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Monday, March 18, 2013

Tired tonight, dont really know why. Havent done too much today, maybe that is why!!
Thinking after the Biggest Loser, and drying my hair, that I will turn in.
Maybe the rain from today, will continue on thru the night...and make for some dang good sleeping weather.
No deep indepth issues to discuss tonight. Only that I have decided Poltergeists or Gremlins must have stolen a whole bag of Tide Pods, as they are no where in my house to be found and I have looked high and low....
Have a good night.

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    Here's hoping you find your pods. Those things are too expensive!
Looks like a sunny day today, but chilly. A hot cup of coffee and later a work-out should warm things up. Have a GREAT day today!

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CAPECODBABE 3/18/2013 8:57PM

    I hate those poltergeists and gremlins LOL

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vitamin d...come hither!!

Friday, March 15, 2013

So I went and had my blood work done Tuesday...and I find out that my vitamin d level had been 20.4.....yesterday it was should be at least 30, and higher....
So my doctor has once again put me on the vitamin d....50,000 units once a week, besides I am taking the one a day and a 400mg vitamin d daily.
And of course theres the milk, orange juice...and so on.
I sure do hope this helps my foot heal.
Even if I messed up last night and was on it for 5 hours, without the boot....I had it wrapped tightly and it didnt hurt so bad...and to be honest, I wasnt on it the whole 5 hours....
Today the sun is peaking thru....but rain is on the way.
Tomorrow I am cleaning house.
Really really cleaning house....
and I do look forward to days coming...sunny, sweaty, tan legs...
I am so beyond ready for winter to be gone.
I havent been back on the scale...but just trying to stick with my calories and trying to get my water....
Exercise is still fleeting...but more than I have done in awhile and yes, I did dig my stretch bands out...chair exercises,,,,,
Hope everyone has a good weekend.

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ALWAYSROSY 3/15/2013 10:19AM

    Ya . . . the Vit D . . . never enough. Mine stays in the dumps too if I don't keep up with the supplements.

Read some good resources about the RX Vit D (usually D2) vs. the daily D3. Confuses me - but I see you are doing both too . . . so we should be covered.

My doctor was shocked to find out that his written RX for D3 became D2 via the pharmacist.


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right this way....and pics.

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Today, I reset my goals. So to speak. I went in and changed my weight. As according to the scale, I have gained a few pounds.
This isnt a shock to me, but still disturbing on so many levels.
I finally woke up to the fact that I have been in self destruct mode for weeks now.
It has been 8 weeks since I broke my foot and slowly, I allowed it to creep into my psyche that I can slack...and use the foot as an excuse.
"Well, I cant walk afterall, and that is the only thing that worked for me"....this was my daily mantra....or....
"I have lost 70 lbs, eating this one snack cake/cheeseburger/beer/ice cream/so on and so on...cant hurt me that much"
I used phrases like this to justify my actions.
But that all stops today.

Gone are the nights going out for A BEER....that leads to six. and A BITE to eat, that leads to a loaded cheeseburger and waffle fries....Gone are the nights sitting on the couch thinking, ok, I can ride the bike and lift weights, etc, in a little while....and then it never happens.
These days are gone and I am thankful for the break thru.
I worked out two nights in a row and rode my bike for the first time, in awhile.
And it wasnt so bad....I had set it in my mind that walking was the only way for me to lose or maintain my weight loss...but I know that isnt true.
I can find other ways to lose....not just maintain, because apparently that is no longer working as I have gained.

So, today, as so many have been, is a new day...and its really a new start for me.
I have revamped my food, calories, etc...and I am going to start journaling again, daily.
These things I have allowed to slip away from me.
I cannot tell you how much I look forward to just water, protein, working out and staying home, to really reconnect with myself and YESSSSS I am going back to therapy.
I do need a good counselor, I just hope I can find one.
But this is something I have allowed to go for too long.
I have had so many bad days in the last 2 months....and really, even from September things have slowly been sliding in my life, walking really was the only thing that I could turn to...and when that was ripped away from me so abruptly, it was like what is left....?
Downward spiral.......
But, I am climbing back up....
I am looking for positive affirmations and positive people in my life.
But mostly I am just looking forward.....
and I added some pics, in purple is one year ago and in pink was taken yesterday


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    I needed some positive affirmation today too, (as I have been a gloomy gus today) but found this site that looked interesting. Maybe you'll enjoy it too.

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PRINCESSAMY 3/13/2013 1:29PM

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PARKERB2 3/13/2013 1:00PM

    Good for you to admit your failures and resolve to get back up and continue on a healthy journey.

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STEPH057 3/13/2013 12:09PM

    Admitting all of this and moving on is such a big step!

