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Saturday, September 22, 2012

I had a most eventful and unpleasant Friday night. Last night my friend and me, and our dates went to a bar, and my only reason for going was to hear my friend do an acoustic set and sing....I knew when we ordered deep fried greasy junky lard grease food that I had made a bad mistake...... And I am beginning to wonder if my best friend, who I love and whom I know loves me too, is unintentionally trying to sabatoge me.
I dont want to go into the long details, but I will blog a little more about it tomorrow.
But it just involves her insistance that I drink and not just a couple, but alot.
And other issues surrounding her strange behavior lately. I know in my heart that she wants to see me succeed, shes come walking with me, given me shoe inserts when my foot hurt, she always tells me how good I am doing, but the last few weeks, shes been calling me up early to ask me for coffee and breakfast, and this weekend it was just push push push beer on me, and when I finally reached my limit, she told me I dragged her to the bar, and she said she hated the guy we went to hear sing, she thinks hes ugly and a bad singer.
She then began to follow me into the ladies room and ask me whats wrong, whats wrong, well when you are ready to tell me you will.
I dont know what it is I am supposed to tell her, other than, I need to not eat gross cheese sticks and ranch dressing and drink 9 beers....I just cant go back to that.... I love her, shes my oldest and dearest friends, but I think I need a few weeks to just distance myself from whatever her problem is, and whatever problem she thinks I am hiding or I am holding out telling her.....
But, I am wondering if I made a mistake today...I had helix piercings in both ears, in the upper cartildge area and so someone told me I should have only done one side, or at least one at a time...due to soreness and maybe not being able to sleep on them.
But the tattoo shop I went to was doing a special, 10 dollars on any, I figured do both now, I had planned on it anyway, and why not save 15 or 20 bucks....I guess I will find out tonight, in a minute cause I am off to bed.

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FLY0NTHEWAL1 9/23/2012 7:43PM

    It sounds like your friend is concerned about losing you to the new lifestyle. I agree with OBIESMOM in that it is solely your choice to eat or drink too much, whether or not your friend is pushing you. Eat before you go or get something light, nurse the few drinks you allow yourself (I find that I have to abstain totally in order not to drink too much). At first it will seem strange to be ordering something different, maybe it will even feel like you're losing out on fun, but you are adding to your enjoyment by making these changes.
Good luck, Val. I can totally relate, and when your friends don't seem that supportive it usually has to do with their own feelings.
p.s. love the piercings!

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    I like the piercing too bad she's not saying hey we will go out but not go overboard cause its about time togeather not getting fat. I say find non food things to do with her because her pushing food or drinks on you is just not healthy who needs that drama. Keep doing your best eventually you'll get positive reinforcement and encouragement from others who see your not just talking but doing it for you. She is still stuck and miserable you on the other hand are off the fence and are doing something about it don't let her suck you into her situation you want friends who are happy encouraging inspiring modivated and who honnestly care about you and what's going on in your life.

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OBIESMOM2 9/23/2012 7:42AM

    your new healthy habits haven't kicked in for your friends (and may never). They are still living the 'old' way. But that doesn't mean YOU have to. It isn't easy, but YOU are solely in charge of YOU. When old friends try to get you to do those things, politely (but firmly) refuse. If you are hungry, order a healthy appetizer.

when she tells you that you drag her down, just say "I'm sorry you feel that way, but I have to continue forward on my journey. I can't go back." If she really cares about you, she'll understand.

it may be that seeing you on a healthy path makes her feel bad about herself and her own weaknesses.

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RG_DFW 9/23/2012 6:23AM

    Your friend hasn't made a lifestyle change and sounds like she's still operating in the old ways. It may not be intentional, it could just be her old habits. Be strong, she'll eventually come around.

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COURTNEY055 9/23/2012 4:13AM

    Wow sounds like your friend is up to something. I'll be anxious to read more about it when u blog more today. I think that was what u said, right? As of this blog, it sounds to me like she MAY be trying to sabatoge u. Is she too trying to lose weight? Are u doing better than her? Are their boyfriends involved? Jealousy? Women can be catty...She is your dearest friend u said so could she be a little jealous with your success. I cant see why else she would "peer pressure" u into drinking 9 (9?!) beers!? That's crazy if you're trying to lose. She obviously knows the journey you're on why else would she do that? And fried cheese sticks? Come on..somethings up...Just my opinion. Just a theory, but, maybe she feels like if u "succeed" on your journey, u will forget about her and start a new life without her? IDK, just a thought. Maybe she's feeling insecure and her only "happiness" is to bring u down to her level? Ok, let me stop....see what your blog did...LOL...U got me making all types of assumptions on this girl!, i'm just sayin it sounds odd...but u know her best. U better keep me updated cuz now I'm curious about what is up!!

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NATNOEL 9/22/2012 11:28PM

    Oh wow that looks cool....let us know if you had trouble sleeping,
I have been wanting to do that for awhile.

