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I'm in love....

Saturday, September 15, 2012

I've said it before and I'll say it again............maybe this time it will stick in my mind. Exercise is the very best mood enhancer in the world! This is my Friday, by this time on Saturday evenings I am often dead to the world.........having been dead for hours by now. I usually take a nap after work...........and then to bed early. Right now, after my 4 mile bike ride, I feel better than I did when I woke up this morning! I really, really, REALLY hope I don't forget how great this feels. Even if I didn't loose any weight, the energy boost/mood elevation is truly enough of a reason to exercise everyday. I think it is fun to decide what kind of exercises to do each day. Just in this week, I've walked, jogged and biked, with joy. Now, mind you, I'm not going fast, or very far, burning less than 250 calories each day. But I've been happily consistant, and for this I am proud. Yeah, I said it PROUD! Also, I don't have a scale, so I can't drive myself mad each day by weighing first thing in the morning. Now, I guess I'll go with how I feel, and how my clothes fit.

So, tonight, I'm in love with my choices this week............namely the big choice to come back to SP and do my best this week. One thing I remember from my early sparking days was that consistant little moves, can lead to consistant bigger moves. A ten minute walk toady, can lead to a 45 minute walk in a month or so, and little healthy choices today can lead to big healthy choices tomorrow. So for today, I'm in love with all the little healthy choices I've made. I know this euphoria wears out, I know the monotony sets in, but for today, I'm not worried about that, for today, I'm so glad to be putting me first. The happier, and healthier I am, the better wife, daughter, sister, employee and friend I can be. No one can take these actions for me, and decisions to be healthy now, will greatly affect my future.............and my present. So, hip-hip-and-a-cheerio for consistant, small, important changes.

  
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ILIKECACTI 9/17/2012 11:38PM

    You've got a great attitude! I'm trying to get back in the swing of the little things right now :)

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TEMPERANCE88 9/16/2012 5:06PM

    Love you attitude! You can do it!

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CUDDLEY51 9/16/2012 1:18AM

    Welcome back! Love your positive attitude and revitalized spirit!

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MIAJOEB 9/16/2012 1:00AM

    We are heading in the same direction...
I did a water aerobic workout yesterday morning and my regular half hour last evening and I feel wonderful "darling" !

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-STARRYEYED- 9/15/2012 11:59PM

    Way to go! Love the blog & your energy. And monotony doesn't have to set in. Do you what you've done this week: variety! A new exercise not only interests the brain, it challenges the body and burns more calories. woot de woot! Way to go and good luck with your exercise. Let me know if I can help you on your journey. Tomorrow is my 1 year anniversary of resparking. Like you, I sparked before but my longest run was 8 months or so. This time I haven't been worried about quitting - mainly because I'm so involved in the sparkteams & I keep my fitness goals interesting. I know you can do it!!! emoticon

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NANCYRUBIO 9/15/2012 11:32PM

    You are so right, exercise is a mood enchaner. It releases endorphins which mskre you feel this way!

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BEARGODDESS 9/15/2012 11:32PM

    What a great attitude! It's true, I've never come back from a walk in the woods or a session of strength training or a swim in the pool and said; "Boy, I sure do regret that!" Lol! But for some reason it can be hard to remember sometimes just how GOOD you felt afterwards. You and I are a lot alike in that I try to get in something every day even if it might seem small. I'll do two or three small walks or one hour long hike in the woods, and at least it's forming a habit. I weigh myself just once a week and if I haven't been working out alot or I've gone a little over my calories, I'll wait an extra week to weigh myself.

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Ground zero

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Woweee, a 30 minute brisk walk last night lead to SORE legs today!! That is pretty weak! But, stronger than being passed out early on the couch. So, I take it as a win/lose. I lost a lot of strength during my 3+ months off from exercising, but I gained a lot by starting now, instead of 3+ months from now.

You know what I missed the most, and didn't even realize I was missing??? The community! I forgot how many morning/evening walker/jogger/bikers we have in this town. Last night, as their paths crossed mine, I was reminded of what great feelings I had when I first joined their society. The outside exercisers sociey of Woodland! Funny that something so small makes me so happy!! I want to be one of those people that exercise eagerly everyday, without having to psyche themselves up each time. I have started on the path to being one of those people, and slid off, maybe this time I'll stick!!!! I am also enjoying the extra water consumption. I forget when I'm not on SP to stick to those 8-12 glasses, it makes such a HUGE difference in the way I feel, and look.

