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Big day with bubba

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Had a great day, didn't do anything special, worked this morning, didn't get much done around the house, but still had a great day!!

Yep, that's about how it felt................somewhere like that, in my heart and mind.

And here is a little part of what made the day fun............

Cute hubby!

Cute me!!!

It's amazing after 8 years, and having no money, and all that we've been through these last months, we can still make eachother laugh. And really, isn't that what it's all about really, a little love and happiness? So, off to play some Atari and Tetris with the hubs, gonna kick his booty when we get to Tetris!!!!

Hope you had a great weekend. Love where you are and who you are with, because tomorrow is not a gaurantee............but we do have right here, right now.

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HIPPICHICK1 1/31/2012 6:49PM

Ya freakin' hillbillies!!
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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 1/30/2012 2:38PM

    Aw, so cute! Thanks for this blog to remind me what's really important!

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RIDMYCOCOON 1/30/2012 11:53AM

    Ooohhh, ho, ho, hee, hee, ha-ha!! That is soooo funny! wooh emoticon I really got a big laugh out of these.

The first pic is so splendid!

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EMRANA 1/29/2012 11:48AM

  Awww....loved this!

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BLUE42DOWN 1/28/2012 10:51PM

    emoticon Enjoy the rest of your weekend!

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KAYECAN 1/28/2012 10:04PM

    Here's to keeping life simple!!! I love your attitude. For some reason when I read your insightful blogs, I think to myself......"somebody did a good job raising that girl".
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LEEHAME64 1/28/2012 9:34PM

  Wow. Great blog. Thank You!!!

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Losing feels great

Friday, January 27, 2012

Well after I don't know how many months of not losing, recovering from the holidays, family drama, etc., etc..........I am losing weight again and it feels great. I am drinking all my water, exercising everyday, tracking all food and not giving in to the inner whiner. I was going rather slow on the treadmill last night, which actually allowed me to go longer...........and when I was done and tracked the minutes/calories/miles ratio on here, it turns out I burned just as many calories going slow and long and I would have short and fast...............OK, not brain surgery, but YES another little epiphany!!! So, I realized, even if I really, really don't want to, I can always find the energy for an hour leisurely stroll, either outside or on the treadmill, so hey, no all, to not kick booty. It's just certain times of the month, or after work on a particularly busy day, I just plain don't have the energy to run, or give it 110%..............but I realized last night that even 50% is better than 0%, and there is no end to this journey. I am not going to wake up one day, having achieved a perfect BMI and then never have to worry about exercise or calorie intake again.............nope not gonna happen. So, may as well be happy over the little tiny good days, just as much as the BIG HUGE good days. Yeah, I am really in a philosophical period of my weight loss journey.........I've failed so very many times, and I finally see that I am not going to fail..............and I am really learning something about myself and others and life and goals and lots of things by not giving up. By being consistant I am being alive, and alive feels pretty great. Much better than drowing in food fog year after year.

Back to work, hope you all get your groove on today, I know I will be.

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WENDYLEE15 1/28/2012 4:58PM

    So happy for you!! Keep it going ( I KNOW you WILL ) !!
Hugs and Blessings !!

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GIRLUNDEFEATED 1/27/2012 11:11PM

    "50% is better than 0%" I love that!! Great attitude! Keep it up!! YOU CAN DO IT!!

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MACILINN 1/27/2012 8:09PM

    I love your blog, it sounds just like me! I made this yr my goal setting yr, and that means I plan to keep moving towards my goal wt. Little by little. so far so good! This is a tough thing to do, (actually doing what we plan) but it is doable and you are right every lil bit counts! Have a goal winning yr yourself!

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 1/27/2012 6:59PM

    Ok! off to get my groove on...!
and way to go! emoticon

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KAYECAN 1/27/2012 6:33PM

    I think you should go back to blogging every day because I love reading about all your positive epiphanies. Reading your blog made me realize my own discovery today. I had foot surgery a few months ago and am still having trouble with my big toe, but as I was on my treadmill this afternoon, I realized that it hurt just as much going slow as it did going faster. Even changing the incline didn't help. So I guess you could say, I had my own little epiphany today....not as philosophical as your's perhaps, but I'm catching on. I just need to read your blogs more to get the hang of it.
I love your positive interpretation of your journey!!! It will be good for me to follow your journey.


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SAPHRAEL 1/27/2012 4:22PM

    Yes! Way to get back on track. A food fog is a great way to describe it when we aren't doing the right things to be healthy. Your blog reminded me to go track my Zumba class I took yesterday. I think I have enough time left to reach my 1,000 fitness minute goal this month.

Happy Friday!

