Wednesday, January 19, 2011
I've decided to journal, not blog my goals for every week since they were mind-numbingly the same every week. how many times do you want to hear me say I won't drink coffee and I'll track every day, etc. So yay for you!
I will tell you generally how my goals are coming, though.
The good news is that aside from one day (that really wasn't my fault, who knew that black rice had like 4x the amount of calories that brown rice has), I was way in the middle of my calorie range every day. And that one day was only 50 over. I did have coffee twice (and it was gooooood). I'm still amazed at how hard giving up coffee is for me. it would probably be better just to say NO more coffee, but.. But what? I still want it and it seems like the least of my issues. It's also hard because I'm giving it up for ethical reasons (not part of a locavore diet). it seems it's easier for me to be healthy than ethical!
One nice thing is that for the past several weeks i have been feeling deprived and kind of sorry for myself. i hadn't let myself get too out there during the holidays by any means, but reeling myself in was a little more challenging than I thought it would be, and I fought it a little. But things feel good; normal again. i don't feel like I'm suffering or restricting myself. On the contrary, I feel great about the food I'm eating and the way I'm living. And as we all know, feeling restricted is the shortest route to the dark side. So I'm glad that things feel a bit better.
did you read the blog they posted on facebook? if not, read it RIGHT NOW:
it's amazing to see how different a healthy body can look, even if the pounds are not different. It made me feel a LOT better about that whole 'I only lost 10 pounds in 2010' thing.
The other thing that made me feel better is my measurements. i finally measured myself again. i don't know why, but it has just never been that different (my measurements). i stopped doing it b/c it was so frustrating. Consequently, I haven't done it in over a year, so the numbers were definitely smaller. happy!
aside from that all goes well. we are almost done with week 3 of Turbo Fire and feeling sore and fatigued every day (in a good way!).
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
It's interesting, I really have felt very hard core for the past 2-3 weeks, feeling like good things are happening and that I am really close to 100%. Then I looked back at my tracker thing, and saw that in the first 9 days of Jan, I had gone over my calorie range 4 days! That's really closer to 50%. it was disturbing, but good to see. It helped me realize that if that's what it looks like when I feel hard core, what must it look like when I fell just OK? So I am going to check that more regularly (weekly) as another objective measure. It's amazing how my brain can sugar coat (no pun intended) things.
Anyway, on to the goals. Last week didn't go exactly as planned, but this week so far is going swimmingly!
To Eval Last Week:
Areas of Concern: Saturday there were 2 parties--this is one of the days I went over. I drank a bit too much (calorie wise) at the 2nd party. I didn't eat any of the food, though!
Eating: Despite the parties, looking at the week I will be able to eat in range every day (see above for eval of this one :)
Tracking: I will be able to track every day --DONE
Exercise: Turbo Fire every day except running Wed (today!) and rest day Thurs. ----I actually ended up taking Sunday morning off too, since we got home so late (I'm not used to these late nights anymore, and I had an early morning). But the other 5 days were hard core.
Wine: 8 oz every day, except Thursday (4 oz), Friday (10oz), and Sat (I can drink what I want as long as I stay in range. I may eat a little less to make room for it, but just for saturday). ----done everyday except for the staying in range part of Saturday
Coffee: None this week -- I did have decaf on Sat. morning.
Dessert: None this week ---DONE
Snacking: OK to snack at the parties on fruit or veggies (no dip or only black bean dip that is tracked). otherwise no unplanned snacking -- DONE
Consistency---Hard core--NO bites, tastes, extra sips, etc --Not as hard core as I wanted. Not black and white. THis is a hard one for me, but an important one. How I eat is more important than what. It makes such a difference in mood and consistency.
SP--time on SP on Wed --Doing it now.
For this coming week--------------------------------------
Areas of Attention: dinner with friends on Monday night, Wed dinner at CHeesecake factory (not my choice).
dinner on Monday went OK, I did eat some unplanned hummus, but I didn't go over in my range! Tonight I already did my research on the CF and have planned and tracked what I'm going to eat, so it should be OK.
Calorie range---nothing extra special planned, should be able to stay in range every day, and this week I really, really want to given the 50% realization. So far so good 2 days in.
Track: every day
Exercise: day off friday, no other days off
Wine: 8 oz on Mon, Tues 4 oz on Thurs. 12 oz on Wed (it's dinner with my in-laws after all)
10 oz on fri, sat, or sun. if I end up having a beer, it's one beer and 6 oz of wine if calorie range permits on the days when I have 8 oz or more planned of wine
coffee: none this week (I lack confidence in this one)
dessert: a bite (ONE bite) of Jenny's at cheesecake factory tonight
hard core-ed-ness: I really want to be so hard core/black and white this week. I have to for my mental health
SP on Wed: here I am!
Wednesday, January 05, 2011
Always the same categories:
Areas of Concern: Saturday there are 2 parties
Eating: Despite the parties, looking at the week I will be able to eat in range every day
Tracking: I will be able to track every day
Exercise: Turbo Fire every day except running Wed (today!) and rest day Thurs
Wine: 8 oz every day, except Thursday (4 oz), Friday (10oz), and Sat (I can drink what I want as long as I stay in range. I may eat a little less to make room for it, but just for saturday).
