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Change is a funny thing...

Sunday, January 26, 2014



I have to keep reminding myself of this. It's an important thing to acknowledge. Otherwise a person could go mad.

March 12th 2013 I had gastric bypass surgery. This was a VERY long road for me up to that point. I have been in counseling for my issues since 2009. I was VERY prepared for this surgery. WAY more than most. I was told about all the changes that would happen and how I may lose friends and that also all of my relationships will change. THAT being said...nothing can truly prepare you for it until you are actually in the middle of it. Living it.

I have lost 145 lbs in the last 10 months. I am not the same person I used to be...that is very true. This has been one hell of a roller coaster ride. Don't let anybody tell you that this stuff "might" happen. I'm here to tell you it WILL happen. When you lose that much weight so fast, people around you aren't going to know how to react to your changes. You WILL change. EVERYTHING! From the way you carry yourself in public to the way you expect to be treated by total strangers. You will look people in the eye again. You won't think twice about doing something on the spur of the moment because you are just so happy to be living life again. One of the most important changes is that you will start requiring more of yourself. You will finally think about what it is that you really want and deserve in life because you will realize that YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY! These things are all really amazing changes and life is so much better. This process really does help you get your life back but you have to be ready to grab on tight and go for the ride.

BUT.....also.... You will start requiring people close to you to treat you as you deserve to be treated and most of the people in your life probably aren't used to that. And...they probably aren't going to like it. It is after all "change" and human nature is to avoid change. So in some ways you can't blame them for being human. We all are. I have lost ALL of my friends due to my changes. I'm even in the middle of losing my husband of 16 years. Some things are not foreseeable or maybe we just chose not to... before I had this surgery I never in a million years imagined that I'd be separating from him a year later. Someone that I have spent over half my life with? How is that happening? But it's happening. Now that I look back on it from this side of the fence I see it was inevitable. The thing is...sometimes I wonder why they aren't happy for me and all the positive changes in my life? But then I realize they were friends with the OLD me... and the new me doesn't fit in their world anymore. The great thing about people though is that there are 7 BILLION to choose from for friends! Time for me to move on! I've already begun!

  
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GOLFGMA 1/27/2014 7:28AM

    Not many people get a chance at a new life. Losing friends must be hard but you seem to understand both sides of the equation and have decided to deal with it. Wishing you much success in moving on and developing this new life. emoticon

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CHERN009 1/26/2014 11:15PM

    Thanks for sharing your story of the where your journey has taken you. emoticon

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DDOORN 1/26/2014 9:42PM

    Wow! Some MONUMENTAL changes have been rockin' & rollin' your life!

But: It sounds like you have been doing a super job of not only holding your own, but getting closer and closer to peeling the onion down to your essential self!

Thank you for getting back to us and sharing your personal journey which involves so much more than simply losing weight!

Don

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MBELL6312 1/26/2014 6:15PM

    I have few words of response. To achieve your weight loss, but to have that response from friends and husband.... I don't know what to say. Other than focus on your health, your well being, and, as you say, moving forward. Be happy with the new , current, ever changing you, and find people who are happy for you and want to live the positive change with you. Xo Maria from Wake Forest NC

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POSITIVEHOPE 1/26/2014 4:36PM

    You have been so honest with yourself in this blog. It is hard to imagine how powerful we are and how much we project with our physical being to others. What a journey.
I learned something recently. I was on SP in 2009, lost 80 pounds, quit and regained 2/3 of the weight. I recently restarted and have been actively looking for insight into WHY this happens and what I can do to change things this time.
Why did I quit? In the beginning I felt wonderful and the journey was easy especially with the weekly losses and the joy of loose fitting clothes. Eventually, I got tired of feeling responsible for all my choices good and bad. The weekly losses weren't large or predictable anymore. I wasn't really comfortable in that thin body. I found I began to whine about the difficulty of the journey and eventually I gave in to those inner negative thoughts and quit.
Reading articles on SP I learned about wanting to avoid being responsible for our choices. Yes, that was true. I lied to myself by saying I didn't care. I regained the weight, lost respect for myself and lost the increased mobility and activity I had enjoyed. Eventually, I became unhappy enough to begin this journey all over again.
The NEW you is a wonderful insightful person. I am sorry for the people in your life who are unable to embrace who you are today because they are losing someone wonderful.


