Sunday, January 08, 2012
Watching the progress over the past (almost) 2 years has proven to be another
From 167 to 145 has been a serious accomplishment for me.
No, it's not 100, 200, or even 50 pounds like so many of the success stories I've read on this site, but I was stuck for over 6 years at an undesired weight.
That should count for something! Right?
Being unsatisfied with my appearance caused some feelings of insecurity. Some of you can relate.
I used to think, "Why do those who have lost larger amounts of weight get accolades?"
What about the rest of us who had some to lose, but felt just as inadequate or a failure?
Learning so many things about myself has caused me to realize that it's never REALLY about the weight, but HOW I get there in the first place.
I had to the self-destruction and learn to love me for me BEFORE losing weight.
So, with all that said, I will persevere into healthy self-body image, manage stress, and see myself the way God sees me...created in His image.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Yesterday, I dropped off my mother's present.
Yes, I had her come out to the car to get her gift.
Later, I was pleased that no matter how much she decides to sabotage her health, I refuse to be an enabler.
I refuse to allow my children to play a role in her demise.
I refuse to be the absent daughter who distances myself from her (mostly for the sake of my kids).
Sadly, because of her demeanor and indifferent attitude with my siblings and I, my oldest 2 children don't really like dealing with her. My son is too young to notice or care.
Daily, I continue to be the open-minded, loving mother to my children.
It's truly a blessing to have three children who have open communication with my husband and I.
My oldest daughter, who is an 18 year-old senior in high school, talks to me daily.
My 14 year old daughter also says she enjoys spending time with me & we always laugh and talk.
My 8 year-old son discusses school and ideas with me often. He is a very self-sufficient, easy-going sweetheart. Just don't make him angry... Hmmm...similar to his mother!
So, as for my bio"logical" siblings & mother...enough said in the previous blog.
Happily ever after...only in fairytales, but let's just say, "Happier ever after".
Friday, December 23, 2011
Yes, you've been waiting for it.
So, here it is!
This holiday, like many others, I am forced (somewhat) to be nice.
Those of you who have been keeping up know how awkward my biological (still can't figure out why "logical" is part of the word) immediate family is.
Playback* Mama- diagnosed bipolar schizo; oldest bro- promise-maker, ex-Marine;
Youngest brother- criminal, con artist, liar, thief...to name a few; me- the youngest of the crew, driven, avoids the others as often as possible. Btw: twin half sisters I've never seen before, but closer to finding them. Dad- murdered when I was 19.
Now, I'll bet you think I am the survivor and normal one of the group. Right you are!
So, when holidays come around, I avoid them like the plague.
My dear chain-smoking mother tries to lure me to her apartment by coercing me to do small tasks for her.
She thinks I'm unaware of this. I have allergies, so stay at her house to roll her hair would set me back into a sinusitis coma with red eyes to boot. Ain't gonna happen!
My youngest brother doesn't attempt to make contact accept he called last month for my 40th birthday. Suits me fine, though! At least he's consistently inconsistent!
My oldest brother, "let me treat you to lunch for your b-day!" That was November 8th...hmmmm...never happened!
So, I look forward to the hubby kids and in-law...functional family on this holiday season where we celebrate in peace the birth of Jesus drama-free.
Now I have to figure out a way to give Mama her gift...ideas???
P.S. My youngest brother will visit her with his CRAZY girlfriend who looks manly- scary!
Happy Functional, Family Holidays to you all!
Saturday, December 17, 2011
A wise man finds a way.
A fool finds an excuse.
I am putting this on my board when I return to work.
It shall be written next to the homework assignment.
Think they'll get the message?
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