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Thursday, September 20, 2012

I restarted my goals, goal weight, fast breaks goals, everything. I was wondering why my nutrition page was not calculating the calories I needed to eat, then I realized that when I was pregnant I changed all my goals to healthy lifestyle, not weight loss mode. Sooooo, I'm back on track, officially. I'm really glad to have sorted all that out. As of today I am on a year long path to reach my goal weight. I hope I don't stop, no matter what happens. I would love to be looking back a year from now, and be a few sizes smaller, not to mention stronger and healthier. I hope I don't have trouble sticking to my calorie intake! I am set from 1250-1550. I've been eating at about 1400-1600 these last few days. My fit mins are set at 800 calories burned per week, which I've been doing atleast twice that. So, I guess it will all even out, maybe I can slow the fitness down a bit, and curb the calories a bit. We'll see. I'd like to exercise more and eat more.........but I guess that is not the ideal way to reach my goals. When I read The Spark, I calculated on my own that I needed to burn 200 calories per day and eat 1400/day in order to average 1-2 pound loss/week. But I've seen already that if I don't eat the right combo of calories, or not enough for breakfast, I can get really hungry at night. Which is always a very bad thing for me. I am a HUGE nighttime muncher. So I have to find a way to burn steady, and fuel smart. I know it is an equation that will take time to tweak. One day at a time, I'm sure I'll be able to figure what works right for me. What I realized is, as I loose weight, all my calorie in/out equations will change, based on what I weigh. Sooooo, I guess it really is one day at a time!

Do you guys rely on the SP calculators to determine this equation for you? Do you do the suggested calories burned, or do you do more? Less? And calorie intake? Does the suggested set up work for you, or do you calculate your own numbers? I'd like to know from those of you that have had some success what your opinions/experiences are on this?

Time to reasearch!
Have a great evening!

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ILIKECACTI 9/21/2012 11:04PM

    I'm trying to find the balance still too. I also get really hungry- which is not a problem durign the day when I'm busy, but a real problem when I'm home in the evenings. In all honestly I have not been diligent enough in anything to find what works and what doesn't- except that eating too much doesn't help weight loss- that I know from alot of experience, hehe.

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ME_HERE_NOW 9/21/2012 6:42PM

    keep working to find the balance that is right for you, to keep you fueled and satisfied. spark on sista!!

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RED-INK56 9/21/2012 1:33PM

    I'm still trying to figure out what's what with exercise and calorie intake for me. I do know that my eating and *not* exercising isn't working! emoticon But with getting support from my emoticon s, I know I'll find my way. Just have to emoticon

I love your background quote, by the way! So true!

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SIRENSONGS 9/20/2012 10:35PM

    It's a tricky thing to get the right combination that works for you. I'm still tweaking, but I think I'm just about there. Right now my calories are set for 1200-1550 a day, and my calories burned per week are set at 3000, but I usually burn more, and sometimes I eat less than 1200 (which I know is not good). My weight loss per week varies between 1-5 pounds, with a few weeks of no loss. The lower my weight gets, the harder it will be to lose, I know, but I haven't quite reached that point yet. Also, things tend to go wonky around my time of the month. The main thing is that I haven't GAINED any weight back at any of my weigh ins. Not yet anyways. I'm keeping my fingers crossed...
I used to be a nighttime eater too, but for the past little while don't get hungry after dinner any more. I don't know why that is, but I hope it lasts! I hope you figure out what works best for you soon! I know it can be frustrating to work things out, and someitmes you have to keep frequently changing your ranges in order to keep seeing progress. Good luck, and if there's anything I can do to help, let me know!

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BEARGODDESS 9/20/2012 8:06PM

    I have my calories set at between 1200 to 1550 calories, but have to stay in between that. My calories which need to be burned are 1350 a week, but in order to lose, I need to burn TWICE that amount. I'm over 50 though and in menopause and it's a little harder for us to lose at this age. If I vary from this I don't lose or gain. When I did what I've written above, I lost 2 pounds a week. I think you'll need to hear from the ladies closer to your age to get a better opinion of what you need.

