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Thursday, April 03, 2014

When I was first diagnosed with low vitamin d, around this time last year, (((I had broken my foot on Jan 8th and it took just over a month to get an appt with the ortho, so I was wearing the boot all that time)) I was being monitored by telephone by a nurse with my insurance company.
It was really more of a womens health study, and I was one of the guinea pigs I guess.
Anyway, I was discussing with her my low vitamin d and she recommended a supplement called strontium citrate, she told me its more of a bone builder, and works well with calcium. she was telling me how good I was going to feel once my vitamin d increased, she told me how much healthier my hair, skin and nails would be.
Well, I am still waiting. Still waiting, hey, I am still waiting!!
My nails are in the worst shape of my life, I had planned to treat myself to a pedicure and throw in a manicure, when I lose 10 lbs, well, still waiting on that too!!!
People used to ask me, where did I get my nails done, and I always said, no where, they are natural and they are, I have always had very nice, healthy nails.
When I broke my foot, I took a pic of my foot while wearing the bone growth stimulator and posted it on facebook and one of my friends asked where I had gotten my pedicure, lol, well I hadnt had one. My nails were always just white tipped and looked like I had.
But now, they are jagged and torn and one is longer then the other and my skin is dry and ashy, let me take a minute here to recommend a product....Palmers cocoa butter formula with vitamin e/alpha hydroxy and shea butter. for dry and ashy skin.
I happened upon a bottle at WM once and bought it and loved loved loved it and of course, WM never had it again.
Searched all the local drug stores and Kmart, etc and no one had it, well about a month ago I was at a local flea market and this man had lots of drug store products, and lo and behold, there was the lotion, that I had paid 6 dollars for, 15 oz bottles and here he had it for 2 dollars a bottle.
I bought 2, and yet, everyday I kick myself for not buying 4 or 6 or all that he had lol, but I figured they were probably already pushing maxium shelf life and so I stuck with 2, and I love this lotion.
If you have dry, very dry skin, such as I do, you will love it.
You can also find it online at and ebonyline. com, and this is a great lotion.
Anyway, I love it.
I am just tired of this fight I am in.
It is bad enough I cannot for the life of me lose a single pound, but my vitamin d issues and dry skin, nails looking like I have been rock climbing and my hair is in the worst shape of my life.
The cost to get my hair cut and colored has, like everything else, gone up and my cash flow, has gone down.
Oh well.
And this nurse was always calling me to see how I was doing, at least once a month, asking if I had seen the doc, she was very friendly, and always discussed ways to improve my health, but she was adamant that once my vitamin d level increased to a normal range, I would lose weight like mad.
She told me it has so much more effect on our bodies than we realize.
So mine went from 20 to 52, which was still way below the normal range, I needed it to reach the high 70s.
But then it dropped back down to 19, and so I was told that I might need some tests to find out why my body doesnt absorb it in my intestines. And I might need to take shots to get it straight into the blood, I am just really hoping all the supplements, the use of the tanning bed, the milk I drink like crazy and what little bit of sunshine I have been able to get are working.
So far, I dont think its very high, measuring from the lack of weight loss, and the hair/skin issues.
Time will tell, but there will be no sunshine to absorb today.
Rain, overcast and high winds, yet again.
Last night I was viciously attacked and stung by a big red wasp, in my bedroom, I was sitting on my bed, filing my nails in fact and from out of no where this big red wasp, swarps across the room and I didnt see where it went, so I go to stand up and whammmmm, right on my wrist, it was the worst pain I have felt in decades, the damn thing flew up to the ceiling light, so I smacked it with a fly swatter and sent it flying.
Couldnt find it, so I swore I wouldnt be going to bed last night, but later it was bouncing off the ceiling so I hit it again, and missed of course, and made it mad, then I opened the front door and I hope it flew out. Because I never seen it the rest of the night and I checked my bed real well, behind the blinds, and all around the room before laying down.
The bite or sting, was vicious, it was mad at me for some reason, but it swelled up all the way up my arm, and was a red line, like a burn, red and pain all night.
It is some better today, but now I am deathly afraid there is a nest somewhere and plan to search all the windows and eaves of the house and get rid of any and all bees, its bad enough the ladybugs have taken over, I cannot lay in the tanning bed for them, they crawl out and are attracted to the light, someone suggested I buy a black light zapper, it attracts them and apparently theres some kind of lure/attractant you can buy. I know there are people who say they are not harmful, but if you are laying in the tanning bed and they are crawling on you, and yes, they do bite, I have been bitten by them, they are all pains in the butt!!! I hate them now!!!
I am on a mission to get rid of them.

