
HICKOK-HALEY 9/20/2012 11:49AM

    Glad your back on track, and congrats to the weight loss. Keep it at a steady pace. Talking with friends is always a treat, but I would like to offer a challenge. Do you have a camera? While your walking take pictures of what ever you find interesting then put the pics in a blog. You don't have to be an expert at taking pictures. I would enjoy seeing your neck of the woods!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MRS_EVA_K 9/20/2012 8:41AM

    seeing success is motivational, don't ever doubt that. The best is seeing little things that will build over time and stick with you.


Report Inappropriate Comment
BLESSEDBEING 9/19/2012 10:18PM

    So happy you are experiencing success! That in itself is extremely motivating: it feels good to make progress and know that you are treating yourself in nurturing, loving ways! emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
MIAJOEB 9/19/2012 5:48PM

    Well I am enjoying reading your blog. So keep it up.
I need people who understand my obsession with getting into a size 12.... I am a size 16 right now... I just want a waste. no I mean a waist

Comment edited on: 9/19/2012 5:48:57 PM

Report Inappropriate Comment
SIRENSONGS 9/19/2012 4:05PM

    Just so you know, I found reading this blog inspiring, and I hope you write more! It is inspiring just to hear how effective Sparkpeople can be in your life. Six pounds in one week is amazing, water weight or not! This website really is helpful, and combined with your determination, it's a winning combination towards success!

I know what you mean about home cooking. It truly is better. I'm not much of a cook, and for the most part I hate cooking, but I find that the healthier I am trying to become, the more I am actually starting to appreciate it. The results are almost always so much better for you, and there is something satisfying about eating what you have made yourself. Also, your blog gave me a huge seafood craving, so I'm glad that is what's already planned on the menu at my house tonight! :)

Report Inappropriate Comment
BEARGODDESS 9/19/2012 3:23PM

    "You are what you surround yourself with" is something I've been telling people for years now. (What?! I didn't make that up? ;)) I've tried different diets for many years now and it wasn't until I came here and added SUPPORT and friends in like circumstances who I could talk to anytime, that it started to work for me.
The fish and the granola sound yummy!

Report Inappropriate Comment
RIDMYCOCOON 9/19/2012 2:14PM

    Hippichick always makes granola sound yummy! I hope you enjoy it too!!! emoticon

ps I always find your blogs inspire!

Comment edited on: 9/19/2012 2:21:25 PM

Report Inappropriate Comment

When reality hits

Monday, September 17, 2012

So after I got done patting myself on the back for knocking 8 minutes off of yesterdays bike ride time............I realized we do have a scale. I thought we lost it during the move. But alas, it is sitting in the bathroom. So all excited and pumped from my ride, I hopped onto it, hoping to be pleasantly surprised. Well, no such luck. What I thought had been a ten pound loss/plateau, turned out to be a ten pound gain. I weighed at a friends house a week ago, and thought it read ten pounds lighter than mine did today. Either I gained ten pounds this week, or I read her scale wrong. Either way, I am exactly where I was a year ago when I first found SP. So, another win/lose day. I don't know exactly how I am going to manage the scale issue. I was a bit happier when I thought we didn't have one. But now, of course, I will most likely be weighing too often, because I am a bit addicted to seeing the exact weight......every few days. I don't know if I can break myself of it or not. I know that are sooooooo many things more important than the number on that scale. But in my mind, it is such a large number, I just fixate on wanting it to go down.

On a lighter note, I was able to relieve my nighttime sweetooth cravings with half a cup of greek yogurt, a tsp. of honey and some fresh sliced strawberries! And I still have a 100 calories left to be in range.............I am just about dead center of my range today. So, I guess today wasn't really too bad. A little disapointing, but we all have to face reality in order to rearange it into the shape we want.

