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My brain

Friday, September 30, 2011

I've been trying to focus on non weight things that give me motivation to move forward on this healthy path, especially when I am fighting the scale. And today I have been bombarded with the realization that my brain is really working better since I started on here!! I don't know if that sounds like a tangible thing to be able to measure, brain power? But wow, I am really thinking more, reading more, discussing things in greater detail, remembering everything, and following through on my daily tasks with feeling and meaning that just wasn't there a few months ago. I was discussing literature classics with two advanced placement high school students today, and I was following every book they were talking about. I mean, these are books I have only read once, and not since high school! (Metamorphosis, Ivan Illych, David Copperfield, Crime and Punishment, Tale of Two Cities, The Stranger, Lord of the Flies, 1984 and I'm sure there was a few more.) I remembered reading them, and remembered what they were about and really haven't discussed these books since testing on them back in the late 90's. I am really impressed with my ability for recall today, and not just today, recently. It's like my brain is ravenous, I just can't get enough of educational netflix movies, books, history, art, it's like all of the passions I once had and let fall to the wayside are really coming to life again. It almost feels like waking up from a coma!!! Anyway, that is my exciting new revelation for the day. Hope you are all having your own amazing realizations about just how awesome you are!

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RIDMYCOCOON 10/1/2011 11:53AM

    AAAaaaah. Food for thought.The best medicine. emoticon

Are you a teacher?

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CROOKEDLETTER 9/30/2011 10:52PM

    Yay for exercise boosting brain power. I really think (hah) that moving our bodies helps our thoughts flow.

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Friday, September 30, 2011

Today is Michaelmas, the celebration of Archangel Michael slaying the dragon (in Christain streams Lucifer). This is a HUGE celebration in Waldorf school, and I went to school to be a Waldorf teacher, thus celebrating this for a few years. Just thought I'd share this celebration day with you all. I am going to a harvest festival this weekend as part of the celebration. Hope you are all enjoying this lovely begining to fall.

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RIDMYCOCOON 10/1/2011 11:47AM

    Yes! I am lovin' Fall!!!! We are going to an Apple Festival in Fortuna today!! Yaay!

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CROOKEDLETTER 9/30/2011 8:22AM

    Always good to revive some of those old holidays. Thanks for the heads up! Hope you have a most lovely festival weekend.

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WENDYLEE15 9/30/2011 7:22AM

    Have fun!! You have a wonderful weekend!! Gotta love this beautiful time of year!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Black pepper shrimp

Thursday, September 29, 2011

This was so tasty and so easy:

6 oz cooked shrimp
4 cups frozen mixed veggies (I used broccoli, cauliflower, snap pea, carrott mix)
2 tsp black pepper sauce
2 medium tomatoes
1/2 cup onion
2 tbsp soy sauce

Cook frozen veg in soy sauce until warmed through, add shrimp, cook until firm, add tomatoes and onion at the end, with the black pepper sauce. Serve over 1/4 cup brown rice. Makes two servings, right around 375 calories.

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RIDMYCOCOON 10/1/2011 11:45AM

    Wow, I didn't realize I was hungary until now. Looks terrif! emoticon

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CROOKEDLETTER 9/29/2011 8:22AM

    Hope you enjoyed your own cooking!

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WENDYLEE15 9/29/2011 7:35AM

    Thanks for sharing.I will have to make it for the kids they love shrimp =] !!

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PURPLE_ROSE_3 9/29/2011 3:44AM

    Looks great!

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San Francisco weekend (pics!)

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Spent yesterday with my baby sister, who happens to be just a few pounds away from my goal weight, which used to upset me a little bit, but now just gives me major motivation. We got a late start, so we didn't see as much of Golden Gate Park as I'd imagined we would, but we did see the Japanese Tea Garden, and it was really wonderful. We also walked Fisherman's Wharf, we guessed ateast two miles of walking. The weather couldn't have been more perfect, and although I got lost a few times, I managed to steer us right to where we needed to be, safely. I thought I'd share a few pics from the day. I do so love taking photos and it was a really beautiful day for that.

