Wednesday, July 10, 2013
Food, weight, bad thoughts, and Nutella......
Wishing the heat and rain would just take a chill pill!!!
I walked last night and was super surprised to see alot of people out walking, cause it was steamy hot, but I suppose others are like me, get it in when you can.
And maybe, like me, they are sick of the scale creeping up and maybe they ate a big fat cheeseburger and fries at the Hard Rock.
But I am feeling better today, yesterday was a good day, I might have gone over my calories aby about 200, its because the Nutella is sitting on the stove and every time I go by I grab a teaspoon!!!
So, today I put the nutella and peanut butter in the top shelf.
And I went to the store and bought some WW 100 calorie ice cream.
So, I am tweeking, making little changes and being more watchful.
Going to try to get that hot steamy humid walk in this evening, I only walked 40 minutes because my skin and hair was getting damp from the humidity, but, I will do what I can when I can.
Going now for my first visit to a possible new job, part time and maybe a little stressful, but I am going to give it a try for a week and see how it goes.
I am still looking, this job will be at someones home and I am really wanting something more in the evenings, which is when I tend to get into trouble, lol, so I am thinking if I am busy busy busy working evenings, I wont have time to pass thru the kitchen with a teaspoon!!!
Tuesday, July 09, 2013
So....today was weigh in day...key music of doom!!!
Yes, indeed, I gained weight. I am not surprised, disappointed of course, in myself, in my choices.
I knew I had gained weight.
I have gained 13 pounds since sometime around March. Could be lack of walking, using the broken foot as an excuse, falling into depression and feeling sorry for myself and it could be lack of motivation to workout here at home. Could be adding lots of milk to my diet and it could be, eating foods that 5 months ago, I would not have touched with a ten foot pole.
But whatever it was, it is.
And so, it begins, or it is renewed. My weight loss plan that is.
So, today, with alot of figuring and really counting and really going over it with a fine tooth comb, I have devised a meal plan for today, and I have stuck to it, the only thing I feel I have eaten that could have been left alone, nutella.
No, it has no nutritional value for me. But I wanted something sweet and I havent really been shopping.
So, I need to go pick up some sweets, low fat, low cal of course, weight watchers, skinney cow ice cream, 20 calories, 60 calories, etc.
But other than that, I have done really good today.
Getting the walk in, getting the water in, and getting the fruits and veggies in.
I am angry with my recent decisions, recent choices to allow myself to slide and I know I cannot change them after the fact.
I accept it for what it is or was, momentary mess up!
But, now here we go, I went in and changed my goal, and right now the goal is to focus on losing the 13 lbs I have gained back and 1 more, to get me under where I was and get back on track.
Goal two, is to walk, as much and as often as possible and goal three, to really study this, study why I have fallen back into bad habits, to blog about it, to private journal about it, to really find what is going on and to work on those reasons.
And so, it is what is it, its new.
Its a mulligan its a do over its all old is new again, etc etc etc.
Today, I stuck to my plan and today I walk and today I blog and today I drank my water and today I am here. photo is...
Me and my finally, hopefully, fully healed foot at Myrtle Beach, SC.
Sunday, July 07, 2013
Just a few pics, I didnt really take that many. Will maybe put a few more up another time.
This is my first blog or post in awhile. Got back from the beach trip on Friday and have just been trying to clean up and put stuff away and had to go grocery shopping last night.
Getting back into a routine.
We had a good time, didnt do alot out in the town, didnt take in too many attractions.
My son did ride the sling shot.
We went to Broadway on the Beach, twice, and twice, got rained out.
It poured rain the first two days of our trip, but we did get to go to the beach a little bit, but by the third day it was just beautiful.
We stayed on the beach pretty much the whole third day, and the last day was the 4th of July.
We watched fireworks from the balcony and walked on the beach and sat around the poolside bar and relaxed.
Yes, I did overeat and overdrank. Just now getting the swelling out of my feet from all the salty foods and drinks.
But, I am getting back to my tracking.
Trying to clean house and clean my mind of wishing I was still on the beach and getting back to reality of needing to get my calories in order.
Hoping to walk this week.
The foot held up pretty good and we did a lot of walking.
I guess my favorite part of the whole trip was just sitting in a chair by the poolside bar over looking the ocean and relaxing.
I am already making plans for next year, lol, nothing happens.
Have packed away all the beach towels, shoes, etc for next year.
