Saturday, January 21, 2012
Started a food diary this week and it REALLY helps. I was getting so frustrated with trying to log my food all day, and not having time, and forgetting and getting more frustrated, sooooooooooooo I started a food journal. Now if I happen to miss a day, I can still log it the next day! Pretty cool.
This week flew by, didn't get all my fitness time in, but had a really great walk today. Been SUPER busy at work, makes the time fly by, and puts a good chunk of change in my pocket at the end of the day.
A few weeks ago my husband unexpectedly found out that he has family living in our town. He found out by seeing his great uncles obituary in the paper. The funeral was last weekend. It was small and sweet, some old family pics were shown on a slide show, tears ensued. But the oddest part occured when we went to the reception. After we walked in, and stumbled through the crowd, we spotted, back in the corner, a good friend of ours. In fact one of the ONLY people we have really gotten to know since we've moved to Nor Cal. We went camping with her and her husband this summer, have BBQ's with them, etc., and they are the only couple we have spent any real time with in about 5 years of living here. So, admittedly, we were a bit shocked to see her there, she doesn't live in our town, which makes it even more remarkable. Turns out, she is an old friend of the family, her mother and my husband's great uncle's daughter are best friends. She was actually telling my husband and I who was who and how he was related to them at the reception!!!! (Since my husband was raised in Georgia, and all of them were raised here, and he had only met one of the people there before, when he was a kid, he was a bit confused that day as to who was who.) So, that was quite an event. We were pretty blown away that day, still are in many ways! We are now connected to all the family that lives locally, shared numbers, e-mail, etc. and have an opportunity to build new memories, and share old ones. Pretty cool!!!
Been working 6 days a week, for financial reasons, not so bad, just a little tiring. I LOVE my job, and it is really rewarding, but I also love my home time too. But, alas, I am done making excuses as to why I can't be healthy, working 6 days a week or not. And I finally FULLY realize just how eating better, exercising and drinking lots of fresh water REALLY, REALLY make me feel better. So, that's what I am planning to do, for the rest of my life...............YAY!!
Hope you all have a great weekend!
Hugs ( LOVE virtual hugging, I would give real ones if I could ;)!)
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Ok, so SP is not a bar like Cheers, and we don't necessarily know eachother's first names, but sometimes it really just feels like the most peaceful place to end the day............kinda like the "Cheers" atmosphere I was always looking for, without the alcohol and salty snacks.
Things are still unstable with my sister, haven't heard anything from her in a few days, and she in not responding to my text messages, so I am assuming she just wants to be left alone. It's hard for me to let go and realize that she is old enough to make her own decisions. I still want to baby her..........she is the baby of the family, I remember changing her diapers. Anyway, that is a sad/scary situation, but I'm sure it will all work out the way it is supposed to. I've been praying every night, and with the support of you beautiful people, I am seeing that it will be OK.
Looks like my adorable/crazy/anxious husband might get back to work next week. That is a BIG MIGHT, not sure. If he does, well, that will be great financially, not sure how good it will be for him. We are just going to take it one day at a time. I am going to miss him being here, but I can't pay all of our bills alone, so it will be good to have some more money coming in.
I've been taking wonderful evening walks, even took one while talking on the cell phone to my cousin and walked 3.5 miles without even realizing it. I've never really considered exercising outside in the evening, until recently, and it seems to be a new discovery that continues to excite me. I mean, it gets dark so early, and most people are still out doing errands/shopping etc., so walking the lighted streets seems pretty safe to me. Does anyone else do this?
Work has been pretty good. My boss was having some stressful problems with the third barber, but as of yesterday, decided to put her into the other room and keep her on women's hair only, which is a HUGE weight off my shoulders. I was having to kind of babysit her in a way and it was really stressful for me. She isn't very good with men's hair, but is amazing with women's, so it's worked out perfectly for us..........way better than having to fire her completely. We went up in our prices for the new year, and I've seen a pretty good increase in my take home pay since then. I work commission, so a raise in ratese quals a direct raise for me!!! Hee, I'm happy about that, especially with my husband being out of work.
Well, I should be laying down now. Sweet dreams dear ones, hope you all have a great weekend.
Monday, January 09, 2012
Well, it's Tuesday and I'm only 10 minutes away from finishing my weeks fitness minutes goal. Hopefully, I'll use that as inspiration to surpass my goal and push on through to the other side!!! I haven't been logging my food as diligently as I need to, and I know that this is the number one key to my success. I love to exercise, that is not hard for me to do, but I also love to eat, and eating in my range is quite hard for me to do. So, this week is about staying in my calorie range and drinking my 8 cups of water everyday without fail.
Things have been hard, possibly harder than I've ever experienced. My husband has been out of work for 3 months, our car got repossesed ( praise God my mom gave us the money to get it out), my sister went manic and verbally attatcked everyone in the family. My mom couldn't take it so she kicked her out and now she is roaming the streets in Humboldt county with no job, no money, and a car that is not registered or insured. It is only a matter of time until her cell phone will get cut off and then we will have no way to contact her. I am so worried about her I can barely stand it. But she doesn't want help. She knows she is manic, but she won't go to a doctor, and she is being violent with everyone she comes into contact with. Her friends even turned her away. I am really scared for her and there is nothing I can do. So I pray, everyday.
