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its april, fools!!!

Tuesday, April 01, 2014

Today, Tuesday, is typically weigh in day for me. But being that it is also April Fools Day, I didnt think I could believe the scale, good or bad.
I figured if I had a loss it would be a big fat joke!!
So, I decided to skip it til next week. I doubt there will be a loss anyway.
I have been doing somewhat better and warmer days have allowed me to walk a little more often.
I have found though that such a long time away from the track and the extra pounds I added on over the winter, has slowed me.
I used to be able to walk an hour and push it on another 15 minutes or so.
But my most recent walks have been pushing it at 45 minutes.
But still, its outside, its sunny and its walking.
Ok, I exaggerated the sunny part. It is getting sunnier, so there.
I have 42 days until my next doctors appointment. While, that allows me 6 weeks to lose weight, I am really more concerned with my vitamin d level and wondering if its increased much.
I am taking 8,000iu of d3 daily, not to mention, 2,000iu more in my calcium and vitamin d supplement and a womans one a day and 50,000iu once a week prescription strength.
And guzzling milk like its going out of style, I do however need to add some fish to my diet.
I went shopping yesterday but totally was so annoyed and bothered with personal issues that I forgot to even go over to the seafood section.
Opting instead for weight watchers 2 point brownies and red velvet cakes of which I have already eaten 4 since last night!!!
This is why I dont often buy these snacks.
When I need a sweet or chocolatey snack, I try to go for weight watchers big fudge bars, they are bigger and more satisfying and take longer to eat so that by the time I am done, i no longer feel the need to snack.
The little points snacks are bite size and so I end up eating more of them.
Today is supposed to be another warm sunny day, So, I am blogging early, have my house so so cleaned up and plan to go to the track around 2, yes, I know its going to be 75 and sunny, but I want to sit on the park bench and soak up what sun I can.
I hope to see a loss on the scale this time next week.
And that is no joke!!!

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ANAMORPHOSIS 4/1/2014 4:03PM

    Enjoy the sunshine!

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CATLADY52 4/1/2014 2:19PM

    Glad you are getting warmer. emoticon

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MELISSIMAUS 4/1/2014 1:55PM

    LOL! I like your reasoning about weighing yourself on April Fool's. Too bad I didn't see that before I weighed myself.

I am so right there with you, re: "diet" snacks like brownies, cookies, etc. I can't have them in the house. Low cal only counts if you don't eat the whole package.


When I did Weight Watchers years ago, I ate like half my daily calories in Skinny Cows and WW popsicles. That is no way to eat, man. I was starving all the time! So now I just stay far, far away from the cookie and ice cream aisles.

Glad you're finally getting some warmer weather!

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ok wind, we get it, you are bad!!!

Thursday, March 27, 2014

You all should hear the wind outside my door!
I did walk today, for about 20 minutes, but the wind became too swift and I had to quit.
Besides, I was about to pee!!
I had a very very light salad lunch with my friend and drank alot of water, and peed before leaving the restaurant and by the time I drove 5 miles to the track and walked 20 minutes, I had to go again!!
Maybe its alot of water, or, vitamin d???
or that I had 3 cups of coffee before lunch.
Anyway, the wind here has been awful, I am beginning to wonder if spring is going to be blown away and if we will ever see it.
Tonight, I had cravings, I wanted chocolate, any kind of chocolate.
Well, I know I didnt really want chocolate, I wanted something.
But I didnt give in.
Even with a very light lunch today, I know I still pushed the seams of my calories today.
My friend was telling me today about the diet center shes going to and how shes getting some bio diet style who knows what hormone and b12 and b6 injections and she feels so good.
I am happy for her.
But that isnt for me, no quick fix diets have ever worked for me.
I know that these cravings are psychological and that I have to find out why I want food and what is going on, and what I need to do to stop them.
I know that eventually they will stop and not giving in to them is the thing I have to do.
Not take a pill or get a shot or whatever else.
I really am looking forward to seeing some pounds drop off the scale.
It has been way too long and I know that I have to get back to exercising, since its obvious the weather isnt going to allow me to walk enough to really matter.
But to each his own.
I am glad its working for her, and I wont say it wont work, but for me, I know I have to dig deep and find what makes me want to eat the foods that are bad for me.
I am working on it.
Walking on it!!


a pound a toenail!!!!

