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just breathe. if you can!

Monday, October 21, 2013

Yesterday I went for my walk, it was so so cold, so I wore blue jeans, not tight ones, and I dont usually do that.
I usually wear womens carpis by Danskin. Loose fitting and just below the knee.
But as the weather begins to get colder, I am going to be looking for alternatives, I have one pair of walking pants, that are way too long on me.
This seems to be a recurring theme with me in colder weather.
Anyway, for some reason, the jeans or the fact I hadnt walked in a week, or what, but I got so short of breath, I was struggling after 30 minutes.
When I got finished and sat in my car, I was actually gasping. Nothing dangerous, but just having to really breath down deep to get a good breath.
It wasnt from a hard walk or work out.
It was different today, I walked an hour and felt good and hoping to go again tomorrow.
The foot is a little sore, so I might have to watch that.
The weather is really showing its age, winter is here.
A friend in Wisconsin reported today that shes getting some snow.
So, I have stayed in control in my calories today and I am feeling pretty good.
A little tired, but, I am pulling the blanket up over me, watching the Voice and then hitting the bed early.
Hoping all of you had a nice Monday.

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CAPECODBABE 10/22/2013 8:39AM

    Hope you have a great day and get some walking in!
A change in the weather can cause breathing issues,
don't over do!

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KIMBERLY_Y 10/21/2013 9:33PM

    It is difficult to get motivated when it is cold outside. The eliptical in the basement keeps me going during the winter months. But, here in NJ, we are still enjoying some warm fall weather. Stay warm and keep going when you can!
You can do it!

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TOOBUSY035 10/21/2013 8:50PM

    I can relate to a couple of things in your blog.
1. ALL my pants are too long! I am 5 feet nothing and find it really hard to find good fitting pants even in petite size.
2. I exercise year round and quite often in the colder weather here in CT I have a hard time breathing at the start of my run or walk. It does get easier with every cold weather work out.
Keep up the good work!

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IAMBIZI 10/21/2013 8:16PM

    some days after dinner we go for walks in the neighborhood, other days I have no energy and have to lie down and take a nap.........I say it is my hormones I am 50.
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light stress tuesday

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Ok, today, while sparking my nutrition, I noticed that my calorie amounts, almost every nutrient had changed again.
I know I didnt do it, I know Spark people does that from time to time, I am not sure why, if its a reflection of my fitness minutes or what.
I dont think I have the two linked for that reason, I prefer my nutrition to change only when I change it.
I did add in some different exercise today, weights and squats.
It is high time for me to get back to strength workouts.
I am looking forward to the new Biggest Loser tonight, even though, it sometimes depresses me, because we know those results arent typical and we know surely some of those will gain most of that weight back.
I like Rubben Studdard and I wish he had grown to the height of AI fame such as Kelly and Carrie and Daughtry.
I am going to be rooting for him tonight and hoping he remains with the season for some time.
As for me. I am aggravated as I can be with my dentist, my last visit, for what was to be a routine cleaning, turned into a drilling and filling of a cavity and apparently he ground part of one tooth down so much that anything I eat gets in between those two teeth and drives me crazy!!
The slightest little morsel, and I am sent flossing. This in turn inflames the gum and makes it feel even worse.
It is a nice day here today. Have been sitting with the door open, enjoying a light cool fall breeze.
I have a pet squirrel, well, not really, but hes in my yard most mornings gathering his winter harvest.
He stands pretty still and stares at me to see if I am going to bother him or go about my business.
I am going to try to capture him, on film I mean, lol.
I do enjoy fall, it is a nice day here today.
Other than clean and do laundry, wash dishes, clean my coffee pot and get in my mini workout, (walk to come later). I havent done too much.
Just trying to set my trackers back the way they were, drink my water and relax.
Hoping everyone else does the same.

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MELISSIMAUS 10/15/2013 9:43PM

    Go you for getting back to strength training! I am addicted to it these days. Just joined a fitness challenge at my gym for November, even though I'm sure my current medical issues will hinder my results—I don't care. I'll give it my best shot!

It's funny, I recently looked up the Biggest Loser stats on how many people have regained the weight, and the results were actually somewhat encouraging. Sure, some people have gained back a lot, but many haven't. I chose to take heart from those who have kept it off.

