Thursday, June 14, 2012
Havent been sparking much the last couple of days.
This is one crazy story but true. Two nights ago, one of my dearest friends in the world shot and killed a man. I dont know all the details to the story yet, and since my friend is in jail, I cant find out the truth from his own words. So, I have just been frustrated and feel like I am walking in a daze.
All I know is, around 3am, someone called my friends house and told him this man was on his way there and said he was going to kill my friend.
He got his gun out and before he could even call the police or leave his home or hide, or anything the man was there knocking on the door.
According to a friend of his who was there, the man asked, thru the door for a cigerette, so my friend told the other man to slowly open the door to give him a cigerette, and see if he had a weapon.
Now I know this was the worst possible thing he could do in this case, he should have called the police, but the person who called to warn him says they had called the police to tell them that the man was threatening to go kill someone.
So, the friend barely opened the door to see, and the man said if "HE" is here tell him to come to the door, (speaking about my friend), and the other friend, made the mistake of turning toward my friend, tipping off the outside man that he was standing there, and the outside man pushed the door open a little and my friend, thinking he had a weapon, or feeling threatened I guess, shot him.
Now the man is dead and my friend was charged with murder.
They put my friend in the back of the police car and went inside and all around and talked to the witness and to neighbors, etc.
Leaving the dead man laying there for 4 hours, and my friend sitting in the back of the police car, crying and inconsolable, his sister, mom and son, all standing around outside wanting to help him and not being able to go near him.
I couldnt believe it when my friends sister told me he had been charged with murder!!
I just kept thinking, what was he supposed to do at 3 am, a person at his door, that he felt was there to do him harm????
What do we do as citizens to protect ourselves???
I guess the police are looking at it like that my friend could have left the door shut, or that the dead man wasnt carrying a weapon, which we dont even know yet, cause they wont tell his family.
It has been crazy, I feel like I am losing it.
This man is one of my best friends and biggest supporters in my life.
We have been there for each other thru so much and now, I cant do anything to help him.
All I can do is hope the prosecutor and grand jury will see it as self defense, or at least lower the murder charge down to manslaughter or involuntary manslaughter.
I havent had much mind to spark, or even worry about what I eat or what I do or anything.
Just trying to be there for his family.
Both these men were fathers and the thoughts of fathers day coming up this weekend, and one is dead and the other may be in prison for his life.
Shows me that there is so much more to life and living and making the most of our time and our choices.
Hope all of you have had a much better week than I.
Wednesday, May 09, 2012
The weigh in went better than I had thought, down 4lbs since I was there last 2 weeks ago, so, my scale matches theirs, I can no longer get mad at the scale.
I am so so tired, I had planned to go do some shopping afterwards, but it was raining hard and who wants to be out trekking back and forth between the car and the stores in the rain...not this girl, since it was raining the day I hurt my knee, I have this overwhelming fear of falling on a slickened sidewalk.
So, I have been up since 4am, and I am pretty much too pooped to do anything, but, relax the rest of the day and hope I feel well enough and the weather is nice enough to get in an extra long walk tomorrow.
Monday, April 30, 2012
First, thanks to all who responded to my rant filled last blog.....I didnt throw my scale to the bottom of the river or throw it from a moving car, YET..... but as soon as I find a new one I probably will, I am thinking of attaching it to some large skyrockets and sending it into orbit.....now to the other bit of aggravation I have been experiencing on a regular basis......Spark people insists on challenging me it seems almost every day, by changing my nutritional values.
I have blogged about this, and asked about this before, oh well, I dont know why they do it, I havent changed my weight or my goals.
I have learned not to weigh in on, cause that seems to change it too. I havent changed my weight or changed my ticker in ages, cause if I do, I then have to go and change my food and my fitness, of course it has become tedious and I am considering skipping this part of sp altogther if something doesnt change, or well, uh, remain the same I should say.
