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Thursday, October 09, 2014

It seems I have taken a break from SP. I hadnt posted in about a week and it really wasnt planned.
I went out of town for a few days and then came home to housework and trying to catch up on bills and doing errands.
Excuses, I am not really trying to make.
I really just took a short unintended break.
I have been focusing on my vitamin d and doing some reading, trying to find out if magnesium is something I need to add to my daily routine.
Having joined a vitamin d defincieny support group, I have been learning alot about magnesiums role in aiding vitamin d.
I also read it might help with the numbness and tingling feeling I have in my foot.
However, I have read some who are against it.
So, I just try to do as much reading as I can before I discuss it with my doctor at my next visit.
But its getting colder here and have had to turn the heat on, this morning on my walk, I had to wear my hoodie for the first time and soon I will have to get my boggan and gloves out as well.
I just hope I can walk as much as possible before snow keeps me inside.
Then I will just have to focus on the ellipitcal and weights.
Which is a good thing as well.

I do dread the winter, and alot of it has to do with the weather and how it interferes with walking, but alot of it is my vitamin definency issues.
My feet and lower legs stay so cold all of the time, I have to get some fuzzy socks and sweat pants before much longer.
Honey is still laid off from work and has been making good use of his time by cutting trees and clearing brush and briar bushes around the property.
Hopefully getting as much away from the yard and driveway before full winter.
Wishing he would go back to work soon, I need to really get caught up on bills and I need a new phone, some new glasses and my hair did.
I guess you dont realize the money you spend on the extras until you are only able to spend on the necessities and right now it is getting to the point that its food vs. paying the bills.
Good thing I dont eat alot.

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ARRREAGLES 10/9/2014 3:29PM

    I happen to love the wintertime, but largely because I think it's that chrysalis stage before we re-emerge in spring as new people. It's a period of thought and consideration, and I think there is some really cool value in that.

Even so, I know how the cold weather and darker days can mentally wear on you. So keep your head up, keep coming here to share your story, and we'll all support you.

hope things simplify for you a bit.

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ONTHEPATH2 10/9/2014 11:56AM

    I'm thinking it is time to haul out the warm wooly stuff - even though I hate to do it! The cold is upon us, like it or not. Freezing temps forecasted here tonight. I'm with you, I'd rather walk outside. In fact I do it until the snow flies, I just bundle up in layers!

Hang in there and keep your chin up. Hugs!


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CHRIMSONFYRE 10/9/2014 11:26AM

    Sounds like a lot on your plate right now. I don't much look forward to cold weather either, but it probably does not get as cold where I live in the South, I'm kind of a wuss because I've always lived in the south.

Hope things start looking up for you, keep positive!

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women, of a certain age!! pics.

Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Today is my birthday. I turned 47 years old today. I spent the morning, the same way, and in the same place as I have spent the last 3 birthdays. At the walking track, walking.
I was there at 730am and I walked 70 minutes.
I stopped and took a few pics along the way.

I woke up this morning and washed my face and looking in the mirror, trying to see what 47 looks like, and just hours earlier I was only 46, so I was trying to see if I looked any different.
What do you think a 47 year old woman would get for her birthday?
Cramps, chin acne? that time of the month?
I welcome it, it means I am not as old as I thought, lol.
Considering that a few months ago I had really thought that part of my life was behind me.
But the doctors told me that my blood work showed that I was not in menopause, probably my low vitamin d was contributing factor.

I think I feel pretty good right now.
I felt let down when I came home, ripped my clothes off and got on the scale, the number was NOT what I had hoped it would be.
I am not down any!!!
That really bothers me alot, because i am really beginning to feel like something is wrong that I am not losing any weight.
I am counting calories, eating my veggies, drinking my water, walking.
I know I can add more calorie burn, and I can probably even cut my calories by a 100.
But I really just dont get it.

But I am not going to dwell on it.
I am healthier right now than I was on that birthday 3 years ago and I have worked hard, even thru the pain of a broken foot and alot of emotional upheavals in my life in the last 2 years, I have stuck with it, I havent turned back to living a life of poor eating habits or being sedentary.
I feel pretty good today. I feel like I have made positive changes in my life.
I can remember about 10 years ago, at a much younger age, going to a doctor and being told my cholesterol was reaching the dangerous mark.
He wouldnt put me on cholesterol medicine, he warned me of the dangers of some of those meds and he told me that with better eating and exercise I could reverse that on my own.
Sure I thought, one more doctor telling me how to lose weight.
But I am glad for that moment.
Because today my cholesterol is normal and while I did gain some of the weight back that I lost, I am still 53 pounds less today than I was then.
And I know I shouldnt focus only on the number.
I cant help it though.
I feel I have learned how to eat and how to cook healthy and how to exercise and I am doing pretty much everything right.
I dont smoke.
I rarely ever have a drink.
I walk, lift weights, stair step.
Eat healthy.
So, all I can do is try harder and I will. I hope next year when this day rolls back around, I will be down some more pounds.
Maybe 50, or 40, or even if its only 20!!!
As long as I am alive and able to get up and go walking and I dont sit on the couch and complain about how old I am and how sick I feel.
Any day above ground is a good day!!!