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Wednesday, September 19, 2012

I put off coming back to SP for a about a month or so longer than I really had to. I was scared to fail again, and embarrassed to have "given up". After just over a week back, I really don't know what took me so long. It is never too soon to be happy. I really haven't pushed myself in any area this week. I'm not starving, I'm not running till I drop. I'm just doing what I feel is right and it's working already. I lost 6 pounds this first week. Now, I know that water weight.....teamed with being on (and now off) my period have a lot to do with the situation. But I haven't lost weight since I stopped logging on to SP 5 months ago. And suddenly, after a week on here, I loose 6 pounds. It seems pretty clear that I need all the things this community offers in order to reach my healthy lifestyle goals.

I was talkng on the phone last night to my best freind, and had no concept of time during the conversation. I ended up walking 3 miles, and burning 400 calories, without even noticing. So I think I might start calling friends while I'm walking more often. It is a really nice way to pass the time.

I had the best Swai fish the other night. It was lightly breaded in panko bread crumbs, seasoned with lemon pepper, salt, pepper and dill and lightly fried in a teaspoon of olive oil. It was so great, so fast and so simple. I loved it. I think it tasted better than fried chicken, and I LOVE fried chicken! What I liked is it wasn't swimming in oil, I used just enough to help brown the outsides, and help it not stick to the pan. If I had a cooking spray, I would have used that instead. It is truly awesome how I become what I surround myself with. Just logging on here each day, and reading a few blogs and articles has helped me see how little changes here and there really add up and help to create the blanced life I've been craving for more years than I can count.

Thanks to my dear friend Hippichick, I have a really delicious sounding new granola recipe to try out. I've been on a granola kick, but have been buying store bought. By making her recipe I will be doing myself such a HUGE favor nutritionally and I'm sure taste wise also. I'm actually really looking into making more and more items, sauces, seasonings, anything really, from scratch. I've eaten out, and bought prepared items long enough to realize that homemade is ALWAYS better. I just have to do a little readjusting in my head about how taking the time to make it from scratch is not wasting time, or hard, but rather adding so much to my life. I've had the working girl's mindset for 13 years now.........just throwing this, that and the other together because I'm too tired to make quality. Well the reality is, with a little forethought, and batch cooking, there is no reason to ever eat sub par quality due to time/energy restraints. I have 2.5 days off per week. That is plenty of time to plan meals and batch cook. I just have to realize the importance of doing these things, and put my nutritional needs above my lazy/entertainment/any other distraction needs.

Well, as usual, my blogs are more of a clearing of my mind process than anything else. I wish I wrote those motivating blogs that give hope and inspiration to others. I guess once I've had lasting success I will be more into that. For now it's still such a learning process. I use my blog time as a way to monitor the journey.

Cheers to us, may we all make healthy lifestyle choices for the rest of the day.

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-STARRYEYED- 9/21/2012 11:05PM

    emoticon congrats your the 6 pounds! water weight or not, it must feel great! Fantastic!!!!

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ILIKECACTI 9/21/2012 10:59PM

    I'm still trying ot get back on the wagon- I think I've been getting back on the wagon for a couple months now...
I'm also trying to cook more. And I'm not a cook. It's totally a learning process for me right now. And I too am trying to get into the mind set that spending time preparing food is worth it.

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RED-INK56 9/21/2012 1:27PM

    emoticon Have to laugh - I use my blogs as brain-dumps too! I call it visceral vomit. emoticon (I love alliteration!) I live alone and don't talk to a lot of people since I was laid off earlier this year (however, my cat Tulie is a *very* good listener!). Being able to use my blog as a journal of sorts is very helpful.

I found your cooking comments quite inspirational! I too would eat either frozen entrees or tinned food rather than actually cooking. Now I want to improve my eating habits and not eat so much processed food, so learning to cook is key!

