Sunday, December 29, 2013
Just wanted to say hello really quick. It's been a really wild couple of months and I am really looking forward to the New Year. I hope you all have had a lovely holiday. I am looking forward to reading about all of your new adventures in the upcoming year. Love you guys. Hugs.
Sunday, December 15, 2013
A few hours after I posted my last blog my Mom called me to tell me that my Grandpa had been taken to the ER in Davis. We had the day off, unexpectedly, and rushed over there to see Grandpa, and be support to my Mom. The next few days were spent in the hospital with all of the family members that could make it here. We reminisced about the good old days and laughed, hugged and cried. It was a really great feeling having all of the family around. But slowly, each person had to get back to their "regular" life, and they began to leave. By Tuesday the last two left, and it was just my Mom, sister, husband and I left to be with Grandpa and watch as the inevitable unfolded. Grandpa expressed that he did not want a feeding tube, so when the pnuemonia, seizure and stroke lead to his inability to swallow, it was just a slow dehydration/starvation process from then on. My Mother and I took turns sitting around the clock from Tuesday until Friday morning when he eventually passed aways. Those four days were tortorous for us, I began to devolop severe panic symptoms including pain in my chest and heavy breathing. I didn 't sleep for very much for over 48 hours, finally the night Grandpa died I stayed home to sleep because I was in such a bad state physically and emotionally.
When I woke up on Friday, to find out that he'd passed away peacefully in the night, I was relieved, because that was what I was praying for. But then the waves of emotion hit, and they are still flooding over me. The only other person I have lost in my life is my Grandma, and that was many years ago. I was young, and detatched from the whole thing, and although I was sad, it didn't effect me the way my Grandpa's death has.
We are a house full of mourners now, and we are all trying to do our best to support one another, but when the tears hit, they hit. For me, right now, I am trying to get over the sight of watching him die, that was a sight I have never seen and wish to never see again. I'm not sure I could watch another loved one go through that slow dehydration/starvation process again. I know it is what he wanted, but it was truly horrible.
Anyway, I'm not going to go into anymore gruesome details of my last two weeks. My Mom goes back to work next week, and I'll probably go back on the road with Tim sometime next week or the week after. We still haven't heard wether he got the local job or not, so that's still all up in the air. We really are not prepared to move up there right now, so we'll see what happens with that. I have two weddings and my Grandpa's funeral coming up. So, I really need to be down here to be able to easily go to all of these events.
I really hope you are all doing well. I am looking forward to trying to have a decent Christmas, not sure if that is fully possible, but I am going to try to. Looking forward to checking in on all of your blogs to catch up with what is going on in Spark World. Love you guys. Hugs.
Thursday, December 05, 2013
So I don't know why, or how it's been almost two weeks since I've been able to blog.........OK, that's a lie, I know why and how, I just can't come to terms with what has happened in the last two weeks!!! This is really craziness over here, and I know I'm in the thick of the tornado right now, so I'm a bit overwhelmed. I'm just hoping when it's all over we're in one piece!!
To start off, Thanksgiving was great. Didn't do any of the great things I said I would do, like track all my food and drink all my water and all that great stuff. But I didn't gain any weight over it, so that is good...........and I think a first? Finished my last turkey sandwich yesterday, and threw out the last three pieces of pumpkin pie today. So it's gone. Good. We had fun. Just Mom, Sis, Hubs and me. We stayed the night at Mom's Thursday and all went to visit grandpa at the skilled nursing facility on Friday. The highlight for me was watching "Home for the Holidays" together. I love that movie so much, and it just makes me laugh so hard every year. We watch it pretty much every Thanksgiving........hey, some people watch football, we watch a crazy movie about a dysfunctional family, to each his own!!! I swear that movie gets funnier each year. I didn't eat or drink too much, so that was good.........I didn't track my calories, but I wouldn't be surprised if I stayed in my range.
On Saturday Tim and I decided to start boxing stuff up. We ended up taking two car loads and a truck load to the storage unit. That included our couches and living room chair and ottoman, and our bedroom TV cabinet, TV and about a dozen boxes. Since just a week ago my ankle and knee and Tim's shoulder were admittedly very sore, I was really shocked that we were able to get everything down the stairs and into the storage unit. The couch is very heavy, and Tim got one of his friends to help him with that. His shoulder was sore, but it had to be done. Sunday was church and more packing, and a good bit of resting also. We drove up to Oregon on Monday. Tim had an interview for a local position on Tuesday up there, and we drove home last night after that. We did a quick load to Sacramento today, and then were sent home for the rest of the day because they didn't have anything going out of this area. So, we rested a bit, and then packed for about 3 hours. We are down to the very last things now. We have given many things away and are pretty much just having to move the bed, clothes, kitchen/bathroom stuff and the boxes we packed up today. We will have Saturday and Sunday...........and possibly part of Friday to do that. Then I clean Monday and Tuesday...............and that's all she wrote............as far as this apartment goes.
After that, it's all up in the air. If Tim gets the job, he has to start on the 16th. Which is really crazy because I can't find a place to rent that will take us before the 1st! So it's probably going to be hotel rooms, and maybe a few nights in the truck for us for two weeks, until we can get a place to move into up there. That's if he gets the job...........it was really last minute finding out that his company was hiring for this position. He found out about it on Friday, and had the interview on Tuesday. Even though it puts us in a precarious position, he couldn't pass on this one. He hasn't had a local job in over 5 years. So, we'll see what happens. If he gets it, it could end up being pretty great..............atleast that's what I'm hoping. If he doesn't get it, we go back to plan A, and I'll get in the truck with him for a couple of months and we'll take the whole move a bit slower so we can find the place we really want to move into...........instead of mad dashing it like we will be otherwise. I'm about 50/50 on this whole thing as far as what I want to have happen. I think I'll be happy either way since there are pros and cons to both.
