Thursday, May 08, 2014
Early blog this morning. No walk today, my feet have been killing me so I decided to take a break today.
Yesterday after my walk, we got some work done.
Got the dishwasher taken out, it wasnt draining properly and the standing water was a health hazard, not to mention, stinky.
I dont miss it, I never used it.
So, now I get to replace it with a cabinet or some much needed drawer space.
Got the hot water heated checked and yes indeed, it was set to the lowest energy saving setting. Well, I am sorry, but I have to have some hot water. So we turned it up about 30 degrees. And that was part of the problem.
We have good water pressure in the sinks now, but not the showers so much, I believe its the shower heads, so today I am going to buy a cheap, one setting only shower head and see if the water pressure increases.
Didnt get the outdoor cooling unit wired up, but we did get a window ac to do for now.
Tore one small section of the carpet back to see that the kitchen flooring continued on thru and began the process of pulling up carpet. Only to discover about 2 foot in, that it did not go all the way thru.
So, back down went the carpet.
As much hard work as I know its going to be, now I will get to put down the floating hardwood laminate that I wanted to begin with, and will continue it down the hall to the bedroom!!!
Yeah, for Victory!!
Might be next spring before we do this, but it will be done the way I wanted.
So, we did accomplish a little.
Many more jobs to do, but its all good, the sun is here and gives me incentive to get outside in the early mornings. I need some items for the place, a microwave and a microwave cart. Some storage to serve as a pantry.
I am still waiting to see if my morning glories are going to bloom soon.
Hoping to have a nice healthy lunch with honey today. As this weekend is going to be a stressful one.
Whatever possessed me to schedule my dogs spay surgery the same weekend as Mothers Day???
So she has to be at the vet at 9 am tomorrow and pick up on Saturday.
Alot done, alot more to do and I just hope I can stay on the right track with my eating and walking. It was such good news about my vitamin d that I do not plan on ever letting it get that low again.
I am sure it will drop some when the sun is no longer a daily option, because the problem seemed to be in the absorption in my intestines.
Doc thinks its probably related to the removal of my gallbladder some years ago and that my body speeds up the process of digestion, not allowing the vitamins time to properly absorb.
You would think I would be super skinney if that is the case.
Well, I hope you all have a nice day and hope the sun is shining where you are.
Wednesday, May 07, 2014
I got some good news today. It was so good in fact, that I am almost scared to believe it, my lab work came back and my vitamin d is up to 72.3!!!
This is such fantastic news, its so hard for me to believe it, because in December it was only 19.
I guess taking high doses of D3 daily, and drinking lots of milk, eating fish and mushrooms and getting outside in the sun, now that we have sun, has been working.
I wonder if the tanning bed helped any?
Well either way, its up and I hope it stays up. I got so excited about it that I forgot to ask about all my other levels. The tech just said all was normal, but I like to have the actual number.
So, I am going tomorrow to get a copy of all the levels and a report on my ultrasound.
I got a tiny bit of other good news, well, right now its still in the planning stages and I dont want to jinx it by sharing too much too soon.
I will just say, if it works out the way I pray it does, I will be one happy person!!!
I will keep the rest under wraps for now.
But anyway, its a nice day here, the sun is shining and its supposed to be in the 90s. The fact that my outside cooling unit isnt hooked up or serviced yet doesnt even bother me that much. I will go to the old house where I still have window ac's and cool off.
I was on the walking track at 830 this morning and my bones just werent cooperating. I was stiff and sore and achy.
But I pushed on thru an hour, after stretching and sitting in the sun awhile.
Early morning walks are once again required with the hot days ahead, but I dont mind the sun to much now.
I know what good it does for my bones.
Have a nice day to all and stay the course!!!
Tuesday, May 06, 2014
ok for some reason the link keeps going to the bottom, try this one and see if it works. thanks.
Has anyone read this? See, this is my love hate relationship with the Biggest Loser and any of the other "weight loss quick" shows.
You all know, well most of you, who have lost a significant amount of weight, and especially if you are over a certain age, that your body doesnt miraculously get tight and toned such as they want us to think it does on the BL.
While I know they work out alot, like training for the Olympics workout, they still arent going to go from 450 pounds to 180 and not have some skin and some other visible signs of the loss.
I know I have blogged about this before, but this isnt a crapshoot show, they DO NOT pick people at random.
This is how they are able to bring us the heart wrenching back stories of some of the contestants.
They are examined, etc long before the show.
They have experts who pick and choose the contestants they believe they can show as fit and toned and not the ones who are going to be jiggly.
At any rate, they need to stop pretending to the home viewers that they too can look this way and not ever have to have surgery to help remove skin and that their bodies will be prefectly toned and no scars and life will be sunshine and roses.
They have past contestants come on to encourage and you can see that some of them have gained some of their weight back, which is typical especially if you lose it so quickly.
The girl they had on this past season who lost so much weight, that was scary.
The biggest incentive for them to lose the weight is money.
That is not a good reason in my opinion, yes, we all need money and some way more than others, but when she went home and came back, she looked sickly, almost anorexic.
This is not a good way for her to have lost the weight, and probably she has gained some back.
Anyway, this story is inspiring and sad all at once, that this woman lost all this weight on her own, and then her pic was rejected because who wants to see the truth right??
No one wants to admit that this is what happens to our bodies after a significant amount of weight loss.
This is probably one reason that holds alot of people back from really going for it.
Fear of having loose hanging skin.
Fear of having to have plastic surgery and even bigger fear of not getting approval for it.
There is a plastic surgeon here in my town, and he only really does surgeries on patients who have the WLS at the hospital he works from. In fact, they only brought him here once they started doing alot of WLS here, to keep people from going elsewhere for the surgery.