I've never heard of Swai fish...what is it? And would you mind sending me that granola recipe? Store-bought has so much junk in it, I'd like to learn how to make it myself. Getting a proven recipe would help! emoticon

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HIPPICHICK1 9/21/2012 10:21AM

    Batch cooking ROCKS!! Enjoy the granola.
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HICKOK-HALEY 9/20/2012 11:49AM

    Glad your back on track, and congrats to the weight loss. Keep it at a steady pace. Talking with friends is always a treat, but I would like to offer a challenge. Do you have a camera? While your walking take pictures of what ever you find interesting then put the pics in a blog. You don't have to be an expert at taking pictures. I would enjoy seeing your neck of the woods!

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MRS_EVA_K 9/20/2012 8:41AM

    seeing success is motivational, don't ever doubt that. The best is seeing little things that will build over time and stick with you.


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BLESSEDBEING 9/19/2012 10:18PM

    So happy you are experiencing success! That in itself is extremely motivating: it feels good to make progress and know that you are treating yourself in nurturing, loving ways! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MIAJOEB 9/19/2012 5:48PM

    Well I am enjoying reading your blog. So keep it up.
I need people who understand my obsession with getting into a size 12.... I am a size 16 right now... I just want a waste. no I mean a waist

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SIRENSONGS 9/19/2012 4:05PM

    Just so you know, I found reading this blog inspiring, and I hope you write more! It is inspiring just to hear how effective Sparkpeople can be in your life. Six pounds in one week is amazing, water weight or not! This website really is helpful, and combined with your determination, it's a winning combination towards success!

I know what you mean about home cooking. It truly is better. I'm not much of a cook, and for the most part I hate cooking, but I find that the healthier I am trying to become, the more I am actually starting to appreciate it. The results are almost always so much better for you, and there is something satisfying about eating what you have made yourself. Also, your blog gave me a huge seafood craving, so I'm glad that is what's already planned on the menu at my house tonight! :)

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BEARGODDESS 9/19/2012 3:23PM

    "You are what you surround yourself with" is something I've been telling people for years now. (What?! I didn't make that up? ;)) I've tried different diets for many years now and it wasn't until I came here and added SUPPORT and friends in like circumstances who I could talk to anytime, that it started to work for me.
The fish and the granola sound yummy!

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RIDMYCOCOON 9/19/2012 2:14PM

    Hippichick always makes granola sound yummy! I hope you enjoy it too!!! emoticon

ps I always find your blogs inspire!

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When reality hits

Monday, September 17, 2012

So after I got done patting myself on the back for knocking 8 minutes off of yesterdays bike ride time............I realized we do have a scale. I thought we lost it during the move. But alas, it is sitting in the bathroom. So all excited and pumped from my ride, I hopped onto it, hoping to be pleasantly surprised. Well, no such luck. What I thought had been a ten pound loss/plateau, turned out to be a ten pound gain. I weighed at a friends house a week ago, and thought it read ten pounds lighter than mine did today. Either I gained ten pounds this week, or I read her scale wrong. Either way, I am exactly where I was a year ago when I first found SP. So, another win/lose day. I don't know exactly how I am going to manage the scale issue. I was a bit happier when I thought we didn't have one. But now, of course, I will most likely be weighing too often, because I am a bit addicted to seeing the exact weight......every few days. I don't know if I can break myself of it or not. I know that are sooooooo many things more important than the number on that scale. But in my mind, it is such a large number, I just fixate on wanting it to go down.

On a lighter note, I was able to relieve my nighttime sweetooth cravings with half a cup of greek yogurt, a tsp. of honey and some fresh sliced strawberries! And I still have a 100 calories left to be in range.............I am just about dead center of my range today. So, I guess today wasn't really too bad. A little disapointing, but we all have to face reality in order to rearange it into the shape we want.

