Sunday, August 10, 2014
Whatever it is that you count, or spark. Do we really do it right? I am sure that most of us are off by a few calories daily.
Sometimes I know for a fact I am off by 100, and some days I know that I am off by even more.
Yesterday for example, I forgot to spark a sweet tea I had purchased in the supermarket and drank on the way home.
Completely forgot about it.
Today, I had a couple of spoonfuls of rice, and had forgot to spark it with my dinner.
So, it just got me to thinking, I added probably 200 calories to my daily intake.
I spark around 1300 a day, but in reality, most days I might be taking in up to 300 more.
So, should I cut my spark calorie limit to 1000??? For the ones I forget to spark?
I know I am eating way too many calories.
And breaking down my calories by meal, I see I am getting most of my calories in my latest meal of the day.
I feel I should change that and get my bigger amount of calories midday and less for dinner and leave calories for my snack.
That way I am not going over my calories later in the day.
Of course, that is the rational persons way of thinking and if one followed that, might be a good plan.
My fear is, I will eat all the calories for lunch, then still end up eating more later in the day so I end up going over anyway.
I exercised today, had a decent little workout.
Wonder just how many of those extra calories I even burned.
My guess, not that many.
But at least I am aware.
Sunday, August 10, 2014
Another doctors appointment tomorrow.
I had hoped to find out some answers about my foot tomorrow, but I was told that they dont read the results of the Nerve tests until after the 18th.
So, here I figure I will go to my doctor tomorrow for my regular 3 month check up, blood pressure check, get my refills and then what? Go back again after the 18th so she can discuss my test results or, more than likely and this is what I expect to happen, get a phone call from her nurse, saying, "your results are normal".
As this is the state of health care we have here.
They never go into detail, they never discuss numbers, etc, as I guess they dont think average patients will understand.
But more than likely, because they also dont understand what they are looking at.
Why my Neurologist referred the test results back to my doctor, shouldnt the neurologist have been the one to read them and explain them to me???
I dont get it.
But I will not settle for a NORMAL result.
Because ones foot being completely numb for 2 months, is not normal.
All I could hear from my doctor and the Neurologist was, "is your back hurting",?
And then of course the neurologist did the muscle test on my back.
I guess where they were going was a pinched nerve in my back.
And that might very well be so, but my back isnt numb, and I am NOT having back surgery.
Which is another suggestion I expect to hear.
This is what we are offered for healthcare in my neck of the woods.
I already regret having had the tests done here.
Wishing I had waited and gone to University of Kentucky and hoping that my insurance will pay for a second opinion.
The only option I will have is to go get my test results and go elsewhere.
Or learn to live with whatever the heck is wrong with my foot.
Friday, August 08, 2014
When you realize that your life is spiraling out of control. Out of whose control??? Yours???
Are we ever in control of our own lives???
Arent bill collectors, doctors, parents, teachers, authority figures, children????
I dont know why this is on my mind this morning. Sitting here in the quietness of the house, working on the bills, finally a day alone, and its raining outside, so much so that I can hear it over the sound of the music that plays in my headphones.
Just listening to my own thoughts I suppose. Remembering happy sunny days spent at the walking track. Just me and my thoughts and my music then too, but at least then it was thoughts of good health and weight loss and lunches planned with friends I had back then.
Wondering where those thoughts went, those friends as well???
Wondering why the scale never moves. Wondering why I cant stick to anything for more than the time it takes to plan it out in my mind.
Wondering why my foot is this way. The numbness is less this morning, but that means nothing, it only means I have been sitting about all morning. By bedtime tonight I wont be able to feel my toes at all and the whole bottom of my foot will still be dead.
And this morning I called to see if they had gotten my nerve test results back, and was told they dont read them until after the 18th.
I dont know what thats all about.
But I go back to my own doctor on Monday, so I am going to ask her to send me for an ultrasound on my whole leg. I am seriously worried about DVT and blood clot.
This might just be the beginnings of my mothers hypochondria passing the torch onto me.
But in this case, I am willing to carry it.
I havent lost a single pound, I am to the point now that I no longer even want to get on the scale, so I dont even currently have one in my home.
I know I will find out on Monday at the doctors office that I am stuck or climbing.
So, the cycle that never ends, never ends for me.
I sit here, having had my wheat toast and egg for breakfast, coffee and wondering what is next in my life.
