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Feeling in control

Tuesday, December 04, 2012

Today is a much better day for me. I feel like I'm really eating only when hungry. I thought about eating cookies today, but I didn't take any. I did have a mini breakdown with some issue I was dealing with and was so proud that I didn't cope with food!

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MISSUSRIVERRAT 12/4/2012 10:11PM

    That is great! Glad you are feeling better and having a better experience.

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KATHARINEBRAY1 12/4/2012 5:32PM


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ROOSTER72 12/4/2012 4:59PM

    Good for you! Every good day is a learning experience!

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Emotional ties to food

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

I have such emotional ties to certain foods and it's so hard to not over eat on them.

Today I had a brownie and even though I gave myself permission to eat it I still felt the need to keep eating more. I did step away and ended up being ok after that, but I definately struggle with certain foods and my limits.

Last night I baked cookies. Throughout the day I probably ate 5 or 6. I just want to be normal around food. I don't know why 2 cookies isn't enough for me? emoticon

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CAMAEL100 12/3/2012 3:49PM

    I read somewhere on Spark 'one bite is too much and a thousand is never enough'!!

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SOTM121097 11/30/2012 7:27AM

    Thanks! You are right, maybe i'm really telling myself that I SHOULD only have one. I guess I still have some work to do on this step.

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ROOSTER72 11/29/2012 8:40PM

    I think the thing with intuitive eating is to not just give yourself permission to eat A brownie - but give yourself permission to eat as many brownies as YOU WANT not just now but later today, and tomorrow and ever after.

This is very hard to get our heads around, because most of us would respond saying something like 'That wouldn't work for me - I would have brownies for breakfast, lunch and dinner, put on a load of weight and make myself sick'. Am I right?

The funny thing is, that once this food is not forbidden, and you can have it any time you want, it actually starts to lose its hold on you. Perhaps you might have 1 or 2 occasions where you go crazy, but you will quickly realise that you don't want to feel sick from over eating brownies, and that really it is the first one that is the best . . .and miraculously you have a healthy relationship with brownies.

Now, that all sounds good - but it is definitely a process that will take time, and there will be stumbles - but I am starting to believe that it works.

Comment edited on: 11/29/2012 8:42:01 PM

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TOTHEFUTURE1 11/29/2012 6:50AM

    I have the same problem and try not to start. I see many have a similar problem and the same solutions

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PENNYSAVER2 11/28/2012 7:16PM

    I had to give up cookies and brownies. I just can't stop once I get started. Some of us are just powerless to certain foods. I'm glad you were able to stop yourself.

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KATHARINEBRAY1 11/28/2012 5:28PM

    I had to give up cookies .for now
I heard 1 taste is wonderful its not enough even after 1,000 bites emoticon

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KENTUCKYWOMAN 11/28/2012 5:09PM

    I know exactly how you feel. Good news is that you did stop at the one brownie. The thing that can really drive me crazy is those odd people who do not finish the brownie or cookie. What is up with that???? emoticon
You have done yourself proud.

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Bad week

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

I will be straight forward, I'm pmsing and just not feeling myself. I have been eating emotionally or more so binge eating again. I can't say when the last time was that I binged before this week.

I feel so lost and out of control. Usually my eating habits change during the week before my cycle, but this feels way beyond my control lately. Just before writing this I had checked my cabinets about 10 times trying to talk myself out of shoving something else in my mouth.

Right now I realize that food isn't what I need. I'm bored, extremely sleepy and really just need rest. I didn't have a productive day. I spent way too much time on the computer. I usually feel useless when I do that, but it's done and tomorrow is a redo right?

I have to go back to just eating when I'm hungry. I made it through tonight without going back to snack so that is one thing down.

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PENNYSAVER2 11/14/2012 9:22AM

    emoticon Take it one day at a time. Forgive yourself and get back on track.
You are not alone in this struggle.

