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to my own self be true

Monday, July 12, 2010

well i had to reschedule my docs appt i had for tomorrow, i guess i didnt have to but i did.
for one, i cannot drive yet, and i am still having trouble getting up and down my steps, the knee pops and cracks and sometimes it hurts like a cows bite, well if they do i bet it hurts.
anyway, so i call thinking they will get me in 2 or 3 weeks, i find out my doc is leaving next week and wont be back until sept and they cant get me in til sept this is a mixed blessing.
on the one hand, it might set me back on his schedule, but, it will give me time to get back on the track i was one before my injury sidelined me.
i still cant walk for exercise and sometimes, i even have trouble walking period.
but i have 8 weeks and no more excuses....if i were on 2 good feet and could walk and really get a good burning exercise going, i might be able to do 15 to 20 lbs in 8 weeks, and if i could do 10 to 14 i would even be thrilled.
but this gives me the chance to do 8 at least.
but i am going for 16...heck if i cant lose 2lbs a week, then what am i doing here?
even with the injury i should be able to do that, and the first thing, is good bye yet again to coca cola...that drug is my addiction, but tomorrow hes gone.
i might be setting my self up for failure, was it babe ruth who used to point to the bleachers before he hit the ball to indicate where it was going?
i am pointing to 16 lbs, i just hope im as good as the babe!!!!

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TWOTIMESS 7/12/2010 8:20PM

    Home runs for you!

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have i earned it?

Thursday, July 08, 2010

i am on the fast track to receiving a new trophy from spark people. but have i earned it? if i look at my food tracking, no...exercising=no...journaling=no...
but maybe i deserve something for all the hell i have been thru since june 4th...boy now there is a day i wish i could re do...
the day i tore my meniscus in my leg====setting off a chain of events that messed it all up for me...
unable to walk
unable to go for walks
doc appts back to back to back
carpal tunnel aggravated
husband off on vacation==cant go anywhere with old hobble leg
husband is so good to help me, cooks and cleans and helps me in and out of the tub....
sitting on couch eating and feeling sorry for myself while taking pain pills that just made me hungry and eating some more.
but, i am off the crutches...tomorrow is a week since surgery...go back to doc on 14th, havent needed the pain pills the last 2 days...watching my portions and calories better now...
i think i just might be getting back on track if i dont jinx it...
i will take my trophy and be happy for the first time in over a month

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LOSINGLINNDY 7/8/2010 12:45PM

    How awful going through all that. You are healing quickly as you are no longer on pain pills or crutches. You will be back on track in no time. Best wishes for your continued recovery.

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DONNABRIGHT 7/8/2010 12:07PM

    Wow, I'm so sorry to hear all you been through. You can't worry about exercising until you are healed but you can stay on Spark, read the articles, connect with friends, learn new ways to eat, earn your points and when you are healed you'll be ready to lose big time!

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knee surgery and after

Tuesday, July 06, 2010

well the day came for my surgery on friday...i was scared, but i came thru ok, bill sat with me until they came and wheeled me in and the last thing i remember was them placing those electrodes on me and telling me to breath into the mask.
i woke i suspected with alot of back pain, from laying for so long in one position.
my throat sore and tight from the tube and coughing alot.
they gave me morphine and valium to help with the pain and after about an hour they sent me home.
dazed and confused and hungry and scared and ready to crawl onto the couch and not move.
will write more later as the cruthces have aggravated my carpal tunnel...what a week

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    get well soon emoticon

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    Wishing you a speedy recovery! emoticon

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MISSLOIS 7/6/2010 4:41PM

    Hang in there It will get better each day!!!

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BRAVEONE92 7/6/2010 1:25PM

    Better to to take it easy for awhile. Hopefully, your knee will heal fast and you will feel much better. Take care of your self. emoticon

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what will be revealed

Monday, July 05, 2010

well i had my leg surgery on friday...and today is the first post i have put up since...havent gotten on the pc much. just enuff to check in on things and track a few points.
the leg is still hurting, but will post more about the actual surgery, etc, when i have more time, just wanted to let u all know i made it out alive and my dressings come off today.
will update later.

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BRAVEONE92 7/5/2010 4:58PM

    I hope that your leg heals fast and that you will feel better soon. You have had a really tough time lately. It is time for some good positive things to happen. Wishing you the best ever!! emoticon

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CBLANK20091 7/5/2010 11:16AM

  Wishing you a speedy recovery!

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    glad it is over for you
hope you feel better soon
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trying to climb back up the slide

Thursday, July 01, 2010

when my brother was little, my grandparents and cousins all went on a summer vacation to the brother wasnt the best swimmer and was less than happy about being in the water, but seeing all the other kids having a blast sliding down the slide, decided to give it a go....
little did he realize how deep the water was on that end and so once he got close to the end of the slide, he grabbed hold of the sides and held on and started trying to climb back up, but others were sliding and he had to give in and just go into the deep end...
i guess that is the way i have felt the last few days, about this knee surgery tomorrow.
like, i am hanging on, and cant decide if i should just let go, or hold on.
i know i need the surgery and everyone says its ok, its no biggie, its a simple procedure and the doctor acts like hes just spreading butter on a roll...something u do without much fanfare or thought.
by around 10 am tomorrow i should be on the operating table, and dread just continues to build inside.
its about the stupiest things, like, hating to be naked under the gown, my sister works in the surgical recovery and she told me to just keep my underwear on if i want to, she said alot of ppl do.
and its stuff like, my back hurting from laying for so long in one position.
the dryness of my mouth from the gas.
i guess i am just putting up roadblocks.
but anyway, just nerves, hopefully they give me some kickass drugs and i wont even know what i was so worried about..."way to go tube and baggie"...frank barone....
will update as soon as i am able to get back in front of the pc.
hope u all have a good weekend and a great 4th of july....will be watching the hot dog eating contest on tv and i better not see any of you there hahaha

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SOFT_VAL67 7/3/2010 10:26AM

    thanks to u all, i did ok, not too much pain so far, but am still wrapped up like a mummy, wont take the bandages off until monday evening, then see what it really looks like...just as i suspected the worst part was in recovery..will blog about it later

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JAZZWOMAN1266 7/2/2010 7:54AM

    We all get scared, but realize that you will be better after wards and yes you can/wll get drugs to calm you down. I asked my nurse when I got to the hospital if I could have something to calm me down and they did. It just takes the edge off. It gets scary for us adults too! The nurses and Dr. are there to help you, so ask questions and ask for help. It makes it really easier. Rest like you are suppose to and get better soon!

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