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four days in

Saturday, January 04, 2014

Feeling a little proud, I was smelling poo, So, in anger I jumped up with my trusty flashlight and went to look under the futon, and lo and behold, Biscuit had used her pee pad!!!
Now this is a small victory, but it has been a good day in her world and in mine.
I had to go to Walmart to buy a new router, and so I was in and out, straight back to electronics and straight out, of course, it took me half an hour to get into the parking lot and find a place to park and almost that long to get back out.
Then I had to stop at the local grocery and that was another super fun experience.
I would not have had to go if Goodys would have taken my payment over the phone, I tried paying online, it kept saying my password was wrong or something.
So I called and they said 15 dollar charge to pay over the phone, I laughed out loud and hung up on them.
So, off to the store to make that payment and came home, took my dad a bottle of leftover early times, left over from making christmas candy, because he is very sick, has an upper respitory infection and wanted to make himself a hot toddy.
Then, home, shower, walked Biscuit outside and she made her business out there as well.
Now, football, the Colts won, YAH HOO.
And, Subway and milk and now to relax.
The only set back to the day really was, I got a letter from my doctors office telling me that they will no longer be able to accept my health insurance, due to a dispute with my carrier, it seems they do not want to start a contract with my doctors offices.
This bugged me, but didnt deter me, I only see her once every 3 months, sans any emergencies, and if I have to pay to see her I will, because I will not leave her and go elsewhere, hopefully they can work the issue out soon and I will be able to have my office visits covered.
Gonna try to stay warm and watch some football and go to bed.
Overall, day 4 of the new year was pretty fair.

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CAROL_31649731 1/4/2014 9:41PM

    Cute name for your dog (I love it).
And I would have hung up, laughing, too!!! emoticon

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food and poo, the neverending saga!!!

Friday, January 03, 2014

I am trying to stick to my plan of being accountable and owning my shortcomings.
So, here it is, the 3rd day of the new month, the new year and I am struggling.
I have not only eaten a kit kat today, but alot of bread.
Bread is worse in my opinion, because I didnt want to buy this bread but I did, knowing it wasnt going to end well.
It is a big loaf of wheat french bread, and while it IS wheat, its also BREAD, and I put butter on it.
I dont know why I am having such an issue saying no to this bread, or saying no to myself walking into the kitchen, opening the loaf, cutting off a thick slice and heating it in the microwave, then spreading the butter on it?????
But whatever the reason, I am.
I havent done well today at all.
It is cold here, super cold, like 8 degrees and I havent been out of the house today.
Also, really, really struggling with training the new puppy.
I have been trying with the pads, and while she does fair, I would say, 70 percent of the time on them pads for peeing, she absolutely WILL NOT go on one to poo!!!
And I am sick sick sick already of cleaning up poo!!!
In the 11 days shes been here, shes gone on the pad, maybe 2 times.
Mostly she goes anywhere she feels like.
No particular part of the room. There are pads down.
Any one have any suggestions?
Someone even suggested kitty litter. She is a very small puppy, and wont get to be more than about 8 or 9 lbs grown, but right now, she is a 1 pound poop machine and mostly what is making me the most angry, is that she goes under the futon and does her business, so that it has to be pulled out and cleaned.
I am really at my wits end.
So there it is, my day, struggling with food, and struggling with poo.

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LEIGHOC 1/5/2014 5:31AM

    Oh and just 1 more thought... is it possible that you are replacing beer with bread?