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

I am jealous!!!!
Yes, it is true. This week, I have read posts by at least 3 friends who have lost 2 to 4 pounds in the last week.
One friend posted that she has lost 67 pounds in 9 months since having her baby.
So, I am sitting here wondering what am I doing wrong??????
Or, the better question is, what I am NOT DOING!!!
Exercise is the number one answer.
Other than the handful of times I have actually gotten to walk this year, due to one snowfall right after another, I have done very very little exercise and I am beginning to feel it.
I have been waking up every morning with a pain in my hip.
I am not sure if its the mattress, the way I am laying, or just overall aging, I know what has to happen. WEIGHT LOSS!!!
I have got to get back to losing weight.
On with it.
Today I committed to sticking to my calorie range no matter what. And to cut back on carbs and get back to a higher protein diet.
I even considered doing the all liquid diet for a few weeks just to jumpstart things.
For now I will hold off on that and stick to the high protein diet that helped me so much before.
Cottage cheese
turkey -in all forms.
greek yogurt
whey protein
This is what I basically ate for a year, along with salads, low fat dressings and berries. a typical meal for me was yogurt and a shake in the morning, tuna pouch or a salad for lunch, yogurt for snack and grilled chicken breast and beans for dinner.
Lots of water.
I have to get back to eating right and get some pounds off!!!
I have gained 16 pounds back since the first of 2013.
No weight loss success at all during the whole year.
and now pushing into spring of 2014 and here I am......still not losing.
So, it snowed all day again yesterday, and last night, temps dipped down into the low 20s and we are only days away from April.
I wonder if this is Mother Natures April Fools joke on us????
In other news--I got puppy a play yard, she has plenty of room to run around and play and still is contained so she isnt into everything.
Hoping this helps cut down on chewing cords, etc.
She is scheduled to be spayed in May. As I have been told, this cuts down excitable behavior in male dogs, wonder if its the same for females????
And my electric bill dropped a whopping 100 dollars, amazing. this means I might actually have a few extra dollars in the next few weeks to do something nice for myself.
I am in terrible need of a pedicure, with such a long winter we have had.
Maybe if I can lose 4 lbs or better yet 8....I will treat myself.
Yeah, thats the incentive....10 pounds gone=a pedicure!!! I hope I can do this before flip flop weather!!!!

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NYARAMULA 3/27/2014 8:26AM


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EDDYMEESE 3/26/2014 4:07PM

    Part of the excitability, chewing things is just the puppy in her. Spaying doesn't really help with that, but it's a good thing anyway!


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SIEGRID 3/26/2014 12:33PM

    In male dogs it cuts down their 'want' of wandering...I have a neutered female, who is 4 now. Believe me she is still very excitable and crazy, but we love her all the more for her foolishness!!!!!
Concerning your bed. I also woke up with a lot of pain (but my case is an old problem) anyway, I put an exercise carpet (an old one, thicker and more stable than a yoga mat, between the mattress and the sheets, and I sleep like a baby since I did this. Our mattress isn't that old either.
As for a lifestyle change, you have to find what's right for you and what works.
I find all the information here quite fantastic..


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WITCHYALISHA 3/26/2014 11:01AM

    Never noticed a change in behavior in spayed girl dogs, but if she is old enough for the operation she might be growing out of the puppy version of the terrible twos soon. I noticed a huge chance and my speed of weight loss quadrupled the day I joined the gym. So in my head exercise is a magic bullet.

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CAPECODBABE 3/26/2014 10:46AM

    It's so hard to get inspired to exercise in this weather.

Better weather has to be coming soon. We're getting snow and high winds today, and 60s by the weekend. I have today off and have to work this weekend. Not fair LOL
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Sunday, March 23, 2014