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GORDON66 10/1/2014 9:46AM

  Kudos to you for making all those healthy changes. Stick with it, never give up, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon



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do you take a break sometimes?

Monday, September 29, 2014

I didnt work out today.
As the evening wears on, I am beginning to feel a little guilty over this.
There are always going to be days when finding the extra time to workout is hard. But today wasnt one of those days.
I just chose not to.
I cooked and cleaned and did a few little things around the house and I feel I have eaten pretty well.
Other than a little extra butter on my potato for supper, I did well.
Lots of fruits and veggies. Lots of water and the right amount of protein.
I just didnt work out.
So, here is my question, do each of you work out every day???
How important is your exercise routine to weight loss overall?
I walk almost daily.
Weather, or problems with my feet have really been the only real causes to keep me home.
But overall, I would say exercise is more important to my emotional and mental health.
This is a personal opinion keep in mind.
Yes, I know working out is important. I am not trying to suggest it isnt.
I am just wondering about people out there who have lost weight without doing an abundance of exercise.
I do plan to walk tomorrow and I am not even going to let the weather stop me.
This will become a tradition for me.
Tomorrow, save any unforseen issues, will be the 3rd year in a row I have spent my birthday at the walking track.
I havent lost much weight at all in the last year and have struggled at times.
But this is not a habit I am willing to allow myself to give up.
Lose weight or not, I am better off today than I was 3 years ago and I will keep working at it.

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CANDYMOUSE 10/1/2014 11:20PM

    I have lost weight in the past and did not work out every single day. If it gets to where it's a chore and you dread it, take a break. emoticon

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TJOHNOCONNOR 10/1/2014 3:32PM

    Each and everyone of us have days when we just don't feel like working out. Sometimes we are not listening to our bodies but to our heads. On the days I don't want to workout I see it as my body might be tired. So I make that day my rest day and workout on the day I had designated as my rest day. Either way I do something 6 days a week, maybe not with the same intensity but something just the same. Here is my go to motivational video that I do watch every morning. It is only 2 minutes long. Maybe it will help

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REBESANCON 10/1/2014 2:13PM

    I think it's important to take a rest day now and then. I never would have believed it, but if I take more than a day, I really, really miss my workout.

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TIFFFIT 9/29/2014 11:09PM

    I lost quite a bit of weight in the past (~65 lbs) without ever lifting a finger to exercise, but I hadn't really changed my life enough and I gained it all back plus some. Now I go to the gym every weekday morning with my husband and our friends and we do about half an hour of cardio plus some strength and/or flexibility. I am happy to say that I've never just blown it off in six months, but that's a completely different "me" that I hardly recognize. It's probably because our friends are waiting for us that I'd feel guilty not to go! (although I have gone alone on occasion).
So no, you can definitely lose the weight without exercise and if you hate exercise and it just makes you miserable I daresay you might not be inclined to stay "on your diet" either.
Ultimately it's up to you. I feel better when I exercise and I gain about 200-250 calories a day to spend on something yummy, but it's definitely not a given that you can't lose unless you work out. But it sounds like you're doing some exercise so it's not all-or-nothing, which sounds ideal.
Good luck!! You can do it!

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GORDON66 9/29/2014 8:43PM

  Exercise is definitely important for your emotional and mental health. As for me, getting off my duff and working out has made a huge difference in how I feel and has helped me lose weight.



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AJB121299 9/29/2014 6:48PM

    good luck tomorrow

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sweet 16 turns....who cares, lets dance!!!

Friday, September 26, 2014

"Of all the things I still remember
Summer's never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain

In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now on how things could've been
It was worth it in the end......." Daughtry.