Nice pond and sculpture

I love the contrasting greeens and reds

I wanted to rub the belly, but I couldn't quite reach it!

Veiw from the tea garden

My sis

Bubba Gumps shrimp

Never watched a cruise ship float by while I was eating before!!

Carousel, so perdy!!!

Last moments on the bay, so peaceful, such a lovely day!!

I really enjoyed my time with my sister, and I managed to get some exercise in and I didn't go over my calories!! So nice that I don't feel like I have to "cheat" when I go out for the day. Hope you all have a lovely week!!

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ME_HERE_NOW 9/28/2011 3:07PM

    nothing like an active and fun day hanging with someone you love, excellent!

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MAESTRACH 9/27/2011 5:28PM

    Nothing like a day in the city!!! You can actually track your exact meanderings on SP. Don't know if you knew that. I do it with our random trips all the time. I usually have to guess on the time, but at least I know how far I really went.

Glad you and sis had fun!


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CROOKEDLETTER 9/27/2011 5:01PM

    Glad you and your sister had a great time. Nice to see the photos of where y'all went and what you saw. Also glad to hear that you broke the plateau. Yay!

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SOULFISH80 9/27/2011 3:29PM

    I can't stop looking at my weekend pics, it was so fun and the photos turned out so pretty!! I love my camera!!! And after all that yesterday, I woke up and broke my ten day plateau!!! Yayayayayay, so happy!!

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WENDYLEE15 9/27/2011 3:29PM

    What beautiful pics!! You have quite a talent for photography!! I am so glad you had a good time..and you stayed on track too !! You have a lovely week too !!

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RIDMYCOCOON 9/27/2011 2:25PM

    Everything is so pretty!!! Everything. What a lovely time you had. Great Pictures!! emoticon

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THISISFORMENOW 9/27/2011 12:53PM

    Beautiful pics, sounds like a fun day!

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Today's journey

Monday, September 26, 2011

I just want to be me. I want it so bad. I want to be the me I see when I close my eyes. Living the life I want, I guess that is what we all want. I must admit, I'm a little confused about the whole weight loss mystery this week. Since the first month went so well, weight loss wise, I assumed it would all be that smooth and easy. I haven't lost anything this week. I have been exercising and staying within my calorie range everyday. I've been drinking my water, and everything as "by the book" as I can. I already know that this won't derail me, I am not turning around, or back, or any direction but forward. But it is still frustrating and of course I have to ask myself, what did I do wrong? What didn't I do? Did I eat enough? Too much? Exercise enough? Too much? It is quite a mystery to me. If it was a gauranteed 1-2 pound loss per week, I think I could justify all of the work I have been doing.........not that I really need to justify it, I love my new, active life. But I have to say, it is a little disheartening when the scale is the same. I guess we have all have those weeks. And the old Stephanie does peep her head in to let me know that I am not strong enough, I just don't have the willpower, I'm not going to succeed. But deep down I know I am. I know it. I have to learn patience and perseverance. I am a pretty strong willed person. And I know I will achieve my goals, I just see some blogs on here of people with so much success, so quickly. But I can't judge my path by anyone else's. Just one day at a time. I do know I am eating MUCH less, and much cleaner than I was before SP, and exercising MUCH more. And that is HUGE for me. Two things that have been so important to me for so long. I guess the weight is really a side issue at this point, I know it will come off in time, if it takes two years, fine, three, four, five, fine. It really doesn't matter. I keep thinking, if I could just run faster, or father, bike longer or harder, eat cleaner or less, I would see the results I want. But it isn't all about that. It's about health in all things, in all areas. I guess I am a tad more impatient that I realized I was, one of the many things I am learning about myself that I didn't see when I was immersed in the food fog. And everyday I am still growing and pushing. Yesterday I did yoga for the first time. So great, it felt amazing. So, one day, one step one breath at a time. This is my mantra. I have to write it, say it, so I can believe it and do it. Thanks to all of you wonderful community members out there who are on their path to a healthy life, you all inspire me so much. I think of you often before I take a bite of something I really don't want in my body, or when I push myself in my exercises to ride one more mile. I really feel like I have a whole cheering section behind me, helping me acheive each days goals. For this I am eternally greatful.