I did manage to get 20-30 fit mins in everday this week, along with some ST mins also, which is really good. And I can feel it all over my body. My arms and legs are slightly sore, not bad sore, just noticeably used! I think for my first week back I've done well. Nothing too crazy. I've been consistent...........with exercise atleast. Today was my first day tracking food, and of course, I was blown away with the actual calories of what I ate, versus what I thought I was eating. Eating out always bites me in the booty. So much better to cook at home where I can control the quality of the fats/oils/dressings/meats/grains etc., and of course can count the calories as I add them in appropriate portions to my plate. I do remember though, after awhile of measuring things everday at home, I was able to eat out and "eyeball" portions a little better. Of course it's not dead on accurate, but better than just eating till my guts explode, like I've done most of my life.

I've really enjoyed roaming the SP site today and seeing just how many free tools and articles there really are on here. It really blows my mind that all of this is free. I mean, I've bought two copies of The Spark, and one copy of The Sparkpeople Cookbook. But other than that, everything has been free, and it's just really, really mind boggling to me. The plethora of activities that go on in SP are just amazing. I plan on spending more and more time exploring all the little nooks and crannies on here until I have a more solid footing on my healthy daily program. I am most worried about my eating habits. I was raised in a really health conscious environment, and was a vegetarian until I was 12. My Dad also had his degree in nutrition. But I married a MAJOR junk food junkie, and went down his wild path to destruction for nearly 9 years now. I always eat more fruit, veg , whole grains and salad than he does. But it's been a battle. Not only is he a junk food nut, but he is also from the fried food capital of the world, Georgia..........gravies and chicken fried everything. That man would eat BBQ anything with a side of french fries every meal for the rest of his life. So, we've battled, we've bantered, and now, it's ME time. I don't expect him to want to change his ways, but I am surely going to change mine. I have to, because I know better, and I'm cheating myself each and everyday I don't do what I know is right for me.

Whoa, didn't see that rant coming! Felt kinda good! Hope you all have a great night. I'll probably chat at you tomorrow. Bye!

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

RIDMYCOCOON 9/19/2012 2:24PM

    Hang in there! and keep sparking' things will develop a momentum. Yesterday was yesterday, last are doing awesome Today! emoticon There is a rockstar in you rockin' it at every little steppie. Keep it up!!! Woop-woop! emoticon

Comment edited on: 9/19/2012 2:25:58 PM

Report Inappropriate Comment
-STARRYEYED- 9/18/2012 8:36PM

    I am voting to ignore the scale & continue with your great fitness. I am like you with weighing - I would also find myself thinking about it all the time. I finally broke myself of weighing by making DH hide it. He had to be present for weigh ins (about every month). After about 10 months, I found that I can now weigh at the gym as often as I want but not think about it (too much) after I'm off the scale. It is indeed just a number. If you find it stressful to weigh, limit scale time until you feel at peace. This spark journey is about long term changes and feeling stressed out about the scale may make it harder for you. (((hugs))) I'm so glad you ranted and that you're leading your family in a healthier direction. Your DH doesn't have to follow but I bet he'll eat more freggies simply by living in the same house with you.

emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
ILIKECACTI 9/17/2012 11:26PM

    We all need to rant from time to time! Good luck with the healthy healthing.... it's an uphill battle for me- still working on it!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MIAJOEB 9/17/2012 6:58PM

    Looks as if you are on your way to figuring out what is best for you.'
So proud you did not let a little set back, knock you off track.
I will keep stopping by because you inspire me .... to do the things that need to be done.
and when you are talking about weighing... I hear myself and it sounds ... ( sorry) silly coming from you but that is what I am saying to myself too...
Great Blog

Report Inappropriate Comment
BEARGODDESS 9/17/2012 9:21AM

    I've been here for awhile now too and didn't see ANY weight loss until I started to use the food tracker religiously. It really is amazing how much, for instance, a sandwich roll can take up calorie-wise! I've really learned that motion and calorie tracking are indispensable tools to help with weight loss. Don't feel too bad about the disparity in your weigh-in though; I gained back a few pounds that I lost recently too and I know that it was from eating on the waaay high end of my calorie allotment. As for the scale; maybe you can lock it up somewhere where it's harder to get to? Like the trunk of your car or a storage space at the apartment? It really isn't good to get too obsessed with the scale!
It sounds like you're coming back on track with good ideas and a good plan though. Great start with your work outs!
emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment

First Page  1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 Last Page