Friday, December 27, 2013
Not feeling alot better. My cousin who is an RN suggested I might have the flu.
I do feel better today than I did yesterday.
If my stress wasnt so high, I might be able to get over the illness alot faster.
Still dealing with the fallout of the mistakes made by the local bank.
After two accounts closed and changed, still the problems arent solved/
And what makes it even worse, is that no one in the bank will acknowledge their mistake or take ownership in it/
But they will.
This doesnt end here, they have caused more problems than they could ever imagine, and their role in this will be found out.
So, that being said, my problems are far from over, I have to wait this thing out and knowing my luck, it doesnt end here for me either.
Just one more hassle, and here I was so hoping to begin 2014 on a positive note.
Cant walk because I cannot breathe thru my nose, my lip is so chapped it is split down the center.
Have taken Tylenol cold meds, and mucinex and drank more water than I can hold and believe me, that usually becomes apparent between the hours of laying down and 5 am!!!
I just want this cold, this trouble, this neverending headache, this stress, this year to be over!!!
We were supposed to be in the middle of moving right now, but Honey is sick and has no one to really help him, and its a shame, you cant find anyone to work for a few hours.
Drugs or alcohol is the only thing that they seem to want to be doing.
I guess I am going to have to place an ad on one of the local bulletin boards or on Facebook.
And take chances on who shows up.
Just another thing to be stressed over.
The only good thing, I have finally gotten all of the Christmas food out of the house, and the kitchen finally cleaned up.
Despite being so sick, I have been trying to get the house back in order.
Thursday, December 26, 2013
So, starting Tuesday, ALL DAY and into Wed, I cooked. Turkey and dressing, chicken and dumplings, ham, goodies to go along with, and took it all to my moms.
Despite feeling like dog doo.
So, here is how it went. My brother, whose wife is still in the hospital, didnt come at all, nor his kids.
My sister was 2 hours late, and my nephew and his family didnt come til after everyone else had left.
I was so so sick.
I took some mucinex and a pain pill for my sore throat and trudged along.
But by about 5pm when it was getting dark, I had had all I could stand, I was sick sick, chills, coughing, sore throat, body aches, jumpy and jittery.
The only little one that was there was my sons g/f little girl and she was coughing so bad, we gave her dimetapp for kids and some childrens tylenol.
I rubbed her down good with vicks and sent her home with the vaporizer.
By the time I got home, I was full on SICK.
After my son had gone home, around 7pm, I stripped down to my jammies and crawled into bed with vicks and my heating pad.
Temp was 102.3 and chills, shaking violently from chills.
Coughing so hard at times I thought my head would bust right open.
But after getting up to pee about 3 times thru the night and the new puppy waking me twice, I finally fell into a good deep sleep, thank you Nyquil.
And this morning, I am finally feeling some better, throat is still sore, and I still have a cough, but the fever is gone and I am not aching all over.
I have to say this, the only good thing about being so sick, I didnt overeat.
I had one plate of chicken and dumplings, one piece of ham, and a spoonful of dressing.
A spoon of cranberry sauce and one small piece of my sisters prune cake.
Lets face it, some things, you just cant say no to.
So, yes, I got a new puppy. She is a little sister to the one I got last year and had to give away when I broke my foot.
I am sure hoping I dont have any problems and can keep her and shes such a little cutie.
Still havent settled on a name yet.
So, my fridge is full of leftovers that Honey insisted on bringing home.
Ham and chicken and dumplings and a whole banana pudding.
Hopefully he eats what he wants of it today and by tomororw the rest goes to feed the fishes!!!!
Was otherwise a good Christmas, I got not one, but two tablets, so I am returning one and getting myself a new phone.
I got a The Walking Dead throw and a lovely pink faced watch.
Some hand towels, candles and socks.
And a steam straight iron for my oh so unruly hair.
So, it wasnt a bad Christmas overall, just alot of unorganized people and next year, I made myself this solem vow and I told my mom this last night as well, no cooking for me.
This is THEIR tradition to have tons of food and I refuse to do it again, especially when so much is wasted.
My mom insisted I make chicken and dumplings and then my dad made them as well.
It is wasteful and with only 10 people showing up, there was way too much left.
I feel pretty good about my decision not to partake in that tradition next year.
I am going to make my own tradition.
Maybe go walking.
Tuesday, December 24, 2013
Whatever holiday you celebrate, I hope you have a lovely one.
As for me and my family, it is Christmas, not that I consider myself religious.
Today all I consider myself is sicker than a junk yard dog!!!
Could just be my weakened system, despite taking daily vitamins and d d d, I am still feeling like my iron is down, anemic, must get that tested soon.
Could be from being out in the cold air all day yesterday, and Sunday, out in the rain, delievering home made candy and cookies, but it was worth it, I got to sit 30 minutes with my friend SM and it was wonderful, he is spending Christmas at home with his family and not in some cold lonely jail cell and he is so warm and giving and he enjoyed the candy I made for him.
I cannot believe that I started getting achy and sore throat last night and today its full on.
But, regardless, I have baked a ham, cooked a chicken and will make the dumplings tomorrow morning.
I have the turkey roasting and the eggs have been deviled, the cheeseball is chilling. and I will make cookies with kisses tonight once the turkey is done.
Instant potatoes, lets face it, not everything can be done by scratch. the ham and potatoes will stay here for us to eat on over a few days, but the turkey and chicken and dumplings, eggs, and desserts will go to my moms tomorrow.
This is crazy, so much food, and my sister is also cooking as is my dad.
So, we will have only about 16 to eat, and enough food for at least three times that many and lets not forget leftovers.
I weighed in today, it is Tuesday afterall and no gain, no loss, the same as it was in the doctors office on Dec 12th.
