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Sunday, April 01, 2012

Well, Tim left today to do his job training in Arizona for the Western regional driving job. I was a royal wreck this morning. Crying, crying, crying. You know it's going to be a long day when you wake up crying. I cried all through church. And then I had no more tears, so I napped for a few minutes, then got ready to take him to the airport. I went thrift shopping after that, didn't buy much, just roamed to keep my mind off the situation. When I came home I read a bit, watched a bit of TV, cleaned up a bit then realized it was just about the time we usually go on our daily walk. So, I hit the streets, 3.4 in 50 mins. Not record breaking, but overall good.

I am happy he has this job opportunity, very happy. And he is pretty happy too, which makes me glad to know he's excited about it. I just really had become so used to him being here that I went into a bit of panic this morning. Overall I feel better right now. The exercise has a way of doing that for me. I might even do another 2-2.5 miles later once the sun goes down a bit more.

My goals while Tim is gone over the road is the continually shed the pounds by consistantly watching my calories and exercising everyday. I also have some personal goals of deep cleaning the apartment, organizing all of the closets and storage and cabinets. I would also like to get a substantial new "cookbook" started for when he is home of healthy and delicious meals that he can have when he's home and to take on the road. I have slacked off on the cooking lately and we've just been making salads, tacos, sandwiches, soup, that kind of thing. I really want to get back into some better cooking habits, esp. since he will only be home a few days a month, gotta make those few meals count!!!

I am really thankful that I have some many positive outlets now, compared to when he was over the road in the past. I have SP of course, also Pinterest, FB, all my android games and my new Rosicrucian community, not to mention church and bible study. I have a good number of social and engaging outlets that I did not know about or have in the past, and this makes me very happy. I'm so thankful for being a part of this community. The whole SP experience has been truly life changing. I must admit it's my thoughts and not my body that has changed the most, but you have to start somewhere right?!!!!

Hope your weekend was worthwhile, and smile provoking. Catch you all later!

  
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ME_HERE_NOW 4/5/2012 12:48PM

    use this time to reconnect with yourself and your goals, you won't be sorry :) xoxoxo!

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KAYECAN 4/2/2012 5:02PM

    It's tough for sure when they are away but you have a good strategy for keeping yourself busy. I like the cookbook idea. That will really help keep you focused on healthy eating. With Tim being gone, it can be stressful and we all know how stress can affect our eating habits.....so focus on your cookbook and lots of fresh air and exercise. The time will pass and he will be back home giving you hugs in no time.
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RIDMYCOCOON 4/2/2012 3:17PM

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HIPPICHICK1 4/2/2012 10:11AM

    Poor sweetie!! I was a wreck when my hubby left on a business trip last summer. He NEVER goes away on business trips but this time it was necessary. After a day or two I started to LIKE being alone! Hee hee!! I got so much DONE! I could do anything I wanted when I wanted. Don't get me wrong, I love JF to pieces but largely my schedule revolves around his and this was a bit of freedom that I really enjoyed. So when he went on a 2nd business trip that year I was a little sad to see him go, but I wasn't a basket case like the first time he went.
Now go play Scrabble of FB! I think it's your turn, lady.
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BLUE42DOWN 4/2/2012 4:58AM

    I think it's in changing our thinking what makes SparkPeople so important. Many of the lessons we can learn here apply to all sorts of aspects of our life. As we get one or another area in order, we become more able and ready to deal with other areas. So that's a fine place to start!

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SHAMROCKY2K 4/2/2012 12:44AM

    Great attitude. Exercise will certainly be a good, healthy distraction. There's always skype too. Keep smiling!
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Big. Proud. Girl.