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SPARKLISE 3/13/2013 11:49AM

One day at a time will get you to your goals!!! emoticon emoticon

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MARTY728 3/13/2013 11:48AM

    emoticon we all have these bouts! I am happy you climbing back up! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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sunday and climbing out of the funky blue deep sea of despair

Sunday, March 03, 2013

The last 2 months havent been easy ones for me...days dragging by, cold winter and rain and wind and of course, as stated, the broken foot keeping me from the walking track, has left me depressed.
Friends try so hard to lift my spirits and most of the time, they do and most of the time I am in an almost happy state of mind.
Maybe its just fear of the unknown that has kept me so scared and so worried.
But little by little I chip away at the burdens I have been carrying and I release feels good to have a little bit of it gone from my mind and heart.
I have such a long road ahead of me.
Stress fracture is what the doctor called my break...well, he doesnt know about stress fractures!!!!
So, its time to man up and just face things head more worrying about what lurks behind doorways or what I will find in a week, a month or a year...but time to just get myself on track.
Back to working out and really really working out.
Back to getting back!!!
These are not new words or concepts to me, and I cannot count the times since Dec that I have repeated them...but I take solice in the fact that, I have stuck to the idea of it.
The idea of continuing to lose weight, which I have.
I am down a total of 71 pounds since May 24 2012.
I had hoped to make the 100 lb mark by the 1 year anniversary.
With 11 or so weeks to go til then, hmmmm, I am not sure if that is going to happen....I guess its possible and under other circumstances where I could still walk daily for exercise and my metabolism was in burn mode and I was eating fewer calories...ok, I know, excuses...
So, no more excuses, this is just one more road block along the journey.
This too shall pass and I know I will make my goal, I might not make the date, but eventually I will make the goal.
Today is a lazy cold snowy Sunday, I have chops and beans cooking in the crock pot and am going to the tanning bed, the doc told me to continue with the higher doses of vitamin D and of course, I decided to add the tanning bed, maybe for the added sunlight and maybe to help my depression or at least maybe give me a little tan for when they send me to the looney bin...
sorry poor joke, I know.
The walking dead tonight, housecleaning and reading my Game of Thrones book and a long hot bath later....makes one a little happier, I hope.

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LIVINGFREE19 3/3/2013 4:11PM

    You are down 71 pounds since May, wow, that is amazing! You are very inspiring!
Keeping your mind busy will help the blues when you can't get out and do things!
I like to crochet, knit, read books, and paint ceramices to keep my mind busy. I hope you find something while you are held up from getting out!

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CAPECODBABE 3/3/2013 2:03PM

    Stay strong my emoticon

Every day you are getting stronger.

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MARTYJOE 3/3/2013 12:03PM

    Don't worry so much about your goal, stuff happens. Stay focused on your goal and strive for it,eventually you will attain it. Good luck

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6 more wks of boot wearing, no walking, broken foot blues/and goals!!

Friday, March 01, 2013

The ortho doc told me today that my foot isnt healing as quickly or as it should. The little piece of bone that is broken away, isnt reattaching itself back to the foot as quickly as it should.
He says this might have to do with my vitamin d defiency. No walking for at least 6 more weeks and light to moderate walking of any kind.
I am on a super high dose, once a week. I have to go another six week wearing the boot and staying off of it and taking the high dose of vitamin d.
But it wasnt all bad...I lost 3 lbs.
And that is a good thing, I am happy about that.
I decided right then and there thats its time to get back into a daily workout.
I CANNOT WALK and so its time to stop feeling bad about not being able to walk and just find another way to get my fitness.
I have had a really rough few days, but not getting into the details, just saying, stress and lack of sleep and high bp sent me to the ER yesterday.
My bp was 166/110 and they gave me a sleeping/nerve pill and told me to go home get some rest, which I really needed and then...see my family doc about some meds for my nerves.
Oh well, I came home and went to bed and took my bp later, it was down, but my heart still racing away.
Feel a little better today, and hoping tonight to get that added sleep I know I need.
I came back to the blog tonight to make a change....goals for March.
I have seen this alot tonight on blogs and decided to add a few of my own.
To get into the new jeans I bought the end of March for sure.
To enjoy every single moment of sunshine and warm temps in the month.
To increase my vitamin d level and lay in the tanning bed to get the added light I am missing from the sun!!
To drink my water, eat more veggies, keep up my protein and cut back on sodium and keep my bp under control.
To exercise everyday, in some form or fashion...the bike, the stretch bands, the weights, squats, crunches...etc. EVERYDAY!!! NO EXCUSES.
To stay off my foot as much as possible and wear the boot everytime I go out of the house.
And to take care of find ways to relieve and release not carry around burdens and to realize I have control over who and what causes me stress and pain...and to eliminate it.
And to finish the first two books in the Game of Thrones series....
as for goal is to lose 9 pounds this month...but I will settle for 6...and not stress over it.
Hoping everyone has a good weekend and stays on track.

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MKMMARTY 3/1/2013 10:28PM

    It is too bad about your foot and the boot. I am sure you can find different exercises to help you to work towards your weigh loss goal.
I had to spend 9 months in bed after my car accident - that was no fun.

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MARTY728 3/1/2013 3:54PM

    Hoping all continues well for you! emoticon emoticon

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