Wednesday, February 02, 2011
Back in early January I took stock, realized that although there was MUCH to celebrate about my process and life and SP journey, I was dissatisfied with a few things. Things like eating out of my range around 50% of the time (I had not realized I was doing that) and losing 10 pounds in all of 2010. Those were things I would like, I decided, to see change.
So at the beginning of January I started doing Turbo Fire and quickly went from working out 4 - 5 times a week (doing running, turbo jam, tennis, etc) to working out 6 times a week at a higher intensity. I also started to take my range a lot more seriously, and I have been staying in my calorie range a lot more consistently--not perfectly but in range most days.
Now we are at the beginning of February and I am still bouncing between 182 and 185, weighing in at 184.4 this past Monday.
I had been noticing that little notice about changing my fitness goals for a few weeks, but resisted (I know, I know). Then I noticed about 2 weeks ago that I was hungry a LOT, and that was new for me. Hmmmmm, I thought, perhaps this changing goals thing is a good idea. So I did, and as expected my range jumped about 150 - 200 calories up. I resisted that for a while, still trying to eat in my lower range. Jenny sagely suggested after 2 weeks or so of me doing this that perhaps I should trust SP seeing how it has never once been wrong in what it has suggested to me.
So I agreed. My plan is to continue to try to be in the middle of this new range (which would be around 1750 calories per day), continue with the workouts, and not do anything different until the beginning of March. If I am still at the same weight then, I will consider decreasing calories. I mean that will be 2 months with no moving and a LOT of effort.
And I know the whole muscle/fat argument, but after 2 months that should even out, right? And I fear the new range is based on what SP is tracking for Turbo Fire, which some folks say is too-high based on their own devices that track calories.
But SP has taught me to be patient. And all the folks on SP have taught me that my life is SO FREAKING GOOD weighing 184 and being so freaking healthy that I can wait for the weight to follow. I feel good, I look good. I never imagined I would weigh this little. For real.
OH, and I decided to get a buzz cut for my 40th birthday in March. Hair grows back, right? It seems less drastic than the tattoo I was considering (and less permanent). We're having a huge party (my partner turns 35 the same month). I can't wait!!
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
I've decided to journal, not blog my goals for every week since they were mind-numbingly the same every week. how many times do you want to hear me say I won't drink coffee and I'll track every day, etc. So yay for you!
I will tell you generally how my goals are coming, though.
The good news is that aside from one day (that really wasn't my fault, who knew that black rice had like 4x the amount of calories that brown rice has), I was way in the middle of my calorie range every day. And that one day was only 50 over. I did have coffee twice (and it was gooooood). I'm still amazed at how hard giving up coffee is for me. it would probably be better just to say NO more coffee, but.. But what? I still want it and it seems like the least of my issues. It's also hard because I'm giving it up for ethical reasons (not part of a locavore diet). it seems it's easier for me to be healthy than ethical!
One nice thing is that for the past several weeks i have been feeling deprived and kind of sorry for myself. i hadn't let myself get too out there during the holidays by any means, but reeling myself in was a little more challenging than I thought it would be, and I fought it a little. But things feel good; normal again. i don't feel like I'm suffering or restricting myself. On the contrary, I feel great about the food I'm eating and the way I'm living. And as we all know, feeling restricted is the shortest route to the dark side. So I'm glad that things feel a bit better.
did you read the blog they posted on facebook? if not, read it RIGHT NOW:
it's amazing to see how different a healthy body can look, even if the pounds are not different. It made me feel a LOT better about that whole 'I only lost 10 pounds in 2010' thing.
The other thing that made me feel better is my measurements. i finally measured myself again. i don't know why, but it has just never been that different (my measurements). i stopped doing it b/c it was so frustrating. Consequently, I haven't done it in over a year, so the numbers were definitely smaller. happy!
aside from that all goes well. we are almost done with week 3 of Turbo Fire and feeling sore and fatigued every day (in a good way!).
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
It's interesting, I really have felt very hard core for the past 2-3 weeks, feeling like good things are happening and that I am really close to 100%. Then I looked back at my tracker thing, and saw that in the first 9 days of Jan, I had gone over my calorie range 4 days! That's really closer to 50%. it was disturbing, but good to see. It helped me realize that if that's what it looks like when I feel hard core, what must it look like when I fell just OK? So I am going to check that more regularly (weekly) as another objective measure. It's amazing how my brain can sugar coat (no pun intended) things.
Anyway, on to the goals. Last week didn't go exactly as planned, but this week so far is going swimmingly!
To Eval Last Week:
Areas of Concern: Saturday there were 2 parties--this is one of the days I went over. I drank a bit too much (calorie wise) at the 2nd party. I didn't eat any of the food, though!
