Thursday, January 09, 2014
Another better day today. The sun is actually out and right now its up to around 43 degrees.
I went walking, only for 30 minutes, but not too bad considering I had set a goal of 20 minutes.
It was cold and alot of ice around the track, but I didnt mind, after 20 minutes I looked at my phone and couldnt believe I had already walked that long.
So, I kept going.
Then I went to the tanning bed, hopefully these warm sunny days will hang around and I will be able to walk a little more.
Now, got alot of housework to get started on and just really going to try to stay on track today .
Sunshine, even without heat can really lift my mood.
Wednesday, January 08, 2014
So, today, so far, I am feeling a little better, have been able to open up the curtains to see a little sun out there, while it has no heat with it, at least it gives me the feeling that life isnt so dark and bleak.
It is supposed to warm up some and I am hoping by about 1pm today I can get my car doors open and get out for awhile.
Have alot I need to be doing, but all I want to be doing is walking and I am hoping with temps rumored to reach 40 tomorrow, I will be able to, even if its a short quick walk.
I know my last few blogs have been Debbie Downers. It has alot to do with the weather.
I have to get some sun somehow someway. So if that means the tanning bed at least its better than none, for 15 minutes anyway.
As far as eating goes, well I wont lie, I have been eating alot of comfort foods the last few days, cheese and cornbread and macaroni.
All of that is gone now and I am going grocery shopping Friday and stock up on veggies and protein.
I am so ready to get out of this funk and get myself back on that track.
Today is 1 year anniversary of the day I broke my foot. I remember that sound, I remember I was on the walking track, I was at the height of my weight loss, I remember weighing in that morning and I remember the number and I also know I am up 16 lbs today.
I dont want to dwell on the fact I have to lose that 16 lbs just to get back to where I left off.
So, I am just going to focus one day and one pound at a time and getting in shape again.
I know getting back to walking, I am guessing its been close to 6 weeks or longer since I did walk, its going to be slow going, and few and far between with this cold weather.
I do not do well in cold and wish I lived in a warmer climate.
But I know spring will be here one day and the sun will come with it and I will be able to walk and feel better and get my vitamin d back up and hopefully lose some weight.
This is afterall my goal, to lose weight, I want to be healthy and feel good and live a long life, but overall, my goal is to lose more weight.
Tuesday, January 07, 2014
While its still early, I am feeling not much better today. A friend posted on FB last night that according to "those in the know". January 6th is the most depressing day of the year.
Yesterday was very depressing for me. Add to it the cold cold frozen tundra and having not left my own house in 3 days.
I know all about SAD and I know I suffer from it. However, its worse for me right now, dealing with this impending move. I want to clarify. I am not moving to some new magical land where I will meet lots of new people and live in a new exciting town. No, I am moving less than 2 miles up the road from where I am now, and its up a holler, up on a hill, or as I call it, "in the boonies". On days like today, snowy cold days, the roads are more dangerous to have to travel on.
I will feel more depressed than normal as I will feel stuck.
Honey is going to go cut some trees down around the area in the hopes that maybe I will get some more sunlight, because right now its dark and bleak. Very bleak.
So people will say make the best of it, well honestly I cannot see any good in it at all.
Then of course there is dealing with the puppy training, right now, I just dont care, I put her in the crate but I got her out and turned her loose, let her poop everywhere I really dont even care.
I am up 16 pounds from this day 1 year ago. And that is depressing for me, I am sick to death of cold and wind and snow and rain and ice.
I havent seen sun or felt warmth in so long and I cant even get in my car and drive to the tanning bed because my car doors are frozen. And besides the tanning bed is closed due to the below zero temps, schools are closed and most people are just staying inside, happy to still have electricity and my neighbor has a dog who absolutely refuses to go inside his dog house, he put straw down and he put the dog inside the house and stood over him and as soon as the man left, the dog was right back outside and he isnt a mean bad man, he cares for his dog, but he has no where to put him inside and I looked over there early this morning and that dog was laying outside on the ground next to a perfectly good big roomy doghouse with straw and I dont know what my neighbor is going to do.
Add to all of this that tomorrow is the 1 year anniversary of the date I broke my foot.
So, here I am a year later, 16 pounds heavier, no chance to go walking anytime soon.
Maybe people much stronger and much younger and healthier than myself can bundle up and go out in this, but I cannot and will not.
And that is so far my depressing, sad, cold, poop filled day.
But really, I am feeling a little better. LOL.
Monday, January 06, 2014
Today has been a pretty bad day.
This puppy training is for the birds!! I just am at my wits end with this puppy!!
I know shes just a puppy, but I have put pads down almost every inch of the room where she goes, behind the couch and futon, in corners, behind tables, there has to be 6 down right now, and she still goes on the carpet.
I cant take her outside, its like zero degrees and shes only 8 weeks old, shes teeny, like 1 lb, 2 at most.
Going outside just isn't an option right now.
Well, shes in it right now, she also sleeps in it, I have to put her in it if I go anywhere cause I cannot leave her out in the house alone, not only does she poop everywhere, she chews everything.
I really wish in a way I had not gotten her and had waited til warm weather to get a puppy that has to be trained.
But what difference would it make, warmer weather, eventually is going to turn cold right.
So, right now, I am very depressed.
I am depressed over the poop piles I have cleaned all day long, and I am depressed because its so bitter cold and I haven't seen sun in a week or more and no heat and my electric bill doubled last month and I am sure it will triple next.
I am depressed because for 2 days now I have eaten mac and cheese and corn bread muffins, and I have eaten cool whip and I am sick to death of eating junk and I cant figure out why I do.
I am just overall sad and depressed about all of these things and I don't know what to do.
I really just don't know what to do about anything.
I am sick of sitting in this house with no place to go and there is literally NO place to go.
And I couldn't go if I wanted because my car doors are frozen shut and probably will be all day tomorrow as well.
It is just a bad depressing sh1 tt Y day!!!
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