Monday, March 26, 2012

Well, I'm still big. Yes, I'm also still beautiful, and right here, right now, I'm pretty darn proud. I have been through so much since I started here in September last year. It's been some tough and rough roads in my personal life. But I seem to be able to keep on moving in the right direction with my health, and for that I am remarkably proud of myself, and my husband. I never would have guessed 6 months ago that he would be walking over 6 miles in one day........but he has, twice this week. And the days he didn't do six, he did 5, 4 and 3. I am really impressed, with both of us. I have 210 more fit mins to get in this month, and I will have reached my first 1,000 mins month EVER! I'm really proud. And I woke up to see the scale drop another pound, which makes 11 in the last month. Now, I had this early success when I first stated SP in September. I lost 20 pounds in the first two months. Then the holidays hit, all heck broke loose with my family situation, my husband lost his job, I got pregnant, I had a miscarriage, and well, here I am now. Jumping back on the horse, in full swing and kicking booty again. Only this time I have a different attitude than when I first started SP. Now I KNOW I can loose weight. At first each pound I lost seemed unreal, like I must be making a mistake. I wasn't mentally prepared. And I wasn't as consistant with my exercise as I have been this month. If I hit a 250 fit mins month I was pretty happy. Now..............well, it's pretty obvious I've surpassed that. And I don't plan on stopping anytime soon. In fact, when the summer get here and the pool opens, I plan on adding my swimming back into the mix, while still keeping up with my walking/jogging/bike riding. So, pretty cool, pretty proud.....yeah, I'm starting to really feel the spark inside of me. It's been baby steps, and some falling down, a little whining, two really good scars (biking mishap!!!) lot's and lot's of TLC from wonderful peeps on here and lot's and lot's of learning. So much learning, about myself, about my habits, about my emotions, about food and my emotions. About everything, and recently about how I don't know how I lived all those years without exercise!!!???? I really don't. I used to exercise like a mad woman when I was in high school............then I slowly turned into a couch potato over the next 14 + years.............now, I've got to someone recapture that zest of youth, add it to the wisdom of adulthood and BAM, I've got a mix that just can't be stopped!!!


(My dearest Kayecan.................that's for you and your amazing beauty!)

  
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ME_HERE_NOW 4/7/2012 10:44AM

    i am so proud of you and excited for you, you have discovered the power that lays within you, sometimes dormant, sometimes burning like a bright flame. keep up the good work girl. you work around challenges and obstacles to create the life you want, i find there is a lot to learn from you in that regard. xoxo!

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 3/27/2012 1:28PM

    Love your attitude! Keep going!

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SHAMROCKY2K 3/27/2012 1:21PM

    YEAH Soulfish! I've seen your ups and downs and am so happy to see where you are.
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Ain't no stopin' you now!!

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HIPPICHICK1 3/26/2012 11:45PM

    You have made amazing progress!! Keep it up!
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KAYECAN 3/26/2012 11:36PM

    Oh Stephanie....what a great blog!!! Listen to how strong you sound. You, my friend, are becoming a healthy person in heart, mind and body. And you have 5 days left to set a new personal goal of 1000 fitness minutes. Make it happen!!! We're here cheering you and your hunny all the way.....(always have been you know).
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And a special thanks for the pic.... we can and we will do this Steph!!!
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EARTHSEAME 3/26/2012 11:30PM

    emoticon Great attitude!

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ERIKALP 3/26/2012 11:08PM

    You are an amazingly positive person! Thank you for being a motivator.

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Keep on keepin on

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Well, Tim starts a new job on the first. Pretty happy because as we stand now, the bills are just racking up with not enough coming in. I've had the slowest month at work I've had in ages. So, thank GOD for this job!! We've been really getting in a lot of exercise this week, I still have blisters on my feet from Sundays 3 mile adventure in inappropriate shoes..........but it hasn't stopped me from plugging forward.

I am nervous about Tim going back to work, we've had about 5 months of quality time together, and it's been nice............broke, broke times, but nice times. I am also worried about his health, but am praying often about the path we are about to tread............hoping things will get better. I've started studying a new philosophical stream of knowledge, called Rosicrucianism, it is not a religion, but more of a philosophical community. I am very excited about what this new community has to offer me, and I to it.

My sister has been down here for about 3 weeks, she is doing much better. I missed her, and am so glad to see that she is doing so much better. It looks like she will be going back up north for awhile, don't know if it will last long or not. But her mental health is better,and that is what matters.

My exercise has been pretty spot on, I've already logged over 200 fit mins this week and there are still 3 more days to rack up those mins. BUT my eating has been hit and miss. Some days are better than others, some meals are better than others, not quite where I want to be. One day I feel really great about my eating, then something happens, my emotions run wild and then BAM I overeat. It doesn't happen everyday, it doesn't happen every week, but it happens still. I will be so glad when the day comes that I don't have to worry about emotional overeating. One day at a time..........one step at a time, one spark at a time.

Bye sweeties, have a great end of your week.

