Thursday, January 02, 2014
Finally got around to getting my hair cut and colored.
Went to a new stylist and it turned out really good, a little darker than normal, but it looks nice.
What a way to start off a new year, with a new cut and color and to just feel good about oneself.
Had a pretty good day, despite the rain and turning over to snow this evening.
Cold out tonight, will be icy in the morning.
Guess I will stay in.
Had a good day food wise as well, whey protein and more whey protein and Subway.
with the exception of a momentary lapse and a quicky eaten single reese cup!!!!
Reset my nutritional values today and reset my goal date, a short term goal to reach by Feb 12 when I go back to my doc again.
My number one goal in that department is to see my vitamin d slowly climbing the ladder again.
So thats about all I have today, everyone stay warm and safe and healthy.
Wednesday, January 01, 2014
Today has for some reason seemed like Sunday all day.
Didnt do much today, had a hair appointment, but she ended up rescheduling it, so I went to visit my SIL in the hospital, and shes beginning to feel a little better.
They removed the suction from her chest tube and if her lung stays inflated on its own, they will remove it tomorrow.
She is better and healed from her bowel surgery, but shes been in the hospital 22 days mostly from pneumonia, then the collapsed lung.
She has some infection from the tube, but shes doing alot better.
Then we went and shared a pizza and came home, bathed the new puppy and sat around the rest of the evening, not doing much of anything.
Supposed to get snow tomorrow.
I am really dreading it too, hope we dont get the 4 inches they are calling for, but its not even the snow I dread, but the cold.
We are to see temps in the single digits later in the week and I so dread it.
I cant seem to get warm these days as it is.
Havent had a very eventful New Years day.
Just pretty calm. That part was nice.
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
So, as of right now, My issues with the bank are resolved, hopefully. Got to keep a close watch over the next week and make sure nothing else goes wrong.
Seriously as soon as I get thru the first week of the year and all my bills are taken out and paid, I am going to switch banks and never deal with these people again.
So, here we are, on the eve.....of a new year.
I have no big plans for a send off to 2013. But I will send it off in some way. and be so happy to see it gone. All my plan is, maybe to cook a healthy dinner and watch the walking dead and stay inside with the honey and the new puppy. and just relax, no loud parties, no alcohol, no deep fried chunks of cheese. Just happiness to have warm house shoes on my feet and a cold bottle of water in my hand. and maybe a late evening walk, its supposed to warm in the 50s today.
I am so hoping this one goes better for me than the last one.
I know its kinda goofy to feel that way about a date, I have never been superstitious or religious, but the number 13 in this past year has brought with it, for me, alot of bad mojo.
Alot of wrong, it was a year ago today, I had been hit full in the face with the total betrayal of a friend I thought I would always have.
It took me up thru the month of April to find out all the details of the back stabbing, I never fully knew, and still dont today why they chose the path they took.
But I am just glad to put it behind me.
It took me along time to realize it was their shortcoming in character, nothing I had done.
Well choosing to be friends and confine in and trust the wrong people I guess, that lesson learned.
So today, I sit here, looking out over the horizon of this new year and for the first time in a long time I have faith and confidence that I can make this year better.
Getting the bank situation lined out before the end of the year has given me new hope.
Maybe just maybe, going into the new year will be an easing in. No big bangs of pain and loss, no big knives to the back or the gut.
And what I look forward to most, is finding myself again, Not the person others made me into this past year, but the person I was in 2012.
The woman determined to live cleaner, less alcohol, less food, more exercise, more insight into who I want to be and how I want to live.
I will take no crap off of anyone this year.
I will not be put down, or dragged down by others who have a bad intention.
I will fully accept my shortcomings and losses and deal with them head on, not sit back and cry and wait for the fall out.
And what else can I do???
Workout, walk, eat healthy, live clean, stay away from alcohol and drama and just live.
That is all I have for today.
Monday, December 30, 2013
So today I made a post on the message boards about New Years Resolutions.
It was met with alot of negative comments, and yes, I do know that resolutions dont ALWAYS work,
I have never been one to make them, and sticking to them, forget it.
But after the year I have had in 2013, I really felt the need to RESOLVE to make some positive changes.
I resolve to walk more, as often as I can, no excuses like weather, etc.
I resolve to eat healthier, go back to my 2012 days when I followed strict calorie/fat/protein/carbs.
I will get that mindset again.
I resolve to take better care of myself physically, mentally and emotionally, I am going to learn to let go of stuff that I have no control over.
And I resolve to let go of stuff and people who I have carried in my life for far too long, who do nothing but bring me negative thoughts and feelings.
I resolve to take my vitamins, drink my water, workout and just focus on HEALTH.
These are not goals that are un reachable.
I have done this before and I will do it again, the only number I put on it, was 40
40 pounds for the year.
That is an open statement.
If I do not reach that goal, I will admit it, I will own it, I will talk to you all about it, why and how I failed.
Just as I have talked about this past year and how it has been one let down, one failure, one hard time and one hurt after another.
But I know I will succeed this year.
Maybe I will not lose 40 lbs
maybe I will only lose 30, or maybe I will only lose 25, who can see this???
But I know this, I will strive as hard as I can to lose 40 lbs, and I will accept nothing from myself but my hardest and my best.
So there you have it, that is my new years resolutions.
Now, remind me in 3 months if I have stuck to them, I am sure I will have.
I have no where to go from here but onward and upward.
Sunday, December 29, 2013
Have been thinking alot lately about year end reviews. And I know we will be seeing alot of blogs about them.
I wonder if I should do one, I mean, afterall, everyone pretty much knows how I feel about this horrible year already.
All I want at this point is to get thru the next week of dealing with these horrendous people at the bank and hopefully get all this mess cleared up and move forward.
It seems I am forever more moving forward from something horrible.
Right now, I am trying to move forward from this terrible illness. I dont know if its been the flu or not, but whatever it is, it is bad!!!
I slept the biggest part of yesterday, and that was due to taking some Tylenol cold and cough, which I only recommend if you have nothing else going on for at least 24 hours, because 2 capfuls over a 6 hour period floored me.
I actually felt worse taking it than not.
So today I awoke to rain, and decided to take a good warm morning shower, put on some clean fresh clothes and fix my hair.
I have had a big appetite but have eaten only yogurt, since I have had the rumbbly tummy all day.
Drinking gingerale and sticking to yogurt for now.
Maybe if I am feeling up to it later, I might venture some soup and crackers.
Back to the year end review.
I have had it on my mind because I have seen many friends posting on FB about how happy they are to see this year go.
So much has been wrong about this whole year.
I am sure some people have seen good times and good advancements this year, but not me.
It has been one horrible set back after another.
Started out that way this time one year ago, before the year even began, days before the New Year things fell all to pieces and just kept chipping off pieces as the year went on.
ZERO weight loss for the year.
Very little walking, due to this broken foot.
And here I am coming up on the 1 year anniversary of the broken foot and am still having pain and tenderness at times.
It is just a constant reminder of things lost and things best left behind.
I am just hoping that this mad mojo business that the bank has created for me doesnt follow me into the new year.
I am hoping to get it resolved before the clock strikes midnight, so I cant include it as a part of 2014.
But either way, it is just a part of life, problems and issues.
I am ready to put them behind me and start anew.
This year has to be better, has to hold more in store for me than pain and fear and loss.
I am ready.
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