Not too bad considering I have sampled cookies and buckeyes etc.
I hope to remain grounded tomorrow and not overdo.
Cant wait to see the little one, my sons girlfriends little daughter, who I have bought for way too much it seems.
I have not had a little one to buy for in so long.
I babysat her last night and poor little thing was sick too, I bought her some kids cough syrup and we took her to see the live nativity but we couldnt find Santa.
Woke up this morning, happy, despite the sore throat, have been drinking warm liquids and had to take a little mucinex but I am happy, my family is together, all but my sister in law, who is still in the hospital, but she is doing better and her situation is improving. and I woke up to snow, not much, flurries mostly but it was snowing on Christmas eve and that is always a welcomed sight.
Have received a few gifsts from friends so far, my best friend bought me a lovely purple leather purse, and I got a scented candle and some home made cinnamon candy.
So, everyone have a safe, and warm Christmas and remember the reason for the season, whatever yours is, for me its togetherness and being with my son and with each year we add a new member, next year I will have another great nephew, Colt.
And she exclaimed as she signed off, Merry Christmas to all and to all, dont eat too much.
Monday, December 23, 2013
I am so tired, I feel as if I have been up for days and feel as if I have walked mountains and valleys.
I didnt do all that much today. Took the alcohol back, that was priority one and its gone now, good for that.
Dropped off a gift, picked up a few last minute items and came home, cleaned my bedroom, washed a load of laundry and all the dishes, prepped the kitchen for tomorrow to get ready to start cooking.
I think I am coming down with a bug. Throat is beginning to get sore, and I ache all over, tired and run down. I really need a good long hot soak in a tub and maybe some icy hot and thinking about getting the bone stimulator out for my foot tonight, even though I havent worn it in a few months, I guess the walking this week, shopping, etc has aggravated my foot.
I thought it was my vitamin and iron defincieny showing up.
Have been trying to get on top of that.
Just so much to do, luckily I will have some help.
Babysat tonight, but not that you would ever know shes on the place, shes konked out asleep now and not at all a problem.
I cant wait for the holiday to be over and just get back to "normal".
I will start with the weigh in, cause I have avoided it since my last doc visit on Dec 11th.
Then I will go from there.
Sunday, December 22, 2013
No word today on my SIL, my brother hasn't called or messaged me and no one else in the family has either. I talked to him yesterday and cant seem to make him understand the seriousness of the mistake that was made in the treatment by the hospital staff.
Cant seem to make him understand that HE needs to stand up and voice his concern and insist on talking to the doctor and finding out why this happened and who is responsible and maybe even getting her moved for better treatment.
Also cant seem to make him see that praying isn't the only decision to be made here and that he needs to see that he has a leg to stand on, he acts as though he is at the mercy of the hospital workers and has to go along with them.
I would have already contacted an attorney and be making it known to them that I intended to hold someone responsible, I would also already be asking for nursing notes, etc.
Only a few days to go. And all the planning, prepping, spending, buying, wrapping, etc will come to be.
Seems pretty crazy when I sit and look at it. My mom cooks this huge meal, my sister and I both cook huge amounts of food. We convene and we eat, and we get so full we get sick, then we eat more later, then we have tons of food still left over.
I say every year I will not take part, and last year, I didn't. Last year was the smartest I ever played it.
I ate very little and the foods I did eat, were mostly of the turkey and veggie kind.
I didn't indulge in desserts and starches galore.
I can only hope to try hard to do the same this year.
So far, I haven't been able to stay out of the candy. While I haven't over indulged, I have sampled, and sampled some more.
But today it will all be gone. It will all be delivered and out of the house and I will be happy about that.
I haven't gotten on the scale in close to 2 weeks, I don't have to because I know I have gained, I can tell by my clothes.
I can feel it and see it.
and still have a week to deal with, getting thru the cooking and eating and leftovers, etc.
and forget walking, I haven't been in over a week. Rain and wind, I just cant deal with.
But things cannot continue on down this same path.
I have to get back to that place, that RIGHT place, that place in my head and in my body, in my recovery of myself.
As for the alcohol I purchased on Friday night, I called the store and they will let me return it with the receipt.
both are unopened and both are going back tomorrow.
I decided this while beating myself up for buying it.
It is wrong of me to give alcohol as a gift to someone who might also be dealing with some issues, just as its wrong of me to make and give out candy and cookies to others, when I, myself tell everyone how bad sugar is for the body.
I have made some big mistakes and some bad decisions lately, regarding food. and I can and will return the alcohol. What possessed me to buy it in the first place?
I had not had a drink in around a month.
the desire to have a good time or to release some pent up frustrations of not having had a good time, or stress from over eating, lack of exercise, a momentary lapse in judgement?
I don't know, but I know this, its going back, those two bottles alone are well over 30 dollars,
So, tomorrow I am off to the liquor store to return the unopened and un wanted bottles.
I will be glad to rid my home of them and move on.
Why is it, I often wonder, we set dates to BEGIN new lifestyles or diets or exercise programs or whatever other life changes we decide to make.
Why do we say, Monday, I am going to begin this, or I will have one last hooray and then I will start.
I think the time to do something is the moment it enters the mind to do it.
I would take the liquor back today if they were open on Sunday.
But the choice is made, its going back, I will NOT indulge in those calories, and I will not offer that choice to anyone else.
Yes, I see the errors I have made, the poor decisions. I stumbled, but luckily I caught myself before I fell.
So, decision made, today, I will get rid of the candy, and this time next year, I will with any luck, be candy free, alcohol free, and hopefully back on the right path to good health, weight loss and hopefully these added pounds will once again find their way OFF my body and more will follow.
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