to my own self be true

Monday, July 12, 2010

well i had to reschedule my docs appt i had for tomorrow, i guess i didnt have to but i did.
for one, i cannot drive yet, and i am still having trouble getting up and down my steps, the knee pops and cracks and sometimes it hurts like a cowbite...do cows bite, well if they do i bet it hurts.
anyway, so i call thinking they will get me in 2 or 3 weeks, i find out my doc is leaving next week and wont be back until sept and they cant get me in til sept 9th....now this is a mixed blessing.
on the one hand, it might set me back on his schedule, but, it will give me time to get back on the track i was one before my injury sidelined me.
i still cant walk for exercise and sometimes, i even have trouble walking period.
but i have 8 weeks and no more excuses....if i were on 2 good feet and could walk and really get a good burning exercise going, i might be able to do 15 to 20 lbs in 8 weeks, and if i could do 10 to 14 i would even be thrilled.
but this gives me the chance to do 8 at least.
but i am going for 16...heck if i cant lose 2lbs a week, then what am i doing here?
even with the injury i should be able to do that, and the first thing, is good bye yet again to coca cola...that drug is my addiction, but tomorrow hes gone.
i might be setting my self up for failure, was it babe ruth who used to point to the bleachers before he hit the ball to indicate where it was going?
i am pointing to 16 lbs, i just hope im as good as the babe!!!!

  

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TWOTIMESS 7/12/2010 8:20PM

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thru the woods...

Friday, July 09, 2010

today, i ventured out of the house for the first time in a week.
well, yesterday i did go with honey to pick up his brother but i didnt get out of the car.
today i went to walmart and lowes.
needed groceries, as i had eaten everything in the house in the last week.
bought some healthier choices today.
still cant walk right, am having to use the cane and ride the scooter at the stores.
my knee is so tight, lets just say ladies, i wish the rest of the skin on my body was that tight...haha...
doesnt hurt too bad, but, sometimes when i take a step i feel a small pop and feels like its trying to lock, i hope this is just part of the healing process.
so i bought like 5 magazines tonight and tomorrow i plan on doing nothing but sitting on the couch, reading and watching tv and getting babied by honey for one last day before he has to go back to work monday.

  

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DEE107 7/15/2010 8:34AM

sounds like you are doing goood.. keep up the great job Report Inappropriate Comment

COLLARANDCUFFS 7/10/2010 8:40AM

sounds like you are recovering well take it easy and enjoy the mags and the pampering Report Inappropriate Comment

have i earned it?

Thursday, July 08, 2010

i am on the fast track to receiving a new trophy from spark people. but have i earned it? if i look at my food tracking, no...exercising=no...journaling=no...
but maybe i deserve something for all the hell i have been thru since june 4th...boy now there is a day i wish i could re do...
the day i tore my meniscus in my leg====setting off a chain of events that messed it all up for me...
unable to walk
unable to go for walks
doc appts back to back to back
surgery
crutches
carpal tunnel aggravated
husband off on vacation==cant go anywhere with old hobble leg
husband is so good to help me, cooks and cleans and helps me in and out of the tub....
sitting on couch eating and feeling sorry for myself while taking pain pills that just made me hungry and eating some more.
but, i am off the crutches...tomorrow is a week since surgery...go back to doc on 14th, havent needed the pain pills the last 2 days...watching my portions and calories better now...
i think i just might be getting back on track again....now if i dont jinx it...
i will take my trophy and be happy for the first time in over a month

  

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LOSINGLINNDY 7/8/2010 12:45PM

How awful going through all that. You are healing quickly as you are no longer on pain pills or crutches. You will be back on track in no time. Best wishes for your continued recovery. Report Inappropriate Comment

DONNABRIGHT 7/8/2010 12:07PM

Wow, I'm so sorry to hear all you been through. You can't worry about exercising until you are healed but you can stay on Spark, read the articles, connect with friends, learn new ways to eat, earn your points and when you are healed you'll be ready to lose big time! Report Inappropriate Comment

i have gained

Wednesday, July 07, 2010

...and gained...i finally broke down and got on the scale last night, man oh man..i knew i had gained cuz i havent been able to exercise much, and since i had my surgery all i have done is sit on the couch and eat.
but i gained alot more than i realized and its gonna be a killer to take it back off.
supposed to go back to the dreaded doc next week, maybe he will have some understanding of the situation, maybe he will blow up
the crutches i have had to use have aggravated my carpal tunnel and i can barely type.
hope everyone had a nice week
my cousin rusty died today, he had been diagnosed with cancer just a few weeks ago.
am just tugging along.

  

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SOFT_VAL67 7/8/2010 9:16AM

thanks to all of u Report Inappropriate Comment

SOUPGAL 7/8/2010 8:57AM

This has been a difficult time for you. I really can sympathize with your exercise problem. When you can not exercise, the weight comes on faster than one would imagine. You have knowledge and good friends here on Spark and you can get back to your exercise routine. Rest and remember you are not alone. Read some good encouraging books. I am so sorry for your loss. Report Inappropriate Comment

DEE107 7/8/2010 8:13AM

First I am so sorry for your lost of your cousin, 2nd after surgrey its hard when you are stationary to lose weight.. I dont know the surgrey but you must be on restrictions too and on crutches not good sign.. just start drinking more water then eatting and go for the sugarless products to help you Report Inappropriate Comment

MOMMABOF7 7/7/2010 10:14PM

As you recover it will be easier to drop the weight! Sorry for the loss of your cousin. Report Inappropriate Comment

SPARKGIRL32 7/7/2010 10:05PM

I am so sorry for your loss, I wish you the best when it comes to recovering from both surgery and the loss of your cousin. :( I am always here for you if you ever need me. Report Inappropriate Comment

LADYHUNTER82 7/7/2010 9:59PM

I am so sorry for your loss. And I am sorry for all you are going through. Keep your head up and hang in there. It will get better and back to normal in no time. In the mean time, Hugs to you. DJ Report Inappropriate Comment

GOLDIES1 7/7/2010 9:57PM

that weight can come off again. Report Inappropriate Comment

LITTLEBLONDIE1 7/7/2010 9:57PM

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knee surgery and after

Tuesday, July 06, 2010

well the day came for my surgery on friday...i was scared, but i came thru ok, bill sat with me until they came and wheeled me in and the last thing i remember was them placing those electrodes on me and telling me to breath into the mask.
i woke up...as i suspected with alot of back pain, from laying for so long in one position.
my throat sore and tight from the tube and coughing alot.
they gave me morphine and valium to help with the pain and after about an hour they sent me home.
dazed and confused and hungry and scared and ready to crawl onto the couch and not move.
will write more later as the cruthces have aggravated my carpal tunnel...what a week

  

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COLLARANDCUFFS 7/7/2010 11:03AM

get well soon Report Inappropriate Comment

ANGELSANDYBABY 7/7/2010 1:16AM

Wishing you a speedy recovery! Report Inappropriate Comment

MICKEYD4 7/6/2010 11:58PM

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MISSLOIS 7/6/2010 4:41PM

Hang in there It will get better each day!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

BRAVEONE92 7/6/2010 1:25PM

Better to to take it easy for awhile. Hopefully, your knee will heal fast and you will feel much better. Take care of your self. Report Inappropriate Comment