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LEIGHOC 1/5/2014 5:29AM

    Hey Girl. I have to give you an empathic LOL on this one.
1) Bread, yeah it's pretty much the Devil. The only way to kick the carb habit is to eliminate them from your life (sound familiar???) I too struggle with a love of bread. But since going gluten free, and then realizing that ALL prepackaged gluten free "replacement" food are worse than the non GF ones, I am bread free. I don't even crave bread anymore. I'm not telling you to go GF coz it's a sucky sucky lifestyle. But do whatever you have to do to get off the bread monkey.
2) Dogs.
we got our dog 6 years ago. She was 1 or 2 already and completely house broken. Until she got a UTI. Now, we pretty much should buy stock in the pee pad business. She hasn't poo'd in the house (thankfully, we have cats to provide THAT entertainment), but she has ruined our carpet to the point where we have missing patches in the bedroom bc I can't take it anymore, but I can't afford new flooring. It pretty much sucks. I can't tell you from personal experience how to train your pup, but i will say that create training now will save you later. We can't crate our dog bc she was abused in a crate before she was rescued. But she usually manages to get it on the pad at night (btw, she gets walked 3 times a day and STILL needs pads at night.)
I will say though, never punish her for her messes unless you catch her IN THE ACT, not afterwards. and punishment shouldn't be rubbing her nose in it or yelling at her. She will just fear you and it won't stop the behavior (could make it worse) Talk to your vet about the situation and definitely get a crate.
Good luck!

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AMARILYNH 1/4/2014 8:21AM

    This probably isn't what you want to hear, but GET THE BREAD OUT of the house!! Throw it away, give it away - but get rid of it!! I've been on this journey since April of 2008 and finally realized in the past year that when I give up most sugar and most bread and keep sodium low my cravings go away. But I over indulged this past week and Thursday and Friday had to FIGHT hard to not eat in the afternoon and after dinner (not any particular thing, just wanted FOOD although I wasn't hungry).

I'm really hoping that today will be better but if not I'm almost sure tomorrow will be. It isn't easy to fight those urges, but giving into them just continues the cycle. It is SO NICE when those feelings go away!!

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LIVE_AMAZINGLY 1/3/2014 10:15PM

    Crate training keeps your dog from developing bad habits. Keep him in the crate any time you cannot watch his every move. That does not mean he needs to spend excessive amounts of time there. It means that until he is trained at a level to be really trustworthy, you need to be constantly aware of his every move; and when you can
cannot, then he needs to be in a crate small enough to discourage him doing his business in the crate. You can buy a crate big enough for his future adult size, but block off part of it for now.

Once a DOG gets away with doing his business "in your territory" as a habit, it will be hard work to turn that around. It can be done, but I have seen too many dog owners fail to train the dog properly and then give up and want to pawn the problem dog off on a new owner. But, it is the real responsibility of the one who allowed that behavior to take root, to uproot the behavior.

I wish you the best in retraining your dog out of this behavior before it becomes deep rooted.

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ALIHIKES 1/3/2014 8:07PM

    It's been a while since I had a puppy but I recall it helped to take him outside as soon as he had eaten, and to take him out in the middle of the night, and to praise him extravagantly when he pooed or peed outside. Puppies will pick a particular area out of the way -- right now that unfortunately seems to be under the futon. So I recommend BLOCK ACCESS TO THE futon (close the door, block access with cement blocks, whatever it takes), take the puppy outdoors, and say GOOD DOG with hugs whenever it goes in the yard.

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CAPECODBABE 1/3/2014 7:35PM

    Could the cravings be the weather?
I'm having them too, comfort food mmmmmm

Sorry I can't help with the potty training.
Lots of love and lots of patience

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RHOTHO 1/3/2014 7:23PM

  I am also on day three and although I haven't done so bad I am sick of it already. You are not alone in your feelings. It is a struggle but my doctor wants me to lose weight for my health and I just have to keep trying. As for the puppy I know it is aggravating but they are so worth it in the long run. My family lost a pet of 12 years back in September. I would give anything to have to clean up after him to still have him but I can see how frustrating it is for you. Hang in there it will get better and I am telling myself the same thing because all I want right now is junk food!!!!!