Havent blogged in a few days.
Last night I was invited out to dinner by a good friend, and we went to the chinese buffet.
I had a nice salad and was hoping for some sushi, there was no sushi.
But I enjoyed some coconut chicken and orange chicken and all the other kinds of chicken.
I only had one small potato and one small nearly bite size piece of cake, peanut butter.
Mostly I stuck to the meats, two spareribs on a stick.
I guess this food was high in salt content or something, because the back of my mouth, past the gum in the main back, has been so sore, raw, painful even.
But it was worth it, I would walk back there today for some more of that coconut chicken!!
and even though I said I wasnt going to, I did drink 1 beer.
After dinner we went to a neighbors house where they had a backyard bonfire going and drinking beer, I had one, out of courtesy to the host.
I am glad I didnt have more.
So yesterday I went to the park, even though it was somewhat windy, I decided it was way too pretty out to waste the day and not walk.
The park was full of people, more than I have seen there.
Walking was great, until this one group of younger women walkers showed up.
Maybe I am just not used to sharing the track with so many people, but, these girls, ranging in age from maybe 14 to early 20s, dressed in cowboy boots, tight jeans and flip flops and not walking, but more like strolling.
I was courteous and stepped to the side when they strolled around, but the perfume was so overwhelming, I had to go sit down and allow them to go on around and get way ahead of me.
Maybe all of them were wearing perfumes that we co-mingling and making the stink, or one of them had on a ton of the most cheap, P U stinking perfume I have smelled.
And there I am, the wind blowing it back on me, and me trying to breathe as it was, had to stop and get tissues out of my car to blow my nose.
But I got my one hour walk in and enjoyed the sun.
At about 40 minutes the wind got more intense and I thought maybe I would stop.
But I pushed on, and it actually felt kind of good, I just kept reminding myself, shorts weather is only weeks away.
My shirts are all too tight.
I havent seen a big loss on the scale in a long time.
Then I came home and tanned and my friend had texted me wanting to go out to eat.
I had planned to fix an omelet as I was home alone last night, but was glad to get the invite, I really needed a night out of the house.
There was a young man at the bonfire playing the guitar and telling jokes and it was a really nice evening.
Took my mind off of alot.
Now, today is Sunday and its walking dead night.
and once again, the sun has hidden and gone way off to some other town. the sky is gray and cloudy and its cold outside.
Snow??? So I have heard.
This has been one long winter.


goodbye my friend, until me meet again

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Someone suggested I write a poem about my friend, it might help me to write, to get out my feelings, and so I did, at least I tried.
I am feeling a little better.
And I did actually sleep last night, was sleeping so deeply when honey came in from work around 4 am, I neither heard him, nor understood what he was asking me.
Something about the tanning bed....
I guess it felt good to sleep and not wake every hour with him on my mind.
Sitting thru a little bit of the funeral, I had hoped to get some spiritual moment where it all dawned on me, life and death and such.
But the kind of funeral his family chose brought nothing but more pain.
Have any of you heard of "old regular baptist"???
If not, you are missing a great time, hell fire and damnation is our lot.
God is a vengeful God.
Woe is you who doesnt believe or kneel at the cross every Sunday, and so on and so on and boogie boogie boogie!!!
I know my friend would not have chosen such a funeral.
Had to be his family I guess.
To each his own.
I told my friend Amy last night that I want none of that when my time comes.
If there is to be any "preaching", I want it to be a biker minister, with a long braid and beard to his belly, with tattooes, and lots of piercings!!!
And I want him to say some sweet words about love and life and enjoying time here on this earth.
Then someone sing some Johnny Cash and everybody dance!!!
Lol....well, at least I didnt lose my sense of humor.
Here is the poem, such as it is that I wrote, I did it as a way of just releasing some of the pain inside, and put it in my writers workshop group feed.....
"An Ode to RDHJ"

""" We talked all the time...about nothing.
Sometimes, just to kill the time, or kill the silence of the time.
Sometimes he made me laugh, sometimes, he made me mad.
Most of the time, he made me happy, happy to have the friend I had.
Today he will be laid on a hill within the hills.....
No more will he message me to say did you hear that song?
No more will he ride his side by side all night long. Coveralls covered in all, dirt, mud, grass and sweat.
I have had many friends, but he was the best one yet!!!
and I watch you go....I watch my tears stream down, dripping onto my own shirt.
I watch a piece of my heart go with you as they lay you in that dirt.
and I whisper goodbye friend, and its picked up and carried away on the wind.
Maybe in time, it will come back around again.
I love you RDHJ, and I will never forget you young friend, I will stay behind and maybe one day I will see you again!"""""

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ENDUROVET 3/25/2014 5:25PM

    Deepest sympathy my dear, what a tragic loss.
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SIEGRID 3/19/2014 12:28PM

    I am sorry for your loss emoticon

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LJOYCE55 3/19/2014 9:04AM

  Hope your healing process continues and that you find some solace with your loved ones.

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ANDREWMOM 3/19/2014 8:52AM

    Very sorry for your loss. emoticon

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KESTRYLL 3/19/2014 8:49AM

    I am sorry for your loss

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