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Friday, April 27, 2012

I am so mad tonight I cant see straight!! I knew I shouldnt have done it, I told myself, dont get on that stupid scale, but I did anyway!!
Someone tell me how is it even humanely possible to lose and gain 2 lbs in one day????
According to my scale I have, got on it this morning, was very pleased to see that it was down 2 lbs over the last couple of days, and tonight, after a long long walk, a very good hard workout today and no more calories than usual, my scale says "oh, we was kidding ya this morning"!!!
I hate that mfer so much!!! I dont know what else to do, I literally just give up, I am sick of counting every damn bite and every calorie and scanning the menu or the food labels to try to make sure its not too much fat or calories or carbs or sugar, and walking, and lifting weights, riding the bike, all of it....and for what?
To just have my scale screw with my mind.
I cant get past it, and I am fed up, its probably a good thing I dont have tons of junk food in the house right now.....I am not even gonna ask what I can do, or not do, cause I have been doing this same damn crap for so long its not even funny and I cant even keep 2 lousy pounds off.
Tomorrow this scale is meeting the side of a tree!!!

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KLOOP24 4/30/2012 10:51AM

  I kept taking it seriously when I'd weigh more at night than in the a.m. but then people kept telling me it's normal. Our weight fluctuated a 2-4 pounds everyday. So I only weigh the same time of day, only once a week, sometimes I wait longer. While I haven't lost any weight yet, we are trying to get pregnant (and may have done so but I have to wait a week to find out :O) but that makes it hard to lose weight knowing you're trying t oget pregnant.

But in the meantime, I should start eating healthier and exercise as long as i'm physically able to before I bust ;)

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ARCHIMEDESII 4/30/2012 10:35AM


What you're experiencing really is perfectly normal. It's nothing more than a temporary water weight gain. I can easily "gain" 3-4 pounds in a day ! I don't let it freak me out because I know my weight can fluctuate from day to day.

Ever notice your weight goes up during TOM ? Most women tend to gain weight during their menstrual cycle. Is that a fat gain ? Nope, it's nothing more that a temporary water weight gain that will pass in a few days. This too shall pass.

Let me ask you this, while the scale may not be moving in a direction you'd like, have you seen other changes ? Over the last few weeks, have your clothes started to fit better ? If so, you're making a positive change ! Do you have more energy today than you did two months ago ? Can you do more push ups today than you could two months ago ? Can you lift heavier weight today than you could two months ago ? Can you carry more bags of groceries without getting tied ? Are you sleeping better ? Can you walk or run a mile faster today than you could a month ago ? If so, then you ARE making a change for the better despite what the scale says. That's why we do what we do. We're doing this for our long term well being.

There really is more to good health than a number that stares at us from between our toes in the morning. Look for other signs of success that you may not have noticed because you've been fixating on the scale. Will the scale move ? Eventually, but you have to be patient.

Weight loss really is a slow steady process that takes time.

Patience, it's a virtue. So, tell me... what sorts of positive changes have you seen over the last few months ?

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ILIKETOZUMBA 4/28/2012 11:39PM

    Oh that's totally normal, don't even worry about it. My weight fluctuates as much as 3.5 to 4 pounds during the day. You just gain weight during the day from food and water. That's all it is! It's not the same as gaining FAT. Just weigh yourself once in the morning after you've flushed the tank, so to speak, and don't weigh yourself at any other time of day or after eating/drinking anything. If you do weigh yourself at other times, just remember that you're carrying food inside you and the added weight from food doesn't count. :)

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ROOSTER72 4/28/2012 6:40PM

    Let us know what your morning weigh in says!

I know its tempting to weigh yourself - I do it myself. I never regard a weight as truth - especially if it is not first thing in the morning, or on my official weigh in day (Wednesday).
I don't really regard any massive jump as real either - since I know that it take 3500 excess calories to gain a pound of fat. I would never have that many excess calories in a day (since that would mean I need to consume about 5000 calories)

It is worth it. Don't be too hard on yourself. Find healthy foods & exercise you enjoy and you will succeed!

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TINAJANE76 4/28/2012 1:41PM

    Of course you're going to weigh more after a day's worth of eating and drinking! I think it's a good idea to weigh yourself at the same time of day and under the same conditions. I always weigh myself first thing in the morning without any clothes after using the bathroom. There can always be small fluctuations based on what I ate the evening before and how soon I ate before going to bed, but I find the morning weigh-ins to be the most reliable with the fewest variables.