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JUJUMILLER 1/26/2014 12:50PM

    Wow.
Very personal blog.
You've made a step in the right direction with your weight loss..
Congratulations!
It's too bad that your loved ones are being so unsupportive.
I wish you all the love and happiness in the world...you're right
YOU DESERVE IT!


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Down 100lbs

Tuesday, September 03, 2013

Well I officially lost 100lbs! I am beyond happy with my results. I still have a ways to go but I'm looking forward to it!
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DDOORN 9/8/2013 10:12PM

    OMG! I'm late to the celebration party! Woo HOO to YOU!

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You totally rock!!

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    emoticon you have done an incredible job. emoticon

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HINK2013 9/4/2013 9:25AM

    WOOHOOO!!!! That's an amazing accomplishment!! Keep up the great work!! You look Fabulous!

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CORTNEY-LEE 9/4/2013 12:36AM

    gurrrllll you are awesome! Way to go!!

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IM2READY 9/3/2013 5:40PM

    way to go!!!!

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JUSTCHELLE75 9/3/2013 4:36PM

    Congrats

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    That's a fantastic achievement ! Congratulations !
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BBRITTON1018 9/3/2013 3:41PM

    Wow!! Congratulations on such a huge success!! You inspire me and I wish you all of the success in the world. emoticon

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SWEET_CAROLYN 9/3/2013 3:37PM

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As a fellow 100 pound loser, I am SO HAPPY for you!! You are doing a GREAT JOB!!! CONGRATS!!

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CLEARNIGHTSKY 9/3/2013 3:29PM

    AAAAAMMMMMMAAAAZZZZZINGGGGG!!!!!!!!


YOU ARE AN INSPIRATION TO ME!!!!!!!

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UWPALUM 9/3/2013 3:10PM

    Congratulations!! I can't begin to understand how that feels, but it gives me hope that I might know some day since there are other people like you who accomplish it! Great job!

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K-GETTING-FIT 9/3/2013 12:51PM

    Woot! Woot! What an amazing accomplishment and inspiration:) Happy for you!
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  emoticon emoticon emoticon Congratulations!!! Take time for a happy happy dance!!!

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Keep up the good work and much success on your journey!

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PATTYR81 9/3/2013 10:38AM

    YAAAAAY!!!!! for you!!!

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    emoticon Congratulations! Keep up the great work!

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KATIGIE 9/3/2013 9:49AM

    This is so encouraging! I'm very happy for you!

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TRACYDUKA 9/3/2013 9:43AM

    Congrats! It's a MOST happy day!

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90 lbs down=halfway to goal (progress pics)

Friday, August 02, 2013

LAST SUMMER July 2012


ONE YEAR LATER July 2013


I am halfway to goal and I am feeling SO much better! Kicking my own butt at the gym or walking or trail riding my bike has felt SOOOOO good! I'm looking forward to the next 90lb loss! BRING IT ON!!!
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MBELL6312 1/26/2014 6:08PM

    Love the fitted short! You look fabulous!

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FLPALM 8/13/2013 2:45PM

    WTG! You look FAB-U-LOUS!!!

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K-GETTING-FIT 8/10/2013 6:26PM

    That is incredibly awesome! What an inspiration:) You have totally GOT this. Go get 'em!!!
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TXPATRIOT 8/10/2013 12:27AM

    You look great!!

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REAGANESQUE 8/3/2013 5:45PM

    Congrats...you've made so much progress and you look great!

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CBLENS 8/3/2013 7:14AM

    Fantastic!

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LOVINGAFRICA 8/3/2013 4:16AM

    You look wonderful, Friend!

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MJ7DM33 8/2/2013 9:46PM

  Woot! Woot! WTG! You are doing it! Keep it up!