I think my son has decided he belongs at Myrtle Beach as much as I do.
My favorite pic from the whole trip.
Thursday, June 20, 2013
""These old bones will tell your story
These old bones will never lie
These old bones will tell you surely
What you can't see with your eye
These old bones, I shake and rattle
These old bones, I toss and roll
And it's all in how they scatter
Tells you what the future holds""....Dolly Parton.
Heat. Its finally arrived. I complained and complained for months that it would never get here.
I am not really complaining.
My reasons have changed slightly. I had so wanted the earlier days and the warmer temps and the dry ground, so that I might walk in the mornings, as I did all last summer and well into the fall.
I didnt walk today. But my plan is to go early in the morning.
The news from the doc yesterday was neither good nor bad. It was pretty much just.......well, I havent figured it out yet.
But after talking last night with an RN friend of mine, she told me about a supplement that alot of doctors recommend now, and it even comes in prescription form, called, Strothium.
Somewhat like calcium.
I ordered some online and plan to speak to my doctor about the prescription strength when I go back to see her.
Walking, he pretty much left up to me to decide what I can and cannot handle.
So, I am going to take it super easy until vacation, maybe 30 minutes at most.
I am sure on vacation I will do quite a bit of walking and in the sand, thats the hardest for me, walking without the support of my insoles and good shoes.
I am sure I will need that ibuprofen.
But once vacation is done and Im home and settled, I am going to see what my foot will allow.
I still harbour the idea and dream of one day running.
My friend didnt exactly advise me to get a second opinion, but, suggested maybe I keep taking the high dose of vitamin d, the strothium and keep wearing the bone stimulator.
Afterall, they told me that when blood flow comes to the area where its broke, I will feel heat, the last 3 nights I wore it, I had to remove it due to such strong heat.
Maybe its just taking me a little longer.
Afteall, I am carrying around more weight than my foot should be bearing.....and my vitamin d only climbed from 20 to 52 in 5 months....but it is up now, and has another 28 or more points to go to be up high as they wanted it to be.
And of course there is the whole age thing.
So, I am not giving up. I am going to keep trying and hoping that the bone strenthens enough so I can walk farther and one day I will run.
Spent the day changing reservations and began the earliest of the packing.
I am really just looking forward to relaxing and I have been trying to psych myself up for the long drive.
Tomorrow I will blog about a fear I have always had that I hope to TRY to conquer on this trip.
Wednesday, June 19, 2013
So, I just returned from my ortho appt and lab workup and shopping and returning two items to two different stores and picking up the mail and I am slap wore out!!!
The broken foot--here it is in a nutshell.
The tiny little piece of bone that broke off the rest of the bone, didnt adhere, or grow back to the rest of the bone as it should have.
However it is still forming a soft callus, still in the soft stage, and probably, according to my ortho, is going to heal as much as it ever will.
Surgery wouldnt really make much, if any difference.
The bone stimulator may be helping some, but, as long as I have been using it, should have made much more of a difference.
So, the bone isnt exactly still broken and it isnt exactly healed.
It kinda got into a soft stage and just stuck there.
Maybe, in time, he says, with the increased calcium and vitamin d levels, it might harden more.
But the piece of broken bone is attached to a soft callus attached to the rest of the bone, but it will never grow back to the rest of the bone without that attachement.
So, I guess its like a bondo or something like that.
I can walk, he says, find your pain tolerence level and walk until you feel the pain is getting to much and maybe later in time, I will build up a higher tolerence.
Only come back to see him if the pain gets to be a daily thing or if it gets too unbearable.
In other words...."I have done all I can do, go forth and good luck".
I am still waiting phone call about my labs, but, he is going to call me in more vitamin d and keep taking that and he says find other alternatives to walking for workout.
So, that means I gotta buckle down and make myself learn to like riding my recumbant bike again and lifting weights and he says I can use my stair stepper as long as it doesnt cause me too much pain.
This is the story of my flippin life!!!
Foot pain, headpain, shoulder pain, emotional pain, heart pain, pain in the a$$!!!
But the news wasnt all bad.
My bp was good and I got on the scale this morning to a 1 lb loss.
So, I will just have to learn to suck it up and walk a little less but I will still walk.
I walked 30 mins yesterday and for some reason I was so wide awake last night I slept maybe 2 fitful restless hours and got up before 6 am.
All the running to stores has me killed out and I still have to put my groceries up.
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