Friday, June 29, 2012
I dont have to tell anyone how hot it is. This is dangerous weather. Our local Judge has issued a burning ban, and no one should have to be told not to burn right now.
I was sitting on the porch earlier, and the wind was blowing thru the trees, but I couldnt even feel the wind or breeze on my skin.
Too hot to do much of anything but sit home and complain about the heat.
I have an awful lot to complain about today.
My ankles are swollen, so bad, when I took my socks off after about 2 hours, I had a huge indention where they had been.
My heart is racing again today. Dont know how much the heat factors in to that.
But for about 3 or 4 days now the palpatations have gotten more pronounced.
My hair is dry and looks like straw and the 30 bucks I spent on a hair straightener was a waste, because it seems to dry my hair even more.
I am so looking forward to rain.
I have to go grocery shopping, emphasis on the words HAVE TO.....cause I sure dont want to.
I need something to rid my body of extra water, and nothing stimulating like coffee.....
I have decided to cut back on all of the caffeine until I see what is up with this racy racy heart....
PCOS!!! You will not get the best of me!!
Stay cool, eat right, lots of water, and watery fruits....stay in the house with the air cond, and check on the elderly, pets, etc.....
and I think the price of ice just doubled.
Friday, June 22, 2012
I hadnt realized how long it had been since I blogged. Or really did much SP at all. Update on my friend, he was indicted this week, that was super fast, so they must think they have something on him.
All I know is, the man I know would have to have an awful good reason to do what he did. And until I hear it from him, I wont believe anything anyone tells me.
But, he is still in jail, bond is set way too high for anyone, and until next week when he goes before the judge there is no chance of getting it lowered.
Which a part of me is secretly glad, cause I would be too worried about his peace of mind and maybe his way of thinking would be what does he have to lose.
So, I havent been up to much this week. Staying home, waiting on Honey's unemployment check to arrive.
More bad news on the job front for our area, 750 coal workers were laid off by one company yesterday.
At least 200 of these are permanent job losses.
Altogether, my local tv station announced yesterday that since the beginning of the year, 1300 coal jobs have been lost or laid off.
The fear is beginning to grow in our hearts and our minds.
Men with new born babies, house payments, truck payments, school clothes to buy, etc, they are beginning to feel the pain of job loss.
But, the trickle down effect on our local economy will be the most disastourous of all.
When around 45 percent of your local workforce is someway coal related, and the coal mines are shut down, then other jobs go as well.
One friend who owns a tire store is beginning to feel the pinch, she had to lay off one employee herself this week because money isnt coming in for big coal truck and coal equipment orders.
Daycare workers report more children are being taken out of daycare, since one parent is out of a job, they have no need to put them in daycare.
The effects havent fully started to spread, but I look for it to by the time school goes back.
I have just been dealing with stress, back pain and all this added to it, worrying if hes gonna have a job to go back to.
I cant focus any of my energy on all this stuff with the doctor....I dont even know when the next apt is, I need to really get that worked out.
I am just gonna have to call and let them in on my decision to postpone anything that life changing until I have less stress to worry about.
The only good news to report is that it finally rained her last night, for the first time in awhile....our beans in our garden were really needing it and so was the grass and rivers....
Except the thunder and lightening sent my sons dog into nuclear meltdown and I woke up to find scratched up carpet in the spare bedroom where he sleeps.
I have bought some calming meds to give him, they are supposed to be all natural, but they dont seem to do too much....Guess this will mean a visit to the vet for something to take the edge off.
Hope all of you have a nice day.
Monday, June 18, 2012
This is a do-over blog....as I forgot SP makes ya post the link----so, here we go again, have a nice day and enjoy your freedom......
Just a little pick me up for us hillbilly girls--------------
being from kentucky isnt exactly the south, but we are close enough to see it from here!
plenty of times i have spent on the river bed, drinking a cold beer with friends, missing my friend when i think of this time, cause i have a pic of the river where we hang out....hoping he gets to see that river again, swim and fish and hang out and feel the breeze of freedom on his face....he loves these songs...just being a good country boy, driving a pick up truck and driving thru the appalachian hills that surround us....
gonna try to enjoy this day, try to keep bad thoughts out of my mind, cleaning out closets and drawers, and bagging up some old clothes to take to goodwill or give away.
just remember, as the songs say.....
if you think freedom is free, think again!!
and get your toes in the water, ass in the sand, life is good today!!!