I recall when I made the choice not to have WLS, the surgeon told me that if I was lucky enough to lose any weight on my own that my insurance wouldnt cover my reconstructive surgery since it wasnt related to WLS.
I said oh well, and left her office and never looked back and I am happy with that decision.
I am often left shaking my head at the decision of some and most insurance companies not to pay for these surgeries.
Well any way that is my rant for the day.
I have so many other things I could rant about but I will save it for tomorrow, its so hot in here.
That is one of my rants, the heat and lack of having my a/c unit fixed yet!!!
Monday, May 05, 2014
I spent the day in the doctors office. The gyno!!
I had put the visit off for far too long and I knew I needed to get some answers about pcos and if my meds need to be changed.
So, it was a 3 hour visit, an hour of that just being waiting, then the exam, the discussion, the lab work, the ultrasound, and finally I was out of there. None to happy with the number on the scale, but, I guess it could have been alot worse.
So, I came home to bath the puppy and she tried to bite me as she always does when I bath her, only today she really bite at me like she was trying to bite me.
I bought her a muzzle for when she has her surgery which is coming up at the end of this week.
When I tried it on her, it seemed to fit and now today I put it on her and it was so lose it was coming off of her.
I am trying so hard to tough it out with her, but after nearly 5 months, the potty training is still an on-going battle, she will pee everywhere BUT her pee pad.
I really want to keep her, but its getting tougher.
I am at my wits end.
I just hope to get some things done here around the house that are well past due, like my dishwasher is leaking in the bottom, it doesnt drain properly and the standing water stinks and is making me fear rotting and insects.
So that is the job 1 here.
Then I need the outside air unit serviced, yes, I know that should be job 1, but its not, its job 2 and then is having the hot water heater checked, and the water pressure here is terrible.
This place was supposed to be move in ready and its been one issue right after the other.
Well, its getting on toward dinner time and I havent a clue what I am having.
I was so starved out by the time I got out of the docs office today I went straight to mcds for a coffee and mcchicken and that is all I have had today, well, Hope all of you are having a better day than I am.
Maybe tomorrow will be better.
Thursday, May 01, 2014
For 3 weeks my so called best friend has not spoken to me.
It all began with a "he-said, she-said" situation, and I believe the HE said.
I wont go into detail, but I will just say, two people in my life were discussing me behind my back and deciding what is best for me.
What I should do, where I should live, things I have said.
And one got mad, one denied saying what they said, and both I told to stay out of my personal life and leave me to make the decisions I need to make.
This person was my best friend.
Ladies, you know what I am talking about, the one friend.
The one you tell EVERYTHING to, the one you know will never betray you, the one who puts everything in the vault and throws away the key.
Well, I guess she left the lock unlocked when she got drunk and ran her mouth and denied saying what she said.
The things she said werent even really deeply bad.
They were just things I never thought she would talk about behind my back and the denial was the part that angered me, had she just said, yes, I had too much to drink and messed up, I am sorry.
I would have said ok, talked it over and moved on.
But she lied, she made the other person out to be a monster, a troublemaker and the cause of all the issues.
And that is partly true, but not all because she was there, she was in the conversation and she said things as well.
So, I told her that I need some time to myself and that I think its best for everyone to just leave me to make my own life choices and that I am not a child who needs people making decisions for me.
So, she hasnt spoken to me.
She hasnt liked or commented on anything, she is still there, but not.
And while I am a little bothered by it and wish she had the backbone and the heart to apologize or just say hello.
But I guess she and I are both being stubborn.
But I am not in the wrong here, am I????
I am not 100 percent bothered by her not being in my life.
She wasnt there for me the last few months anyway. Since she got back with her boyfriend, the cad.
She let alcohol run her life and play a big role in ruining a friendship.
I really feel betrayed and what other things might she have discussed about me, private things I have told her???
and all because she likes to get drunk and run her mouth.
So, not only because of this, but maybe partly, I have had a few bad weeks.
I have really fallen off the wagon.
NOT alcohol, I havent had a drink and dont feel the need to have one.
But I am not exercising much at all, my feet are bothering me so much, and my ear is full of fluid and wont drain and I cant sleep at night because of it.
I am eating junk I shouldnt be eating and I am just really sliding deep down.
I am hanging on and not giving up.
But today I sat in my car, not wanting to go home, not knowing where I wanted to go at all, but remembering the betrayal of yet another friend at the beginning of last year and how deeply that affected me.
Because yesterday I had to take a road I dont normally travel and was tired and it was beginning to rain and I had to give someone a ride and was wanting to hurry home and I came upon that person, met them on a narrow one lane part of the road where we both had to slow to pass and knowing this person wouldnt even look my way as if I didnt exist and my car wasnt right there and feet from them and all that pain and anger came back again.
And now here I am again.
Feeling friendless and betrayed and lost and angry and wondering why my feet have started bothering me so much and why I cant get my ear healed and dreading going to the doctor next week for lab testing and weight check.
And I sat there in my car, just sitting there until my car began to idle and jerked me out of my deep thought.
And I found myself wondering what is wrong with me that attracts me to these no good friends, people who dont honor their word, and people who can drop you as a friend as fast as you drop a bar of soap in the shower!!!!
I sat there.
With no answers.
And I am a little bit happy that she isnt in my life with her alcohol and her creep troubled boyfriend.
and I am a lot hurt that she betrayed my trust and lied to me about it.
And I am proud of myself for standing up to her, but also wondering if it plays a role in my slip up?
and how to get back from it.
I havent been depressed, I am not so much stress eating as I have just allowed myself a break that I cant find my way back from.
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