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GORDON66 4/4/2014 8:48AM

  I have to agree. That red line does not sound good. You might want to call the vitamin D nurse and ask her about it.

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MELISSIMAUS 4/3/2014 10:29AM

    Yes, do keep a close eye on it—you might need antibiotics. Red streaks are never a good sign.

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CATLADY52 4/3/2014 10:18AM

    If your arm/wrist is still swollen you had better get it checked out. It doesn't sound good. emoticon

As to the low vitamin D I don't know enough about it so I won't comment. emoticon

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dont look back, you cant get that moment in time back no way

Wednesday, April 02, 2014

The day started out good, I went walking around 930 and walked an hour. Really felt it in my lungs today, it was a good walk, real!!
The sun was out, so while waiting on my mom at the doctors office, I walked around outside, they really need more benches in my little town.
But I tried to soak up a little sun, and was feeling pretty good, then I went to the post box and got some unneeded, unhappy news, money matters.
I was really angry but after an hour, I said to myself, whats the point in getting all worked up....there is nothing you can do about it!
And so now, while I am still feeling pretty sore inside, I am not letting it ruin the day, or the week or the rest of my life.
I know things happen to us, unexpected things we have no control over sometimes.
But, this is one more example of dealing with addiction, a drug addict or alcoholic might turn to that to deal with anger, pain, etc.
A food addict, such as myself would maybe turn to candy bars or chips, etc.
But I didnt, I came home and I had some smart ones chicken for lunch and I am going to clean house later and have been listening to some good music, and just letting it go.
I was listening to this song the other day and a line says,

"But this world doesn't owe you a debt,
So don't you expect a hand out or me to show you respect,
I got no regrets, why? Cos really its proof,
That makes a good lie better than the hideous truth,
I don't preach or scream ain't trying to teach the scene,
The only guidelines are those you need to read between,"

I am not really sure what it meant to me at the time, but it stuck in my head, I heard it as, Hey, stop feeling sorry for yourself, stop living by your past, stop thinking about, worrying about others thoughts about you and stop expecting someone else to make your life better!! Just stop lying to yourself and face the truth, face the light, face yourself and do what needs to be done.
So, anyway, that song has stuck in my head all week and so after what happened today, I was just like, theres nothing worry is going to do but make me feel even worse.
Just figure out a way to deal with it and make it work.
When one bad thing happens, maybe its a way to show you a new way.
While this one little debt isnt going away and money matters are a big pain in the butt, we did eliminate one debt recently, that freed up close to 250 dollars a month, so, that is one thing, that is a positive and that is on the bright side of things.
And I am sticking to my plan to lose weight and get healthy and stay on track with walking, exercising and living as well and as healthy as I can and I know that worrying and stressing out over a few lost dollars isnt going to change things.
So its all just water under the bridge now.
I just keep walking forward and let whats past stay there.

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ANAMORPHOSIS 4/2/2014 4:41PM

    Good for you! It's so true that flotsam and jetsam from the past doesn't do anyone good.

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MELISSIMAUS 4/2/2014 3:09PM


Awesome, Val. I got all kinds of bad financial news yesterday, too, but I said the same thing you did—can't change it, so don't dwell or waste energy on it. Moving on!

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PROPMAN1 4/2/2014 2:41PM

  Not looking back is hard just like letting go. Keep going!!! emoticon

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GORDON66 4/2/2014 2:37PM

  Good for you!!! Letting go is hard. Keep it up!