Saturday, June 16, 2012
Well as most of you know who have read my blog recently, I have been struggling with this surgery decision for awhile.
And had an apt yesterday with the surgeon, but she called to reschedule.
For the 29th. They had wanted to schedule me as early as July, the first week.
But I have been so stressed out, with indecison, inablility to stick to the food plan and all the stuff going on with my friend, that I know that isnt going to happen.
I am supposed to go to a support group on the 25th, going to seriously try to go.
I am hoping to speak to them, not only about my concerns, and putting the surgery off til a later date, but about my stress over other events in my life and see if the psychiatrist takes my insurance, if not, I will have to get an apt with a counselor and that might take a few weeks.
I just know that I am not ready, not even been thinking about the surgery at all.
My friend was charged with murder....even though his friend who was there when this took place, said he really thought the guy intended to kill him and thought he was armed. ((if u arent aware of this, please see my last blog))....
They didnt even set a bond, then he went before the judge and entered a not guilty plea and bond was set at half a million full cash.
The family has been calling leaving messages for him to call them, but he hasnt, they are always told hes sleeping.
Today they were able to visit him and the guards said they have been giving him meds to help him sleep cause he was having screaming nightmares about the man he shot.
He goes back before the judge this week and they will ask for bond reduction to a surety bond, or property bond, but I dont think the judge will give it.
I have never in my life been involved in anything like this.
I have known people who have gone to jail, a few to prison....but this man is one of my best friends.
Just days before this we had a conversation about how our crazy friendship began and how connected we are to each other.
He told me he loved me and that I had been there for him when no one else had.
We used to sit and listen to "Wish you were here" by Pink Floyd, he would play it for me on his guitar.
and every time we had a FB conversation or sent each other an email, we ended it with, wuwh.....
and now, I cant speak to him, to let him know I support him, I cant see him cause visits are limited and I dont want to take it from his mom or kids.
So, I am just so stressed.
and I know that I cant concentrate on anything as serious as surgery.
I am just lucky to concentrate on anything.
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Havent been sparking much the last couple of days.
This is one crazy story but true. Two nights ago, one of my dearest friends in the world shot and killed a man. I dont know all the details to the story yet, and since my friend is in jail, I cant find out the truth from his own words. So, I have just been frustrated and feel like I am walking in a daze.
All I know is, around 3am, someone called my friends house and told him this man was on his way there and said he was going to kill my friend.
He got his gun out and before he could even call the police or leave his home or hide, or anything the man was there knocking on the door.
According to a friend of his who was there, the man asked, thru the door for a cigerette, so my friend told the other man to slowly open the door to give him a cigerette, and see if he had a weapon.
Now I know this was the worst possible thing he could do in this case, he should have called the police, but the person who called to warn him says they had called the police to tell them that the man was threatening to go kill someone.
So, the friend barely opened the door to see, and the man said if "HE" is here tell him to come to the door, (speaking about my friend), and the other friend, made the mistake of turning toward my friend, tipping off the outside man that he was standing there, and the outside man pushed the door open a little and my friend, thinking he had a weapon, or feeling threatened I guess, shot him.
Now the man is dead and my friend was charged with murder.
They put my friend in the back of the police car and went inside and all around and talked to the witness and to neighbors, etc.
Leaving the dead man laying there for 4 hours, and my friend sitting in the back of the police car, crying and inconsolable, his sister, mom and son, all standing around outside wanting to help him and not being able to go near him.
I couldnt believe it when my friends sister told me he had been charged with murder!!
I just kept thinking, what was he supposed to do at 3 am, a person at his door, that he felt was there to do him harm????
What do we do as citizens to protect ourselves???
I guess the police are looking at it like that my friend could have left the door shut, or that the dead man wasnt carrying a weapon, which we dont even know yet, cause they wont tell his family.
It has been crazy, I feel like I am losing it.
This man is one of my best friends and biggest supporters in my life.
We have been there for each other thru so much and now, I cant do anything to help him.
All I can do is hope the prosecutor and grand jury will see it as self defense, or at least lower the murder charge down to manslaughter or involuntary manslaughter.
I havent had much mind to spark, or even worry about what I eat or what I do or anything.
Just trying to be there for his family.
Both these men were fathers and the thoughts of fathers day coming up this weekend, and one is dead and the other may be in prison for his life.
Shows me that there is so much more to life and living and making the most of our time and our choices.
Hope all of you have had a much better week than I.
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