Thursday, March 08, 2012
Things seem to be back to normal around here. We are still broke as can be, but we are surviving. My sister is in town, and is doing remarkably well considering all she has been through in the last few months. Tim and I have been exercising everyday together, in the last week we only skipped one day. It is so nice to do it together, this is what I always hoped for. He has been cooking a lot more lately, and has been doing quite a good job at it. He isn't back to work yet, but his gaurd card did come in yesterday, so the waiting game is over, he can apply to security jobs now. I really hope he gets one in town, because otherwise he'll have to drive to Sacramento, which is about a 30-45 minute drive depending on traffic, and what part you are going to.
The weather has been too good to handle......this weekend there is a local festival called the Almond festival......mostly a meeting spot for bikers, but we might go out and brave the crowds and see what's happening.
Work has been a little slow this week, which always really scares me. I have such a tight budget and have to make a certain amount everyday in order to pay our bills. I haven't met the daily requirement the last two days, and that is really stressful, but somehow, I know, everything will work out, it always does.
Since I've been working 6 days a week, and am still going to follow up doctors appointments from the pregnancy, I've been a little overwhelmed. I really miss my going in at 11:30, Sun/Mon off schedule. It suited me so well!! Atleast I really love my job. My boss is an angel, and the clients are great, and I am good at what I do, and I really enjoy it. That is such a huge blessing, I can't imagine having to work this much and hate it. Some days I'd rather be at work than anywhere else because we have so much fun!
Really interested to see what happens in the next few months. Looking forward to losing more weight..........have lost almost 9 pounds since the miscarriage(Feb. 23rd), and am really happy about that. I intend on keeping up with the exercise, and hope that I can continue to loose weight. If I am going to try to get pregnant within the next few years, I'd really like to be at a healthy starting weight before it happens.
This whole pregnancy thing made me really realize just how much I want to be a mother. Admittedly we are not in the right position to willingly bring a child into our lives. But, when it happened out of the blue, after 8 years without using protection, it kind of shocked my system and made me really see just how badly I've always wanted to be a mother. I think it did the same thing to my husband. Now we feel that it is just a matter of waiting till the time is right, and then trying to make it happen again. I really hope that God has motherhood planned for my future. My heart is so set upon it.
Keep up the great work my sparky peeps.
Monday, March 05, 2012
I was raised a vegetarian, and I naturally love fruits and veggies. But I've allowed myself to "forget" to eat as many as I should over these last few years. So recently I've been adding them to everything, and it feels great. They are the perfect side dish for any meal, breakfast, lunch or dinner. It's amazing how just a piece of fruit, half a bell pepper, some snap peas, a little broccolli, tomato slices.....etc., etc. can really be so incredibly satisfying and tasty and all around wonderful in every way. I am a tuna eater, probably eat atleast one tuna sandwich a week. Decided I'd spark it up with onions, pickles and tomatoes. Not only did it make it super tasty, but it also stretched my little can into two large portions, instead of one large portion. Also, just found a new fish I've never had before, Swai. It is really great. Got a 3 pound frozen package at Grocery Outlet for five bucks. Tim made tacos out of it yesetday with homemade pico de gallo, and it was SUPER DUPER delicious.
Being raised in a health concious houselhold, all of these little discoveries should be kind of a big DUH.........but I guess what I've been seeing lately is it's not that hard to eat healthier.......or that expensive. I've tricked myself into thinking that I had to shop at the Co-op or farmers market to get quality food........and although I love those places, I don't always have the money or time to shop there. So...........I'm begining to make the best of what I have. Brown rice, beans, fresh cheeses, whole grain breads/pastas, and even lots of organic freggies can be found really close to my house, at the bargain market, without breaking the bank. I find myself getting excited about what new concoctions I might dream up next. I'm finding that although not every meal, everyday is spot on perfect, I am making better decisions everyday. Lately it's been substituting water for nearly 100% of my liquid intake. It's simple, and it really saves on the calories. I used to drink milk or juice often with meals, or even inbetween meals, not realizing the calories I was consuming. I've stopped that, thankfully. I guess what I've really been seeing lately is that, no matter how slow I go on this healthy adventure I'm on, as long as I don't give up, I'll be able to find new and exciting ways to be healthier all the days of my life. Which is exciting. This is a HUGE theme for me, I've been awakening to this idea for awhile now...........some days it just really hits me that I am healthier than I was a few months back, and I intend on growing more and more healthy as the years go on. It's such a different frame of mind than I had when I was "dieting"..............I really despise dieting. It's all about how much weight can I loose in the shortest amount of time, usually not healthily, and definitely not mentally healthy...........atleast for me.
Well, sparkers, it's so nice to know some of you, and be a part of this community. I hope to get to know you all better and better as the years go on. Have a lovely week!
Thursday, March 01, 2012
It's been a week, today, since the miscarriage, and already I feel sooo much better. Thanks so much to all of you for the love and support, it means the world to me. I have lost nearly 6 pounds this week, which seems very odd, but I'm guessing that might be normal after a miscarriage. I'll take it!!! I'm still pretty exhausted, and am still taking a cat nap on my lunch breaks, but all in all I feel much better. I'm eating well, lots of fruit and veggies, whole grains and low fat dairy and protein. Went on a really nice walk last night with my husband after work.
Work has been going pretty well, all of the clients I told about the happenings have been really supportive. I've also, somehow, managed to meet our bills, even with having the time off. I have been pretty overwhelmed with the outpouring of love and support we have recieved throughout this whole experience. It feels great to be loved.
Looking forward to spring with a passion. I love the warm weather, and really can't wait to have the longer days.......makes it easier to exericise before/and/or after work. I also really can't wait for the pool to open up. I LOVE to swim and it really burns the calories!!!
Good to be feeling better, I hope to start catching back up on my blog reading soon, I've been so out of the loop lately...............I really miss reading up on all of your adventures in the world of healthy living. I hope your weeks are going well, and thanks again for all of the lovins, I really needed it, and really appreciate it.
Monday, February 27, 2012
Found these last night, thought I'd share them.............makes me want to be the best me possible. Today was a hard day, VERY hard day, my hormones have not balanced out yet, at all, but the pain is getting better and that is a HUGE step in the right direction. Being patient with myself throughout this healing process is not exactly easy, but I'm trying to do my best. Each day the weather gets better, and my spirits are lifting. Hope you all have a had a good Monday...........I survived it.............and really, that's saying something!!!!
Spark on dear ones, keep it up, so I can see your spark, and be motivated to be sparky myself!!!
Friday, February 24, 2012
Well, I am not pregnant anymore. It's kind of complicated. I had what you call a blighted ovum. The fertalized egg attatched to the wall, but didn't grow. I still went through the hormonal changes of being pregnant, but the fetus did not develop. I found out yesterday. I am quite down today, but am seeing this as an opportunity to get into shape and try again. I was quite scared about gaining weight throughout pregnancy, since I didn't loose enough to really afford to be able to gain any. So, I'm back at square one. Can't say I quite understand what this whole thing has been about,it's been an emotional roller coaster to say the least. But I am glad to have a plan. I hope to be back on here with a vengence as soon as I start feeling a little bit better physically. I missed you guys, and hope to be back on track following your blogs and seeing all the good work you've been doing.
Have a beautiful weekend, Love,
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