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Monday, January 02, 2012

Just stole this from a blog I read that was suggested by my good friend RITZIBROWN. Instead of reposting the blog, I just stole the clip attatched. Hope you like it as much as I did. And I also am glad I got off my booty today for 45 minutes........wasn't hard, just had to get up and do it.

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RIDMYCOCOON 1/4/2012 3:14PM

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BUTTERFLYAT38 1/3/2012 10:31PM

    emoticon emoticon so true..if we dont move it we lose it baby! LOL

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PRAYINGSUZIE 1/3/2012 3:27PM

    Thank you! This was so informative!!


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ME_HERE_NOW 1/3/2012 10:38AM

    hey i have your background pic on my computer tooooo ;) way to go on getting busy, nothing feels better than getting active and shakin the sillies out ;)

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ANEWME42012 1/3/2012 3:16AM

    I love this! A friend posted a link on facebook. It is fantastic!

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GODDESS181 1/2/2012 11:18PM

    This is great!
Thank you sooooo much for sharing!
We can do this!
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Happy New Year!!!!

Saturday, December 31, 2011

As I sit here at work, counting down the time til the clock hits 12pm and I can go home, I am thinking of all the things I am thankful for. This has really been a great year, and finding SP and starting my healthy lifestyle is definitely the peak of the goodness that has come my way this year. I am really glad to know that I can royally geek out, take time off from calorie counting and exercise and still get back into the swing of things without completely beating myself up. I've already lost a pound this week, and I feel like this really is my life now. I don't look at a timeline anymore, when it happens it happens, and my goals have changed a bit, instead of looking at the 100 pound "ideal" weight loss goal, I've come to realize that even half of that would be monumental, and I will be so happy when I've achieved that......and I'm on my way!!!

Went on my first evening exercise jaunt last night with my hubby. It was really nice. We bundled up and just started walking, sticking to the lighted streets. When we got home, all sweaty and wanting some water, I found out I'd locked us out of the apartment!! Heeee, sorry babe!!! But our managers are so cool and we've lived here awhile and they know us, so when we called, she came right out with a smile on her face, at 8pm, in the cold, and got us unlocked! I love this place, I mean, there is nothing glamourous about apartment living, but it is quite a nice little community! Then the oddest thing happened, as soon as we got in, there was a knock at the door, my husband answered and it was a little boy selling the paper. We don't get it yet, they were doing a 3 month trial offer for really cheap, so we said sure............he was just too cute to say no to. Anyway, my husband opened the front page, took one look and started crying. Now mind you, he is still having his anxiety/depression, so I was a little concerned, but he has been crying often lately. So, I watched his face as it turned from tears to a baffled stare. After about a minute of wondering what in the world he was looking at, he finally showed me, it took me a minute to register who's obituary shot I was looking at, then finally it hit me. It was his great uncle. We heard years ago that he "might" live in our town.......which is quite a small city, less than 50,000 right now I believe. We actually went looking for him a few years back, made it to the house, and decided last minute not to knock on the door because we got the feeling that younger people lived there. The real reason this is so incredible to us is becuase we live in California, and my husband, and his uncle are both from Georgia, my husband has not seen this man since he was 19. My husband was raised by his grand father, the brother of the deceased uncle, and now, for the first time since my husband has been in California (15 years) he has a connection to the family of the most important person in his life. It is terribly sad that we didn't knock on that door those years back, but now we can talk to his wife, kids, grandkids, etc. After we saw the obituary, my husband instantly googled his uncles name and address and got a phone number, called it and his aunt answered, although he doesn't remember her, she rememberd him from when he was a kid. Mind you this was a great uncle that lived in California his whole life, so it wasn't someone he was around very much, BUT, but to my husband this is HUGE. His whole family is gone, both parents, step-parents and grandparents have all passed away. He has a half brother and sister, his two boys and me, that is the extent of his family. So to find out that he has family, right here in our small town is really, really overwhelming to be honest. We've been invited over for lunch sometime next week, then we are going to the funeral where we might meet up with the sister of his grandpa and uncle that my husband has only heard of and never met. This is such a lovely connection for my husband because his grandad was God on earth for him, and to be able to meet some of his family is really amazing. I'm so glad we came home from our walk when we did, and that we bought the paper, because on another, less joyous night, we might have denied the little paper boy, since we have never recieved the paper before.............and we really have no real desire to take it now, it was just a God thing, that is the only way we can explain it. We would never have seen that obituary if we hadn't have opened that door and said yes to that little paper boy. Anyway, this coudln't have come at a better time, with my husband being so depressed and having these severe anxiety attacks recently. I think this is the light in his life that he needs right now, a connection to his past that he hasn't had in nearly 20 years. So, that is my excitement for today. Sorry this was a bit rambling, I'm just so excited to see how these family meetings/relationships will grow. I guess all of their family lives in this general area, they've been here for over 40 years, working and living in this town. Wow, you just never know what life holds for you!!!!

