Friday, March 01, 2013
The ortho doc told me today that my foot isnt healing as quickly or as it should. The little piece of bone that is broken away, isnt reattaching itself back to the foot as quickly as it should.
He says this might have to do with my vitamin d defiency. No walking for at least 6 more weeks and light to moderate walking of any kind.
I am on a super high dose, once a week. I have to go another six week wearing the boot and staying off of it and taking the high dose of vitamin d.
But it wasnt all bad...I lost 3 lbs.
And that is a good thing, I am happy about that.
I decided right then and there thats its time to get back into a daily workout.
I CANNOT WALK and so its time to stop feeling bad about not being able to walk and just find another way to get my fitness.
I have had a really rough few days, but not getting into the details, just saying, stress and lack of sleep and high bp sent me to the ER yesterday.
My bp was 166/110 and they gave me a sleeping/nerve pill and told me to go home get some rest, which I really needed and then...see my family doc about some meds for my nerves.
Oh well, I came home and went to bed and took my bp later, it was down, but my heart still racing away.
Feel a little better today, and hoping tonight to get that added sleep I know I need.
I came back to the blog tonight to make a change....goals for March.
I have seen this alot tonight on blogs and decided to add a few of my own.
To get into the new jeans I bought today....by the end of March for sure.
To enjoy every single moment of sunshine and warm temps in the month.
To increase my vitamin d level and lay in the tanning bed to get the added light I am missing from the sun!!
To drink my water, eat more veggies, keep up my protein and cut back on sodium and keep my bp under control.
To exercise everyday, in some form or fashion...the bike, the stretch bands, the weights, squats, crunches...etc. EVERYDAY!!! NO EXCUSES.
To stay off my foot as much as possible and wear the boot everytime I go out of the house.
And to take care of myself...to find ways to relieve and release stress....to not carry around burdens and to realize I have control over who and what causes me stress and pain...and to eliminate it.
And to finish the first two books in the Game of Thrones series....
as for weight...my goal is to lose 9 pounds this month...but I will settle for 6...and not stress over it.
Hoping everyone has a good weekend and stays on track.
Monday, February 25, 2013
Feeling so much better today. Although lately it seems I spend more time waking up and tossing than I do sleeping.
This started about a week ago. Maybe too much on my mind.
So, while I am a little sleepy this morning, I am actually feeling pretty good.
Hydrated well yesterday and did some housework.
Got a little sunlight, but the wind is still so bad, it seems that whenever we have any kind of sunny day, it is accompanied by high or cold winds.
Maybe soon we will get all sun.
I know I will be complaining, but maybe I will remember the cold and bitter wind and be more appreciating.
Decisions...I have a few that the answers came mighty easily. Such as, no more drinking.
And sadly that may mean staying away from my friend more.
I sure hope she works out her problems whatever they are...but I cannot be her drinking buddy.
Getting back to exercise, lifting weights and riding my bike.
Going back to foot doc on Friday....really hoping for good news. I know I am not ready to go back to the track 2 hours a day. But once or twice a week for 20 or 30 minutes, if the doctor allows.
And if not, more healing and getting healthy.
Going to make an appointment for some counseling, even though, I hate the thoughts of going to someone new, as my last counselor left, she was so much more relateable for me.
But no matter what else happens, I go into this day knowing I am going to make the right choices for today.
I am going to work out and clean my house and read and drink water and ride my bike and if the wind isnt bad, I might get outside, clean out my car.
And start looking for a part time job, something to just keep me occupied and busy and out of the house a couple of days a week.
This will probably be the most helpful thing for me.
No more idle time sitting around bored or lonely or depressed.
Onward and Upward....and tomorrow is weigh in day!!!
Onward and upward.
Tuesday, January 08, 2013
Today, I was feeling so so good. In fact I can remember how I had planned to tell my best friend, when she joined me on the walking track how great the day had been so far.
The depressed mood I have been in had begun to lift a little and I was so enjoying my walk in the sunshine.
Listening to upbeat music and having had my protein shake...I walked about 45 minutes when my friend joined me on her lunch break.
We began talking about the Bama/ND football game, by the way...Wayta go Bama!!!
When on our very first lap around the track together, I felt a tenderness to my foot....just a burning of sorts and the very next step I took...KAPOWWWW....A loud pop could be heard, and felt....and I was so lucky to even make it the 30 or 40 feet back to my car.
