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Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Going thru and cleaning out some old emails, I found a pic I had taken on Jan 7th of this year.
One day before I broke my foot. A pic of my feet, standing on the scale. My toes were quite gold sparkly, lol. As the day before that I had a pedicure.
So, as of today, a full 9 months later and I am up 9 pounds. I guess when you look at it in those terms, one pound per month, it isnt all that bad.
Even though, it should be many many pounds lower. I should have, and had hoped to, been down something like 30 or 40 pounds by now.
But its a new day.
Finding that pic gave me hope.
I realize that I havent gained an outrageous amount of weight and there is time to catch back up.
I might be close to a year later, and I have blogged before about how 2013 has been one of the worst years of my life.
There is time to catch back up. I think I should be able to lose that 9lbs and 1 more and get myself right back where I left off.
My goal is to lose this 10 lbs by the end of this year and go into 2014 with a whole new weight and a whole new hopeful outlook on life.
Yes, I know I should be able to lose this much sooner. If I could only get back to the way I was losing weight before 1 to 2 lbs a week, I would be able to lose that 10 and maybe another 10 before the goal date.
But realistically, I havent been losing any weight at all, so to set the goal any higher would surely be asking for failure.
I dont know what was going on in my life during this weight loss period that I am doing all that much differently.
Maybe it was just a much less stressful period in my life, maybe I had a higher metabolism, maybe I was just more focused.
I will admit my focus has waned in these months. But its always been right under the surface, and I am not eating that many more calories per day.
Less alcohol is in my diet now, almost none at all.
I sure am not walking as much, and as the days grow wetter and colder I know I will walk even less.
But I am not going to stop trying.
I just really hope that 2014 comes in like a lion, wild and bold and ready to conquer this!!!
I am ready to get back on that scale and take pics of much lower numbers.
This is really difficult to see the long term when I say the numbers out loud, but as of right now, my goal is still a good 80 lbs off.
I become angry when I sit and think that as of right now I am still eligible for lap band surgery.
I have such a long hard journey ahead of me, and I am not giving up.
I will settle for this to take me another 2, even 3 years if necessary.
But as of today I am just going to focus on the next 2 months and the next 10 pounds.
It is cold and dreary here and we are looking at some possible wet snow flakes in the higher elevations here.
I have seen it this cold and even snowing on Halloween, for example last year on Halloween, we buried Honeys mom.
And it had snowed so much the 2 or 3 days after she passed, that the grave diggers had to tram the backhoe up the hill to the cemetery to dig her grave, as their truck wouldnt go up the hill in the snow.
I will never forget November 1st if I live to be 109!!!
I went walking the day she was buried, Halloween day and it was so snowy and cold I had to wear a hoodie and gloves and a scarf and boggan and the next day, November 1st.
I went out walking in my regular tshirt and walking pants, the weather warmed up that much overnight.
Today I made a big pot of homemade veggie laden chili, I added carrots, celery, mushrooms, onion, green and red bell peppers. Along with my regular chili mixings. Good hearty and hot on this cold fall night.
Time to get my housework done for the evening and get ready to watch the Biggest Loser!!!

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TINY67 11/1/2013 11:04AM

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IAMBIZI 10/22/2013 9:33PM

    good for you for reviewing and setting some new modest goals,
here is to a new beginning, I wish you much luck in your journey!
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BAREFOOTGRL 10/22/2013 9:08PM

    Good for you for having a positive attitude. Winter really gets me down when it comes to exercise. I swear every year I will buy the warm gear I need to be outside and I never do. Hopefully the sun will be out tomorrow. Good luck!

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BARBANNA 10/22/2013 7:49PM

    What time is dinner? Have a good one and keep up your faith! emoticon emoticon

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MELISSIMAUS 10/22/2013 7:33PM

    Mmm, veggie chili is one of my very favorite dinners. Nice!

It sounds like you're moving in the right direction. I usually find that if I set my goals modestly, I end up surpassing them and feeling really good about it. Good luck and here's to a better end of the year!

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just breathe. if you can!

Monday, October 21, 2013

Yesterday I went for my walk, it was so so cold, so I wore blue jeans, not tight ones, and I dont usually do that.
I usually wear womens carpis by Danskin. Loose fitting and just below the knee.
But as the weather begins to get colder, I am going to be looking for alternatives, I have one pair of walking pants, that are way too long on me.
This seems to be a recurring theme with me in colder weather.
Anyway, for some reason, the jeans or the fact I hadnt walked in a week, or what, but I got so short of breath, I was struggling after 30 minutes.
When I got finished and sat in my car, I was actually gasping. Nothing dangerous, but just having to really breath down deep to get a good breath.
It wasnt from a hard walk or work out.
It was different today, I walked an hour and felt good and hoping to go again tomorrow.
The foot is a little sore, so I might have to watch that.
The weather is really showing its age, winter is here.
A friend in Wisconsin reported today that shes getting some snow.
So, I have stayed in control in my calories today and I am feeling pretty good.
A little tired, but, I am pulling the blanket up over me, watching the Voice and then hitting the bed early.
Hoping all of you had a nice Monday.