I did manage to get 20-30 fit mins in everday this week, along with some ST mins also, which is really good. And I can feel it all over my body. My arms and legs are slightly sore, not bad sore, just noticeably used! I think for my first week back I've done well. Nothing too crazy. I've been consistent...........with exercise atleast. Today was my first day tracking food, and of course, I was blown away with the actual calories of what I ate, versus what I thought I was eating. Eating out always bites me in the booty. So much better to cook at home where I can control the quality of the fats/oils/dressings/meats/grains etc., and of course can count the calories as I add them in appropriate portions to my plate. I do remember though, after awhile of measuring things everday at home, I was able to eat out and "eyeball" portions a little better. Of course it's not dead on accurate, but better than just eating till my guts explode, like I've done most of my life.

I've really enjoyed roaming the SP site today and seeing just how many free tools and articles there really are on here. It really blows my mind that all of this is free. I mean, I've bought two copies of The Spark, and one copy of The Sparkpeople Cookbook. But other than that, everything has been free, and it's just really, really mind boggling to me. The plethora of activities that go on in SP are just amazing. I plan on spending more and more time exploring all the little nooks and crannies on here until I have a more solid footing on my healthy daily program. I am most worried about my eating habits. I was raised in a really health conscious environment, and was a vegetarian until I was 12. My Dad also had his degree in nutrition. But I married a MAJOR junk food junkie, and went down his wild path to destruction for nearly 9 years now. I always eat more fruit, veg , whole grains and salad than he does. But it's been a battle. Not only is he a junk food nut, but he is also from the fried food capital of the world, Georgia..........gravies and chicken fried everything. That man would eat BBQ anything with a side of french fries every meal for the rest of his life. So, we've battled, we've bantered, and now, it's ME time. I don't expect him to want to change his ways, but I am surely going to change mine. I have to, because I know better, and I'm cheating myself each and everyday I don't do what I know is right for me.

Whoa, didn't see that rant coming! Felt kinda good! Hope you all have a great night. I'll probably chat at you tomorrow. Bye!

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RIDMYCOCOON 9/19/2012 2:24PM

    Hang in there! and keep sparking' things will develop a momentum. Yesterday was yesterday, last are doing awesome Today! emoticon There is a rockstar in you rockin' it at every little steppie. Keep it up!!! Woop-woop! emoticon

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-STARRYEYED- 9/18/2012 8:36PM

    I am voting to ignore the scale & continue with your great fitness. I am like you with weighing - I would also find myself thinking about it all the time. I finally broke myself of weighing by making DH hide it. He had to be present for weigh ins (about every month). After about 10 months, I found that I can now weigh at the gym as often as I want but not think about it (too much) after I'm off the scale. It is indeed just a number. If you find it stressful to weigh, limit scale time until you feel at peace. This spark journey is about long term changes and feeling stressed out about the scale may make it harder for you. (((hugs))) I'm so glad you ranted and that you're leading your family in a healthier direction. Your DH doesn't have to follow but I bet he'll eat more freggies simply by living in the same house with you.

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ILIKECACTI 9/17/2012 11:26PM

    We all need to rant from time to time! Good luck with the healthy healthing.... it's an uphill battle for me- still working on it!

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MIAJOEB 9/17/2012 6:58PM

    Looks as if you are on your way to figuring out what is best for you.'
So proud you did not let a little set back, knock you off track.
I will keep stopping by because you inspire me .... to do the things that need to be done.
and when you are talking about weighing... I hear myself and it sounds ... ( sorry) silly coming from you but that is what I am saying to myself too...
Great Blog

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BEARGODDESS 9/17/2012 9:21AM

    I've been here for awhile now too and didn't see ANY weight loss until I started to use the food tracker religiously. It really is amazing how much, for instance, a sandwich roll can take up calorie-wise! I've really learned that motion and calorie tracking are indispensable tools to help with weight loss. Don't feel too bad about the disparity in your weigh-in though; I gained back a few pounds that I lost recently too and I know that it was from eating on the waaay high end of my calorie allotment. As for the scale; maybe you can lock it up somewhere where it's harder to get to? Like the trunk of your car or a storage space at the apartment? It really isn't good to get too obsessed with the scale!
It sounds like you're coming back on track with good ideas and a good plan though. Great start with your work outs!
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I'm in love....

