Monday, September 17, 2012
So after I got done patting myself on the back for knocking 8 minutes off of yesterdays bike ride time............I realized we do have a scale. I thought we lost it during the move. But alas, it is sitting in the bathroom. So all excited and pumped from my ride, I hopped onto it, hoping to be pleasantly surprised. Well, no such luck. What I thought had been a ten pound loss/plateau, turned out to be a ten pound gain. I weighed at a friends house a week ago, and thought it read ten pounds lighter than mine did today. Either I gained ten pounds this week, or I read her scale wrong. Either way, I am exactly where I was a year ago when I first found SP. So, another win/lose day. I don't know exactly how I am going to manage the scale issue. I was a bit happier when I thought we didn't have one. But now, of course, I will most likely be weighing too often, because I am a bit addicted to seeing the exact weight......every few days. I don't know if I can break myself of it or not. I know that are sooooooo many things more important than the number on that scale. But in my mind, it is such a large number, I just fixate on wanting it to go down.
On a lighter note, I was able to relieve my nighttime sweetooth cravings with half a cup of greek yogurt, a tsp. of honey and some fresh sliced strawberries! And I still have a 100 calories left to be in range.............I am just about dead center of my range today. So, I guess today wasn't really too bad. A little disapointing, but we all have to face reality in order to rearange it into the shape we want.
I did manage to get 20-30 fit mins in everday this week, along with some ST mins also, which is really good. And I can feel it all over my body. My arms and legs are slightly sore, not bad sore, just noticeably used! I think for my first week back I've done well. Nothing too crazy. I've been consistent...........with exercise atleast. Today was my first day tracking food, and of course, I was blown away with the actual calories of what I ate, versus what I thought I was eating. Eating out always bites me in the booty. So much better to cook at home where I can control the quality of the fats/oils/dressings/meats/grains etc., and of course can count the calories as I add them in appropriate portions to my plate. I do remember though, after awhile of measuring things everday at home, I was able to eat out and "eyeball" portions a little better. Of course it's not dead on accurate, but better than just eating till my guts explode, like I've done most of my life.
I've really enjoyed roaming the SP site today and seeing just how many free tools and articles there really are on here. It really blows my mind that all of this is free. I mean, I've bought two copies of The Spark, and one copy of The Sparkpeople Cookbook. But other than that, everything has been free, and it's just really, really mind boggling to me. The plethora of activities that go on in SP are just amazing. I plan on spending more and more time exploring all the little nooks and crannies on here until I have a more solid footing on my healthy daily program. I am most worried about my eating habits. I was raised in a really health conscious environment, and was a vegetarian until I was 12. My Dad also had his degree in nutrition. But I married a MAJOR junk food junkie, and went down his wild path to destruction for nearly 9 years now. I always eat more fruit, veg , whole grains and salad than he does. But it's been a battle. Not only is he a junk food nut, but he is also from the fried food capital of the world, Georgia..........gravies and chicken fried everything. That man would eat BBQ anything with a side of french fries every meal for the rest of his life. So, we've battled, we've bantered, and now, it's ME time. I don't expect him to want to change his ways, but I am surely going to change mine. I have to, because I know better, and I'm cheating myself each and everyday I don't do what I know is right for me.
Whoa, didn't see that rant coming! Felt kinda good! Hope you all have a great night. I'll probably chat at you tomorrow. Bye!
Saturday, September 15, 2012
I've said it before and I'll say it again............maybe this time it will stick in my mind. Exercise is the very best mood enhancer in the world! This is my Friday, by this time on Saturday evenings I am often dead to the world.........having been dead for hours by now. I usually take a nap after work...........and then to bed early. Right now, after my 4 mile bike ride, I feel better than I did when I woke up this morning! I really, really, REALLY hope I don't forget how great this feels. Even if I didn't loose any weight, the energy boost/mood elevation is truly enough of a reason to exercise everyday. I think it is fun to decide what kind of exercises to do each day. Just in this week, I've walked, jogged and biked, with joy. Now, mind you, I'm not going fast, or very far, burning less than 250 calories each day. But I've been happily consistant, and for this I am proud. Yeah, I said it PROUD! Also, I don't have a scale, so I can't drive myself mad each day by weighing first thing in the morning. Now, I guess I'll go with how I feel, and how my clothes fit.