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    You will always be heavier in the evening than the morning. If/when I weigh myself before bed, I always knock 3 lbs off what it reads as that is about how much water retention I have - of course I get rid of that with 2 trips to the bathroom during the it all works out. And I never wear any clothing weighing in.

PS...LOVE your Dragon/Butterfly background!!!

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FLY0NTHEWAL1 4/28/2012 11:35AM

    Don't be so angry at yourself, or your scale! Your weight is always going to fluctuate during the day. In the morning, post-evactuation, pre-breakfast and shower, you are just going to weigh less. After a day of exercise and eating, your muscles are swollen, you've been drinking and retaining water... I can't imagine how you would weigh less in the evening. Don't give up, give yourself a couple days and weigh in again - in the morning! You can do it!

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NATNOEL 4/28/2012 8:47AM

    I was up another 2 this morning. I will not give up and you better not either. I need great women like you to keep me laughing. The way to look at it is .. tomorrow is coming no matter what. Do we want to feel in control of our bodies or out of control. I want to be in control and I want you to be too. Just keep on trying, I will be rooting for you.

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LESLIESENIOR 4/28/2012 12:15AM

    I gain 2-3 pounds every day from morning to night, just from the food and water I consume. What works for me is to always weigh at the same time of day with the same amount of clothing.
Don't give up, no matter what.
You'll be fine if you take it easy on yourself.

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HELEN_BRU 4/27/2012 10:46PM

    I've been there myself. Yours must be digital scale. Am I right?

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a pound is a pound, except when its a pound and a half!!!

Monday, April 23, 2012

I think I finally figured out why my calorie range keeps changing on SP, I had re-set my goal, to a short term goal, to lose 8 lbs in 4 weeks, til my next docs appt. And, I guess each time I reset that goal, it changed my calories, I knew 2200 seemed a little high.
I have to keep going daily to check how many calories it says I am allowed, before I track my food, to be sure I am getting the right amts.
It is becoming somewhat annoying.
Maybe I will get it all straightend out soon.
So, Friday as I had posted, I went to the annual Hillbilly Days festival, and walked and had a good time, stayed away from the good food booths, except for the one indulgence of a root beer float, which was more float than root beer, but its all good.
It was hotter than blue blazes, and I got a pretty good little sunburn, and Saturday was rainy, well, yesterday, someone turned the lights and the heat off!!
It was colder than a well diggers patooty!
I had a sweater on all day and fuzzy socks. This morning it was so cold, I had set my alarm for 8 am, so I could get up early enough to try to do something with my wild wild hair, but it was so warm and toasty under the blankets, I turned the alarm off and fell back to sleep, giving me very little time to scramble and get ready to be at my 11 am apt.
Well, all went well, I made it to the appt on time, it was with the dietician, although I became a little frustrated when she began asking me when I was going to arrange to have my medical records from the other doctors office sent....?
Well, I had to inform her that I had brought all that I had with me in person back in March, and I had assumed that they had gone thru it all and had it all sorted.
I had put everything in order, and stapled the test results with the docs they went with etc, etc etc.
Well, she said the coordinator must still have it all on her desk, and she would search thru it soon.
Blah!!! That was really the only bad part of the visit, I had only lost 1.5 lbs but, hey a loss is a loss is a loss, well, I just wish it had been more, and am bound and determined that when I go back on May 16th, it will be better.
And then I went and got myself a cup of coffee, bypassing all the goodie fast food places and coming home, to find that my wonderful son, had made me a delicious roast with veggies.
I love my son.
Single ladies, between the ages of 21 and 30, you dont know what you are missing, a hard working, non drinking, non drug using young man, who is hell in the kitchen, and yes, hes straight!!!
Hope everyone had a great day.

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DAUGHTEROFTWIN 4/24/2012 12:37PM

    I love the title to this blog! I had some similar frustrations with the changing calorie allowance. I finally figured out it changed when I changed my anticipated exercise. Huh!

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LOSINGLINNDY 4/23/2012 10:27PM

    I love your blogs. I haven't heard phrases like a well diggers's patooty since I was a kid on the farm.

