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16 days til sand between my toes

Friday, June 20, 2014

I have been watiing til late night to blog. But today I decided to go for it early, maybe it will help me to stay motivated.
I havent walked now for 2 days and I am really beating myself up about it.
I knew rain was coming last night and today so why I didnt walk yesterday morning, was the threat of rain.
Let me explain a little. Rain does not bother me, I dont mind rain and wouldnt even mind walking in a light drizzle. But the track where I walk, for some reason, is slippery when wet.
To the point of scary slick.
It must be the paint they coated it with. It is slick like slime. But all that aside, I will find time today to get in a workout, weights and bands and the machine I have come to loathe!!!

I decided to have some eggs this morning to get some protein to start the day.
I am going to focus on protein today.
I get so overwhelmed. This has happened to me before to the point that I stopped sparking for weeks.
JUST TOO MUCH. Constantly focusing on what I eat, how it tracks, how many nutrients does it have, etc.
It consumes me.
So from time to time I have to just step back and take a short break from tracking my food and fitness points.
I just have to focus on my health and not on points and calories.
Walking is my thing, I go there not only for weight and fitness, but for my peace of mind. My ME time.
Listen to my music and just forget everything else. That doesnt always work because we carry everything inside us, we carry out stresses and emotions with us and there are so many that come out of me when I am walking.
I find answers and sometimes I find more questions.

Speaking of walking NO ONE gave me any suggestions for some new music to add.
Sometimes I feel like just not blogging either because I get one or two comments, makes me feel like a waste of time when no one is reading.
I am guilty of not always taking the time to read blogs. I cant judge anyone else.
I just sometimes feel all alone over here.
Today I guess the rain will keep me inside, I have a new book to read, was going to save it for the beach, but with the little one going with us, I am sure I will be too busy having fun.
Hope everyone has a great day.

  
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GORDON66 6/21/2014 12:09AM

  I don't track my food either. I'm trying to stop obsessing about food.

Walking music. Hmmm - I love, love, love Metallica - Seek and Destroy - but my favorite is Fade to Black. While the subject might be a downer, the guitar solo at the beginning of the song is killer! I'm also very fond of Pantera's Cementery Gates. However, you're probably better off with Vivaldi's Four Seasons. emoticon

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A_RARE_BEAN 6/20/2014 12:36PM

    You're not alone emoticon emoticon Alot of times people read but don't comment, I do it too sometimes when I feel like I don't have much of value to add, but people are always cheering you on even if silently. I know I am! We're all here to succeed in this emoticon

Music, not sure if you'd like my choices, I have 'mood' playlists. Right now I'm going for a 60's/70's soul vibe for walking with billie holliday, wilson pickett, solomon burke, al green, tom jones. When I don't want to think about the words of songs I'll play classical, the best of vivaldi, mozart, chopin, bach. The choices are endless! One thing I do like to do when I'm looking for new songs is a 'youtube journey' Basically just search any old song on youtube, then when ready for the next song you must ONLY choose one from the suggestions on the side. Opens you up to a whole new world you might not have thought of before.

Good luck, holidays soon a coming! And don't quit blogging, people are here emoticon

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KOFFEENUT 6/20/2014 12:31PM

    I actually started out ignoring the nutrients entirely - you're right, I found it overwhelming. Instead I just tried to get CLOSE to the calories each day. It was a long slow process to adjust my eating habits to even get in the vicinity of my max calories daily, but I figured even getting a LITTLE closer daily was an improvement. And I figure on this healthy lifestyle journey it doesn't matter whether we're traveling fast or slow. What matters is that we're headed in the right direction!



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short and no sweets

Thursday, June 19, 2014

To begin, just get it over with. I went over my calories today.
But I didnt eat any junk. I just had finished my food for the day, then I wasnt finished, so I had more food and sent me over by 300 calories.
I could make excuses and say I did this or that, but truth is, I was just straight up hungry.
I wondered earlier in the day if it might be my supplements making me hungry. I was fine before I took them, then I got really hungry.
Anyone else have this???
I took iron--vitamin d---womens one a day---calcium---fish oil---aldactone---and metformin.