Other than the addition of extra water and a little exercise each day, I've been settling back into work. This is my forth week back after the two month hiatus, and it feels pretty good. A lot can change in two months. I've lost a few clients, but even more seem overjoyed when they see that I'm back. Tim is wavering on the brink of getting back to work, teetering between two job prospects. Both of them over the road driving, which is hard.............but necessary. So, all in all, life is pretty good right now. I really grew a new appreciation for my quaint, little town. There is so much to do here, and it is quite pretty. Last weekend a dear friend took me out to the best live show I've seen in years. It was in the penthouse of the Elks Tower in downtown Sac. The view alone was worth the cover charge. The wine, food and music were great. I've never seen a show in a venue like that, it was small, intimate and lovely. I really enjoyed it. This area of the state is packed with fun things to do, you just have to get out there and do it!! So, overall, I'm happy to be back. My family is here, my job is here, and I'm comfortable here. I think AZ could have been OK for us, but overall I think this area is a better fit for us, for now. Bloom where you are planted, that is what my Mom says!! Being married to a man with wanderlust...........and having a touch of it myself, makes it hard to just SETTLE, but I think for now we need to, and I am happy to.

I get my bike out of storage tomorrow!! YAY! So excited! Anyone been doing any good workouts on DVD lately? I'm trying to gear up for the rainy season and realize I'm going to need to get a few good workout videos to supplement the ones available on here and the few I have now. I'm going for beginner speed, with enough cardio to keep the sweat flowing, but not enough to make me give up!!! I know that might be too much to ask, but any ideas will help. I've got a walking DVD and a few yoga/pilates DVD's, but other than that, I don't have much.

Cheers to us!!

  
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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 9/17/2012 7:31PM

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HIPPICHICK1 9/14/2012 12:58PM

    You've got your Spark back and it shows!!
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Workout DVDs - Well, I have Coach Nicole's 28 Day Bootcamp and do like it, but since I workout in a carpeted area I feel that this DVD just isn't for me. There are more than a few exercises that only work well if you are on a smooth floor, so if you have a tiled or smooth floor with no carpets it might be for you. Read some reviews and if you want it I will be happy to sell it to you for a few bucks less than I paid. I'll mail it at no extra charge. Send me a personal message if you're interested.
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I love Jillian Micheal's No More Trouble Zones and The 30 Day Shred. They show modifications for beginners in both and those work outs will make you sweat and probably swear too!
I have Misty Tripoli's Body Groove DVDs too and like them a lot but haven't used them in a while, so I'll refrain from giving you a wordy review of them since my memory of doing the workouts is hazy, but positive.
I actually prefer walking outdoors most and swimming too, but for now swimming season is over. Walking is nicer because of the cooler temperatures, but when the rain comes I like to work out indoors too.

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MIAJOEB 9/13/2012 11:31PM

    I love downtown Sacramento.. My son and his wife live there and we are having dinner with him Saturday. He is having home tour on Sunday.

There are a lot of really good videos here at spark..
Check them out and get spark points...
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VALERIEMAHA 9/13/2012 9:39PM

    I love Kathy Smith's Lift Weights to Lose Weight -- 20 min. upper body, 20 min. lower, and 5 min. on abs.
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Maha

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KAYE454 9/13/2012 9:03PM

  work into walking slowly

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Year at a glance

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

I started SP just a bit over a year ago. I have met many people on here, and in various parts of my life that have completely transformed their bodies in that amount of time........a few of them losing over 100 pounds. For awhile I let that really get me down, and reinforce my negative self talk. But today, I am not going to do that, today I want to take a minute and retrace the steps I've taken in the last year.