And since my friend had to go back to work...I drove myself home, barely able to climb the stairs to my front porch and woke honey to come help me...I didnt want him to have to miss a shift of work and ((a huge chunk of his paycheck))....I had my good friend Amy come and drive me to the doctor...where after about 2 hours, and an xray, I learned I have a stress fracture in my left foot...and a pretty bad one apparently.
She showed me the xray and not that I can really understand what I am looking at, I was informed that one piece of bone is totally broken apart from the rest of the bone.
Needless to say, I am in alot of pain. They gave me crutches and a boot and told me to stay off the foot as much as possible.
They said they will call tomorrow with a referral.
Now, the pain is bad but the depression is worse.
Here I was really beginning to feel this mood lift and to feel myself begin to allow in some happiness.
I just wish I could walk. I am blue again.
I have never put alot of stock into superstitions and such, but I am beginning to wonder what bad luck has befallen me.
Not only all of this, but I have some problems with my computer and have two different guys saying they will come work on it for me, and yet....where are they???
Cant seem to get either one of them to commit to a time or price.
Dont these people do this for a living???
I guess maybe they are afraid to come to my house for fear my bad black cat number 13 walk under a ladder bad luck will rub off on them!!!!
So, the only positive I can find is that maybe I can read a few books, maybe watch some new tv shows and maybe get back to lifting weights more.
But I am very saddened over this....walking is my thing.
Hobbling to the kitchen for a bottle of water and down the hallway to the bathroom has been tons of fun this evening.
Monday, January 07, 2013
today was pretty nice out, maybe upper 50's, a bit of a chill to my hands, and the wind in my hair made it necessary to wear my headband, but the walking was good, did an hour and ten minutes, i cannot wait til nicer warmer weather
have been making some life decisions and am going to set out to find a part time job or some retraining or go back to school part time, something that is training to work
no long term school and get my life on the right track, have lost 63 pounds and hope to keep on going with it......
today i cleaned house and still have alot of dusting to do and changed the curtains and cleaned off the front porch and cleaned out my car
so so productive
now, what is there to do tomorrow and the next day
hmmmm, well, i know i have to find some way to fill the time and the void in my life and maybe i will start doing late evening work outs
weight lifting and maybe even get to walk some more later in the day once the days last longer
i hate winter
i hate it so much, i really feel such an overwhelming depression and despair has been hanging over me since about november and its only gotten worse with the loss of my friend
i miss this person very badly
but, today, it wasnt so bad, i walked
i enjoyed the sun on my face and i seen some friends and chatted in the park and i came home and cleaned and have made a decision that i am giving the puppy away
i know it seems shallow and maybe heartless
but i honestly think someone else can care for her more than i can right now
maybe if it was a different time in my life
but this time right now i have to find me and i have to find where i belong and what is causing me this grief in my life
and i cant even begin to know which direction to turn
but, i stayed within calorie range today and now my house is pretty clean and i feel ok
right here and now, i feel ok
Sunday, December 09, 2012
Well I went on the big coon hunt last night. Mostly, as I had suspected, me and my friend sat around the tailgate, waiting on her hubby and sons to follow the dogs around.
But I had a great time, we drove some very deep backroads and seen some great scenery.
Cant wait to go back again.
Today I got my walk just before the rain came, and now they tell me we might see snow soon.
I knew it had to happen.
And today I got a shirt out of my closet, one I had bought just after the Tsunami hit Japan.
It was a promotional shirt put out by Keith Richards of the Rolling Stones in order to help raise money for the relief effort.
I could not wear the shirt, being an adult 1x...but seemed pretty small, to me anyway.
Today I got the shirt out and tried it on and low and behold....IT FITS!!!!
I feel good about it and I know that even though I have been in a bit of a plateau, I cannot stop and I cannot let myself stress too much about it.
I will continue to lose, maybe not as much as I had hoped, and maybe not at the rate that I have already.
But my decisions are clearer to me.
After talking to a good friend last night about life decisions and choices...I realized that even the food choices, and choosing to drink a beer, or two or three or four....It is all just a choice.
He said to me, "we can only be defined by our own actions"....
It really hit home to me....I have to act better.
I have to act like someone who really wants to lose weight and get healthy.
I will be defined by my actions.
And I am glad to see things more clearly today.
Well, here is a pic of me in the shirt, not a good pic of the shirt, but I will put some more on when I can.
Hope everyone is having a nice fit and healthy Sunday.....
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