I just flat out got hungry and I had a good lunch, a good dinner, then a little more dinner.
So, this is how the day went.
No walk and too many calories.
Other than that, it was just a little stress.
A big rain storm.
And hunger.
Not stressing out over what I cant change.
Maybe tomorrow will be totally different.
Thats all for now.

  
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GORDON66 6/19/2014 10:19PM

  Good night and take care!!!
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its always clearer in the light of day

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Ok, three quick things before I get onto the blog.
1. I need new music for my playlists for when I walk. I am not really so much into the poppy stuff that gets air time, so if anyone has any suggestions for some good upbeat music please let me know.
2. I am quickly approaching my points limit and wondering what happens once you reach the top??? I suppose I will reset my whole program, and will let everyone know if I make a new account.
3. I finally solved the mystery as to why my calcium was so high on my tracker, When I manually added my whey protein shake mix, I put the calcium content as 280 when it was really 150!!!
Got that straightened out.

Ok, now the blog-----
After a stressful night...(((broken tanning bed acrylic....that I have only had 3 months!!!)))
I was just falling down into a stress filled depression, anger, feeling like a big fat fatty!!!
I guess it was probably scratched up some, maybe even a slight crack under the surface that I just couldnt see or feel.
But it made me feel like a failure, like I was too fat to lay in a tanning bed!!!

I felt better today. Got up and went for my morning walk and it was a good one, the best walks for me are the ones where I can work out a solution to a problem or at least work it out that I have done my best and not to dwell on things I cant change, or at least cant change overnight.....then I came home and have eaten pretty healthy and pretty close to on track all day.
And after thinking it thru, I decided NOT to get on the scale this week.
Last week I lost 5 pounds and I was just scared to face a possible gain.
While I have done OK this week, I havent done great.
So, I am going to buckle down this week and work harder and wait til next week to check my weight.
Supposed to get rain tomorrow so I am probably going to just have to stick to the elliptical and weights.

I am noticing a pattern, late evening or late night hunger.
Now, be it real hunger or something else????
Boredom???
Stress???
Trying to get ready for vacation???
Well anyway.
So the countdown continues.....

  
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GORDON66 6/19/2014 9:05AM

  A good night's sleep always gives you a better perspective, so it's best not to beat yourself up.

Take care, and you didn't break the tanning bed.

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should i weigh or should i wait

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

I was feeling ok today, but things havent been that great, I cracked the acrylic on my tanning bed, which I have only had 3 months to the day today.
It is going to cost nearly 300 to replace and I just do not have it right now.
I suppose I could risk using it with the crack, but I dont feel safe doing that.
I was feeling good just before getting in.
Now I just feel like a fat failure.

I had planned to weigh in tomorrow. After reading a Spark article warning about too much weighing, I am undecided.
After the 5 pound loss last week, I just do not want to face disappointment.
I am considering waiting another week and give myself time to really work alot harder.

I skipped my walk regretfully and got to hankering to be on the track later in the day, but by then it was just wayyyyy too hot.
So, I did some dumbbell weights, squats and walked up and down my porch steps, there are 6 steps and pretty steep.


As for my calories, today I really had to tweak things.
Started out good, cottage cheese, fruit and coffee.
Then I made myself a protein shake, with skim milk and added some strawberries and a tbsp of peanut butter.
But I became hungry so I fixed myself a sandwich out of whole wheat rounds and turkey breast. Had some grapes on the side and a marble cheese stick. A small box of raisins.
You think that sounds like alot of food?????
I didnt.