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ME_HERE_NOW 9/28/2011 4:19PM

    hey darlin, you had immense success off the starting line, so naturally it would have to slow a little. i think you are doing amazing, and being able to do more/longer/harder/faster comes with time, right now i think you are doing an amazing job stayin active and motivated and not burning yourself out - i think you are doing a sensible and awesome job, and yes, ones journey cannot be compared to someone else's because we all live a life unique to ourselves, our bodies are unique, as are our hearts and minds. some weeks/days/months you just gotta do it to do it, because soon that will take you to the next level, not every wee/day/month comes with an immediate reward - but that is what makes the journey exciting and challenging!! big love beamin atcha!

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MAESTRACH 9/27/2011 5:41PM

    Are you tracking your measurements as well as your weight? You will find that about 90% of the time when your stupid scale isn't moving that it doesn't mean your body's not. You'll start noticing little things like a bra cup suddenly not fitting right or perhaps, you'll see more definition in your biceps. It's really important to watch those numbers too. It's the non scale victories that will help you keep going. Remember that the scale is not the begining and end all of a healthy life style (that's for dieters) When the scales not moving, don't trip potato chip, find something else to focus on perfecting while you're learning how to coax your body into doing what you want her to. For example when I'm on a plateau, I have to watch what and how I'm snacking and I usually have to (shucks darn) treat myself to some good old chocolate ice cream and some foods that I don't normally eat to get my body thinking Oh what's next? then I go back into my calorie range, change up my workouts a bit and down we go again. Healthy doesn't mean boring. Sometimes, though we get into a rut and then the body does and you have to jump start her like a dead battery. Add some extra zing and you'll be back to slimming down.

Keep up the great work. Part of your weight loss journey is learning about your emotional health too.

Spark on Girl!!!


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TRAVELINGLITE 9/26/2011 9:16AM

  Losing slowly is soooo frustrating. (Sounds like me). But you are wise enough to know it is not just about the scale. As you said, it is about your health. You can't control the scale. All you control is your behavior. Sounds like you are doing what you need to do. The results will come. Inspiring blog. Wish I could write so well.
Lynn emoticon

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CROOKEDLETTER 9/26/2011 8:03AM

    I second what Ms. Freethegoddess said about all the Non Scale Victories. How do you feel? How do you move? What can you do? I also think our bodies need time to adjust to big changes, so you lose weight for four weeks running and then don't lose any or much of any, for a week or so, which seems like the body saying okay, let me get a handle on this thing that is happening to me.

Also make sure you have your fitness settings adjusted to reflect all your exercise. Sorry if this part of the comment is a repeat from before. Sounds counterintuitive, but I started losing weight again once my calorie range was increased to deal with the fact that I'm being super active ('cause I like it and need it not 'cause I'm trying to lose weight quickly).

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    Okay girlfriend, here's the skinny (no pun intended) on this whole scale thing....the scale SUCKS and is not to be trusted! Sorry to be so blunt but, it is true! I have 4 1/2 months of this under my belt (I'm full of puns tonight!) and I know now that the scale is playing mind games with you.

First off, the best way to gauge whether you are making progress on your weight loss, with regards to the scale, is to look at a whole month not each day or each week. Weight fluctuations, especially for women, are very normal and very frustrating.

A good way to stay positive and motivated is to measure your success in other ways too. Do you feel better now? Do you sleep better now? Is your skin clearer now? Are you stronger? Can you do more push-ups? Have you lost inches? Does your face look thinner?

It is nice to see the number go down on the scale but, my happiest moments have been when I was able to do something I couldn't do before like paint my toe nails and walk a 5K. Those are the things I am really motivated by.

You are going in the right direction and will reach your goals eventually. In the meantime, just enjoy the journey and celebrate all the big and little accomplishments along the way!
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SAC-6582 9/26/2011 1:15AM

    emoticon Thanks for being so open and honest about your journey. You can do this. Just keep it up. And don't sweat the small things keep on moving forward.
great blog!!!!

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