  
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RIDMYCOCOON 4/2/2012 3:12PM

    Good Luck, Tim, with the new job!

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HIPPICHICK1 3/25/2012 9:17PM

    Wishing you and Tim and your sister all good things!
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SNUZSUZ 3/24/2012 6:26AM

    Good job on the exercise and congratulations on the hubby's new job! Wishing you the best:)

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 3/22/2012 2:56PM

    Glad he has a new job, sounds like just in time! You will miss him, but in the long run it will be good. Way to go on the fitness!

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KAYECAN 3/22/2012 8:28AM

    Life is all about keepin' on and tryin'. We do our best. Somedays are great and some are ok. You've really been logging the exercise. Wow...good for you Steph. I've been a bit slack on tracking my nutrition but now that I'm off I plan to do it each day. Emotional eating......hummmm.....do you think it will ever completely go away or will we just be better equipped to deal with it??? I think you are doing great. Thanks for reading my blog and leaving the nice comment. It's good to see your spark shining. Glad Tim got his job. You will just make the time you have together more special. Have a good day spark friend and fill it with good healthy choices.
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Sparkling

Friday, March 16, 2012



This is my mantra for the day, week, month, year! I don't want to let myself dull my sparkle, ever, if possible!

It is a rainy, wonderful day. This has been the driest winter I have spent in Northern Cali, and I admit, I have missed the rain a bit. After last years never ending rain till July, I never thought I'd be saying this, but yes, I do like a fair amount of rain. It makes me feel cozy, makes me enjoy reading, and writing, snuggling, cooking, and all things that can be thoroughly enjoyed from the comforts of my warm, dry home.

I have finally come to the conclusion that a few items in my normal diet are not my friend, at all. Butter, mayo, peanut butter (with sugar and in larger than 1 tbsp amounts), full fat dairy of any kind, cream (more than 1 tbsp/day), and cheese.........oh that cheese (especially on tortilla chips.......bad, bad tortilla chips). These are all things that I eat/cook with on a regular basis, and just absent mindedly ignored thier high calorie counts. I know these things, in moderation, can be OK, but I am finding that by using them as I've been accustomed to adds to FAR too many calories at the end of the day. Just by cutting one of these per day, I can easily add a nice piece of fruit/ large group of veggies or any other healthy size snack into my day, which is much more satisfying than slopping on an extra portion of mayo. I have known all of this for years, but, as is normal for these days, I am just really, REALLY realizing the price I am paying for being lazy in my food choices. An egg cooked in a pan spritzed with an olive oil spray is just as wonderful as one cooked in a tbsp of butter. Low fat cream cheese is even more wonderful than butter on toast, and two overflowing tbsp of peanut butter is more like 4 regular tbsp and that is over 400 calories............OUCH. So, the little things, little details are slowly becoming very apparant, thankfully!!! And when did fruits and veggies become the perfect, satisfying snack??? I feel like I've attempted to curb my mid afternoon munchy madness with a piece of fruit before, and it just didn't do the trick. For some reason an apple, orange,some broccoli, snap peas, a bell pepper, these are all more than enough to keep the cravings a bay. I think finally, I am giving my body the REAL nutrients it needs, and the sugar/carb cravings are diminishing...........not gone mind you, just bearable.

One of the real blessings of Tim being of of work has been getting to be with him everyday. We haven't had that blessing in our lives for about 5 years. He has been driving over the road, both short and long hauls for so long, I really forgot just how fun he is. Five years is a long time to go without spending quality time with your spouse. No wonder why we thought we had nothing to talk about, and nothing in common. We were just living seperate lives. So, each day, as he applies for both driving and security jobs, I say a little prayer that the security jobs call soon, because as much as he can push my buttons, I really love him, and enjoy spending as much time as possible with that guy.

And the question of all questions. Why in the world is it ten times harder to walk 2 miles on the treadmill, and ALWAYS takes longer, even when I am walking and even jogging at what seems to be a much faster pace than when I'm outside???? What is that about? Can it truly all be mental????

Hope your weekends are sparkling and bright, even if the clouds are grey, the light from our inner wellspring of wonder can bring us inspiration to be better and better with each step.