But when I tracked it, I was slowly approaching my limit.
So, I had to change my dinner plans.
I ended up eating a can of white chunk chicken, some spinach, mushrooms and chicken broth.
And 3 cups of milk for the whole day.
And I still went over my calorie limit by 130 calories.
But I am not hungry.
Just feeling disappointed, the food I ate earlier in the day took up most of my calories and left me with a smaller dinner.
I guess I could have done without the raisins and cheese.
I am still down on my vitamin d, iron, and fiber.
It is a job everyday to stay within calorie range and find healthy foods to eat.
But like I say everyday, I am figuring it all out.
Finding what works for me and I am hoping what I have done this week will pay off.
19 Days til vacation and I feel the pressure closing in on me.
To get enough exercise and eat healthy.
But also getting packing planned out, I am a LIST girl.
Every item I pack has to be written down and then crossed off as its packed.
We are staying in a suite with a kitchen, so I am planning out meals that are affordable for 4 and what a child will eat and also, not to go way overboard on calories and junk.
I wont even lie, I have already packed a bottle of rum and pina colada mixer!!!
I can smell the coconut and feel the salty breeze off the water!!!
I am not going to sugar coat this either, I plan to have one really OUT THERE meal, some place I never get to go and enjoy something new.
I will try to be good and not over do it, but there is a Starbucks, Dunkin Donuts, and a Cold Stone Creamery, so I cant make promises. I like my coffees!!!
So, I should be finished planning what to pack and getting everything ready by the time we leave.....
Gotta make a list of all my lists.
OCD?
ROLLS MY EYES.
I will try harder tomorrow!

  
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DIETROCKSTAR 6/19/2014 4:39PM

    Your vacation sounds nice!!

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Skip a weigh! There is next week. Power on! you are doing great!

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GORDON66 6/17/2014 10:23PM

  You did just fine today!!! As for weighing yourself, I'm with Mies van der Rohe - less is more.

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nine

Monday, June 16, 2014

I decided, since my son borrowed my pedometer, to start counting my laps on the track. But I can never keep counting, after about 3 or 4 laps I lose count.
I usually walk one hour no matter how many laps that is. But today I think I walked 13 laps in an hour, maybe it was 12. I know it was somewhere right in that neighborhood.
Then once I had finished the hour, I walked around the park to the steep cemetery road and I went down the hill on the other side and back.
Adding an extra ten minutes of steep incline walking to my routine.
Hoping to help strengthen my feet and ankles.
So far today has been the best day for me calorie wise.
I might not be counting precisely right, but as closely as possible and I havent snacked at all today.
So, I still have calories left for a snack of yogurt or raisins. But I am not at all hungry.
It has been a pretty successful day and I feel pretty good, I hope tomorrow goes as well because I plan on getting back on the scale on Wednesday.
3 weeks til vacation starts. I really hope to build up my stamina for walking so we wont have to drive so much and so I wont hold everyone else back on sight seeing.
I remember some years back, maybe 10, honey and I had gone to the Smoky Mts in Tennessee and I had made up my mind we were going to walk up Klingmans Dome.
The highest peak and it has a bridge that goes out to an observation deck, it is said you can see, Ga, Ky, Va, Nc and SC all from atop the deck.
I cant be sure because I didnt make it.
Never took into account that it is a 2 mile, all uphill, very steep walk to the top and being so high up in the altitude, breathing is harder.
It was very early in the morning and the air was still damp and cool out so I thought it would be the best time to go.
Anyway, only made it about half a mile and gave up.
One day I will make it to the top of that dome.

Anyway, got a little side tracked there reminiscing, and I plan to stay focused on the here and now and keep working really hard.
I know I can and should step it up and get busy working a little hard with my workouts.
Toning and weights need to be more a part of my routine.
For now, I am just going to celebrate todays success and remember how good it felt, when I am struggling tomorrow.

  
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GORDON66 6/17/2014 8:37AM

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CAPECODBABE 6/17/2014 5:56AM

    I had a similar experience climbing in the White Mountains in New Hampshire. I was huffing and puffing and it was why I started to walk every day.
emoticon I can't wait to see pictures of that dome
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