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Little epiphanies

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

On my morning walk, which I didn't really want to do, but did anyway, I came across a simple little epiphany. I realized, as I hit the chilly morning air, taking one step at a time, slowly, reluctantly even, nearly turning back multiple times, something quite true, quite real came to me about the path I'm on. I realized that my weight loss journey is a lot like that walk, and a lot like life. Today's walk really was the first time I just wasn't feeling it, but in return for following through, even though I didn't want to, I saw that this whole journey, in weight loss and in life is taken just one step at a time, just like my walk this morning. If I would have stopped, or turned around, I would not have reached my destination. By not stopping though, and by not turning around, just taking it one step at a time, I did reach my goal, and felt pretty darn good about it. So one little step at a time, in the right direction, without stopping or turning around will indeed, always lead you ultimately in the direction of your goal. I can't fail at weight loss, or at life if I just take one little step at a time, in the right direction. Yeah, simple, I know, but for some reason this morning, it felt quite profound. Wonder as the years go by what other simple jewels of life I will come upon. (Reading this right now makes me see that this really is the mission statement of SP!! Funny that it's taken nearly 5 months to hit me!!!! )

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SAPHRAEL 1/27/2012 4:29PM

    Quiet contemplation is the truly wonderful thing about going for a walk. I'm glad yours was fruitful!

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MIZCATHI 1/27/2012 11:41AM

    It's so simple to reach a goal or a milestone... one step at a time. The only thing we have to do is to not give up. Nice blog!

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HIPPICHICK1 1/27/2012 11:06AM

    It really IS that simple.

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RIDMYCOCOON 1/27/2012 9:18AM

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I love it!!

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WENDYLEE15 1/26/2012 12:26PM

    Well said !! We must continue to reward ourselves with "each" step we take..they are all so important !1 One step at a time :)

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KAYECAN 1/25/2012 10:45PM

    Your blog was like a poem and well-written. Made me actually feel what you were trying to get across. How right you are. You forgot to mention the little mudpuddles along the walk or the train whistle blowing, because life does happen, even when we are walking, but you are step at a time in the right direction.
Thank you for reminding us it can be as simple as just that.
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SUNSHINE99999 1/25/2012 10:04PM

  I'm glad it hit you. Keep on stepping.

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The Ideal Me

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Reading a blog on here really inspired me to do this for myself. Because I love myself, deeply, truly, fully, and dearly, and I deserve to have dreams, vibrant dreams, dreams that if not dreamt of first, could never manifest in reality. Regardless of what is going on in life, or what stresses spiral up, around and about me, my dreams are still important. So, in the spirit of self admiration and sweet, lofty, lovely dreams, I will dream up my vision of the Ideal Me.

The ideal me loves into every action, word, thought, and feeling each and every moment of everday. Love for myself, my world, my family, my sexy/impossibly complicated/hilarious/unpredictable spouse, my body, my past, present and future, my God and anyone and everything that comes my way, regardless of it's initial impact of pleasure or pain.

Personal health and beauty:
The ideal me has a very balanced, interesting, open-minded, creative, loving relationship to all kinds of unique, invigorating, ethnic, wholesome, vital, healthily produced, dynamic foods, supplements, tonics, cleanses, fibers, emoillents, and body and hair ointments of any and every kind, both for ingestion and topical applications, preferably all homemade, or locally bought, or produced by small, righteous businesses. The ideal me knows, and applies said knowledge in all areas of recipes both traditional and unique, using above mentioned goodies, fresh herbs, oils, flower essences of all nature of pure and wonderful ingredients, all homegrown or locally purchased. In my ideal universe my husband loves every well balanced, nutritious and delicious meal I make, and plays an active role in all of my cooking/gardening/creating processes so that we grow together in health and in love.

The ideal me travels often and freely, being just as comfortable in The Hamptons as I am visiting a tribe in Uganda. I exeperience the world in all it's lustrous vibrance, and create unique and compelling works of photographic and poetic beauty to depict to those around me the granduer of a life unfettered. I have the time, money and energy to research thoroughly the art, history, architecture and geographic nuances of each area before I go there, thus having a broad idea of the must sees/dos. I engage in a variety of outdoor activities from snorkling and scuba diving, to snow skiing, dirt bike riding, ziplining, mountain climbing, kayaking, hangliding, sky diving, river rafting, parasailing and any and every other activity that peaks my interest, and I do them in the best places in the world that they can be done.

The ideal me has enough time and energy to be an active and productive part of the charity of my choice, ideally the local homeless shelter. I have enough money and time to devote myself to the real needs of the community, and I educate myself in all ways that will better my relationship to the people in need.

The ideal me looks at my body and sees a flawless work of art. I am comfortable for any occasion in any attire. I am free to be me. I exercise consistantly, and enjoy the process. I love to be healthy, and I love doing what it takes to mantain health. My outer layers reflect the luminosity of my inner life.

The ideal me has a perfect balance between work, play, volunteering, healthy lifestyle and a happy relationship with my loved ones. I do not neglect my art, and have enough time, space and money to do any project I wish, without holding back due to lack of any of these key elements. I love my work, but also my life and do not let either aspect overtake the other, but instead nurish one another. I can't see exactly what the ideal me is doing for money? Art, healing, teaching, or maybe still barbering?! I have a draw to all of them, but the work isn't really what matters to me, it's what comes from the work, the relationships that are forged and the love that is made.

