Thursday, April 29, 2010
Tomorrow night on 20/20, on ABC, there is going to be a story about moms with alcohol or drug addictions. This got me to thinking about our vices, and wondering how many of you out there view your weight as a disorder? I guess we have sympathy for drug addicts and alcoholics, We even give a little room to cheating men by saying the have a sex addiction. But we, the overweight, do we have an addiction, or are we just fat and lazy?
They call it rehab when you go to get help with an addiction, but if you go to get help with losing weight, they call it a fat farm.
I never thought that I ate to hide my feelings, or to help get me thru a difficult situation. I dont hide behind closed doors at night and shove cookies in my mouth. I guess I have always thought my problem was just fast food and not exercising. Do we have addictions? And I am sure some do, but is it recognized by the public?
Well that said, I havent walked or worked out in 3 days when I had my nephew here, but hes back home now and this evening, I have to get back into my routine. I was up 1 lb on the scale this morning.
Monday, April 26, 2010
doesn anyone remember that song..."rainy days and mondays, always get me down"?...well i wouldnt say im down, just tired, i didnt sleep well last night, had to get up and be someplace at 10 this morning, had a mcdonalds cappacino, came home, tried to nap, the phone kept ringing, have to babysit the next 2 days and nights, which totally throws off my routine, and dont have a clue when im going to get around to cleaning my house, oh and its rained here all day.
but i dont mind the rain so much, i have always loved the rain.
had a good day food wise, had a mcmuffin for breakfast, forgot to tell them no cheese, but i ate it anyway.
want to go take a long hot shower and put on my jammies and chill, but have my 5 year old nephew coming later, so, im kinda blah today
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Well friends, for those of you who follow me, You know I have been dreading this day, I had to go back to the doctor today and as I wrote yesterday, I was simply dreading it.
I woke up early and got up and fixed my coffee, took my dog out and then got ready to go, I just knew my bp would be up, but I checked it before leaving home and it was 109/78...which is very good for me, especially on a doctors day, because I have white coat syndrome.
Anyway, I had to wait an hour in the waiting room, and was starting to get very nervous, dread was creeping in slowly.
I felt my face was beginning to flush, which is a sure sign my bp is creeping up.
I felt tension in the back of my neck and felt one of those headaches coming on.
But before I had time to get any more worried, I was called back and they weighed me, I had lost 9 lbs in 6weeks....I could have done better, but I was happy it was a loss and not a gain.
My bp was taken and it was 139/94...it had creeped up a little but not in the danger zone for me.
The doc came in with a smile on his face and told me I was a player..he has a slight accent so I thought he first said..."playa"...I started to say play on playa, but thought better of it, he meant I was playing the game of losing weight and sticking with the program.
He said I hope I am saying that right.
I got the gist of it.
He told me he was proud of me, he said I could have lost a little more, but he was happy and that I was doing good.
I was so relieved, the moment I had been dreading was finally over and I could leave that office with a smile on my face and be glad for that one victory.
But I go back on May 27th, which is only a few days away from my June 1st challenge weigh in, lose 20 lbs by June 1st, so I will know how I am going to do in that challenge ahead of time.
Good Luck to all and to all my friends who sent well wishes, Thank you.....
Saturday, April 03, 2010
this morning, I would have given my kingdom for a sledgehammer, yes, to bust my scale to bits....I had been so overly excited the last few days, I was actually seeing the numbers go down for a change, I was thinking, wow when I go back to the doc next week, he is gonna be glad and not chew me out for a change....WRONGGGGGG....I got on there this morning and the numbers were up, and even higher than u could think, now, something has to be wrong, yes, I am gonna buy a new scale today, but, there is no way I gained back 3 to 4 lbs in one day....sure I drank pepsi and had a wendys frosty yesterday, but, is that 3 to 4 lbs on the scale? Had I really lost any weight to begin with and my scale was just wrong with the lower numbers, this is really bugging me and I am just sick of the whole thing.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Well I did get sick and boy have I felt like I was at deaths door. I havent been able to eat anything for 2 days, except soup and that made me sick and jello and creamsicles...gatorade and 7 up in small quantities.
I dont know exactly what I have.
Could be the flu, I am not sneezing or coughing or congested,
it is all my stomach, pains and just an overall feeling of grossness and I yawn all day but cant sleep.
My stomach hurts with each sip of gatorade, so I dare not drink plain water. No solids...and what is making the most angry is that tomorrow its supposed to be a beautiful day here. I just hope I at least feel like sitting outside on the front porch.
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