This time last August I found SP and was addicted!! I didn't stop for about three months. In that time I lost over 20 pounds and felt great! I met lots of wonderful people on here and felt for the first time in my life that I could really achieve my health goals. I did things I never thought I'd do, never even knew I wanted to do. I ran/walked multiple 5Ks I rode my bike further and faster each day out. I got up to walking 6+ miles/day, I drank more water, cosistently than I'd ever had in my life. I was being comlimented on a weekly basis about how happy I looked, and how I had a "glow"! I counted calories to homemade meals I had dreamt up from using low fat, whole wheat and wheighed and measured portions. I was alive, and it felt great. I was seeing progress daily, in inches and pounds lost, and I loved it. I felt that nothing could/would ever stop me. I felt I had found the answer to the burning questions behind my obesity I'd longed to know for most of my life.

Then I got pregnant, my husband began to have panic attacks, lost his job and I began to unravel. I hadn't been that poor in my adult life, and I had never been pregnant. I was happy over the prospect of motherhood, and stressed about how to put food on the table. My husband's health worried me daily, and I struggled to maintain my momentum. Slowly I began to go back to my old ways of comfort eating, a little sugary treat here, a little extra portion there, and before I knew it, I had put all the weight back on plus a few extra pounds. I felt defeated, and hopeless. As my husband got back on his feet, after 5 month off of work, and we delt with the multiple financial issues that arose from that........including an emotional/painful miscarriage, I began to exercise a bit more. I was not really strong enough to be fully on track, but I did manage to have my first 1,000 fit mins month during that period. Not only was I exercising regularly, but so was my husband, and it felt great.

We struggled to balance the budget as he got back into work, and I delt with serious family problems. I thought at one point I would be saying good-bye to my baby sister forever.............due to complications with her mental stability, and our inability to convince her to get help. Between the miscarriage, unstable finances and my families sadness and turmoil, I came to the point where I stopped getting on SP regularly. I felt that all I had to share was pain and heartache, and facing that day after day was more than I could handle. As soon as I stopped logging on to SP, I stopped sparking in my daily life, and lived as I had for 31 years.........over eating, under exercising, and feeling downright miserable.

3 months ago, my husband and I made a very hard decision to move to Arizona based on our desire to be in my step-son's life on a regular basis. After picking up our lives, moving there..............and now coming back home after multiple unexpected obstacles arose, I am left frazzled, but somehow hopeful for a better tomorrow. 2012 has been a non-stop year for me, literally one trial after another. But through all these trials, in the back of my mind, and on the tip of my heart, I dreamt of the day when I could get back to what I know works, back to a stable lifestyle that supports my health, and happiness.

So, even though, as of today, I am only down 10 pounds from my starting weight a year ago.............I have been through more than I'd imagined possible to survive through! What I learned is, life happens, not as we plan, but what doesn't kill us, definitely makes us stronger. I feel stronger, wiser and more focused on what really matters in life than I ever have. I am greatful for what I have each day, humbled from my path and hopeful for what new horizons await me as as I pick myself up and dust myself off from the hurricane that has been my last year. I am really happy to have a platform like SP to help me pick up the peices and move forward.

So happy to be here now. So happy so many of you are still here. Logging on today felt like walking back into an old familiar place, where everyone knows my name.

Hope the summer has treated you all well, looking forward to seeing you all on a more regular basis. XOXOXOXO.

  
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SAPHRAEL 9/13/2012 11:45PM

    It's good to see you! The wealth of experiences make it possible to endure things we never thought we could.

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 9/13/2012 11:20PM

    Wow, what a year you have had. I'm so sorry for your struggles, but to be a bit cliche, they do make us stronger. You will get through these tough times. Happy emoticon and remember the success you have when staying active on SP. Commit to it and yourself - you deserve it. emoticon emoticon

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RIDMYCOCOON 9/13/2012 11:05AM

    Hey Sweetie Pie-Pie!!!!! emoticon Door is always open for you Honeyluv.

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HIPPICHICK1 9/12/2012 1:08PM

    CHEERS! And welcome home. Glad to hear you've got your Spark back.
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MIAJOEB 9/12/2012 9:23AM

    Thank you so much for the courageous Blog.. I have been on a two year plateau but I never stopped coming here for support knowing I would find the things that would get me back in the direction I want to be headed. " Never give up, never, never, never, ".
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1HAPPYSPIRIT 9/11/2012 10:46PM

    emoticon back to Spark. There is never a better time to begin your journey to better health than the present. Put the past behind you and move on. You have a bright future ahead of you!

