Tuesday, August 20, 2013
This whatever it is I have had, pneumoniabronchitisstrepthroatfluheadcoldi
I havent slept alot.
Last night was the worst, I went to bed, however, forgetting to take my Nyquil. And too tired to get up and take it.
So, I coughed most of the night thru.
But at least its beginning to break up and come up.
My head is still congested, this has been my biggest issue, since my throat stopped hurting beyond bearability.
I am just hoping tonight with a good nights sleep, fingers crossed, I will finally get it out and over it.
I have not walked since last week and I am so hoping this cold is soon behind me, so that I can walk, and breathe.
I sit and wonder about some people sometimes.
Me, hacking up a lung every twenty seconds, was asked today by a friend if I went walking.
And when I replied no, I got the sideways look.
Maybe I should have hacked in her face, no no, I take that back.
I wouldnt even wish this on my worst enemy.
Soon, it will be behind me and my feet will be back on the track.
Saturday, August 17, 2013
I am so sick!!
It is amazing how quickly some illnesses can come upon a person.
Woke up yesterday morning, feeling good, had some errands to run.
Around 1pm I started to notice my throat was a little scratchy and by about 5pm, i was full on sick as a dog!!
My throat is so raw, I feel like someone is holding a torch to it.
I cant stand to swallow and I feel so run down and tired and achy.
I went immediately to the drug store and got some vitamin c throat drops and have been taking prescription mucinex and drinking hot tea with honey and ginger.
But this morning I had to go to cold water with crushed ice chips.
I feel awful.
And I really really need to go grocery shopping. But I just dont know how I will be able to.
It feels like its getting worse instead of better.
If its still this bad come Monday, doctors office bound.
Thursday, August 15, 2013
Just about too tired to blog tonight. Dont have any idea why I am so tired, maybe because I got very little sleep last night and got up early this mornng and have drove all day and then walked an hour?
But anyway, planning to get into bed soon as I have another early one tomorrow.
Hoping I sleep well.
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
the invention of social media has made it almost impossible for those of us who choose to use it, to keep quiet many details of our lives.
about a year ago a friend said something to me that really angered me, he said, you shouldnt live your life on facebook.
so i challenged him to go to my facebook page and find one thing on there that was about my private life.
there are very few details.
no relationship status, very few pics of me with the man i am in a relationship with.
no job status or former jobs.
i post mostly joke memes or some silly comment, such as my current status concerns americas got talent.
today however, i did post that my personal life is none of YOUR business, meaning a certain person who insists on coming up to me every time i go into the store where she works and asks me questions about MY life and my personal business.
so today i told her finally once and for all that if i want her to know i will be sure to run in and tell her.
its childish but its so angering, you cannot go buy a newspaper and a cup of coffee without her running up asking questions that really dont concern her.
but seriously, i share more here on sp than i do on facebook.
mostly because none of my everyday friends or family are on here with me and most of you, sp friends, are also going thru challenges of one kind or another, weight, substance, financial, relationship issues, whatever it is, you can relate and offer words of advice and encouragement and very very little judgement.
its refreshing to have this outlet to vent and to track my food and exercise and to talk about things that are making me happy, sad, angry, whatever.
sometimes i will post something on facebook and before the day is out i delete it.
but i do not live my life on facebook.
i do not post when i am moving, when i am fighting with my family or my man or my son.
i do not post about family issues at all.
and i have pretty much stopped posting about my weight or my walking.
i keep that for here.
and for my closest friend and my doctor.
this was just a little rant about how i got so angry in my own life that i took it to the social media to allow others to take it to others to take it to others, so that eventually all the tounges would be a waggin and fingers pointing.
just take this advice, if you ask someone something once and they give you a vague answer, maybe dont ask them again.
unless your intention was to anger them to begin with.
and the advice for myself, tell them plainly the first time so that they have no reason to ask again and therefore save myself the anger.
other than all that it was a good day, i visited with my good friend and had lunch with some others and came home to a very very clean house, courtesy of my sons g/f and im getting to work a little this week and going tomorrow to get my hair colored and thinking about getting a dog.
Sunday, August 11, 2013
Fear is a quite real emotion.
There are many forms of fear, fear at a scary movie, fear of flying, spiders, snakes, fear of the dark.
My fear has held me down for way too long.
My fear is living. I was walking and as I always do, listening to my music when the song came on that really made me think. There is always that one song that stands out at any given moment during my walks, according to what mood I am in at the time.
I have been living in a constant state of limbo for way too long.
I attributed my slow down on weight loss to my broken foot, but it all coincided with events in my personal life that occured around the first of the year.
I wont go into detail, but will just say it involved decisions I knew I needed to make and yet I kept hoping they would be ok to wait.
But I cant wait any longer.
I fear the future and I fear going on with my life and seeing whats on the other side, just as the person in the scary movie fears that noise or fears whats on the other side of the door....yet they always go check it out.
and I know I have to go check it out too.
I have to stop being afraid and I have to get back to my walkng, my nutrition plan and back to my healthy life.
And I know the life I have been living the last 7 months, under this constant state of fear of the unknown has to end.
I may regret my decisions but I know I have to make them once and for all.
This week I have to get my head out of the clouds and back to the walking track and back to my health.
The song lyrics, " I never feared death or dying, I only feared never trying, I am whatever I am now, only God can judge me".
Well, I havent been trying and I have feared living.
Whatever the future holds for me, I have to make sure I am healthy enough to live and handle the hard times and enjoy the good times.
I have been at a stand still on moving ahead with my life and losing weight too and its time to turn this thing around!!!
Because as the song says, "we only get one shot, everything rides on this night, even if ive got three strikes, imma go for it, this moment, i own it"
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