Monday, February 27, 2012
Found these last night, thought I'd share them.............makes me want to be the best me possible. Today was a hard day, VERY hard day, my hormones have not balanced out yet, at all, but the pain is getting better and that is a HUGE step in the right direction. Being patient with myself throughout this healing process is not exactly easy, but I'm trying to do my best. Each day the weather gets better, and my spirits are lifting. Hope you all have a had a good Monday...........I survived it.............and really, that's saying something!!!!
Spark on dear ones, keep it up, so I can see your spark, and be motivated to be sparky myself!!!
Friday, February 24, 2012
Well, I am not pregnant anymore. It's kind of complicated. I had what you call a blighted ovum. The fertalized egg attatched to the wall, but didn't grow. I still went through the hormonal changes of being pregnant, but the fetus did not develop. I found out yesterday. I am quite down today, but am seeing this as an opportunity to get into shape and try again. I was quite scared about gaining weight throughout pregnancy, since I didn't loose enough to really afford to be able to gain any. So, I'm back at square one. Can't say I quite understand what this whole thing has been about,it's been an emotional roller coaster to say the least. But I am glad to have a plan. I hope to be back on here with a vengence as soon as I start feeling a little bit better physically. I missed you guys, and hope to be back on track following your blogs and seeing all the good work you've been doing.
Have a beautiful weekend, Love,
Saturday, February 18, 2012
Well, this week has been a doosie. Finished my medi-cal papers, found the clinic I will be going to for all my prenatal stuff, watched as my husband broke his back helping my mom move, worked my booty off at work, and then yesterday took care of my husband after he had two seizures...........because he worked so hard moving my mom and didn't get enough sleep. It's been a hard week. Since I make commission, I never know what I am going to bring home, so sometimes that means I have to choose between paying a bill and eating, since I am pregnant, as stressful as it is, I had to choose eating this week. So, I didn't exercise, it really didn't even cross my mind........maybe a few times, but didn't stick. And I KNOW if I had, I would have felt soooo much better, I always do, but I didn't. But, I did find a new website to alleviate stress and free my mind a bit, because when you are not exercising, SP seems to be the last place you want to be. (It's a guilt thing.) So, I found Pinterest, are any of you on it? It's a dreamer paradise. So incredibly fun, I love it. No, I don't want to spend all my free time on there and not exercise anymore, I just was appreciative of it this week. It really eased my weary mind. So if any of you are on there, or get on that site, message me your name, and I'll give you mine and we can follow eachother.........it's soooo fun!
So, I hope all of you beautiful people had a better week than me. I plan on starting this new one on a better foot. I have my first doctors appointment on Wednesday, very excited. Found out the clinic I am going through uses primarily midwives throughout the prenatal process, which makes me very happy, I would have loved to just get a midwife and do it at home, like my mother and SIL, but my husband couldn't handle that, at all!!!!
I missed you guys this week, hope you are rocking those fit mins and hitting all your nutritional markers. Praying I can be in the land of mantaining for as long as possible with this pregnancy, not looking forward to gaining (hence the reason I was so guilty for not exercising this week).........hopefully it will be controlled gaining!!!
Love you guys!
Monday, February 13, 2012
I am thinking as if the 5 home pregnancy tests were not enough to know that I am def. pregnant, I had to wait for the "official" test from the doctor. So, yes, it is real. Doc said it's I'm prego, so I'm really prego! I have turned in the last of my medi-cal papers and started the WIC program. Seems like even though I'm not always sure how my next meal is going to get to me, this whole pregnancy thing might just work out smoother than I'd expected. Being poor isn't the end of the world, it's just an excuse to get crafty in all the little ways we can pinch pennies and still have a quality life. Feels kind of good to know that even in the hardest times, God still looks out for me. A kind word from a friend, some sincere advice from another, this road really isn't all that bad. I feel like this little baby might just have a chance after all!!!
Hope you all had a nice Valentines weekend, or have something nice planned for tomorrow. I really appreciate the love and support you've all freely given me. It's brought so much strength and peace. I hope your week has started off well. Good luck in all of your adventures both present and future.
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Today in church the message really hit home, and as I thought about it, I realized it was applicable to weight loss and healthy living also. The pastor brought up 5 key points, to remember in life to help you get over trials/achieve your dreams:
Don't be anxious or fret over your toubles. Hard times will inevitably come, but we don't have to sink down into the muck and mud, we can attempt to remain positive, and looking forward. Dwelling on the bad that is going on around us leaves no room for the positive future to take hold.
Pray for anything and everything (to whatever it is you hold as holy). Do not cease with prayer, ask for anything you need/desire.........patience, persistence, stregth, hope, etc.
In your prayer, have a heart of thanksgiving. Rejoice in what you have, and let God (or whoever you see as your creator) know in abundance how thankful you are for all that is given to you each and every day.
Think right thoughts. Do not pay too much attention to the dark or down thoughts. Do mantras of peace, light and love. The power of thought is overwhelming.
When we do these things in faith, there is a peace that is promised. We must remember this, and hold steady and fast until this peace is acheived.
I see these 5 elements as key to my life, and also as keys to anything we really want to achieve, with lasting effects, in life. I know you may not all believe in God, but most of us believe in something higher than ourselves, something that created this wild, wonderful world and all of it's inhabitants. Draw on that strength, it is there waiting to be called upon, to assist you in achieving your peace.
Hope you all had a great weekend!!
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