Saturday, September 15, 2012

I've said it before and I'll say it again............maybe this time it will stick in my mind. Exercise is the very best mood enhancer in the world! This is my Friday, by this time on Saturday evenings I am often dead to the world.........having been dead for hours by now. I usually take a nap after work...........and then to bed early. Right now, after my 4 mile bike ride, I feel better than I did when I woke up this morning! I really, really, REALLY hope I don't forget how great this feels. Even if I didn't loose any weight, the energy boost/mood elevation is truly enough of a reason to exercise everyday. I think it is fun to decide what kind of exercises to do each day. Just in this week, I've walked, jogged and biked, with joy. Now, mind you, I'm not going fast, or very far, burning less than 250 calories each day. But I've been happily consistant, and for this I am proud. Yeah, I said it PROUD! Also, I don't have a scale, so I can't drive myself mad each day by weighing first thing in the morning. Now, I guess I'll go with how I feel, and how my clothes fit.

So, tonight, I'm in love with my choices this week............namely the big choice to come back to SP and do my best this week. One thing I remember from my early sparking days was that consistant little moves, can lead to consistant bigger moves. A ten minute walk toady, can lead to a 45 minute walk in a month or so, and little healthy choices today can lead to big healthy choices tomorrow. So for today, I'm in love with all the little healthy choices I've made. I know this euphoria wears out, I know the monotony sets in, but for today, I'm not worried about that, for today, I'm so glad to be putting me first. The happier, and healthier I am, the better wife, daughter, sister, employee and friend I can be. No one can take these actions for me, and decisions to be healthy now, will greatly affect my future.............and my present. So, hip-hip-and-a-cheerio for consistant, small, important changes.

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ILIKECACTI 9/17/2012 11:38PM

    You've got a great attitude! I'm trying to get back in the swing of the little things right now :)

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TEMPERANCE88 9/16/2012 5:06PM

    Love you attitude! You can do it!

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CUDDLEY51 9/16/2012 1:18AM

    Welcome back! Love your positive attitude and revitalized spirit!

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MIAJOEB 9/16/2012 1:00AM

    We are heading in the same direction...
I did a water aerobic workout yesterday morning and my regular half hour last evening and I feel wonderful "darling" !

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-STARRYEYED- 9/15/2012 11:59PM

    Way to go! Love the blog & your energy. And monotony doesn't have to set in. Do you what you've done this week: variety! A new exercise not only interests the brain, it challenges the body and burns more calories. woot de woot! Way to go and good luck with your exercise. Let me know if I can help you on your journey. Tomorrow is my 1 year anniversary of resparking. Like you, I sparked before but my longest run was 8 months or so. This time I haven't been worried about quitting - mainly because I'm so involved in the sparkteams & I keep my fitness goals interesting. I know you can do it!!! emoticon

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NANCYRUBIO 9/15/2012 11:32PM

    You are so right, exercise is a mood enchaner. It releases endorphins which mskre you feel this way!

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BEARGODDESS 9/15/2012 11:32PM

    What a great attitude! It's true, I've never come back from a walk in the woods or a session of strength training or a swim in the pool and said; "Boy, I sure do regret that!" Lol! But for some reason it can be hard to remember sometimes just how GOOD you felt afterwards. You and I are a lot alike in that I try to get in something every day even if it might seem small. I'll do two or three small walks or one hour long hike in the woods, and at least it's forming a habit. I weigh myself just once a week and if I haven't been working out alot or I've gone a little over my calories, I'll wait an extra week to weigh myself.

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Ground zero

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Woweee, a 30 minute brisk walk last night lead to SORE legs today!! That is pretty weak! But, stronger than being passed out early on the couch. So, I take it as a win/lose. I lost a lot of strength during my 3+ months off from exercising, but I gained a lot by starting now, instead of 3+ months from now.

