Wednesday, October 22, 2008
This morning was a disaster! I had to miss work this morning due to a cooking catastrophe! We were having this huge fiesta luncheon at the office and I volunteered to make 3 things from random recipes I found online - big mistake! I ended up having to cook, clean up the mess, buy from the store already cooked, and miss 3 hours of work I could have been paid for! Wow... this didn't help my self esteem too much. But I praise myself for not stuffing my face during lunch.
The real battle began when I got home from work.... boredom hits! It is a real struggle for me to avoid going in the Kitchen to find a snack. As soon as I come home I want to eat everything in my cabinet! Its a horrible urge to experience and this intensifies when I am blah and depressed like today. So what do I do? Blog about it, and it is helping. I hate having to struggle with the constant desire to munch on my favorite snack foods. Its like the chewing and crunching is a comfort. I need to find another comfort to replace eating. I still have two hours before I head to the gym with my boyfriend. I do not want to reach for the PB&J or chocolate or chips and ruin the purpose of working out tonight. So I think I am going to pick up a book and lock myself in my room. Kitchen needs to be off limits for the rest of the evening.