And amongst all of this, I have realized that if I don't stay strong and healthy I will be no good for myself or anyone else. So I've been exercising everday, and trying as hard as I can to not overeat or do anything else that will compromise my health. I don't know what tomorrow will hold, but with God's help everyday I find the strength to stay positive and hopeful for a better tomorrow.
I know airing your dirty laundry for the world to see is not always the best way to handle hard times. But one thing I've learned recently is that sometimes talking about the hard times brings unexpected advice or help that I wouldn't be able to get if I stayed quiet and pretended nothing was happening. Thanks to this community I do have some tools in life's basket to help me manuever through these trying times without getting depressed and without masking my emotions with food. Doesn't mean it's easy, doesn't mean I'm doing everything the way I want to, but I'm trying. I'm a willing vessel and I feel that this willingness for positive change is giving me the strength to see that I can survive life's hurdles, and come out on the other side wiser, stronger and more able to handle anything that comes my way.
I hope you all are surviving your own hurdles. Health really is more valuable than any riches this world can offer, and SP offers the clearest, best tools to acheive that healthy balance. Thanks for reading this, your comments and freindship have been priceless to me.
Take care, be strong, love big, no regrets. We have a beautiful future awaiting us, we just have to take the wheel and steer this ship into the peaceful waters of life that we all have available to us when we stay strong, focused and healthy.
Love you guys.
Monday, January 02, 2012
Just stole this from a blog I read that was suggested by my good friend RITZIBROWN. Instead of reposting the blog, I just stole the clip attatched. Hope you like it as much as I did. And I also am glad I got off my booty today for 45 minutes........wasn't hard, just had to get up and do it.
Saturday, December 31, 2011
As I sit here at work, counting down the time til the clock hits 12pm and I can go home, I am thinking of all the things I am thankful for. This has really been a great year, and finding SP and starting my healthy lifestyle is definitely the peak of the goodness that has come my way this year. I am really glad to know that I can royally geek out, take time off from calorie counting and exercise and still get back into the swing of things without completely beating myself up. I've already lost a pound this week, and I feel like this really is my life now. I don't look at a timeline anymore, when it happens it happens, and my goals have changed a bit, instead of looking at the 100 pound "ideal" weight loss goal, I've come to realize that even half of that would be monumental, and I will be so happy when I've achieved that......and I'm on my way!!!
Went on my first evening exercise jaunt last night with my hubby. It was really nice. We bundled up and just started walking, sticking to the lighted streets. When we got home, all sweaty and wanting some water, I found out I'd locked us out of the apartment!! Heeee, sorry babe!!! But our managers are so cool and we've lived here awhile and they know us, so when we called, she came right out with a smile on her face, at 8pm, in the cold, and got us unlocked! I love this place, I mean, there is nothing glamourous about apartment living, but it is quite a nice little community! Then the oddest thing happened, as soon as we got in, there was a knock at the door, my husband answered and it was a little boy selling the paper. We don't get it yet, they were doing a 3 month trial offer for really cheap, so we said sure............he was just too cute to say no to. Anyway, my husband opened the front page, took one look and started crying. Now mind you, he is still having his anxiety/depression, so I was a little concerned, but he has been crying often lately. So, I watched his face as it turned from tears to a baffled stare. After about a minute of wondering what in the world he was looking at, he finally showed me, it took me a minute to register who's obituary shot I was looking at, then finally it hit me. It was his great uncle. We heard years ago that he "might" live in our town.......which is quite a small city, less than 50,000 right now I believe. We actually went looking for him a few years back, made it to the house, and decided last minute not to knock on the door because we got the feeling that younger people lived there. The real reason this is so incredible to us is becuase we live in California, and my husband, and his uncle are both from Georgia, my husband has not seen this man since he was 19. My husband was raised by his grand father, the brother of the deceased uncle, and now, for the first time since my husband has been in California (15 years) he has a connection to the family of the most important person in his life. It is terribly sad that we didn't knock on that door those years back, but now we can talk to his wife, kids, grandkids, etc. After we saw the obituary, my husband instantly googled his uncles name and address and got a phone number, called it and his aunt answered, although he doesn't remember her, she rememberd him from when he was a kid. Mind you this was a great uncle that lived in California his whole life, so it wasn't someone he was around very much, BUT, but to my husband this is HUGE. His whole family is gone, both parents, step-parents and grandparents have all passed away. He has a half brother and sister, his two boys and me, that is the extent of his family. So to find out that he has family, right here in our small town is really, really overwhelming to be honest. We've been invited over for lunch sometime next week, then we are going to the funeral where we might meet up with the sister of his grandpa and uncle that my husband has only heard of and never met. This is such a lovely connection for my husband because his grandad was God on earth for him, and to be able to meet some of his family is really amazing. I'm so glad we came home from our walk when we did, and that we bought the paper, because on another, less joyous night, we might have denied the little paper boy, since we have never recieved the paper before.............and we really have no real desire to take it now, it was just a God thing, that is the only way we can explain it. We would never have seen that obituary if we hadn't have opened that door and said yes to that little paper boy. Anyway, this coudln't have come at a better time, with my husband being so depressed and having these severe anxiety attacks recently. I think this is the light in his life that he needs right now, a connection to his past that he hasn't had in nearly 20 years. So, that is my excitement for today. Sorry this was a bit rambling, I'm just so excited to see how these family meetings/relationships will grow. I guess all of their family lives in this general area, they've been here for over 40 years, working and living in this town. Wow, you just never know what life holds for you!!!!
Happy New Year! Love to you all.
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