So, tonight, I'm in love with my choices this week............namely the big choice to come back to SP and do my best this week. One thing I remember from my early sparking days was that consistant little moves, can lead to consistant bigger moves. A ten minute walk toady, can lead to a 45 minute walk in a month or so, and little healthy choices today can lead to big healthy choices tomorrow. So for today, I'm in love with all the little healthy choices I've made. I know this euphoria wears out, I know the monotony sets in, but for today, I'm not worried about that, for today, I'm so glad to be putting me first. The happier, and healthier I am, the better wife, daughter, sister, employee and friend I can be. No one can take these actions for me, and decisions to be healthy now, will greatly affect my future.............and my present. So, hip-hip-and-a-cheerio for consistant, small, important changes.
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Woweee, a 30 minute brisk walk last night lead to SORE legs today!! That is pretty weak! But, stronger than being passed out early on the couch. So, I take it as a win/lose. I lost a lot of strength during my 3+ months off from exercising, but I gained a lot by starting now, instead of 3+ months from now.
You know what I missed the most, and didn't even realize I was missing??? The community! I forgot how many morning/evening walker/jogger/bikers we have in this town. Last night, as their paths crossed mine, I was reminded of what great feelings I had when I first joined their society. The outside exercisers sociey of Woodland! Funny that something so small makes me so happy!! I want to be one of those people that exercise eagerly everyday, without having to psyche themselves up each time. I have started on the path to being one of those people, and slid off, maybe this time I'll stick!!!! I am also enjoying the extra water consumption. I forget when I'm not on SP to stick to those 8-12 glasses, it makes such a HUGE difference in the way I feel, and look.
Other than the addition of extra water and a little exercise each day, I've been settling back into work. This is my forth week back after the two month hiatus, and it feels pretty good. A lot can change in two months. I've lost a few clients, but even more seem overjoyed when they see that I'm back. Tim is wavering on the brink of getting back to work, teetering between two job prospects. Both of them over the road driving, which is hard.............but necessary. So, all in all, life is pretty good right now. I really grew a new appreciation for my quaint, little town. There is so much to do here, and it is quite pretty. Last weekend a dear friend took me out to the best live show I've seen in years. It was in the penthouse of the Elks Tower in downtown Sac. The view alone was worth the cover charge. The wine, food and music were great. I've never seen a show in a venue like that, it was small, intimate and lovely. I really enjoyed it. This area of the state is packed with fun things to do, you just have to get out there and do it!! So, overall, I'm happy to be back. My family is here, my job is here, and I'm comfortable here. I think AZ could have been OK for us, but overall I think this area is a better fit for us, for now. Bloom where you are planted, that is what my Mom says!! Being married to a man with wanderlust...........and having a touch of it myself, makes it hard to just SETTLE, but I think for now we need to, and I am happy to.
I get my bike out of storage tomorrow!! YAY! So excited! Anyone been doing any good workouts on DVD lately? I'm trying to gear up for the rainy season and realize I'm going to need to get a few good workout videos to supplement the ones available on here and the few I have now. I'm going for beginner speed, with enough cardio to keep the sweat flowing, but not enough to make me give up!!! I know that might be too much to ask, but any ideas will help. I've got a walking DVD and a few yoga/pilates DVD's, but other than that, I don't have much.
Cheers to us!!
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
I started SP just a bit over a year ago. I have met many people on here, and in various parts of my life that have completely transformed their bodies in that amount of time........a few of them losing over 100 pounds. For awhile I let that really get me down, and reinforce my negative self talk. But today, I am not going to do that, today I want to take a minute and retrace the steps I've taken in the last year.
This time last August I found SP and was addicted!! I didn't stop for about three months. In that time I lost over 20 pounds and felt great! I met lots of wonderful people on here and felt for the first time in my life that I could really achieve my health goals. I did things I never thought I'd do, never even knew I wanted to do. I ran/walked multiple 5Ks I rode my bike further and faster each day out. I got up to walking 6+ miles/day, I drank more water, cosistently than I'd ever had in my life. I was being comlimented on a weekly basis about how happy I looked, and how I had a "glow"! I counted calories to homemade meals I had dreamt up from using low fat, whole wheat and wheighed and measured portions. I was alive, and it felt great. I was seeing progress daily, in inches and pounds lost, and I loved it. I felt that nothing could/would ever stop me. I felt I had found the answer to the burning questions behind my obesity I'd longed to know for most of my life.