The ideal me loves myself and God so much that I never have to guess wether I am being punished for being bad, or wether I have earned God's love and mercy or not. The ideal me knows that to be alive is to experience times or pleasure and times of pain, and that in the times of pain I must see that I have not fallen from God's good graces, nor should I feel guilty towards myself for being human. The ideal me follows through on all promptings from God, no matter how big or small, and when I can't or don't, I do not go into a desperate despair, but instead see that as an opportunity for positive improvement. I love my God, myself, and everything in creation with all my heart, mind and spirit.

Past, present and future:
The ideal me does not live in the past or the future, but instead in the here and now. I forgive myself and others for what happened in the past and I accept that the future is unkown, but that I will have all the tools and energy I need to get through anything and everything that comes my way. The present is just that, a present, or gift, to be opened each morning, and to be in awe and amazement at what enfolds each dawn til dusk.

We are such wild, brave creatures, with amazing and dynamic spiritual histories. We must not stop dreaming, for it is truly within the dreams that our future realities are sculpted. So for a moment, forget what your boss or spouse said or did, forget how your kids are doing in school, forget what you used to look like or how you used to feel, forget what you didn't get right today, or what you are not looking forward to dealing with tomorrow, and dream with me. It can be a HUGE fantastical dream like mine, or maybe something a little more attainable, the point is, it's all yours, unique and authentic just to you. The Ideal You is waiting to be take a little jaunt, and see who you uncover, waiting patiently, under the surface to be remembered and loved.

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RIDMYCOCOON 1/24/2012 9:33AM

    I really cannot put to words how this post has made me feel. You have rendered me speechless (and that doesn't happen very often) I feel like these are words from an Angel.You have touched me very deeply just now. I will return and read this often.

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CROOKEDLETTER 1/23/2012 7:42AM

    The trick is to put parts of some of those dreams in place in less than ideal real world situations right now (which I believe you already are). And to remember that this moment, this less than ideal moment in this less than ideal life is full of beauty and grace and love. Here's to ideal and here's to less than ideal!

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    I LOVE THIS. I especially like the first line in your God paragraph. Your page is beautiful and your thoughts are wonderful. You have it in you to be whom you wish to be. I have faith after reading through this blog that can be anyone or anything you wish to be!

God bless you!



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PROT358 1/22/2012 10:14PM

    Wow, what a beautiful, well thought out blog! Very insightful! Thank you for your bravery in sharing.

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WENDYLEE15 1/22/2012 8:11PM

    Beautiful blog !! I really enjoyed reading it. Really makes me think :)!! emoticon

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LAURIE-RN 1/22/2012 1:42PM

    I love your vision. It's really neat to spend some time thinking about how we see ourselves and what we hope to be.

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Food journal

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Started a food diary this week and it REALLY helps. I was getting so frustrated with trying to log my food all day, and not having time, and forgetting and getting more frustrated, sooooooooooooo I started a food journal. Now if I happen to miss a day, I can still log it the next day! Pretty cool.

This week flew by, didn't get all my fitness time in, but had a really great walk today. Been SUPER busy at work, makes the time fly by, and puts a good chunk of change in my pocket at the end of the day.

A few weeks ago my husband unexpectedly found out that he has family living in our town. He found out by seeing his great uncles obituary in the paper. The funeral was last weekend. It was small and sweet, some old family pics were shown on a slide show, tears ensued. But the oddest part occured when we went to the reception. After we walked in, and stumbled through the crowd, we spotted, back in the corner, a good friend of ours. In fact one of the ONLY people we have really gotten to know since we've moved to Nor Cal. We went camping with her and her husband this summer, have BBQ's with them, etc., and they are the only couple we have spent any real time with in about 5 years of living here. So, admittedly, we were a bit shocked to see her there, she doesn't live in our town, which makes it even more remarkable. Turns out, she is an old friend of the family, her mother and my husband's great uncle's daughter are best friends. She was actually telling my husband and I who was who and how he was related to them at the reception!!!! (Since my husband was raised in Georgia, and all of them were raised here, and he had only met one of the people there before, when he was a kid, he was a bit confused that day as to who was who.) So, that was quite an event. We were pretty blown away that day, still are in many ways! We are now connected to all the family that lives locally, shared numbers, e-mail, etc. and have an opportunity to build new memories, and share old ones. Pretty cool!!!

Been working 6 days a week, for financial reasons, not so bad, just a little tiring. I LOVE my job, and it is really rewarding, but I also love my home time too. But, alas, I am done making excuses as to why I can't be healthy, working 6 days a week or not. And I finally FULLY realize just how eating better, exercising and drinking lots of fresh water REALLY, REALLY make me feel better. So, that's what I am planning to do, for the rest of my life...............YAY!!

Hope you all have a great weekend!
Hugs ( LOVE virtual hugging, I would give real ones if I could ;)!)

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ME_HERE_NOW 1/25/2012 12:04AM

    working 6 days a week has put a damper on my exercise too, hoping the work busy-ness is burning some cals ;) much love to you my girl! keep chippin away, you are doing a fantastic job of making a healthy lifestyle fit into your world!

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BUTTERFLYAT38 1/23/2012 12:16AM

    emoticon emoticon Sense of family and community is a wonderful thing but that you have each other is a greater gift! Friends if you want them can be made with or without the extended familty..but each other..thats a gold mine :)) emoticon

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