Ugh, it sounds like your dentist did you a disservice. emoticon

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what would you do for a....

Wednesday, October 09, 2013

I went so far over my calories today they are light years away by now!!
Well, something like 500. Turrble, Turrble!!
I am not sure what it was that put me over, well, it might have been the klondike bar!!! or what it was that made me get so hungry in the afternoon.
I had a good breakfast, got my protein, no caffeine this morning, went for a 1 hour walk and was doing well.
Then I had lunch, another protein shake, with a little peanut butter and skim milk.
Then dinner, was two small pieces of salisbury steak, lots of veggies, steamable mixed veggies and carrots.
Grapes. Two slices of double fiber wheat bread.
Then there was the Knorrs microwave noodles, that is probably what put me over my carbs and the klondike bar and put me over my calories.
But my vitamin d, iron and fiber and calcium were all right on for a change.
Well, I am full as a tick now.
Drinking some water and sparking.
Beating myself up for the noodles and ice cream, of course, I still probably could have cut back the bread and got my fiber elsewhere.
I almost feel like throwing my hands up in desperation on days like this.
To feel so guility over a dessert and some noodles.
I am going nowhere with this and I need to kick myself in the butt and get back to losing and give up this crap!!!
It looks like I am going to have to go on one of those flighty diets, you know where you eat grapefruit and bacon or where you only have cottage cheese.
I just dont know anymore.

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IAMBIZI 10/14/2013 10:31AM

    I amcommenting on this blog post for some reason it would not let me comment on your newest one, weird@
I think the long hours sound tough and having to deal with children more than one sounds like a lot of work, what are their ages and do they health issues?
are you willing to take on that much responsibilty?

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BRADMILL2922 10/14/2013 1:40AM

    Don't beat yourself up over it. We are people, we make mistakes. The key is to learn from it and move forward!

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TINY67 10/11/2013 10:58AM

    Hey, everyone messes up ever so often, just put it behind you and get back on track.
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BARBANNA 10/10/2013 5:05PM

    It's okay, just get back on the stallion and ride. We all have bad days. Those filirty diets don't work. Just good ole fashioned common sense dieting where you put in less than you burn. If you want to fit that situation next time just run 5 miles and it will be okay!! LOL. It's easier to let go of the food than run the six miles. I am a reformed 8 miles runner. I ran to eat what I wanted, I know. It's so much better to cut down the exercise and the food and be happy! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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AJINMN 10/10/2013 1:02PM

    Today is a new day! Kick yourself once, and then move forward so you can't kick yourself again! We all have those days. Getting back on the wagon after it has run over us is what we do...

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CAPECODBABE 10/10/2013 7:40AM

    Today is a new day, a new start, make it a great one!

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JUST_BRENDA 10/10/2013 7:32AM

    it's always a constant battle

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BARCLE 10/9/2013 10:01PM


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STEVEN_D 10/9/2013 8:39PM

    Your Sparkpage says you lost 57 pounds. Why not focus on the good stuff.

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SMITTY4RL 10/9/2013 8:13PM

    Oof, don't go on the flighty diet. I agree w/IAMBIZI...forgive yourself and move on. Tomorrow's another day.

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LOTUSBURGER 10/9/2013 7:44PM

    mmmmm bacon

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IAMBIZI 10/9/2013 7:37PM

    let go and forgive yourself. emoticon

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excuse me while i pee again

Tuesday, October 08, 2013

I will probably regret blogging so early, later, after the day has passed. If anything eventful happens, I will have to save it for tomorrow.
But I wanted to blog this while its fresh on my mind.
Today was weigh in day. As usual, no loss, no gain....I am going to seriously have my scale checked!! or buy a new one.
Last night, I sat up kinda late, probably til after midnight, watching the Walking Dead marathon.
And all night, I was up and down with what felt like a full bladder.
my question to everyone is, could my vitamins have done this?? acted almost as a diuretic??
Because I took them pretty late, around 9 or 10 pm, vitamin d, iron and a womens one a day.
I hadnt drank an unusual amount of water thru the day, a cup of coffee with dinner at around 6pm.
Just curious.
So this morning, after a really sleepless night, I got up at 730, and was starving, so I fixed sugar free instant oatmeal, two slices of double fiber wheat toast and a cup of coffee.
A cup of vitamin d and calcium orange juice and a banana.
Alot of calories for first thing in the am.
But I needed the fiber, and the vitamin d and its so so cold here this morning, I am sitting under a blanket, time to bust out the plug in for the electric blanket, and I turned on the little electric fireplace.
Cold mornings!!
Just annoyed about the scale, but not surprised, its become the never-ending saga of the never-moving scale.
Think I will go to a late evening walk and then the little leauge football game.
No hot dogs, no hot chocolate. and hopefully no 5 trips to the bathroom after bedtime tonight!!