Eating: Despite the parties, looking at the week I will be able to eat in range every day (see above for eval of this one :)
Tracking: I will be able to track every day --DONE
Exercise: Turbo Fire every day except running Wed (today!) and rest day Thurs. ----I actually ended up taking Sunday morning off too, since we got home so late (I'm not used to these late nights anymore, and I had an early morning). But the other 5 days were hard core.
Wine: 8 oz every day, except Thursday (4 oz), Friday (10oz), and Sat (I can drink what I want as long as I stay in range. I may eat a little less to make room for it, but just for saturday). ----done everyday except for the staying in range part of Saturday
Coffee: None this week -- I did have decaf on Sat. morning.
Dessert: None this week ---DONE
Snacking: OK to snack at the parties on fruit or veggies (no dip or only black bean dip that is tracked). otherwise no unplanned snacking -- DONE
Consistency---Hard core--NO bites, tastes, extra sips, etc --Not as hard core as I wanted. Not black and white. THis is a hard one for me, but an important one. How I eat is more important than what. It makes such a difference in mood and consistency.
SP--time on SP on Wed --Doing it now.
For this coming week--------------------------------------
Areas of Attention: dinner with friends on Monday night, Wed dinner at CHeesecake factory (not my choice).
dinner on Monday went OK, I did eat some unplanned hummus, but I didn't go over in my range! Tonight I already did my research on the CF and have planned and tracked what I'm going to eat, so it should be OK.
Calorie range---nothing extra special planned, should be able to stay in range every day, and this week I really, really want to given the 50% realization. So far so good 2 days in.
Track: every day
Exercise: day off friday, no other days off
Wine: 8 oz on Mon, Tues 4 oz on Thurs. 12 oz on Wed (it's dinner with my in-laws after all)
10 oz on fri, sat, or sun. if I end up having a beer, it's one beer and 6 oz of wine if calorie range permits on the days when I have 8 oz or more planned of wine
coffee: none this week (I lack confidence in this one)
dessert: a bite (ONE bite) of Jenny's at cheesecake factory tonight
hard core-ed-ness: I really want to be so hard core/black and white this week. I have to for my mental health
SP on Wed: here I am!
Wednesday, January 05, 2011
Always the same categories:
Areas of Concern: Saturday there are 2 parties
Eating: Despite the parties, looking at the week I will be able to eat in range every day
Tracking: I will be able to track every day
Exercise: Turbo Fire every day except running Wed (today!) and rest day Thurs
Wine: 8 oz every day, except Thursday (4 oz), Friday (10oz), and Sat (I can drink what I want as long as I stay in range. I may eat a little less to make room for it, but just for saturday).
Coffee: None this week
Dessert: None this week
Snacking: OK to snack at the parties on fruit or veggies (no dip or only black bean dip that is tracked). otherwise no unplanned snacking
Consistency---Hard core--NO bites, tastes, extra sips, etc
SP--time on SP on Wed
There you go. See you in a week!
Wednesday, January 05, 2011
Well first the bad news/attitude.
I just realized that I only lost 10 pounds last year.
Last YEAR. For those of you deficient in math, that's less than a pound a month. Not quite the pound a week of my dreams.
And my whole shtick--150 by 40? Not gonna happen. I turn 40 in 3 months, which I'm very excited about, but I'm not excited to be 25 pounds from my goal weight (a modified goal weight, mind you, when I realized I wasn't gonna get to 150, I changed my goal to 157--the top weight of normal BMI to have a better chance). March is also my 3 year anniversary with SP. Year 3 was a sloooooooow year I guess.
But it's disappointing because it didn't feel slow. While I haven't been on track every day, it felt like I had most days, so it is disappointing to be here. And while I am so excited to have lost 83 pounds, what have you done for me lately??
OK, now for the good news/good attitude/New Year's hopefulness:
In the past slow year I:
ran a 5K
became a runner
exercised almost every day
did not gain weight overall, and in fact am still losing
was and am still committed to SP, a healthy lifestyle, and continuing my goals and self awareness
did not pummel myself hardly at all when things took downward turns
felt a lot more confident in myself, my abilities, my choices
started ST consistently
made millions of good, hard decisions every day that build up to me being a different person
inspired coworkers, community members, and probably others who see me as a healthy person
And this coming next 4 months:
we are doing Turbo Fire every day, the 17 week program and it is kicking my butt!! It is so much more intense, but really fun.
making weekly goals on Sunday, which I will communicate here on Wed. In the past few months I've been out of my range as much as in. I want to see what happens when I stay in 95% of the time.
daily gratitude book before bed
So I am pretty inspired and newly excited. Turbo Fire timing feels really good to get me moving from a slow year to an enthusiastic beginning 1/4 of 2011.
And really, I always go back to my first 37 years of life. Any one of those years was not as good as the slow, healthy, confident year I had last year.
So cheers to the new year!!!
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