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squeal with delite, dee lite!!!

Monday, September 17, 2012

When I got up this morning, and I decided to get on the scale, not really giving it much thought as I have now made Tuesday official weigh in day...but, I had lost another couple of pounds and at first, while very happy about it, it didnt quite sink in.
I had reached my goal weight that I had set for myself for my birthday, of Sept 30th....and ALREADY REACHED IT!!...with a full 13 days left in the, am just hoping maybe to get another 3 or 4 off by that date.
I was so happy and couldnt believe I had made it to that number without a huge struggle...I went walking at daylight and walked an hour til my foot began to ache.
So, its back tomorrow to get fitted for my ortho shoe insert, and hoping they can recommend a good pair of walking shoes to help allieviate the problem.
So, now today my best friend wants to have lunch at the pizza place...and while I swore that place off, I know I can go there and have a nice salad lunch, and maybe even a slice, but not six slices. I changed my goal, since I had met my goal, and changed the new one to lose 4 more lbs by the 30th, and so, SP took my pounds lost off and set it to zero, which disturbs me cause I feel like when I see that, its like saying, ha ha, you didnt lose any...but I know I did and I am tracking that myself as well. I know I have lost 37 pounds since May 24th!!!
So, I know I got this today...maybe just for today works pretty well afterall.
Talked to my friend and work issues interfered with walking this morning, but perhaps gradually it will work out.
Hope everyone has a nice day.

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ARTHURTOM 9/18/2012 4:34AM

    Congratulations Val.

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NATNOEL 9/17/2012 11:35AM

    I am very happy for you !
You are doing so great.

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into the wild (for walking and good health)

Sunday, September 16, 2012

I have lost 32 pounds, and I know I have still a long way to go. But today, I got what was probably one of the best compliments anyone could get. A request to help someone begin walking and try to improve their health.
Now, keep in mind, I do prefer to walk alone and except for the occasional girlfriend to join me, mostly for gossip and socializing, I do walk alone.
But this person is a young neighbor, whom I have known since they were a very young child.
Also, not just wanting to lose weight or get in physical shape, but, wanting to find a natural way to overcome frustration and anxiety.
Dealing with work issues and family life issues...and really just wants someone to help them get started and keep them motivated.
What I like best about it is, they live right near me and their family owns this huge piece of land that winds up into the mountains overlooking my house and there are trails and side roads that are mostly used for 4 wheelers, etc.
But this is just what I have been wanting to do, get off the track and onto some trails, I have even been looking into buying some trail hikers or trail shoes for the upcoming colder weather.
I think we might just be able to help each other out. I have often wanted to ask if I might walk along their back roads, but I know I cannot walk up the steep hill that leads to the roads, so taking a car would be necessary til reaching the top and then there are miles of trails to be walked.
I would never want to go alone either and having a friend along who knows the area would be so great.
Dont know when this is supposed to take place, hoping soon, they said they would text me tonight about possibly hitting the hills first thing tomorrow morning.
If not, oh well, there is always the track.
But it made me feel good to have someone say to me, """you are inspiring me!!!"""
To have someone say, """I want to walk cause I see you losing weight and I see you getting healthy, and I see how determined you are, even with a foot injury to not give up""""
This person is dealing with the recent miscarriage of their first child and also just general anxiety, I told them I cannot tell them what to do to treat that, but I can offer to walk with them to see if that might help them clear their head a little with the other issues.
They dont want to treat the problem with drugs, but I did suggest they discuss it with their doctor to make sure that they understand that walking, especially trail walking can lead to a fast heart rate, which might be mistaken for anxiety.
I sure as heck dont want to get back into the mts with someone having a panic attack!!!
I sure hope this does come to be maybe one or two days a week, I really think walking in the fresh mountain air, away from traffic and along incline paths will be just the thing I need to help me overcome some of my own cluttered thoughts and feelings.
As well as help with leg muscles. Also this friend also has an issue with a weak ankle due to a childhood injury, so they told me they might slow me down, haha, well I had to let them know that I am not a speed walker and mostly I go slow. But once I get going I really want to keep on going, this is one reason I dont walk with anyone, some walk too fast for my pace, or others want to walk 20 minutes then sit and chat.
So, I will update on this, but I have done good today, have finally eaten a little more, some chicken and beans and banana and yogurt and later I will have a snack.
I do feel good and I just hope if I have anything to offer someone that might help them find their own road to good health, that I can.

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RG_DFW 9/16/2012 6:35PM

    Stay with it and you will inspire so many others... WooHoo!!!

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SLUNDQUIS 9/16/2012 4:38PM

    You should get used to the compliments as it will happen again and again. For this person you will be walking with, have her focus on relaxing her whole body while doing your hike. That should help a lot, I work with the elderly and people with psychiatric disorders. Another thing you can do is if an panic attack comes, have her breathe in her nose and out her mouth and then purposely slow it down. This actually has a massage type effect on the hypothalimus, slowing the heart rate and breathing of the person and calming them. Try it for yourself, it really works. I've walk many, many people through this and they are even surprised by the results. I hope you have fun and are able to help her.