So yeah, that's my last week and next couple of weeks in a nutshell. Not sure if I'll have internet access once we leave the apartment on Tuesday. I will at my Mom's house, but if Tim gets this job we won't be there on the weekends like we thought we would be. See why I'm going so crazy.......everything is so up in the air. It's impossible to plan anything. Just taking one day at a time and trying to do the best I can with what that day offers me.
Tim seems to be doing a bit better, and my ankle seems much better this week. We're both still using the TENS machine and are loving it. It really seems to work well.
OK, that's all there is to tell for now. I am a bit upset that I just can't seem to stay on track with counting calories and water..............but for now I am really doing the best I can, and that just has to be good enough. My brain just doesn't have any room in it to think about calories and water right now...............I know I would feel better if I did, but I just can't seem to fit it in with everything else swirling around me. I'm sure in a week or so I will be able to. Once we get out of this place, I should be able to focus on making time for me................I sure hope so anyway!!
Love you guys, hope all is well. Hugs.
Friday, November 22, 2013
Wow these last two weeks have really flown by. Tim took off this whole week also. Tried to work on Monday, finished the short drive, but injured himself and damaged the truck in the process. So we decided he needed another week to heal. He seems to be feeling better. I think his healing process will be much like mine, long and drawn out. Small progress week to week, but needing TLC for quite awhile to really get back in the full swing of things.
We've been packing this week. We both can tell when we've had enough,our injured bodies won't let us forget........which is usually right at about 2 hours of non-stop packing/organinzing/sorting. After two-three hours I'm done. Which is why I'm so very glad we started this whole process nearly a month before we have to be out. I've been a procrastinating, last minute push-to-the-finish type of person my whole life. But I'll tell you, planning in advance and doing a little as you go really seems to suit me better. I don't feel overwhelmed, I feel glad with the little progress we make each day. I'd rather go slow, and steady, and do it the right way with this move, instead of my usual mad dash weekend where nothing gets done right and I need to sleep for two weeks to recover. As it goes the activity tracker says I've been burning over 1,000 calories each day as I haul boxes and clean for hours on end.........I really don't need to burn anymore than that. I can feel it in my muscles and I'm usually sweating like a pig at about 20 mins into a good organizing/boxing/hauling session. So yeah, I'm sure 2-3 hours per day is plenty, especially since my ankle/knee won't let me get away with much more than that.
I was able to do some cooking today after picking up boxes from my Mom in Davis and spending 2.5 hours organizing, cleaning, fillling and arranging boxes to maintain order in this place. I made my favorite chicken and noodles with homemade chicken broth...........makes me so very happy because it reminds me of my Grandma. She had it in the fridge pretty much year round. It would either be beef and noodles or chicken and noodles, sometimes the noodles were even homemade. It is a very comforting dish for me. I hadn't had it in years, since my Grandma passed away, and I made it on accident one day by adding too many noodles to my chicken noodle soup. I'd also made the soup by cooking a whole roasted chicken for hours before I made the soup. The flavor from the roasted chicken, plus the extra noodles in my soup=Grandma's chicken noodles. I was so overwhelmed when I tasted that first pot..........since then I've made it about 10 times and love it so much. Also made some salsa chicken in the crock pot. Such a quick, easy dish and so versatile. If I don't use all of it for tacos, I will make a small pan of enchiladas with what is left over.
Managed to get Thanksgiving dinner planned out with my Mom. There are only four of us this year, but everyone has those one or two special items they really want to see on the table. So we've put in our requests, and between my Mom and I, we should be able to make this years meal turn out great, as usual. We will really miss the missing family members, both brothers, Grandpa, Aunt, and cousin.............they all show up on Thanksgiving, usually. But, that's OK, this year will be quiet and I am fine with that. We've had so much going on with the moving madness that I think I will be very happy with this intimate gathering.
We've been watching Hallmark movies every night this week. Yesterday we started at 2pm and watched until 10pm!!! I can't believe my husband will watch those with me. Actually this is the first year I've ever watched them. When I was younger I thought they were too sappy to be enjoyable.......but the older I get, the more sentimental and sappy I get. Last year hubs and I watched a Christmas movie every night of December, looks like we're starting the tradition a little earlier this year!!!! I don't know why, it really does seem to get me in the holiday spirit. I've had years in the past that the holidays sneek up on me and I can't barely enjoy them at all. I kind of like spending November and December wrapped in the sappy glow of the spirit of the season. It can be a glorious time of giving, love, cherishing what we have and making the most with who we are with, if we let it. OK, no more Hallmark Greeting card moments for me, not until the next blog anyway!!!
Love you guys, hope your are warm and enjoying the ones you love.
Cheers to a happy, healthy, fun and loving holiday season!
Sunday, November 17, 2013
Not too much going on over here. We've been holed up all week trying to heal our injured body parts. My ankle is feeling much better, even took a nice long walk today. Tim's shoulder is getting a bit better too. One day at a time. Looking forward to a small, intimate Thanksgiving celebration spent with my Mom, sister and husband. Planning on tracking all food, and staying in calorie range. If I stay in range I will be so proud of myself.
Hope you all are doing well. Have a great week.
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