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CAPECODBABE 10/8/2013 9:05AM

    I haven't heard that about vitamins.

I have to stop drinking anything after about 8 at night or I'll be up.

Think of running to the bathroom as exercise

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SQUIRRELLYONE 10/8/2013 9:02AM

    It's unlikely that the vitamins are the cause of your bedtime pee-dancing. The more likely culprit is the coffee. If it keeps happening regularly I'd suggest talking to a Dr, but it could be that just that day was a TBS (tiny-bladder-syndrome) day.


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KNYAGENYA 10/8/2013 8:56AM

    I think your system just processed everything quicker.

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PATTYKLAVER 10/8/2013 8:31AM

    It sounds funny, but I can have coffee and be up a couple pounds until it goes through my system. And I'm a firm believer that one cup of coffee = five trips to the bathroom. It may be as simple as that.

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STEVEN_D 10/8/2013 8:23AM

    Interesting question about the vitamins as diuertics, have never thought of that. But I do know the occasional nights of getting up to the bathroom. It's when I am up long enough for my brain to start thinking, the I can't stop once back in bed. Maybe the walking dead scared all the pee out of you. Stay warm, don't let those scales influence your day, have fun at LL football.

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inside this place

Monday, October 07, 2013

Awoke to the sound of rain falling, hitting the leaves on the ground outside my window.
A nice morning to just roll over and go back to sleep. I had pretty much decided there would be no chance of a walk today, as the track is quite slick when its wet.
I walked onto my porch to feed the dog around 11am, and it was very chilly outside.
So, it has me craving a good long walk.
I think possibly, if no more rain, I will go to the park later and walk on some of the dirt trails, hidden by the trees, I am sure they arent muddy.
I think its a nice day for it, although, even as I type this, the sun is re-appearing and will probably get hot out.
Just my luck.
But anyway, its fall, might as well get used to it.
This time last year was sure different, I was at the height of my weight loss, losing at least a pound or two a week.
The future was looking so bright. I guess I hit a wall and it was a very tall one because since January I havent been able to get back to that place.
I dont give up, I make mistakes, often.
I eat things I wouldnt have dared touch a year ago.
And yes, I have moments of great guilt. Feelings of failure and desperation.
I try to stay positive. It isnt easy when you struggle and try and have one good day out of five. But I wont go back.
I will never say, "go ahead, have another piece of pizza, or drink a soda or whatever"
I will stay on this course, even when the wall jumps up and knocks me back down.
There has to be some give.
I MUST start losing weight again, its just that simple, I wont stop until I do.
This is my mantra, my will power is tested daily, my resolve, my desire....
I spark, I count calories, fat, protein, carbs, I try to add fiber, calcium, iron, and get my vitamins.
Each and every day I am here, each and every day I awake with the best intentions.
I know we arent supposed to focus so much on the numbers, we arent suppose to make it all about the scale, but I havent seen a loss in so long, there has to be some issue.
There has to be, right???
So, anyway, I will get that walk in today, because my body desires it. My heart longs for it, my mind says do it, and my determination says "show them"!!!
Show myself!

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IAMBIZI 10/8/2013 12:21AM

    hope you had a nice walk!
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SMITTY4RL 10/7/2013 9:02PM

    Hang in there--I know that's pretty easy to say, but hard when you face no losses for a while. You've such a great attitude, hope you were able to get that walk in after all.

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CAPECODBABE 10/7/2013 7:33PM

    Great attitude emoticon

Hope it was a great walk.

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LOTUSBURGER 10/7/2013 6:09PM

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