Monday, December 30, 2013
So today I made a post on the message boards about New Years Resolutions.
It was met with alot of negative comments, and yes, I do know that resolutions dont ALWAYS work,
I have never been one to make them, and sticking to them, forget it.
But after the year I have had in 2013, I really felt the need to RESOLVE to make some positive changes.
I resolve to walk more, as often as I can, no excuses like weather, etc.
I resolve to eat healthier, go back to my 2012 days when I followed strict calorie/fat/protein/carbs.
I will get that mindset again.
I resolve to take better care of myself physically, mentally and emotionally, I am going to learn to let go of stuff that I have no control over.
And I resolve to let go of stuff and people who I have carried in my life for far too long, who do nothing but bring me negative thoughts and feelings.
I resolve to take my vitamins, drink my water, workout and just focus on HEALTH.
These are not goals that are un reachable.
I have done this before and I will do it again, the only number I put on it, was 40
40 pounds for the year.
That is an open statement.
If I do not reach that goal, I will admit it, I will own it, I will talk to you all about it, why and how I failed.
Just as I have talked about this past year and how it has been one let down, one failure, one hard time and one hurt after another.
But I know I will succeed this year.
Maybe I will not lose 40 lbs
maybe I will only lose 30, or maybe I will only lose 25, who can see this???
But I know this, I will strive as hard as I can to lose 40 lbs, and I will accept nothing from myself but my hardest and my best.
So there you have it, that is my new years resolutions.
Now, remind me in 3 months if I have stuck to them, I am sure I will have.
I have no where to go from here but onward and upward.
Sunday, December 29, 2013
Have been thinking alot lately about year end reviews. And I know we will be seeing alot of blogs about them.
I wonder if I should do one, I mean, afterall, everyone pretty much knows how I feel about this horrible year already.
All I want at this point is to get thru the next week of dealing with these horrendous people at the bank and hopefully get all this mess cleared up and move forward.
It seems I am forever more moving forward from something horrible.
Right now, I am trying to move forward from this terrible illness. I dont know if its been the flu or not, but whatever it is, it is bad!!!
I slept the biggest part of yesterday, and that was due to taking some Tylenol cold and cough, which I only recommend if you have nothing else going on for at least 24 hours, because 2 capfuls over a 6 hour period floored me.
I actually felt worse taking it than not.
So today I awoke to rain, and decided to take a good warm morning shower, put on some clean fresh clothes and fix my hair.
I have had a big appetite but have eaten only yogurt, since I have had the rumbbly tummy all day.
Drinking gingerale and sticking to yogurt for now.
Maybe if I am feeling up to it later, I might venture some soup and crackers.
Back to the year end review.
I have had it on my mind because I have seen many friends posting on FB about how happy they are to see this year go.
So much has been wrong about this whole year.
I am sure some people have seen good times and good advancements this year, but not me.
It has been one horrible set back after another.
Started out that way this time one year ago, before the year even began, days before the New Year things fell all to pieces and just kept chipping off pieces as the year went on.
ZERO weight loss for the year.
Very little walking, due to this broken foot.
And here I am coming up on the 1 year anniversary of the broken foot and am still having pain and tenderness at times.
It is just a constant reminder of things lost and things best left behind.
I am just hoping that this mad mojo business that the bank has created for me doesnt follow me into the new year.
I am hoping to get it resolved before the clock strikes midnight, so I cant include it as a part of 2014.
But either way, it is just a part of life, problems and issues.
I am ready to put them behind me and start anew.
This year has to be better, has to hold more in store for me than pain and fear and loss.
I am ready.
Friday, December 27, 2013
Not feeling alot better. My cousin who is an RN suggested I might have the flu.
I do feel better today than I did yesterday.
If my stress wasnt so high, I might be able to get over the illness alot faster.
Still dealing with the fallout of the mistakes made by the local bank.
After two accounts closed and changed, still the problems arent solved/
And what makes it even worse, is that no one in the bank will acknowledge their mistake or take ownership in it/
But they will.
This doesnt end here, they have caused more problems than they could ever imagine, and their role in this will be found out.
So, that being said, my problems are far from over, I have to wait this thing out and knowing my luck, it doesnt end here for me either.
Just one more hassle, and here I was so hoping to begin 2014 on a positive note.
Cant walk because I cannot breathe thru my nose, my lip is so chapped it is split down the center.
Have taken Tylenol cold meds, and mucinex and drank more water than I can hold and believe me, that usually becomes apparent between the hours of laying down and 5 am!!!
I just want this cold, this trouble, this neverending headache, this stress, this year to be over!!!
We were supposed to be in the middle of moving right now, but Honey is sick and has no one to really help him, and its a shame, you cant find anyone to work for a few hours.
Drugs or alcohol is the only thing that they seem to want to be doing.
I guess I am going to have to place an ad on one of the local bulletin boards or on Facebook.
And take chances on who shows up.
Just another thing to be stressed over.
The only good thing, I have finally gotten all of the Christmas food out of the house, and the kitchen finally cleaned up.
Despite being so sick, I have been trying to get the house back in order.
Thursday, December 26, 2013
So, starting Tuesday, ALL DAY and into Wed, I cooked. Turkey and dressing, chicken and dumplings, ham, goodies to go along with, and took it all to my moms.