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SOTM121097 11/14/2012 9:00AM

    Thanks Ladies! Feeling a bit better today. emoticon

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A*L*P* 11/14/2012 7:56AM

    Ugh, I can totally relate to you. My cycle is just around the corner and I feel very hungry! I am working to just honor that though and eat with permission and not regret it. My problem has been the intense chocolate cravings that I have had. I find that when I am tired, I want to eat, I think it is the whole mindset that our body is looking for something and sometimes eating is a substitute when sleep isn't available. More energy maybe? Just a thought I had had. Hang in there girl! Glad to see you posting on the team!! emoticon

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CORNERKICK 11/13/2012 10:42PM

  ...and drink lots of water :)

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RAZRBKMOM 11/13/2012 10:18PM

    hang in there, & remember this too shall pass!! Aren't we glad it only comes around once a month!!! :) emoticon

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KATIEEMMA5 11/13/2012 10:16PM

    Sometimes we eat because we're tired. It sounds like your really tired and need rest. Start afresh tomorrow and stock up on plenty of fresh fruit and vegetables and you will be fine!

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Trying new things

Monday, June 04, 2012

I'm not always good at taking changes and going through changes. I decided to take a chance recently on a new job. I currently babysit my niece 4 days a week for about 8 hours. I don't get a lot of money for it. I decided to apply for a night job at the library. I knew that my family could use the extra help. I started the job being scared as hell, I just felt like I wasn't going to be able to handle working two jobs. I ended up really being ok with it and starting to like it.

Then, my boss said she felt I kept making the same mistakes and wasn't progressing. She said this job isn't for everyone and that it takes a lot of concentration and is very tedious. I was really upset as she was telling me this. I though, how could she be telling me this now that I finally started liking this! She told me to think about coming back on Monday and gave me the weekend to think.

I have been so torn on the issue, but have decided not to go back. I know some people tell me I should have given it another try. I really feel that in my heart I never really wanted the job. I have to remember that life is also about being happy. I have wasted too many years just doing things because I had to. I just want to follow my heart this time and do what feels right for me. I think in doing that I'm a better person to everyone around me.

I still catch myself thinking what will I do with my life, but I know that it will fall into place when it's right. For now I want to enjoy each day.

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No weight loss

Monday, March 19, 2012

I have been trying to eat intuitively for about a year now. I have had my ups and downs, but iI say I'm in a fairly good place. This is the good news.

The part that frustrates me is that I will loose a few pounds and then gain it right back. I really havn't lost. I'm in no way perfect so I do still emotionally eat from time to time, I guess this might be what holds me back.

It makes me feel like I want to start keeping track of calories, but I know in the past that always sets me up to binge, become obsessed with food and miserable. So feels like I'm just stuck right now.

I needed to get that off my chest. Can anyone out there relate?

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SOTM121097 3/27/2012 7:27PM

    I have tried with counting calories or even points again, but I can only go for so long. It's just not what I want to do anymore. I honestly get my days where not loosing weight really gets to me but, overall I know that I'm on the right track. I think no matter what I have to really work on the emotional eating because without that in check nothing will work for me.

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SIMPLY-EVA 3/21/2012 2:46PM

  Any chance that you could keep track of calories without becoming obsessed? I know it sounds weird but I tell myself each day (and sometimes more often than that) that I am keeping track of my points because I am still learning what it good for me. How much is good and since I feel better about my body than I have in a little while I feel like its okay to give myself some guidelines. Without guidelines I go haywire and that doesn't really work for me at all. I think that within IE giving yourself guidelines can be okay as long as you are okay with them.

Just a thought,


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HOPEFULSNAIL204 3/19/2012 7:41PM

  I can see how intuitive eating would not always result in weight loss. I'm glad that you are in a fairly good place. Sometimes when I want to change something I change just one thing at a time so I know what is and what is not working for me. Then other times things have gotten where I had to change several things at once. I hope you find what works for you the best. Blessings emoticon

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KAYTEETOO 3/19/2012 5:11PM

    Yes totally. I think our bodies naturally try to maintain our weight, so intuitive eating does not necessarily lead to weight loss. I agree calorie counting can cause more problems though. I'm am currently tracking and trying to stick within the SP calorie range, but I have given myself a very long deadline to lose the weight, plus I do quite a bit of exercise, which means that the formula comes out that I can eat quite a lot - which helps me feel like I'm eating 'normally' rather than dieting and deprived.

Good luck!

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A*L*P* 3/19/2012 10:09AM

    Totally. I am currently doing the one, two waltz with weight loss it is so frustrating especially with how good I eat and how much I exercise. I guess no one said ie was easy, huh? Hang in there.

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