Then I got pregnant, my husband began to have panic attacks, lost his job and I began to unravel. I hadn't been that poor in my adult life, and I had never been pregnant. I was happy over the prospect of motherhood, and stressed about how to put food on the table. My husband's health worried me daily, and I struggled to maintain my momentum. Slowly I began to go back to my old ways of comfort eating, a little sugary treat here, a little extra portion there, and before I knew it, I had put all the weight back on plus a few extra pounds. I felt defeated, and hopeless. As my husband got back on his feet, after 5 month off of work, and we delt with the multiple financial issues that arose from that........including an emotional/painful miscarriage, I began to exercise a bit more. I was not really strong enough to be fully on track, but I did manage to have my first 1,000 fit mins month during that period. Not only was I exercising regularly, but so was my husband, and it felt great.
We struggled to balance the budget as he got back into work, and I delt with serious family problems. I thought at one point I would be saying good-bye to my baby sister forever.............due to complications with her mental stability, and our inability to convince her to get help. Between the miscarriage, unstable finances and my families sadness and turmoil, I came to the point where I stopped getting on SP regularly. I felt that all I had to share was pain and heartache, and facing that day after day was more than I could handle. As soon as I stopped logging on to SP, I stopped sparking in my daily life, and lived as I had for 31 years.........over eating, under exercising, and feeling downright miserable.
3 months ago, my husband and I made a very hard decision to move to Arizona based on our desire to be in my step-son's life on a regular basis. After picking up our lives, moving there..............and now coming back home after multiple unexpected obstacles arose, I am left frazzled, but somehow hopeful for a better tomorrow. 2012 has been a non-stop year for me, literally one trial after another. But through all these trials, in the back of my mind, and on the tip of my heart, I dreamt of the day when I could get back to what I know works, back to a stable lifestyle that supports my health, and happiness.
So, even though, as of today, I am only down 10 pounds from my starting weight a year ago.............I have been through more than I'd imagined possible to survive through! What I learned is, life happens, not as we plan, but what doesn't kill us, definitely makes us stronger. I feel stronger, wiser and more focused on what really matters in life than I ever have. I am greatful for what I have each day, humbled from my path and hopeful for what new horizons await me as as I pick myself up and dust myself off from the hurricane that has been my last year. I am really happy to have a platform like SP to help me pick up the peices and move forward.
So happy to be here now. So happy so many of you are still here. Logging on today felt like walking back into an old familiar place, where everyone knows my name.
Hope the summer has treated you all well, looking forward to seeing you all on a more regular basis. XOXOXOXO.
Friday, June 01, 2012
Life goes on. I've been in a whirlwind of immense proportions since I was on here last. We are moving to Arizona, which has come with a lot of emotions, fears, excitement and overall chaos! Tim is only home four days a month, so most of the packing, organizing and planning has been up to me. I started strong a few weeks ago, but since I am still working 6 days a week and we've been busy, busy, busy at work, I've lost bit of steam this week. I am overall quite excited about the move because we will be in my step-son's life on a regular basis now, and I have wanted that for years and years. I will be on my own for the most part, not knowing anyone, but that is a bit exciting............change can be good.
I haven't gained any weight since I was on here, but I haven't lost any either. I'm at a plateau that is under my starting weight, but nowhere near my dream wieght. Went on a nice, sweaty walk last night. I've cut my calories way down, due to the lack of exercise. Haven't been binging or emotional overeating, which means I have been dealing with my emotions head on, which is hard, but much better than drugging myself with food to dull the feelings.
I am going to a mini class reunion in July. Lots of old friends are invited, don't know who will show, I'm nervous and excited about that. Haven't seen most of them in 8+ years. I am also going to be seeing my grandmother who I haven't seen in probably 15+ years and my father who I haven't seen in about 4 years. It will be a reuniting weekend on all levels.
I have such mixed emotions about leaving my job.......I've worked pretty hard these last 3 years to build my clientele and establish a healthy reltionship with my boss. It will be hard to leave that, but I beleive we are moving for a good reason, and I am trying to be as positive as possible about it. I am originally from the desert, and although I never thought I would go back, I am really looking forward to the open spaces and deep peace that comes along with desert living. Also the heat is really good for my metabolism. I've gained over 60 pounds since I moved to the Sacramento area, and I do think the shorter, milder summers has a small part to play in that. I love long summers, and I love to swim, and I love to get tan and the sweat doesn't bother me, it actually feels like it purifies me. My brother just move to Tuscon, so he will be about 3 hours from us, I am happy to be able to be around my nieces again on a regular basis. They are such angels.
I hope to check in on all of my sweet spark friends to see what you are all up to. See if change is in the air for you all as well. Hope this summer is treating you all well, and I hope to stay a bit more active on here.............especially after the move and I get a bit settled.
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