Coffee: None this week
Dessert: None this week
Snacking: OK to snack at the parties on fruit or veggies (no dip or only black bean dip that is tracked). otherwise no unplanned snacking
Consistency---Hard core--NO bites, tastes, extra sips, etc
SP--time on SP on Wed
There you go. See you in a week!
Wednesday, January 05, 2011
Well first the bad news/attitude.
I just realized that I only lost 10 pounds last year.
Last YEAR. For those of you deficient in math, that's less than a pound a month. Not quite the pound a week of my dreams.
And my whole shtick--150 by 40? Not gonna happen. I turn 40 in 3 months, which I'm very excited about, but I'm not excited to be 25 pounds from my goal weight (a modified goal weight, mind you, when I realized I wasn't gonna get to 150, I changed my goal to 157--the top weight of normal BMI to have a better chance). March is also my 3 year anniversary with SP. Year 3 was a sloooooooow year I guess.
But it's disappointing because it didn't feel slow. While I haven't been on track every day, it felt like I had most days, so it is disappointing to be here. And while I am so excited to have lost 83 pounds, what have you done for me lately??
OK, now for the good news/good attitude/New Year's hopefulness:
In the past slow year I:
ran a 5K
became a runner
exercised almost every day
did not gain weight overall, and in fact am still losing
was and am still committed to SP, a healthy lifestyle, and continuing my goals and self awareness
did not pummel myself hardly at all when things took downward turns
felt a lot more confident in myself, my abilities, my choices
started ST consistently
made millions of good, hard decisions every day that build up to me being a different person
inspired coworkers, community members, and probably others who see me as a healthy person
And this coming next 4 months:
we are doing Turbo Fire every day, the 17 week program and it is kicking my butt!! It is so much more intense, but really fun.
making weekly goals on Sunday, which I will communicate here on Wed. In the past few months I've been out of my range as much as in. I want to see what happens when I stay in 95% of the time.
daily gratitude book before bed
So I am pretty inspired and newly excited. Turbo Fire timing feels really good to get me moving from a slow year to an enthusiastic beginning 1/4 of 2011.
And really, I always go back to my first 37 years of life. Any one of those years was not as good as the slow, healthy, confident year I had last year.
So cheers to the new year!!!
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
So last week here were my goals:
no coffee at all (I had started letting myself have decaf a day or two a week which has turned magically into caffeinated coffee every day). DONE! I've had no coffee! It was/is surprisingly difficult for me. Harder than other things have been.
No desserts (i'm not a big dessert person, but the occasional piece of dark chocolate has turned into 2 or 3 pieces every night) DONE!! No desserts
no more than 8 oz of wine per day, no liquor (this had slid into 12 oz, etc) DONE!!! It was not easy but I did it!
exercise every day with one day off (this has actually stayed on track through everything)
DONE!! We took Monday off but exercised every day besides!
track every day DONE!! and as a special bonus, I stayed in range for the whole week (it may be the first uninterrupted on goal calorie week I've ever had since starting SP!).
No unplanned eating, picking, etc. Eating in a planned way does more for my feelings of success, wellness than anything. Almost perfect---I had one extra bit of black beans a time or two, but that's it (way better than normal).
So I feel great about the past week. This coming week is a little trickier what with Christmas and a good friend's birthday, but I remain committed and feeling strong. Honestly the hardest thing about last week was the coffee (with wine a close second). I did have one day when I ate too few calories and felt pretty deprived, which is not good for my mental health, but overall it went well.
So, for this week, it looks pretty similar (I feel capable of taking this one week at a time for now):
--coffee---I get coffee on Christmas day (we are going to a brunch where I'm going to try to just have coffee and eat my oatmeal ahead of time so as not to go too far over, so coffee feels good on that day--decaf only). I also get coffee on Tuesday the 28th for my friend's birthday breakfast. Other than that, no coffee
--wine--all days are 8 oz days except I am choosing to have 12 oz on Christmas day and on my friend's birthday
--food--all days will be planned and I will stay perfectly in range aside from the 2 days I keep mentioning. I have planned them extensively so that I won't go too far over, but the most important thing for me on those 2 days is the planning and holding to that plan. This also
means measuring and tracking every day, and not eating any unplanned food.
--Exercising--We just got Turbo Fire! I didn't realize that it is an intensive 4 month program (I just thought it was a lot of videos). We looked at the workout schedule she proposes and we are going to do a modified version of it. Modified in that I still want to run, and will do so on those days when the weather permits. This makes the winter a lot easier to take, though, knowing that there are these fun, varied videos to do! So, the goal for this next week is to take one day off (Christmas) and work out the rest of the days.
This feels good. I feel propelled by meeting my goals so well last week. Also, I got back to the weight I was pre attack/trial/trip to NYC. I am feeling good.
And I am feeling strong and committed to meet these challenges.
Bring on the holidays!! I'll update next week.
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