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a break, in my minds eye

Thursday, April 05, 2012

i love the people in my life, for the most part, i do however, and i know this is my own fault mostly, dislike their eating habits and the fact that, i have to work so hard to stick to a plan with so much temptation around.
but, i know that is my lot in life and i have to make my own choices and do what i have to do
i sometimes just wish, i could just go away, alone, do you ever feel that way????
just go to some mountain cabin, or house by the sea, alone, just sit and reflect on life and enjoy some alone time....
no phones or neighbors or hubbies or kids or computers
just me, and nature and maybe a good book....
oh well, back to folding laundry

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    I understand your frustrations with the way your family eats but when you remind yourself why you want to live a healthier life, then it becomes a little easier. :)

While I love the idea of going to the log cabbin in the mountains or a beach house,
I never felt that way. I grew up with a very small family and I always wished I had a bigger family and all the craziness that comes with it. Still, I do understand where your coming from and I could see why that would drive someone to want to escape to a scenic and quiet place. :)
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LOSINGLINNDY 4/6/2012 2:59PM

    You are not alone in your wishes.

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CEKER9 4/6/2012 2:30AM

    That sounds like heaven to me!!!

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    Yes, i wish that....
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update on my sons hand

Friday, March 16, 2012

I wanted to thank everyone who commented on my last blog about my sons hand.
I took him back to the er today to have the packing removed and the wound checked and found out they should have waited one more day.
But the doc who was there said they did a culture yesterday and hopefully will have that back by Sunday and if its staph he will be sent on Monday to the infectious disease specialist.
They said he just needs to keep taking his antibiotics and they put a splint on it and told him to keep it elevated as best he can.
We have no idea how this occurred, he has tried to remember what might have happened, as a stocker in a grocery store, he is constantly opening boxes, he says he gets paper cuts nearly every other day and has to keep a box cutter with him, he was also sorting thru a box of broken pickle jars a few days ago and said he might possibly have knicked his finger and just didnt realize it.
He also replaced a coil pack in his car last week and thought it might be possible that he knicked it on a screwdriver or something.
We originally thought it might be a spider bite and the doc in the first er he went to said its very possible.
But they listed it as cellulitis, and didnt put a accident or illness, he has no insurance, but he has an insurance policy that pays him back out of pocket expenses and time off from work.
So, he cant return to work until at least Monday, possibly longer according to how it looks and if its staph or not.
I sure hope we can get some resolution, it looks so awful I dont dare put a pic on here.
Thanks for the concern and I will update again soon.

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MAMAWLINDALOU 3/17/2012 9:44AM

    Sounds like you have been busy with dr. visits and that can wear you down.We don't like to see our children suffer, I think it hurts us more than it does them. You and your son will be in my thoughts and prayers. Just hope it isn't staph.

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DEBBIEANNE1124 3/16/2012 9:49PM

    I hope he's doing better today.

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if u are squeamish, dont open

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Not gonna spend alot of time Sparking tonight. Got up at 7am to take my son to the ER, he had some kind of cut or bite on his hand and he had gone to the doctor a few days ago and was told it was cellulitis, given antibiotics and sent home.
But it got worse and began to spread up into his hand, and the er doc he seen today said it was an abcess most likely from a spiderbite.
he had to lance it and drain infection and my son was in alot of pain and the fact that he is a recovering addict, with 10 months clean in NA, made it harder cause he refuses narcotics.
They gave him torodal and told him to come back tomorrow for a wound check and bandage change.
They, nor the doc he went to the other day took any blood to see if it might possibly be staph. He works as a stocker in a grocery store and comes into contact with alot of boxes and uses a box cutter and also comes into contact with alot of people. So, who knows.
I sure hope it isnt.
Will keep a close watch for a few days, my back is aching like heck tonight, so not going to be online much longer, thinking I will catch the finale of Jersey Shore and to be by 11.
Here is a pic, dont look if you are squeamish, I will take one tomorrow to see if there has been any reduction in swelling, etc.
Thanks friends for putting up with my meanderings.

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LOSINGLINNDY 3/16/2012 7:30PM

    I feel so sorry for him. That finger looks so painful. Good for him for refusing narcotics.

Hugs, Gaylinn

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NATNOEL 3/15/2012 8:04PM

    Oh wow, poor guy. I hope it looks better tomorrow. I wonder what kind of spider, if that is what it was.

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LADYJAKE1 3/15/2012 8:03PM

    Spider bites are just the worst....hope he feels better soon.

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