Happy New Year! Love to you all.

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ME_HERE_NOW 1/1/2012 1:23PM

    i hope your husband enjoys reconnecting with his long lost family, i know how hard it is to feel adrift and without family connections. hopefully this year he can also make stronger connections with his friends and really rely on them as a support network, i hope you both have an amazing new year in store once you get over this first awful event. xoxo. congrats also on heading out for a walk, fixin to do the same myself!

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CROOKEDLETTER 12/31/2011 2:56PM

    What a lovely gift to you both! And a great way to end one year and start another.

Sending good wishes to both of you as you meet some of his family for the first time.

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HIPPICHICK1 12/31/2011 2:04PM

    What a wonderful story!
Happy New Year to you as well.
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FITANDFIFTY2 12/31/2011 1:04PM

    How awesome for you that you found family, right there in your town!! What a way to start a New Year!! I hope you have a Happy New Year too... emoticon

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Surprised motivation

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Well, don't know exactly how long I've been off track, but I haven't been on here in a little over a month. Much drama ensued these last months, the most overwhelming being my husbands incessant panic attacks that have left him spending most of his days in bed, crying.(Went to ER on Christmas Eve with an especially bad one.) So, of course, I relied on my 31 year old actions of overeating, and lethargy to help me deal with this stress and worry. I went from losing 17 pounds and 19 inches in two months, to being afraid to get on the scale or pull out the tape measure last night. But I did break down and get on the scale this morning, and was pleasantly surprised. My nearly two month binger resulted in a 4 pound gain. So in four months I've lost 13 pounds............not anywhere near where I'd imagined I'd be by now. But I'm learning. I remembered how good I felt when I was exercising and coutning my calories and eating more fruits and veggies and drinking all my water. And wow, in just over a month, I felt TERRIBLE, both the guilty kind of terrible that goes along with letting myself down, and physically terrible from overeating and under activity. So, even though my stress levels are quite high...........(can't pay bils, worried about my husband and when he is going to get better, worried about my own health because being bi-polar myself, stress affects me quite negatively) I must trudge on. I can't give up on myself, I don't want to. Everyday these last weeks I've been thinking about eating better and exercising. I just couldn't do it, but I wanted to. So today..............started off with whole grain cereal, lowfat yogurt and blueberries. I've got my water cup filled, and I went on a 2.5 mile bike ride. I can't believe how much things can change in such a short amount of time. Right before I stopped exercising I was up to over 8 mile bike rides, with energy for more.......burning 300-400 calories, this morning, my 2.5 mile ride was HARD and in the time it took me, I only burned just over 100 calories!!! Wow, it really doesn't take long to fall back to the starting line. But, the one thing I do have is the desire, and a plan to get started again. I am going back to my fast break goals, and am going to try to meet those everyday.

I want to thank all of you who kept me in your thoughts and checked in on me when I was gone. I missed you more than I knew and I appreciate you endlessly.

And to all of you who have already lost most of your wieght and have been mantaining for awhile...............WWWOOOO Double HOOOOOOOOOO to you. You have always been my heroes, but in my recent absence, I am in renewed awe of your determination, strength and stamina through the ups and downs of life. You all are helping me keep my eye on the prize!

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SAPHRAEL 12/29/2011 10:05PM

    I'm glad you're still hanging in.


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BUTTERFLYAT38 12/29/2011 8:16PM

    Girl i am proud of you. You are strong. It will be fine. This life is like a roller coaster with ups and downs and the fact that you are focusing on your goals through one of the lows is just absolutely awesome!! So proud of you. You are doing great and I am so glad that you are back. emoticon

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ME_HERE_NOW 12/28/2011 9:44PM

    girl, all of us have stumbled, it's the getting back on track that counts, small changes, slowly over time, just like at the start allow you to build motivation all over again, you have your whole life, so take your time, and use your exercise to help you de-stress. thinking of you! xoxo!

