Thursday, May 20, 2010
so here it is, the first morning, after my first night at home with my new cpap machine.
i put it on and laid down around 11:30 last night and i lay there listening to the hum, and trying to recall if i just breathed in or out and was all messed up.
so around 1230, i took it off, got online and vented...
then i went back put it back on, and finally i guess i fell asleep around 130 and slept until about 430, but not restful slumber, just hanging in there sleep.
i was very much aware of having this device clamped onto my face.
every little whiff of air that would come under the chin or around the eyes would wake me.
i will update on my progess or lack there of, but, i took it off around 430 and slept until 830 without it like i havent slept in days....
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
ok, who was the wise acre that came up with a sleep lab??? i would like to know, because, i for one, did very little sleeping.
i had to go for this study last night, and study, i say, i learned one thing, i didnt sleep well.
first they place all these pads all in your hair...with glue or sticky gel of some kind and run two down your gown or sleep shirt and down thru your pants...pjs, shorts, whatever u happen to be wearing....
then they hook u up to about 30 wires, more or less and tape one to the end of your finger.
then they tell u to do lots of tricks..i wanted to go on letterman and see if i could win on stupid human tricks.
blink, look this way then that way....
cough, snore, hold your breath, move your feet.
once all that is done, they tell u goodnight and happy sleeping.
how i did last night will determine if i have to go back tonight or not, and i am crossing my fingers that i do not....
but i bet i do.
i didnt sleep at all, well i dozed, then i woke up then i dozed then i woke up, turning over was a job in itself, trying not to pull loose the wires.
if i go back tonight i have to wear a cpap mask...that should be super loads of fun.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Tomorrow night on 20/20, on ABC, there is going to be a story about moms with alcohol or drug addictions. This got me to thinking about our vices, and wondering how many of you out there view your weight as a disorder? I guess we have sympathy for drug addicts and alcoholics, We even give a little room to cheating men by saying the have a sex addiction. But we, the overweight, do we have an addiction, or are we just fat and lazy?
They call it rehab when you go to get help with an addiction, but if you go to get help with losing weight, they call it a fat farm.
I never thought that I ate to hide my feelings, or to help get me thru a difficult situation. I dont hide behind closed doors at night and shove cookies in my mouth. I guess I have always thought my problem was just fast food and not exercising. Do we have addictions? And I am sure some do, but is it recognized by the public?
Well that said, I havent walked or worked out in 3 days when I had my nephew here, but hes back home now and this evening, I have to get back into my routine. I was up 1 lb on the scale this morning.
Monday, April 26, 2010
doesn anyone remember that song..."rainy days and mondays, always get me down"?...well i wouldnt say im down, just tired, i didnt sleep well last night, had to get up and be someplace at 10 this morning, had a mcdonalds cappacino, came home, tried to nap, the phone kept ringing, have to babysit the next 2 days and nights, which totally throws off my routine, and dont have a clue when im going to get around to cleaning my house, oh and its rained here all day.
but i dont mind the rain so much, i have always loved the rain.
had a good day food wise, had a mcmuffin for breakfast, forgot to tell them no cheese, but i ate it anyway.
want to go take a long hot shower and put on my jammies and chill, but have my 5 year old nephew coming later, so, im kinda blah today
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Well friends, for those of you who follow me, You know I have been dreading this day, I had to go back to the doctor today and as I wrote yesterday, I was simply dreading it.
I woke up early and got up and fixed my coffee, took my dog out and then got ready to go, I just knew my bp would be up, but I checked it before leaving home and it was 109/78...which is very good for me, especially on a doctors day, because I have white coat syndrome.
Anyway, I had to wait an hour in the waiting room, and was starting to get very nervous, dread was creeping in slowly.
I felt my face was beginning to flush, which is a sure sign my bp is creeping up.
I felt tension in the back of my neck and felt one of those headaches coming on.
But before I had time to get any more worried, I was called back and they weighed me, I had lost 9 lbs in 6weeks....I could have done better, but I was happy it was a loss and not a gain.
My bp was taken and it was 139/94...it had creeped up a little but not in the danger zone for me.
The doc came in with a smile on his face and told me I was a player..he has a slight accent so I thought he first said..."playa"...I started to say play on playa, but thought better of it, he meant I was playing the game of losing weight and sticking with the program.
He said I hope I am saying that right.
I got the gist of it.
He told me he was proud of me, he said I could have lost a little more, but he was happy and that I was doing good.
I was so relieved, the moment I had been dreading was finally over and I could leave that office with a smile on my face and be glad for that one victory.
But I go back on May 27th, which is only a few days away from my June 1st challenge weigh in, lose 20 lbs by June 1st, so I will know how I am going to do in that challenge ahead of time.
Good Luck to all and to all my friends who sent well wishes, Thank you.....
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