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SBIBLE7 4/2/2014 2:32PM

    needed to hear this, thanks!

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its april, fools!!!

Tuesday, April 01, 2014

Today, Tuesday, is typically weigh in day for me. But being that it is also April Fools Day, I didnt think I could believe the scale, good or bad.
I figured if I had a loss it would be a big fat joke!!
So, I decided to skip it til next week. I doubt there will be a loss anyway.
I have been doing somewhat better and warmer days have allowed me to walk a little more often.
I have found though that such a long time away from the track and the extra pounds I added on over the winter, has slowed me.
I used to be able to walk an hour and push it on another 15 minutes or so.
But my most recent walks have been pushing it at 45 minutes.
But still, its outside, its sunny and its walking.
Ok, I exaggerated the sunny part. It is getting sunnier, so there.
I have 42 days until my next doctors appointment. While, that allows me 6 weeks to lose weight, I am really more concerned with my vitamin d level and wondering if its increased much.
I am taking 8,000iu of d3 daily, not to mention, 2,000iu more in my calcium and vitamin d supplement and a womans one a day and 50,000iu once a week prescription strength.
And guzzling milk like its going out of style, I do however need to add some fish to my diet.
I went shopping yesterday but totally was so annoyed and bothered with personal issues that I forgot to even go over to the seafood section.
Opting instead for weight watchers 2 point brownies and red velvet cakes of which I have already eaten 4 since last night!!!
This is why I dont often buy these snacks.
When I need a sweet or chocolatey snack, I try to go for weight watchers big fudge bars, they are bigger and more satisfying and take longer to eat so that by the time I am done, i no longer feel the need to snack.
The little points snacks are bite size and so I end up eating more of them.
Today is supposed to be another warm sunny day, So, I am blogging early, have my house so so cleaned up and plan to go to the track around 2, yes, I know its going to be 75 and sunny, but I want to sit on the park bench and soak up what sun I can.
I hope to see a loss on the scale this time next week.
And that is no joke!!!

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ANAMORPHOSIS 4/1/2014 4:03PM

    Enjoy the sunshine!

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CATLADY52 4/1/2014 2:19PM

    Glad you are getting warmer. emoticon

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MELISSIMAUS 4/1/2014 1:55PM

    LOL! I like your reasoning about weighing yourself on April Fool's. Too bad I didn't see that before I weighed myself.

I am so right there with you, re: "diet" snacks like brownies, cookies, etc. I can't have them in the house. Low cal only counts if you don't eat the whole package.


When I did Weight Watchers years ago, I ate like half my daily calories in Skinny Cows and WW popsicles. That is no way to eat, man. I was starving all the time! So now I just stay far, far away from the cookie and ice cream aisles.

Glad you're finally getting some warmer weather!

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ok wind, we get it, you are bad!!!

Thursday, March 27, 2014

You all should hear the wind outside my door!
I did walk today, for about 20 minutes, but the wind became too swift and I had to quit.
Besides, I was about to pee!!
I had a very very light salad lunch with my friend and drank alot of water, and peed before leaving the restaurant and by the time I drove 5 miles to the track and walked 20 minutes, I had to go again!!
Maybe its alot of water, or, vitamin d???
or that I had 3 cups of coffee before lunch.
Anyway, the wind here has been awful, I am beginning to wonder if spring is going to be blown away and if we will ever see it.
Tonight, I had cravings, I wanted chocolate, any kind of chocolate.
Well, I know I didnt really want chocolate, I wanted something.
But I didnt give in.
Even with a very light lunch today, I know I still pushed the seams of my calories today.
My friend was telling me today about the diet center shes going to and how shes getting some bio diet style who knows what hormone and b12 and b6 injections and she feels so good.
I am happy for her.
But that isnt for me, no quick fix diets have ever worked for me.
I know that these cravings are psychological and that I have to find out why I want food and what is going on, and what I need to do to stop them.
I know that eventually they will stop and not giving in to them is the thing I have to do.
Not take a pill or get a shot or whatever else.
I really am looking forward to seeing some pounds drop off the scale.
It has been way too long and I know that I have to get back to exercising, since its obvious the weather isnt going to allow me to walk enough to really matter.
But to each his own.
I am glad its working for her, and I wont say it wont work, but for me, I know I have to dig deep and find what makes me want to eat the foods that are bad for me.
I am working on it.
Walking on it!!


a pound a toenail!!!!

