Friday, April 27, 2012
I am so mad tonight I cant see straight!! I knew I shouldnt have done it, I told myself, dont get on that stupid scale, but I did anyway!!
Someone tell me how is it even humanely possible to lose and gain 2 lbs in one day????
According to my scale I have, got on it this morning, was very pleased to see that it was down 2 lbs over the last couple of days, and tonight, after a long long walk, a very good hard workout today and no more calories than usual, my scale says "oh, we was kidding ya this morning"!!!
I hate that mfer so much!!! I dont know what else to do, I literally just give up, I am sick of counting every damn bite and every calorie and scanning the menu or the food labels to try to make sure its not too much fat or calories or carbs or sugar, and walking, and lifting weights, riding the bike, all of it....and for what?
To just have my scale screw with my mind.
I cant get past it, and I am fed up, its probably a good thing I dont have tons of junk food in the house right now.....I am not even gonna ask what I can do, or not do, cause I have been doing this same damn crap for so long its not even funny and I cant even keep 2 lousy pounds off.
Tomorrow this scale is meeting the side of a tree!!!
Monday, April 23, 2012
I think I finally figured out why my calorie range keeps changing on SP, I had re-set my goal, to a short term goal, to lose 8 lbs in 4 weeks, til my next docs appt. And, I guess each time I reset that goal, it changed my calories, I knew 2200 seemed a little high.
I have to keep going daily to check how many calories it says I am allowed, before I track my food, to be sure I am getting the right amts.
It is becoming somewhat annoying.
Maybe I will get it all straightend out soon.
So, Friday as I had posted, I went to the annual Hillbilly Days festival, and walked and had a good time, stayed away from the good food booths, except for the one indulgence of a root beer float, which was more float than root beer, but its all good.
It was hotter than blue blazes, and I got a pretty good little sunburn, and Saturday was rainy, well, yesterday, someone turned the lights and the heat off!!
It was colder than a well diggers patooty!
I had a sweater on all day and fuzzy socks. This morning it was so cold, I had set my alarm for 8 am, so I could get up early enough to try to do something with my wild wild hair, but it was so warm and toasty under the blankets, I turned the alarm off and fell back to sleep, giving me very little time to scramble and get ready to be at my 11 am apt.
Well, all went well, I made it to the appt on time, it was with the dietician, although I became a little frustrated when she began asking me when I was going to arrange to have my medical records from the other doctors office sent....?
Well, I had to inform her that I had brought all that I had with me in person back in March, and I had assumed that they had gone thru it all and had it all sorted.
I had put everything in order, and stapled the test results with the docs they went with etc, etc etc.
Well, she said the coordinator must still have it all on her desk, and she would search thru it soon.
Blah!!! That was really the only bad part of the visit, I had only lost 1.5 lbs but, hey a loss is a loss is a loss, well, I just wish it had been more, and am bound and determined that when I go back on May 16th, it will be better.
And then I went and got myself a cup of coffee, bypassing all the goodie fast food places and coming home, to find that my wonderful son, had made me a delicious roast with veggies.
I love my son.
Single ladies, between the ages of 21 and 30, you dont know what you are missing, a hard working, non drinking, non drug using young man, who is hell in the kitchen, and yes, hes straight!!!
Hope everyone had a great day.
Thursday, April 05, 2012
i love the people in my life, for the most part, i do however, and i know this is my own fault mostly, dislike their eating habits and the fact that, i have to work so hard to stick to a plan with so much temptation around.
but, i know that is my lot in life and i have to make my own choices and do what i have to do
i sometimes just wish, i could just go away, alone, do you ever feel that way????
just go to some mountain cabin, or house by the sea, alone, just sit and reflect on life and enjoy some alone time....
no phones or neighbors or hubbies or kids or computers
just me, and nature and maybe a good book....
oh well, back to folding laundry
Friday, March 16, 2012
I wanted to thank everyone who commented on my last blog about my sons hand.
I took him back to the er today to have the packing removed and the wound checked and found out they should have waited one more day.
But the doc who was there said they did a culture yesterday and hopefully will have that back by Sunday and if its staph he will be sent on Monday to the infectious disease specialist.
They said he just needs to keep taking his antibiotics and they put a splint on it and told him to keep it elevated as best he can.
We have no idea how this occurred, he has tried to remember what might have happened, as a stocker in a grocery store, he is constantly opening boxes, he says he gets paper cuts nearly every other day and has to keep a box cutter with him, he was also sorting thru a box of broken pickle jars a few days ago and said he might possibly have knicked his finger and just didnt realize it.
He also replaced a coil pack in his car last week and thought it might be possible that he knicked it on a screwdriver or something.
We originally thought it might be a spider bite and the doc in the first er he went to said its very possible.
But they listed it as cellulitis, and didnt put a accident or illness, he has no insurance, but he has an insurance policy that pays him back out of pocket expenses and time off from work.
So, he cant return to work until at least Monday, possibly longer according to how it looks and if its staph or not.
I sure hope we can get some resolution, it looks so awful I dont dare put a pic on here.
Thanks for the concern and I will update again soon.
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Not gonna spend alot of time Sparking tonight. Got up at 7am to take my son to the ER, he had some kind of cut or bite on his hand and he had gone to the doctor a few days ago and was told it was cellulitis, given antibiotics and sent home.
But it got worse and began to spread up into his hand, and the er doc he seen today said it was an abcess most likely from a spiderbite.
he had to lance it and drain infection and my son was in alot of pain and the fact that he is a recovering addict, with 10 months clean in NA, made it harder cause he refuses narcotics.
They gave him torodal and told him to come back tomorrow for a wound check and bandage change.
They, nor the doc he went to the other day took any blood to see if it might possibly be staph. He works as a stocker in a grocery store and comes into contact with alot of boxes and uses a box cutter and also comes into contact with alot of people. So, who knows.
I sure hope it isnt.
Will keep a close watch for a few days, my back is aching like heck tonight, so not going to be online much longer, thinking I will catch the finale of Jersey Shore and to be by 11.
Here is a pic, dont look if you are squeamish, I will take one tomorrow to see if there has been any reduction in swelling, etc.
Thanks friends for putting up with my meanderings.
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