You know what I missed the most, and didn't even realize I was missing??? The community! I forgot how many morning/evening walker/jogger/bikers we have in this town. Last night, as their paths crossed mine, I was reminded of what great feelings I had when I first joined their society. The outside exercisers sociey of Woodland! Funny that something so small makes me so happy!! I want to be one of those people that exercise eagerly everyday, without having to psyche themselves up each time. I have started on the path to being one of those people, and slid off, maybe this time I'll stick!!!! I am also enjoying the extra water consumption. I forget when I'm not on SP to stick to those 8-12 glasses, it makes such a HUGE difference in the way I feel, and look.

Other than the addition of extra water and a little exercise each day, I've been settling back into work. This is my forth week back after the two month hiatus, and it feels pretty good. A lot can change in two months. I've lost a few clients, but even more seem overjoyed when they see that I'm back. Tim is wavering on the brink of getting back to work, teetering between two job prospects. Both of them over the road driving, which is hard.............but necessary. So, all in all, life is pretty good right now. I really grew a new appreciation for my quaint, little town. There is so much to do here, and it is quite pretty. Last weekend a dear friend took me out to the best live show I've seen in years. It was in the penthouse of the Elks Tower in downtown Sac. The view alone was worth the cover charge. The wine, food and music were great. I've never seen a show in a venue like that, it was small, intimate and lovely. I really enjoyed it. This area of the state is packed with fun things to do, you just have to get out there and do it!! So, overall, I'm happy to be back. My family is here, my job is here, and I'm comfortable here. I think AZ could have been OK for us, but overall I think this area is a better fit for us, for now. Bloom where you are planted, that is what my Mom says!! Being married to a man with wanderlust...........and having a touch of it myself, makes it hard to just SETTLE, but I think for now we need to, and I am happy to.

I get my bike out of storage tomorrow!! YAY! So excited! Anyone been doing any good workouts on DVD lately? I'm trying to gear up for the rainy season and realize I'm going to need to get a few good workout videos to supplement the ones available on here and the few I have now. I'm going for beginner speed, with enough cardio to keep the sweat flowing, but not enough to make me give up!!! I know that might be too much to ask, but any ideas will help. I've got a walking DVD and a few yoga/pilates DVD's, but other than that, I don't have much.

Cheers to us!!

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 9/17/2012 7:31PM

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HIPPICHICK1 9/14/2012 12:58PM

    You've got your Spark back and it shows!!
Workout DVDs - Well, I have Coach Nicole's 28 Day Bootcamp and do like it, but since I workout in a carpeted area I feel that this DVD just isn't for me. There are more than a few exercises that only work well if you are on a smooth floor, so if you have a tiled or smooth floor with no carpets it might be for you. Read some reviews and if you want it I will be happy to sell it to you for a few bucks less than I paid. I'll mail it at no extra charge. Send me a personal message if you're interested.
I love Jillian Micheal's No More Trouble Zones and The 30 Day Shred. They show modifications for beginners in both and those work outs will make you sweat and probably swear too!
I have Misty Tripoli's Body Groove DVDs too and like them a lot but haven't used them in a while, so I'll refrain from giving you a wordy review of them since my memory of doing the workouts is hazy, but positive.
I actually prefer walking outdoors most and swimming too, but for now swimming season is over. Walking is nicer because of the cooler temperatures, but when the rain comes I like to work out indoors too.

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MIAJOEB 9/13/2012 11:31PM

    I love downtown Sacramento.. My son and his wife live there and we are having dinner with him Saturday. He is having home tour on Sunday.

There are a lot of really good videos here at spark..
Check them out and get spark points...
I will keep track of your progress.. keep on Sparking... emoticon

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VALERIEMAHA 9/13/2012 9:39PM

    I love Kathy Smith's Lift Weights to Lose Weight -- 20 min. upper body, 20 min. lower, and 5 min. on abs.

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KAYE454 9/13/2012 9:03PM

  work into walking slowly

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