I hate that they change this on me it seems at least three times a week. I have to go in and manually enter each exercise now as well.
When did they change all this?
Well, I took some advice and havent gotten on the scale today, and let me just ask this, if its true that our weight can flucuate by as much as 3 lbs a day, then how the hell do you know when you've really lost weight?
I guess if you've lost 30 lbs then you can safely say the scale isnt wrong....but other than that I cant be sure.
I mean, you might weigh yourself after 7 days to find you have lost 3 lbs, but have you really?
I did pretty good today, with the exception of one too many weight watcher cupcakes, and the fact I skipped my long walk in exchange for weight workout here at home.
At least I did something.
Friday, April 27, 2012
I am so mad tonight I cant see straight!! I knew I shouldnt have done it, I told myself, dont get on that stupid scale, but I did anyway!!
Someone tell me how is it even humanely possible to lose and gain 2 lbs in one day????
According to my scale I have, got on it this morning, was very pleased to see that it was down 2 lbs over the last couple of days, and tonight, after a long long walk, a very good hard workout today and no more calories than usual, my scale says "oh, we was kidding ya this morning"!!!
I hate that mfer so much!!! I dont know what else to do, I literally just give up, I am sick of counting every damn bite and every calorie and scanning the menu or the food labels to try to make sure its not too much fat or calories or carbs or sugar, and walking, and lifting weights, riding the bike, all of it....and for what?
To just have my scale screw with my mind.
I cant get past it, and I am fed up, its probably a good thing I dont have tons of junk food in the house right now.....I am not even gonna ask what I can do, or not do, cause I have been doing this same damn crap for so long its not even funny and I cant even keep 2 lousy pounds off.
Tomorrow this scale is meeting the side of a tree!!!
Monday, April 23, 2012
I think I finally figured out why my calorie range keeps changing on SP, I had re-set my goal, to a short term goal, to lose 8 lbs in 4 weeks, til my next docs appt. And, I guess each time I reset that goal, it changed my calories, I knew 2200 seemed a little high.
I have to keep going daily to check how many calories it says I am allowed, before I track my food, to be sure I am getting the right amts.
It is becoming somewhat annoying.
Maybe I will get it all straightend out soon.
So, Friday as I had posted, I went to the annual Hillbilly Days festival, and walked and had a good time, stayed away from the good food booths, except for the one indulgence of a root beer float, which was more float than root beer, but its all good.
It was hotter than blue blazes, and I got a pretty good little sunburn, and Saturday was rainy, well, yesterday, someone turned the lights and the heat off!!
It was colder than a well diggers patooty!
I had a sweater on all day and fuzzy socks. This morning it was so cold, I had set my alarm for 8 am, so I could get up early enough to try to do something with my wild wild hair, but it was so warm and toasty under the blankets, I turned the alarm off and fell back to sleep, giving me very little time to scramble and get ready to be at my 11 am apt.
Well, all went well, I made it to the appt on time, it was with the dietician, although I became a little frustrated when she began asking me when I was going to arrange to have my medical records from the other doctors office sent....?
Well, I had to inform her that I had brought all that I had with me in person back in March, and I had assumed that they had gone thru it all and had it all sorted.
I had put everything in order, and stapled the test results with the docs they went with etc, etc etc.
Well, she said the coordinator must still have it all on her desk, and she would search thru it soon.
Blah!!! That was really the only bad part of the visit, I had only lost 1.5 lbs but, hey a loss is a loss is a loss, well, I just wish it had been more, and am bound and determined that when I go back on May 16th, it will be better.
And then I went and got myself a cup of coffee, bypassing all the goodie fast food places and coming home, to find that my wonderful son, had made me a delicious roast with veggies.
I love my son.
Single ladies, between the ages of 21 and 30, you dont know what you are missing, a hard working, non drinking, non drug using young man, who is hell in the kitchen, and yes, hes straight!!!
Hope everyone had a great day.
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