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HEALTHYAGER 9/11/2012 7:58PM

    Welcome back, you are a wealth of strength and insight. Wishing you the absolute best in your healthy choices and in everything else.

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FLUTTEROFSTARS 9/11/2012 6:15PM

    Great blog! Thanks for sharing!

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VALERIEMAHA 9/11/2012 6:02PM

    Welcome home to lots of
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Ob-la-di......

Friday, June 01, 2012

Life goes on. I've been in a whirlwind of immense proportions since I was on here last. We are moving to Arizona, which has come with a lot of emotions, fears, excitement and overall chaos! Tim is only home four days a month, so most of the packing, organizing and planning has been up to me. I started strong a few weeks ago, but since I am still working 6 days a week and we've been busy, busy, busy at work, I've lost bit of steam this week. I am overall quite excited about the move because we will be in my step-son's life on a regular basis now, and I have wanted that for years and years. I will be on my own for the most part, not knowing anyone, but that is a bit exciting............change can be good.

I haven't gained any weight since I was on here, but I haven't lost any either. I'm at a plateau that is under my starting weight, but nowhere near my dream wieght. Went on a nice, sweaty walk last night. I've cut my calories way down, due to the lack of exercise. Haven't been binging or emotional overeating, which means I have been dealing with my emotions head on, which is hard, but much better than drugging myself with food to dull the feelings.

I am going to a mini class reunion in July. Lots of old friends are invited, don't know who will show, I'm nervous and excited about that. Haven't seen most of them in 8+ years. I am also going to be seeing my grandmother who I haven't seen in probably 15+ years and my father who I haven't seen in about 4 years. It will be a reuniting weekend on all levels.

I have such mixed emotions about leaving my job.......I've worked pretty hard these last 3 years to build my clientele and establish a healthy reltionship with my boss. It will be hard to leave that, but I beleive we are moving for a good reason, and I am trying to be as positive as possible about it. I am originally from the desert, and although I never thought I would go back, I am really looking forward to the open spaces and deep peace that comes along with desert living. Also the heat is really good for my metabolism. I've gained over 60 pounds since I moved to the Sacramento area, and I do think the shorter, milder summers has a small part to play in that. I love long summers, and I love to swim, and I love to get tan and the sweat doesn't bother me, it actually feels like it purifies me. My brother just move to Tuscon, so he will be about 3 hours from us, I am happy to be able to be around my nieces again on a regular basis. They are such angels.

I hope to check in on all of my sweet spark friends to see what you are all up to. See if change is in the air for you all as well. Hope this summer is treating you all well, and I hope to stay a bit more active on here.............especially after the move and I get a bit settled.
Luvies.

  
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ME_HERE_NOW 6/4/2012 1:30AM

    happy adventures girl, i hope u will find a new place to build a clientele & that you enjoy your time with the kiddies :)

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SNUZSUZ 6/3/2012 2:19PM

    Good luck in Arizona!

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RIDMYCOCOON 6/2/2012 11:59PM

    Hang in there, Sweetie Pie-Pie! I am so happy to hear from you! I was starting to wonder...

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KAI_ZEN 6/2/2012 10:06AM

    Wow, you've got a lot going on. Maintaining your current weight in the midst of all this is an accomplishment! Celebrate that as a success because I'd say that's a BIG success!

I'm moving to Tucson when (if?) this place ever sells. Change is good, but I certainly identify with your emotions, fears, excitement, and chaos!