I have been wishing I could find another part time job, just to get out of the house a few days a week.
Living in the boonies as I call it is bad for job hunting.
We are so very very limited in our job market. and defeat the purpose to make money, to drive 40 miles round trip to work a minimum wage job.
By the time one fills their car with gas, they have spent more than they earned.
Right now I might be willing to do it part time just for the purpose of interaction with other human beings, real flesh and blood living creatures.
But, I doubt there is a job out there for me worth the risk of the added weight and time spent on my foot.
So, I sit here, in front of this box, watching bikers deal drugs and cops search for serial killers and my little dog lays next to my good for nothing foot that I can barely feel.
And I read about the excitement, real or imagined or embellished at least, of the Facebook crowd.
And I look over at the elliptical sitting in the corner and wish my spirit would lift my body up and carry it over and use it.
Instead I sit here yawning, after 3 cups of coffee and listening to the rain and the thoughts in my head.
Most of them are negative!!!
Tuesday, August 05, 2014
Normally I pay around 80 dollars to have my hair cut and colored.
Money has been a little tight lately so, I decided to do my own color.
Box colors dont work real well for me, as I have hard to color gray. sssshhhh, thats our little secret!!!
However, I decided to take my chance, and I think it turned out pretty good.
A little brassy, but I had no toner to put on it, I have some natural reddish undertones anyway.
I know I will probably have to touch up my roots or do another color in about 2 weeks, my hair grows fast.
But I am happy I did it.
I figure since I had it cut in early July, I should be able to save myself the expense until at least October!!!
One win and one loss.
I received my shoes today, the pair of shoes that took me weeks and weeks of debate and research and rethinking to finally settle upon.
And I am sadly disappointed. I ordered a 9 wide, since I was told by the woman who fitted me for my orthotics, that I would benefit from a wide shoe, since they are better suited for flat feet and orthotics.
I ordered from Zappos and thank goodness they have free shipping and free returns.
They sent me a size 9 medium width.
I can wear them, and if I chose to not use my orthotics, I would probably enjoy them.
But right now with the continued issue with my foot, I cant risk that.
I need the support.
So, the shoes were way to narrow and tight.
Back they go and back I go to the research board.
Next time I am going to go for the New Balance or Brooks. I wonder if anyone here has tried the Saucony brand???? I keep seeing those and wonder if they would work well for my foot needs/
Also, next time I am going to phone in the order and make sure the person on the phone understands and reads back to me my order.
I wish I had more access to real shoe stores so I could try them on in a wide in the brand I want.
But my access is limited, mostly all we have are Nike or Skechers in medium sizes.
So, I will start again.
Disappointed to say the least, and just glad I didnt order the more expensive pair and get a size I didnt order.
I have had a long day and tomorrow if grocery shopping and going with honey to renew his license.
I believe I will turn in earlier than usual tonight.
Monday, August 04, 2014
All I can say is, if you have never had EMG or NCV tests done. Hope you dont!!
I hated it, I asked the tech if it was going to hurt and that b10tch lied!!!
It hurt like a cowbite, no, make that 16 cows biting your in unison for like 30 minutes!!!
If you have ever used a tens unit for pain, imagine turning it up on high and times that by at least 4.
Some parts of it wasnt so bad, they did the muscle tests which I had imagined would be the worst but no the nerve conduction was much more painful.
I know how Ol Frankenstein must have felt.
But I dont want to discourage anyone, if you are having muscle or nerve issues and the doctor wants you to have these tests, by all means do it, I waited 6 weeks and I regret not going sooner. I might have found out the problem and gotten started with treatment by now.
But anyway its over and done with now. Now just to wait for the results to come back and find out what is going on and what my next step is.
I still go back to the ortho in Sept to find out what he thinks.
Then I went to Walmart. Wow, huge misjudgement on my part. Monday of check day, 3 days before school goes back. Well, I had to have some calcium and some coffee, so it had to be done. Now I am home, with the ac on high and fixing me a nice little spinach salad with some grilled chicken and strawberries for supper, then going to do the elliptical and weights.
I got to the post office too late to pick up my new shoes, so tomorrow I am going to get them and wear them inside the house to break them in before I head back to the walking track this week.
It is time. My foot is still numb and that means I have to be more careful and cautious of my steps and not overdo it. But I have to get back to walking.
Get An Email Alert Each Time SOFT_VAL67 Posts