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

I am jealous!!!!
Yes, it is true. This week, I have read posts by at least 3 friends who have lost 2 to 4 pounds in the last week.
One friend posted that she has lost 67 pounds in 9 months since having her baby.
So, I am sitting here wondering what am I doing wrong??????
Or, the better question is, what I am NOT DOING!!!
Exercise is the number one answer.
Other than the handful of times I have actually gotten to walk this year, due to one snowfall right after another, I have done very very little exercise and I am beginning to feel it.
I have been waking up every morning with a pain in my hip.
I am not sure if its the mattress, the way I am laying, or just overall aging, I know what has to happen. WEIGHT LOSS!!!
I have got to get back to losing weight.
On with it.
Today I committed to sticking to my calorie range no matter what. And to cut back on carbs and get back to a higher protein diet.
I even considered doing the all liquid diet for a few weeks just to jumpstart things.
For now I will hold off on that and stick to the high protein diet that helped me so much before.
Cottage cheese
turkey -in all forms.
greek yogurt
whey protein
This is what I basically ate for a year, along with salads, low fat dressings and berries. a typical meal for me was yogurt and a shake in the morning, tuna pouch or a salad for lunch, yogurt for snack and grilled chicken breast and beans for dinner.
Lots of water.
I have to get back to eating right and get some pounds off!!!
I have gained 16 pounds back since the first of 2013.
No weight loss success at all during the whole year.
and now pushing into spring of 2014 and here I am......still not losing.
So, it snowed all day again yesterday, and last night, temps dipped down into the low 20s and we are only days away from April.
I wonder if this is Mother Natures April Fools joke on us????
In other news--I got puppy a play yard, she has plenty of room to run around and play and still is contained so she isnt into everything.
Hoping this helps cut down on chewing cords, etc.
She is scheduled to be spayed in May. As I have been told, this cuts down excitable behavior in male dogs, wonder if its the same for females????
And my electric bill dropped a whopping 100 dollars, amazing. this means I might actually have a few extra dollars in the next few weeks to do something nice for myself.
I am in terrible need of a pedicure, with such a long winter we have had.
Maybe if I can lose 4 lbs or better yet 8....I will treat myself.
Yeah, thats the incentive....10 pounds gone=a pedicure!!! I hope I can do this before flip flop weather!!!!

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EDDYMEESE 3/26/2014 4:07PM

    Part of the excitability, chewing things is just the puppy in her. Spaying doesn't really help with that, but it's a good thing anyway!


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SIEGRID 3/26/2014 12:33PM

    In male dogs it cuts down their 'want' of wandering...I have a neutered female, who is 4 now. Believe me she is still very excitable and crazy, but we love her all the more for her foolishness!!!!!
Concerning your bed. I also woke up with a lot of pain (but my case is an old problem) anyway, I put an exercise carpet (an old one, thicker and more stable than a yoga mat, between the mattress and the sheets, and I sleep like a baby since I did this. Our mattress isn't that old either.
As for a lifestyle change, you have to find what's right for you and what works.
I find all the information here quite fantastic..


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WITCHYALISHA 3/26/2014 11:01AM

    Never noticed a change in behavior in spayed girl dogs, but if she is old enough for the operation she might be growing out of the puppy version of the terrible twos soon. I noticed a huge chance and my speed of weight loss quadrupled the day I joined the gym. So in my head exercise is a magic bullet.

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CAPECODBABE 3/26/2014 10:46AM

    It's so hard to get inspired to exercise in this weather.

Better weather has to be coming soon. We're getting snow and high winds today, and 60s by the weekend. I have today off and have to work this weekend. Not fair LOL
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