So, September has come and is quickly on its way out.
So many memories and dates to remind me this month contains.
Days spent with a long lost friend, who I cannot ever forget or get out of my mind!!
Try as I might.
But as I do sit here and reflect on this particular September and ones past, I believe the painful memories are slowly being pushed back into the recesses of my mind.
I dont speak of this friend much anymore, or wonder why things happened the way they did.
I have stopped putting them on a pedastal and myself as being the cause of their actions.
I have come to accept that people have flaws and I am finally lifting the veil I had placed around the whole situation and seeing that they made the choices they made for whatever reason that suited them.
Nothing I did or said caused them to behave the way they did and I have finally seen their imperfections.
But I will say this.....the time I spent hanging out with them and the long talks we shared and every single minute I spent with them in my life was absolutely 100 percent worth it.
I will never ever want to forget them. and even though they pretty much just walked out of my life without explanation or looking back, maybe that was the way they are.
Maybe our friendship meant less to them.
But I am glad to have known them and feel like it shaped and changed me to be tougher and stronger person!!!!

So, the date of the anniversary of my brothers death, came and went without much fanfare.
I chose not to bring it up and just honor his memory in my private thoughts.
And with only days left to go, my birthday coming up has brought about mixed emotions.
Wondering what the age of 47 will bring.
Wondering if I will really begin to feel, or even act my age???
I really hope not!!!
And by the way, how does one ACT their age?
Somewhere inside a cave is there writings on the wall that tells how one should behave at each year of their life??
I think the concept is best summed up in the Bob Seger song, Rock and Roll never forgets.

"So your a little bit older and alot less bolder than you used to be, well you used to shake em down but now you stop and think about your dignity".......
Yes, I guess I can understand that, for example, my friends and I used to go out bar hopping in our 20s and we would see ladies there in their 40s and 50s and we would sit and talk about how we would never be like them.
We would never be so desperate at that age to get out and try to dress younger and dance and act younger and hang out with a younger crowd.
I am laughing at the young me for thinking that way.
While I no longer go to bars, it has more to do with me not drinking than age.
and being that i am not single.
Who knows if I would if I were. I wouldnt mind going out dancing with the girls. I wouldnt mind dancing with a young hottie lol lol!!!
Reflections on alot of thoughts and feelings today.
I dont know what 47 is supposed to feel like, or look like. But I think I look alot younger than some of my friends my age and then I say to myself, how does that matter?
The fact I dont have wrinkles around my eyes or mouth and my skin is still pretty firm, makes me look or feel younger???
That is something to be proud of? Something that makes me better or happier?? Maybe ever so slightly.
But.....I guess of all the things that I can be at this age, I can say that being able to walk and workout and focus on good living, not smoking or drinking, enjoying laughing and not focusing on a number, but on a feeling.
I am not younger in fact.
I am 47 (in 4 days).
So, what now????

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GORDON66 9/26/2014 2:32PM

  47? You're just a pup!!! emoticon I don't feel my age either - thank goodness!!!



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FATSOO51 9/26/2014 11:38AM

    emoticon We are only as old as we allow ourselves to be! Of course we can still dance! Especially when no one is looking....or in the rain!
However, I am 55 and I dance in
I had one brother who passed away 20 yrs ago. Yes, its time to remember the good times we spent with them and cherish their memories.
So my two cents worth to you, for whats its worth emoticon is to enjoy every day to the fullest....Nobody know when our # is up. You have alot to be thankful for....especially the good genes!

Happy Birthday!! (in four days)


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and so it goes and hopefully stays gone

Thursday, September 25, 2014

Feeling a little better today, after 4 days on antibiotics. The coughing wasnt nearly as bad last night, I finally did sleep a few hours straight thru, and was only woken up with violent bouts of coughing twice.
I still have a dry hacking cough that comes on when I get too hot.
But at least my throat isnt nearly as bad as it was.
I am going to try to get up and go for a walk in the early morning while its still cool outside. I hope I am not overcome with a coughing fit.
So you know how we, those of us who love the scale, always weigh after we have pretty much striped down to nothing and wouldnt dare consider ever getting on the scale, or making it count, with our shoes on.
But today I did just that and I was expecting a high number, but I was pleasantly surprised to see that I was down, fully clothed in the afternoon with my shoes on!!!
Lol, I almost only ever weigh first thing in the morning, sans clothes.
So, I guess I am doing better than I thought.
Now, if I can actually get back to working out and eating healthy, no more popsciles and ice cream for my sore throat, I might even see a lower number soon.
I bought myself two new shirts, its about time, for my upcoming birthday.
I was sorely disappointed that I wasnt able to go down a size, but I needed new shirts badly!!

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GORDON66 9/25/2014 10:52PM

  I'm so glad you're feeling better. Being sick is a bummer. Take care of yourself!!!



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