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CAPECODBABE 10/22/2013 8:39AM

    Hope you have a great day and get some walking in!
A change in the weather can cause breathing issues,
don't over do!

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KIMBERLY_Y 10/21/2013 9:33PM

    It is difficult to get motivated when it is cold outside. The eliptical in the basement keeps me going during the winter months. But, here in NJ, we are still enjoying some warm fall weather. Stay warm and keep going when you can!
You can do it!

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TOOBUSY035 10/21/2013 8:50PM

    I can relate to a couple of things in your blog.
1. ALL my pants are too long! I am 5 feet nothing and find it really hard to find good fitting pants even in petite size.
2. I exercise year round and quite often in the colder weather here in CT I have a hard time breathing at the start of my run or walk. It does get easier with every cold weather work out.
Keep up the good work!

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IAMBIZI 10/21/2013 8:16PM

    some days after dinner we go for walks in the neighborhood, other days I have no energy and have to lie down and take a nap.........I say it is my hormones I am 50.
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light stress tuesday

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Ok, today, while sparking my nutrition, I noticed that my calorie amounts, almost every nutrient had changed again.
I know I didnt do it, I know Spark people does that from time to time, I am not sure why, if its a reflection of my fitness minutes or what.
I dont think I have the two linked for that reason, I prefer my nutrition to change only when I change it.
I did add in some different exercise today, weights and squats.
It is high time for me to get back to strength workouts.
I am looking forward to the new Biggest Loser tonight, even though, it sometimes depresses me, because we know those results arent typical and we know surely some of those will gain most of that weight back.
I like Rubben Studdard and I wish he had grown to the height of AI fame such as Kelly and Carrie and Daughtry.
I am going to be rooting for him tonight and hoping he remains with the season for some time.
As for me. I am aggravated as I can be with my dentist, my last visit, for what was to be a routine cleaning, turned into a drilling and filling of a cavity and apparently he ground part of one tooth down so much that anything I eat gets in between those two teeth and drives me crazy!!
The slightest little morsel, and I am sent flossing. This in turn inflames the gum and makes it feel even worse.
It is a nice day here today. Have been sitting with the door open, enjoying a light cool fall breeze.
I have a pet squirrel, well, not really, but hes in my yard most mornings gathering his winter harvest.
He stands pretty still and stares at me to see if I am going to bother him or go about my business.
I am going to try to capture him, on film I mean, lol.
I do enjoy fall, it is a nice day here today.
Other than clean and do laundry, wash dishes, clean my coffee pot and get in my mini workout, (walk to come later). I havent done too much.
Just trying to set my trackers back the way they were, drink my water and relax.
Hoping everyone else does the same.

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MELISSIMAUS 10/15/2013 9:43PM

    Go you for getting back to strength training! I am addicted to it these days. Just joined a fitness challenge at my gym for November, even though I'm sure my current medical issues will hinder my results—I don't care. I'll give it my best shot!

It's funny, I recently looked up the Biggest Loser stats on how many people have regained the weight, and the results were actually somewhat encouraging. Sure, some people have gained back a lot, but many haven't. I chose to take heart from those who have kept it off.

Ugh, it sounds like your dentist did you a disservice. emoticon

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what would you do for a....

Wednesday, October 09, 2013

I went so far over my calories today they are light years away by now!!
Well, something like 500. Turrble, Turrble!!
I am not sure what it was that put me over, well, it might have been the klondike bar!!! or what it was that made me get so hungry in the afternoon.
I had a good breakfast, got my protein, no caffeine this morning, went for a 1 hour walk and was doing well.
Then I had lunch, another protein shake, with a little peanut butter and skim milk.
Then dinner, was two small pieces of salisbury steak, lots of veggies, steamable mixed veggies and carrots.
Grapes. Two slices of double fiber wheat bread.
Then there was the Knorrs microwave noodles, that is probably what put me over my carbs and the klondike bar and put me over my calories.
But my vitamin d, iron and fiber and calcium were all right on for a change.
Well, I am full as a tick now.
Drinking some water and sparking.
Beating myself up for the noodles and ice cream, of course, I still probably could have cut back the bread and got my fiber elsewhere.
I almost feel like throwing my hands up in desperation on days like this.
To feel so guility over a dessert and some noodles.
I am going nowhere with this and I need to kick myself in the butt and get back to losing and give up this crap!!!
It looks like I am going to have to go on one of those flighty diets, you know where you eat grapefruit and bacon or where you only have cottage cheese.
I just dont know anymore.