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CROOKEDLETTER 12/28/2011 6:27PM

    Sending big hugs your way. You should be very happy that a month of drama only resulted in 4 pound gain. And very proud of yourself for not wasting lots of time beating yourself up, but starting fresh today. I'm sending my best wishes to you and your husband. Hope he gets some relief soon.

May the new year bring you health and happiness!

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LILY8486 12/28/2011 6:17PM

I am sorry to hear about your husbands panic attacks. I do know how hard this makes things!
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It is wonderful to hear your goals and the way you are bouncing back.. i can hear the light and determination in your voice. We are here for you!!!!! emoticon

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WENDYLEE15 12/28/2011 5:46PM

    emoticon I am so glad your back!! Hopefully you can get back on track!! I have been here the whole time and went from 206 back up to just a little over a month.My emotional eating has been way out of control..but I too am wanting to go back to feeling great when I was eating better and working out.We will do this..we know we let's start this new year out right !!

I hope your husband gets to feeling better I know how debilitating those can be!!
Take care,

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MISS_CURVES24 12/28/2011 3:05PM

    I do hope things get better for you. Having a spouse that is sick or in pain does add to the stress immensely (I gained 50+ pounds when our 3 y/o was diagnosed with autism and Cerebral palsy). I want to let you know that you aren't alone! I applaude you for recognizing you were making unhealthy choices, and having the drive in the end to fix them! That's picking yourself up and dusting off, and that's GREAT! Be very happy with those 13 pounds lost, keep a smile on, and keep faith!! emoticon

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I didn't gain any weight!!!!

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

So instead of being unhappy that I haven't lost much this last month...........I'm now celebrating that I haven't gained any this last week!! So happy. It was a REALLY long hard week, in fact so long and hard that I slept my entire weekend, two whole days. I haven't done that in years and years. My sister went missing for 26 hours, we all panicked and it was a HORRIBLE day, that was early last week, and I didn't really recover from that stress until today!!!! It was really bad. I am glad she is OK, I am glad it was nothing bad, it's just wild the thoughts that run through your head when you think someone you love might be hurt. It's overwhelming. I'm really excited for Thanksgiving, gonna have a houseful at my mom's. Thanksgiving has always been my favorite holiday. I am definitely trying to do it healthy this year, my goal is to drink my 8 cups of water and track everything I eat....................I'm not too worried about staying in my calorie range, if I go a "little" over, I'll be OK with that. I know that's not a great way to think of it, but that is what makes me feel good. I hope you all have a lovely time with your friends and families.

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ME_HERE_NOW 11/24/2011 4:15AM

    hope you enjoy(ed) reasonable portions of all your faves, turn(ed) down the resistible things & enjoyed celebrating the day with your family. your body will naturally have these plateaus, as long as you stay positive and keep working at it things will continue to shift, both on and off the scale. great to have an update from you, sorry for the sister issue, hopefully she will touch base more often in the future on her adventures. xoxo!

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BUTTERFLYAT38 11/23/2011 12:28AM

    Enjoy!! emoticon

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 11/22/2011 4:22PM

    Way to go!

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SHAMROCKY2K 11/22/2011 3:03PM

    I think once in awhile going way over calorie range for a big meal wakes up your metabolism. Then you have to get right back on. Let us know.
Your family has a lot to be thankful for. Enjoy the day!

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RIDMYCOCOON 11/22/2011 2:34PM

    Phew! I am very happy to hear that your sister is safe. I hope your Thanksgiving is full of love and warmth! emoticon

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CROOKEDLETTER 11/22/2011 2:32PM

    Glad your sister is okay. Hope you have a most excellent Thanksgiving!

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WENDYLEE15 11/22/2011 2:21PM

    I think that's a great way to think about it!! We can't be upset with ourselves for going over a little once in a while :).You have a blessed time with your family and friends!! Enjoy!!

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Yep, this about sums up where I am today

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Just wanna drop in the car and drive.

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RIDMYCOCOON 11/18/2011 5:22PM

    It would make me a very happy camper!!!! Drive, baby, drive!

That really is just so very funny! It so funny because it is true emoticon

Maybe your hubs would like it here. You know there are some similarities to S. Oregon...

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CROOKEDLETTER 11/16/2011 11:04AM

    That is funny! Hope you get some time to take a trip up that way sometime soonish.

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