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Thursday, March 03, 2011

Today, was a much dreaded, and long worried about day. And it turned out ok. Not as great as I wish, but, better than it could have.
Hopefully its all behind us and we can move on.
Knock on wood.
I really dont feel like it was a bad day as for my calories.
I ate some things I shouldnt have.
Ok, behind me as well.
I dont know if I am coming down with a cold or its allergies or what.
I have had the sniffles all evening and I had to take some medicine.
Feeling pretty run down and tired.
I should be dancing a jig, having this stressful day behind me and all, But cant get into working out.
Maybe its ok to just take a day off. Maybe I will at least try to do my dumbbells later.
But most likely, I will sleep.
I have a ton to do this weekend.
Tearing carpet up from the living room, and I am so hoping honey has Sat off.
Will not cross my fingers too hard.

I am just looking forward to focusing on me.
Getting my calories under control, and planning my meals, journaling and workng out.
If we have nice days as we had today, I look forward to walking alot more.
Thanks to all who took the time to read.
Hope each of you have a nice weekend.
And take care of yourselves.

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MICKEYD4 3/4/2011 7:07AM


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LOSINGLINNDY 3/3/2011 11:21PM

    So glad the day turned out better than expected. What's one pepsi in the scheme of things? Enjoy your time focusing on you. You deserve it.

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    I'm glad your day turned out better than you thought.
My day was good...a lot of running around, shopping with a friend, but not so good food choices =/ I am exhausted as well.
I hope you have a nice weekend, too!

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the sun will come out......

Wednesday, March 02, 2011

Today was the first day I have had all week that wasnt stressed filled.
I cooked a nice lunch and went with honey to buy a lottery ticket. Then home, watched Days of our Lives and cleaned house, worked out, a little while watching Survivor.
Now it is 10 pm, hopefully, the next hour will pass, I can go to bed, the phone wont ring.
Tomorrow I expect the stress to come back.
But hopefully, fingers crossed, knock on wood, the GOOD LORD willing and no rabbit tricks, it will all be over by 3pm and hopefully life can get back to some sense of normalcy.
This has to.
I have to make it.
I cant keep letting other peoples issues overwhelm me and consume my life.
Even if that person is my own child.
He is MY CHILD, but he isnt A child, he is 26 years old and its time for him to look life square in the face and stand alone while doing so.
I hope I can stick to my convictions.
I also hope all of you had a good day and have an even better day tomorrow.
Thanks for reading my vent.
Good night to all.

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LOSINGLINNDY 3/3/2011 11:05PM

    I so hope the stress does ease by 3 pm. You are right. Other peoples's issues can overwhelm you and consume your life. You can do this!

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Friday, February 25, 2011

Stress much? It seems I have alot lately. Letting go of something, or in this case someone.
No, no relationship is ending, or anyone dying. I am having to learn to let go of my CHILD. I dont mean so much that he is leaving my life. But that the mother in me, has to learn to let him grow up. Or, in this case, pretty much make him.
He really has to go on with his own life.
I have to stand back and stay quiet and watch him make mistakes, and hope he can work it out. FOR HIMSELF!!
Other than all of that, my day was so so. I rode my bike, did my air stepping. I havent lifted weights yet, but I probably will sometime tonight.
Do you follow that old addage, that working out at night isnt good for sleep?
I dont really have a big problem sleeping, no matter what I do at night.
But I did last night, the wind here was super scary.
I sat up late just listening to it.
I did oooooo kkkkkk??? question!
No fast food. I had chicken and pasta salad for lunch but I did have a hot dog.
I am just bored to death.
There is never anything to do around here. Clean house. Watch tv, or FACEBOOK.....
and be bored.

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LOSINGLINNDY 2/26/2011 9:35PM

    Don't you like to read? What about journaling? There must be some things you like to do that will free you from boredom.

Letting go of your children is difficult. I did it with 3 and it did not get any easier. In fact the youngest was the hardest. We do it though because they need to learn to lead adult lives. Just don't give up the relationship rather let it change as he matures.

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CIVPRO1 2/25/2011 11:08PM

    I like working out in the evenings, I think it helps me sleep (maybe it just wears me out!)

Keep up the good work!

(Plus the point I get for replying here, puts me at 25000 and a new trophy!)

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and up and down

Thursday, February 24, 2011

I received my air stepper today. I got on, once it was ready to go, and started stepping, I thought, wow, this was a big waste of money. How can I possibly get any kind of work out on this contraption?
But, after about 3, maybe 4 minutes, I really began to feel it in my legs.
It came with two instructional dvds, with different workouts to follow. And a set of stretch bands, that you can place underneath it and use while stepping.
It probably isnt the same as a real stair climbing machine.....but, it seems to be what was advertised.
I look forward to using it more.
I had to create a new email address today, as my yahoo address, and well, all of yahoo has been giving me problems.
I couldnt even read a news story on yahoo, it would click off and give me a message, from blue lithium, saying internet connection lost and directed me to an ad.
A virus?
maybe, but I seem to have remedied the problem, for now.
My back is hurting tonight, so I am taking it kind of easy.
Going to watch my favorite "mindless tv programming"...Jersey Shore, and relax tonight.
Good luck to everyone.
Keep in touch!!!!

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SOFT_VAL67 2/25/2011 8:59AM

    yea that might help me, the instructions are to place it next to an object you can hold onto when first getting on....until you get used to it.
so i sat it next to my bike and used my bike handle for support.
but once i got the hang of it, it was nothing to stand on.
my problem, i have very short legs.

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CIVPRO1 2/25/2011 12:50AM

    I am glad you liked the air stepper, those bands would be something I would like as I am not very coordinated and I would hope they would aid in balance?

Keep moving forward.

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2 out of 1000000 aint bad

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

As I had blogged yesterday, I was dreading today, I didnt go into detail, I will just say it involved my son and some problem he had to take care of.
It isnt over yet, so I have to deal with the dread for another 8 days, hopefully it will all work out.
I let that stress get to me and I didnt do well today in the food department.
I ate foods I wont mention....but I did track, as ashamed as I was to do so.

Letting outside stressors get to me and ruin my day, my week, my month!!!
I am going to ride my bike in a few minutes and hopefully try to salvage some of this day.
At least the weather was nicer today.
I know we are due some rain, my electric bill came down over 100 dollars since last there are a few things to this day that werent all bad.

I hope to get back on the track soon. I have several friends who want to walk, but they are more into it for a social thing.
When I walk, I like to do so alone....just me and my thoughts.
I like the company, but talking and walking for me dont mix. I think I might do it once in a while, just for the company and friendship, but for serious exercise....I walk alone.
Good luck to everyone, and survive the weekend.

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CIVPRO1 2/23/2011 10:46PM

    Good luck to you! Have a relaxing and refreshing weekend.

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RAPPLEART 2/23/2011 9:26PM

    I'm the same way about walking/jogging. My aunt wants to walk with me, but she keeps talking and I just want to zone out to my music. Once in awhile I'm sure it would be fun, but you do what you need to to stay motivated and on track.

And you're right, today wasn't good but tomorrow might be better. In the end, this was one day in a million. Don't let it be more than that ;)

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