Check in when you can. Wishing you all the best in your move!
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SHAMROCKY2K 6/1/2012 4:43PM

    Good to see you on here again. Things will work out for the best. I wish you luck in the move. (Hey, that is always good exercise in itself!)
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HIPPICHICK1 6/1/2012 1:28PM

    It sounds like a really positive move for you! I'm wishing you well, a clear mind for organizing the packing and stuff too.
You deserve a medal for doing it mostly on your own!!
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Que una dia

Monday, April 16, 2012

Yeah, it was a bi-polar day, for sure!!! Woke up, read the last two Griffin and Sabine masterpieces. Was happy to FINALLY have my hands on them, read the very first one in high school.............and 14 years later, I've managed to read the last one. It was well worth the wait. I ADORE all the alchemical symbology, right up my alley. Busted my booty to clean the apartment, got spiffed up for the hubby before he came home, cleaned the car, bought new seat covers, struggled to put them on correctly, speed raced through Wal-Mart (yeah, I know, I hate that place, but it's the only place in town where I can get everything I need for my husbands trucking needs............otherwise I'd never go there) at like 9:00 am on my only day off, got hit on by a pretty cute, young, dread-lock-wearing man, who asked if he could help me with my bags at my car...........cute, but had to say no........., sped home, unloaded goods, sped to pick up hubby, ate my favorite salad at Applebee's, sped home, did laundery, wasted the rest of the afternoon whining about how Tim just got home today and will be leaving again for goodness knows how long at 6 am tomorrow, got really bummed out, managed to go on a walk, had dinner, laid down in bed, cried for about 20 minutes thinking that I won't be going to bed with Tim tomorrow night, and then got up because I couldn't bear it and came to see how my SP friends are doing. WHEW! Longest sentence of my life! So yeah, I've been trying as hard as possible not to overeat, and to get all my fit mins in, but I've been failing...........not miserably, just in comparison to how I know I could/should be. The emotions are just all over the page lately and I just don't have any other method to cope with them other than eating...............OK, that is a lie, eating is just the only method I had used to cope with them for sooooooooooooo long that it is the quickest/easiest way to NUMB myself. It even makes me sick to read these words, but it is the truth, the sad and desperate truth. So, I have to kick some booty and overcome this unhealthy pattern, and I do believe facing the truth is the first step............but I must admit from where I stand now, I just don't always know what the next LASTING step is. Oh well, atleast I have a community now, where I can talk about these things, and get it off my chest. And as long as I am on here, typing, reading, sharing, etc. I am not eating.................and that really is a HUGE improvement to where I am when I'm not on here. So maybe my new thing will be, whenever I am not at work, asleep, making/eating healthy meals, exercising, or otherwise engaged in healthy activity, I just need to be on SP, sharing, and learning and reading, and NOT eating to numb myself to emotions??? Sounds like a plan, wonder if I will do it????

Well, that is enough rambling for one night. After that young man hitting on me today, I did realize one thing...............I may not be anywhere near a healthy weight..............but I'm still lovely on the inside, and apparently not tooooo darn shabby on the outside either!!! Haaaaa, sad that that made my day in some little way..........I mean, it's always nice to be noticed. I've been married so long sometimes I forget that I was once attractive to other men........!!!!!! OK, good night sweet people. Let's hope tomorrow is a little less emotional and a little more balanced.

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BLVINBUTTERFLYS 5/17/2012 2:38PM

    Hang in there, you'll find your center soon enough!


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KAYECAN 4/16/2012 3:44PM

    RIDMYCOCOON and HIPPICHICK1 have both offered the best advice. I can't think of anything to add. You do have many blessings that can be counted as part of your daily ritual. When we stop to count our blessings, it makes us reflect in a positive manner and that alone can brighten our day. I'm struggling with staying focused right now myself but am not giving up. We just have to keep looking for ways to stay motivated and make our healthy changes become stronger habits. We are as happy as we want to be and as strong as we want to be.
May today be the start of a special focus week for you.
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RIDMYCOCOON 4/16/2012 11:43AM

    emoticon If I have any suggestion for you other than meditation and exercise it would be to pursue the opportunities this time alone affords you. I know you to be a very creative and crafty person. I know you like to write. There must be something on your personal path that is to unfold and bloom at this time :)

You are a total hotty! I am not surprised to hear men want to help you with your bags! You go gurl!

Have an inspiring and exciting new week! XOX

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HIPPICHICK1 4/16/2012 9:41AM

    And when you aren't on SP reading and stuff you could try yoga and meditation as forms of seeking balance...both literally and in the spiritual sense.
I know its hard but try to just enjoy when your man is home. Enjoy every minute of him being with you. No more tears. It's only for a while and not forever.
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