  
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BLVINBUTTERFLYS 3/18/2012 11:02PM

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SNUZSUZ 3/18/2012 8:38PM

    Love your mantra, and enjoyed your blog:)

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HIPPICHICK1 3/17/2012 10:57PM

    I love to exercise outside. You get an exchange of oxygen in your lungs and you get a dose of nature. I love to listen to the sounds of running water in the spring. All the brooks in the woods are running right now! The earth is waking up!!

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ME_HERE_NOW 3/17/2012 2:47AM

    to me the changing scenery and stimuli of being outside are what make exercise outside pass so much faster. keep sparkling my friend :D

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KAYECAN 3/16/2012 5:27PM

    Thank you for sharing another positive blog. It's been raining here for a week practically and I know we need it because the snow pack is low this winter, but reading about everybody and their 70 and 80 degree weather gets me itching for spring. You are right though...we should see the good in the rain. Maybe it will lessen our chance of forest fires this summer.
About the treadmill....I use mine but I always have motivating music that I love playing in my ears so it does go by fast. I had my battery quit halfway through my routine one day and that last 20 minutes was agony!!! I guess it's all a matter of perspective. I'd prefer walking outdoors though if I could.
Glad you guys are having such a loving time together. The walks, the talks, it's all good stuff. Enjoy your weekend Steph and good catch on all those hidden calories that we can so easily substitute for healthier choices. It all adds up!!!
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EMRANA 3/16/2012 5:09PM

  Because the treadmill is so boring!! I hear you!

You made me smile talking about your husband. I'll cross my fingers for a security job!

As for snacks, mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmsnappeas! They are just the BEST!

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BLUE42DOWN 3/16/2012 5:03PM

    I think outside we have so much around to keep our mind occupied that it is a lot easier to not be so focused on the process of walking itself.

Keep on Sparkling!

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SUNSHINE99999 3/16/2012 4:15PM

  thank you and a great weekend to you.

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My funny walk

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Today my husband didn't feel like doing the 5K that I was itching to do, so he set out walking in one direction, and I went on my 5K path. When I finished my 5K, we met, face to face on the same road! So funny!!! He walked 2 miles in the time I did 3.............then he wanted to do 2 more. So I walked with him 2 more miles, totaling 5 today!! That was pretty cool. I can't believe we met face to face like that without planning it! I didn't know what route he was taking, and he didn't know mine either, and the timing was just perfect..........so funny. Also since starting SP, I have never walked this far. I have rode 9 miles on my bike, but never walked over a 5K in one day. I hear people on here that do that all the time, but I just hadn't worked my way up to that.....until now!!!! I think I could have even gone farther if my husband was up for it! The last 2 miles we weren't going that fast, so it was much easier than my first 3. Anyway, that's my funny walk story for the day. How is your exericising going????

  
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ME_HERE_NOW 3/14/2012 12:30PM

    congrats on reaching a new milestone, together! awesome!

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WENDYLEE15 3/12/2012 7:29PM

    That's so neat!! I bet that was something when that happened !! My exercise isn't very good right now. Going to try to step it up a bit!! Awesome job on your walking!! What an accomplishment. Keep up the great work
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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 3/12/2012 1:48PM

    That's a cute story! Way to go!

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HIPPICHICK1 3/12/2012 10:04AM

    That is really funny! And cute.
Congrats on your new distance record!
This weekend I walked what we figured out to be about 7 or 8 km (Saturday) and then on Sunday, my official rest day, it was just way too nice outside to stay in so I went for a lovely, sunny 50 minute walk (nearly 6 km) just to shake the cobwebs off of my butt. Today is a walk and then I'm going to do strength training.

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KAYECAN 3/12/2012 9:33AM

    What a cute story.....I guess some people are just meant to be together!!! Congrats on walking that far. There's no stopping you now and it's so neat that your hubby wants to get out there and walk with you. Sounds like you guys had a real good day enjoying the outdoors. Way to go!!!
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FREETHEGODDESS 3/12/2012 12:50AM

    You were meant to meet up with him and finish walking 5K for today. Now you know you are physically capable of doing a 5K. WooHoo! You can build from here. Keep walking 5k and slowly increase your pace.

I am trying to work up to a 10K now. It is mostly a metal block I am trying to overcome. I am pretty sure I am capable of doing 10k I just have to get past the voice in my head that says I can only do 5K.

Metal blocks are my biggest obstacles to overcome. Keep challenging yourself...you will be amazed at what you can actually do. Hugs.
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