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the next day

Thursday, January 02, 2014

Finally got around to getting my hair cut and colored.
Went to a new stylist and it turned out really good, a little darker than normal, but it looks nice.
What a way to start off a new year, with a new cut and color and to just feel good about oneself. emoticon
Had a pretty good day, despite the rain and turning over to snow this evening.
Cold out tonight, will be icy in the morning.
Guess I will stay in.
Had a good day food wise as well, whey protein and more whey protein and Subway.
with the exception of a momentary lapse and a quicky eaten single reese cup!!!!
SMH!!! emoticon
Reset my nutritional values today and reset my goal date, a short term goal to reach by Feb 12 when I go back to my doc again.
My number one goal in that department is to see my vitamin d slowly climbing the ladder again.
So thats about all I have today, everyone stay warm and safe and healthy.


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CAPECODBABE 1/2/2014 9:07PM

    I'll be looking for a selfie of the new hair color and style, can't wait!
Your blog today sounded so positive emoticon

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Wednesday, January 01, 2014

Today has for some reason seemed like Sunday all day.
Didnt do much today, had a hair appointment, but she ended up rescheduling it, so I went to visit my SIL in the hospital, and shes beginning to feel a little better.
They removed the suction from her chest tube and if her lung stays inflated on its own, they will remove it tomorrow.
She is better and healed from her bowel surgery, but shes been in the hospital 22 days mostly from pneumonia, then the collapsed lung.
She has some infection from the tube, but shes doing alot better.
Then we went and shared a pizza and came home, bathed the new puppy and sat around the rest of the evening, not doing much of anything.
Supposed to get snow tomorrow.
I am really dreading it too, hope we dont get the 4 inches they are calling for, but its not even the snow I dread, but the cold.
We are to see temps in the single digits later in the week and I so dread it.
I cant seem to get warm these days as it is.
Havent had a very eventful New Years day.
Just pretty calm. That part was nice.

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_MELISSAJOY_ 1/2/2014 1:42AM

    I hope your sister in law feels better soon! Glad you had a calm relaxing day.

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the eve

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

So, as of right now, My issues with the bank are resolved, hopefully. Got to keep a close watch over the next week and make sure nothing else goes wrong.
Seriously as soon as I get thru the first week of the year and all my bills are taken out and paid, I am going to switch banks and never deal with these people again.
So, here we are, on the eve.....of a new year.
I have no big plans for a send off to 2013. But I will send it off in some way. and be so happy to see it gone. All my plan is, maybe to cook a healthy dinner and watch the walking dead and stay inside with the honey and the new puppy. and just relax, no loud parties, no alcohol, no deep fried chunks of cheese. Just happiness to have warm house shoes on my feet and a cold bottle of water in my hand. and maybe a late evening walk, its supposed to warm in the 50s today.
I am so hoping this one goes better for me than the last one.
I know its kinda goofy to feel that way about a date, I have never been superstitious or religious, but the number 13 in this past year has brought with it, for me, alot of bad mojo.
Alot of wrong, it was a year ago today, I had been hit full in the face with the total betrayal of a friend I thought I would always have.
It took me up thru the month of April to find out all the details of the back stabbing, I never fully knew, and still dont today why they chose the path they took.
But I am just glad to put it behind me.
It took me along time to realize it was their shortcoming in character, nothing I had done.
Well choosing to be friends and confine in and trust the wrong people I guess, that lesson learned.
So today, I sit here, looking out over the horizon of this new year and for the first time in a long time I have faith and confidence that I can make this year better.
Getting the bank situation lined out before the end of the year has given me new hope.
Maybe just maybe, going into the new year will be an easing in. No big bangs of pain and loss, no big knives to the back or the gut.
And what I look forward to most, is finding myself again, Not the person others made me into this past year, but the person I was in 2012.
The woman determined to live cleaner, less alcohol, less food, more exercise, more insight into who I want to be and how I want to live.
I will take no crap off of anyone this year.
I will not be put down, or dragged down by others who have a bad intention.
I will fully accept my shortcomings and losses and deal with them head on, not sit back and cry and wait for the fall out.
And what else can I do???
Workout, walk, eat healthy, live clean, stay away from alcohol and drama and just live.
That is all I have for today.

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CATLADY52 12/31/2013 4:38PM

    emoticon You have the strength and will power to accomplish almost anything you choose.

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