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RRBSKI 8/2/2013 8:16PM

    Sooo proud of you and the discipline and committment you have shown to all of us. GREAT JOB!!!! emoticon

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NIKKICOLE83 8/2/2013 2:17PM

    That is super exciting!!! I can only imagine how hard it must of been but I am sure it was all worth it. You are only a few short pounds from being in the 100 Pounds Loss Club!!!

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AMY4593 8/2/2013 12:55PM

    Wow! Good for you!

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    You look amazing! Congratulations.

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What an awesome blog ! Congratulations on being halfway to goal.

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BOB5148 8/2/2013 11:11AM

  All done. Look good. Keep it up

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ABYGAILSMOM06 8/2/2013 10:26AM

    Wow, way to go! You are an inspiration!

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    emoticon That is wonderful!! Keep up the great work!

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    You look amazing!

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JIBBIE49 8/2/2013 9:57AM

    emoticon emoticon I know you can get it off and KEEP it off.

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IDICEM 8/2/2013 9:52AM

  Wonderful progress! Congratulations. Next summer will be epic!
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OH My GAWD!!!!!

Wednesday, July 31, 2013



Today I found a pair of jeans in my closet that I haven't been able to wear in almost 10 years! I chuckled as I put them on one leg at a time figuring that I wouldn't be able to get them up past my hips. OMG They pulled ALL the way up AND I could zip them without having to suck it in!!!! I can't believe they actually fit! I feel silly about it but I actually cried a few tears of joy. I am in shock and amazed and even though it was definitely NOT "jeans weather" here today I decided to wear them anyhow! I am so freakin happy that I just had to share with y'all!

  
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EABL81 8/1/2013 9:08PM

    I had a similar experience when I was losing. It was such a kick to find a pair of jeans, I didn't even realize I had. You should be very proud of yourself and your accomplishment! WTG!

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TSERANDOS 8/1/2013 11:39AM

   
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    Good for you! Must feel amazing!!! emoticon

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LOVINGAFRICA 8/1/2013 5:43AM

    How cool is that!
It is in a way, better than Xmas!
Congratulations!

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JUNESHOPE 8/1/2013 2:31AM

    That is amazing isn't it. That's happened to me once. It's a great feeling. emoticon
Can't wait to learn more about your program.
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Brought tears to my eyes! These are the best moments!

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RRBSKI 7/31/2013 8:32PM

    emoticon Very happy for ya...great job.

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FITFRIT 7/31/2013 8:00PM

    I saved a pair of jeans from high school for this purpose...I know they're out of fashion, but I so do NOT care.... I'm gonna wear em when they fit again.

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IM2READY 7/31/2013 7:52PM

    Good job!

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  emoticon What a great NSV! Keep it up! Thx for sharing!

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MARYELLEN301 7/31/2013 7:08PM

    What a GREAT feeling! Congrats on all your hard work!

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CORTNEY-LEE 7/31/2013 6:38PM

    awesome!!! I am so proud of you!

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Super happy for you!! Keep up the great work. Thanks for being an inspiration.

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Measuring my loss but rejoycing in my gains!

Tuesday, July 16, 2013



OK so I've lost 80 lbs. But that's not even the best part. The best part is how much I've gained!!!!

I have been walking and biking on and off since I had surgery but today, for the first time in a LOOOOONG dang time, I felt it. The athlete that has always been in me but hiding underneath too many layers of fat. OK so I know I have quite a ways to go yet but I totally kicked that elliptical machines A$$ today!!! It was awesome. I haven't been on an elliptical since I weighed 330lbs, and now 82lbs lighter I felt like a BOSS!!!! It was amazing to feel the difference in my endurance level by losing that weight. I can only imagine what I'm going to be able to do after another 80lbs is gone and I'm nearing my goal weight. Bring it on!

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FLPALM 8/13/2013 2:47PM

    I love, love, love your ATTITUDE!!!! Because YOU CAN!!!! Awesome!

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CORTNEY-LEE 7/16/2013 11:12PM

    awesome feeling isn't it?

Keep rocking it!!!

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