Despite feeling like dog doo.
So, here is how it went. My brother, whose wife is still in the hospital, didnt come at all, nor his kids.
My sister was 2 hours late, and my nephew and his family didnt come til after everyone else had left.
I was so so sick.
I took some mucinex and a pain pill for my sore throat and trudged along.
But by about 5pm when it was getting dark, I had had all I could stand, I was sick sick, chills, coughing, sore throat, body aches, jumpy and jittery.
The only little one that was there was my sons g/f little girl and she was coughing so bad, we gave her dimetapp for kids and some childrens tylenol.
I rubbed her down good with vicks and sent her home with the vaporizer.
By the time I got home, I was full on SICK.
After my son had gone home, around 7pm, I stripped down to my jammies and crawled into bed with vicks and my heating pad.
Temp was 102.3 and chills, shaking violently from chills.
Coughing so hard at times I thought my head would bust right open.
But after getting up to pee about 3 times thru the night and the new puppy waking me twice, I finally fell into a good deep sleep, thank you Nyquil.
And this morning, I am finally feeling some better, throat is still sore, and I still have a cough, but the fever is gone and I am not aching all over.
I have to say this, the only good thing about being so sick, I didnt overeat.
I had one plate of chicken and dumplings, one piece of ham, and a spoonful of dressing.
A spoon of cranberry sauce and one small piece of my sisters prune cake.
Lets face it, some things, you just cant say no to.
So, yes, I got a new puppy. She is a little sister to the one I got last year and had to give away when I broke my foot.
I am sure hoping I dont have any problems and can keep her and shes such a little cutie.
Still havent settled on a name yet.
So, my fridge is full of leftovers that Honey insisted on bringing home.
Ham and chicken and dumplings and a whole banana pudding.
Hopefully he eats what he wants of it today and by tomororw the rest goes to feed the fishes!!!!
Was otherwise a good Christmas, I got not one, but two tablets, so I am returning one and getting myself a new phone.
I got a The Walking Dead throw and a lovely pink faced watch.
Some hand towels, candles and socks.
And a steam straight iron for my oh so unruly hair.
So, it wasnt a bad Christmas overall, just alot of unorganized people and next year, I made myself this solem vow and I told my mom this last night as well, no cooking for me.
This is THEIR tradition to have tons of food and I refuse to do it again, especially when so much is wasted.
My mom insisted I make chicken and dumplings and then my dad made them as well.
It is wasteful and with only 10 people showing up, there was way too much left.
I feel pretty good about my decision not to partake in that tradition next year.
I am going to make my own tradition.
Maybe go walking.
Tuesday, December 24, 2013
Whatever holiday you celebrate, I hope you have a lovely one.
As for me and my family, it is Christmas, not that I consider myself religious.
Today all I consider myself is sicker than a junk yard dog!!!
Could just be my weakened system, despite taking daily vitamins and d d d, I am still feeling like my iron is down, anemic, must get that tested soon.
Could be from being out in the cold air all day yesterday, and Sunday, out in the rain, delievering home made candy and cookies, but it was worth it, I got to sit 30 minutes with my friend SM and it was wonderful, he is spending Christmas at home with his family and not in some cold lonely jail cell and he is so warm and giving and he enjoyed the candy I made for him.
I cannot believe that I started getting achy and sore throat last night and today its full on.
But, regardless, I have baked a ham, cooked a chicken and will make the dumplings tomorrow morning.
I have the turkey roasting and the eggs have been deviled, the cheeseball is chilling. and I will make cookies with kisses tonight once the turkey is done.
Instant potatoes, lets face it, not everything can be done by scratch. the ham and potatoes will stay here for us to eat on over a few days, but the turkey and chicken and dumplings, eggs, and desserts will go to my moms tomorrow.
This is crazy, so much food, and my sister is also cooking as is my dad.
So, we will have only about 16 to eat, and enough food for at least three times that many and lets not forget leftovers.
I weighed in today, it is Tuesday afterall and no gain, no loss, the same as it was in the doctors office on Dec 12th.
Not too bad considering I have sampled cookies and buckeyes etc.
I hope to remain grounded tomorrow and not overdo.
Cant wait to see the little one, my sons girlfriends little daughter, who I have bought for way too much it seems.
I have not had a little one to buy for in so long.
I babysat her last night and poor little thing was sick too, I bought her some kids cough syrup and we took her to see the live nativity but we couldnt find Santa.
Woke up this morning, happy, despite the sore throat, have been drinking warm liquids and had to take a little mucinex but I am happy, my family is together, all but my sister in law, who is still in the hospital, but she is doing better and her situation is improving. and I woke up to snow, not much, flurries mostly but it was snowing on Christmas eve and that is always a welcomed sight.
Have received a few gifsts from friends so far, my best friend bought me a lovely purple leather purse, and I got a scented candle and some home made cinnamon candy.
So, everyone have a safe, and warm Christmas and remember the reason for the season, whatever yours is, for me its togetherness and being with my son and with each year we add a new member, next year I will have another great nephew, Colt.
And she exclaimed as she signed off, Merry Christmas to all and to all, dont eat too much.
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