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IAMBIZI 10/14/2013 10:31AM

    I amcommenting on this blog post for some reason it would not let me comment on your newest one, weird@
I think the long hours sound tough and having to deal with children more than one sounds like a lot of work, what are their ages and do they health issues?
are you willing to take on that much responsibilty?

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BRADMILL2922 10/14/2013 1:40AM

    Don't beat yourself up over it. We are people, we make mistakes. The key is to learn from it and move forward!

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TINY67 10/11/2013 10:58AM

    Hey, everyone messes up ever so often, just put it behind you and get back on track.
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BARBANNA 10/10/2013 5:05PM

    It's okay, just get back on the stallion and ride. We all have bad days. Those filirty diets don't work. Just good ole fashioned common sense dieting where you put in less than you burn. If you want to fit that situation next time just run 5 miles and it will be okay!! LOL. It's easier to let go of the food than run the six miles. I am a reformed 8 miles runner. I ran to eat what I wanted, I know. It's so much better to cut down the exercise and the food and be happy! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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AJINMN 10/10/2013 1:02PM

    Today is a new day! Kick yourself once, and then move forward so you can't kick yourself again! We all have those days. Getting back on the wagon after it has run over us is what we do...

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CAPECODBABE 10/10/2013 7:40AM

    Today is a new day, a new start, make it a great one!

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JUST_BRENDA 10/10/2013 7:32AM

    it's always a constant battle

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STEVEN_D 10/9/2013 8:39PM

    Your Sparkpage says you lost 57 pounds. Why not focus on the good stuff.

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SMITTY4RL 10/9/2013 8:13PM

    Oof, don't go on the flighty diet. I agree w/IAMBIZI...forgive yourself and move on. Tomorrow's another day.

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LOTUSBURGER 10/9/2013 7:44PM

    mmmmm bacon

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IAMBIZI 10/9/2013 7:37PM

    let go and forgive yourself. emoticon

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excuse me while i pee again

Tuesday, October 08, 2013

I will probably regret blogging so early, later, after the day has passed. If anything eventful happens, I will have to save it for tomorrow.
But I wanted to blog this while its fresh on my mind.
Today was weigh in day. As usual, no loss, no gain....I am going to seriously have my scale checked!! or buy a new one.
Last night, I sat up kinda late, probably til after midnight, watching the Walking Dead marathon.
And all night, I was up and down with what felt like a full bladder.
my question to everyone is, could my vitamins have done this?? acted almost as a diuretic??
Because I took them pretty late, around 9 or 10 pm, vitamin d, iron and a womens one a day.
I hadnt drank an unusual amount of water thru the day, a cup of coffee with dinner at around 6pm.
Just curious.
So this morning, after a really sleepless night, I got up at 730, and was starving, so I fixed sugar free instant oatmeal, two slices of double fiber wheat toast and a cup of coffee.
A cup of vitamin d and calcium orange juice and a banana.
Alot of calories for first thing in the am.
But I needed the fiber, and the vitamin d and its so so cold here this morning, I am sitting under a blanket, time to bust out the plug in for the electric blanket, and I turned on the little electric fireplace.
Cold mornings!!
Just annoyed about the scale, but not surprised, its become the never-ending saga of the never-moving scale.
Think I will go to a late evening walk and then the little leauge football game.
No hot dogs, no hot chocolate. and hopefully no 5 trips to the bathroom after bedtime tonight!!

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CAPECODBABE 10/8/2013 9:05AM

    I haven't heard that about vitamins.

I have to stop drinking anything after about 8 at night or I'll be up.

Think of running to the bathroom as exercise

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SQUIRRELLYONE 10/8/2013 9:02AM

    It's unlikely that the vitamins are the cause of your bedtime pee-dancing. The more likely culprit is the coffee. If it keeps happening regularly I'd suggest talking to a Dr, but it could be that just that day was a TBS (tiny-bladder-syndrome) day.


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KNYAGENYA 10/8/2013 8:56AM

    I think your system just processed everything quicker.

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PATTYKLAVER 10/8/2013 8:31AM

    It sounds funny, but I can have coffee and be up a couple pounds until it goes through my system. And I'm a firm believer that one cup of coffee = five trips to the bathroom. It may be as simple as that.

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STEVEN_D 10/8/2013 8:23AM

    Interesting question about the vitamins as diuertics, have never thought of that. But I do know the occasional nights of getting up to the bathroom. It's when I am up long enough for my brain to start thinking, the I can't stop once back in bed. Maybe the walking dead scared all the pee out of you. Stay warm, don't let those scales influence your day, have fun at LL football.

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