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DORIAN4182 9/16/2012 4:25PM

  It always makes you feel good to help someone else. God Bless

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i guess i should eat/concert pics

Saturday, September 15, 2012

I know that eating too few calories can cause a set back, our bodies will begin to rebel and store fat.
But, I cant seem to help it, the last week or so, I just dont feel like eating. Some of it has been excitement, from hanging out with a really great friend and just enjoying being out and talking and laughing.
Part of it has been from excitement building up to the concert I attended, and maybe just a little saving up for alcohol consumption....and I did very much consume.
And part of it, I know the biggest part is stress and worry.
I am just really having a hard time dealing with this move. Honey knows this and we just seem to butt heads, whenever I try to voice my concerns, etc, he takes it as an assault and wants to become defensive and argue.
I am finished arguing. I really just dont know what my next move is going to be, either choice I make is going to be a big big change.
I dont know if I am ready for either, or.
But I am going to try to get back to the walking track every morning this week, no rain or zombie attacks will stop me.
I havent walked since Thursday, and I go to the ortho specialist on Tuesday to get fitted for my insert.
My foot does feel a little better today....I just need to purge my body of some toxins, both from the alcohol, and stress and just get a good sweat going.
I am also, once honey goes back to work dayshift on Monday, begin doing my tummy toning that is long past due.
This is the ugly side effect of weight loss that no one shows in the fitness magazines or even on the Bloser....
the droopy sagging of the tummy....I have only lost 32 pounds, and I can really already begin to see it, I personally havent noticed much else.
My clothes are somewhat looser, and I really havent even seen any significant inch loss anywhere except maybe my hips....I have had a few people begin to tell me how I have lost SO MUCH weight, HA!!!
Well, it does make me feel good, but heck I know I have a lot more to lose and alot harder work outs to get some toning done.
Here are some pics from the concert.... Me and my best friend for life, Pam....
my son and his date.... refreshing refreshments... the band Lynyrd Skynyrd...

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CORTNEY-LEE 9/15/2012 11:50PM

    I saw Skynard in 2000 and something with my Mom and Dad - it was an awesome concert.

I am so glad you had a good time!

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ONMYWEIGH60 9/15/2012 11:33PM

    Val, when you are not feeling too hungry why not try to eat soup at least. YOu can even make your own home made soup adding lots of vitamin rich veggies and lean meat such as chicken or turkey.

It sounds like you are dealing with a lot of stress right now but when you get back to walking, you can let go of all the stress. This is the time when I de-stress and just listen to my Ipod music as I power ahead.

You can do it know you can . All the best on this healthy journey. You have come a long way already losing 36 pounds. That's awesome! Keep up the great work.

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gimme three steps!!

Friday, September 14, 2012

So, I went to the podiatrist the other day and he said I have plantar fascilitis...I guess I spelled it right, and he said mine was pretty bad, and that I was beginning to develop some problems in my calf due to the pulling.
So, I go back next week to have some sort of special mold made to get an ortho insert for my foot.
He didnt tell me not to walk and in fact I walked just that morning before going.
But, I do still have pain and am taking aleve.
So, I didnt walk today.
I went to the Lynyrd Skynyrd concert last night and had a blast, I dont know if I even checked in yesterday or not.
But, I know I sure didnt count the 8, or 9 beers I drank last night...or the two little debbie oatmeal cream pies I ate in a drunken midnight hunger prowl.
But its all good, once a year, or twice for a drunken bender isnt too bad.
I am so hoarse I can barely talk, from woooo hooooing and shouting, but mostly from laughing with my best friend and boy did we have so much fun.
I will put a pic on tomorrow.
I still havent been sleeping 4 days, I can say I have averaged about 2 to 3 hours per night.
So, so so tired today, I lay down around 2pm and still nothing...again at 930pm, and nothing.
I just have alot surging thru my mind...this upcoming and oh so dreaded and regreted move...I would rather not do it, but what choice do I have???
I guess I am searching my mind and heart for that answer.
And just dealing with emotions and fears and so on....maybe I will be able to sleep, if my body doesnt just kill over from stress and lack of sleep first.
So, heres to one more try!!!

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JENNYD97 9/15/2012 12:18AM

    I have taken melatonin to get me to sleep when I have gone days with nothing. good luck!

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KATIBUG49 9/14/2012 11:40PM

    Did he tell you to get new shoes? I had that & the first thing my dt told me was to get a 1/2 size bigger shoes because our feet never stop growing & we don't seem to check shoes sizes as we get old. Then he said I needed new shoes because the old ones have adapted to my problem. Got new shoes in bigger sizes & problem stopped.
Good luck!

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