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Wednesday, December 19, 2012

The last three days I have really really slipped. Not so much with food, but with lack of exercise.
One day it was high wind, the next heavy downpours of rain and today...shopping.
And I really hate it, but no matter what, tomorrow, wind, rain, hail, snow....I plan on being back out there walking, even if I am hacking up a lung.
I had this cold mere weeks ago and it came right back.
The sore throat and all that goes along with it, came and went as quickly as it did before, but the dry hacking lingering cough, just will not go away.
And of course, for some odd reason, is much worse at night.
And of course, today I broke down and had some Christmas candy.
So, if I had walked all week, I might not be taking that decision so badly....but, the combination of lack of walking, and eating candy, has really put me in a feeling of despair.
The scale says I am up a pound, or at least it did, the last time I got on.
So, I am taking this as a lesson learned and making the most of it and doing the only thing I can do....reversal before it gets too far gone.
No more candy, and walking everyday.
Hoping to finish up all my shopping and get this all out of my way.
I love Christmas, the feel of it, but this year, just as Thanksgiving was, Christmas is so far off my radar....other than the fact I have family to buy gifts for....I really just cant get into it.
I maybe have become a selfish person, but for me, if the weather is good, I plan to be on the walking track, that is the best gift I have ever recieved and I hope to recieve it daily for life....and a nice little bonus will be to see that darn scale begin to move downward once again
oh and heres a pic of me after having my hair colored yesterday......

  

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LADYFROMTHEWOOD 12/20/2012 11:35AM

You're just gonna have to break down and exercise inside the rest of the week. I had to accept this too. Otherwise, we'll keep waiting for this weather to break, and we know it doesn't plan too soon. You'd better stop talking so mean about yourself!!! You'll start believing it. Don't despair, say nice things to yourself, treat yourself kindly, like a best friend. Then the joy may return. LOVE your hair!!! GREAT pic of you! Report Inappropriate Comment

CAKAROO 12/20/2012 6:18AM

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RG_DFW 12/20/2012 12:24AM

Way to go Report Inappropriate Comment

MSROZZIE 12/19/2012 10:00PM

Great blog! Thanks for sharing. It is very important to take time out for yourself. Happy Holidays! Report Inappropriate Comment

just shut up whiney excuse making girl....

Monday, December 17, 2012

Sick again. I just got over a durn cold a few weeks ago and now here it is again. And I havent walked in two days and I am really getting ticked off at the rain!!!
I just wish it was snow, I could walk in snow and at least I could enjoy it and it would feel more like Christmas.
I really dont want to lose motivation and I really dont want to give in and eat foods that are bad for me and will set me back to gaining.
I knew the bad weather was going to take a toll on my weight loss but now I am really feeling it, I feel awful.
I dont want to lose my mojo and I really just want to stay on the right track.
I just gotta keep my mind focused and not let the fact that bad weather will keep me inside and I can find ways to exercise...weights, bike, dance, walk videos...I know these things are available to me and I have to not just know it, but use it and get off my ass and do it!!!!
No excuses...no junk food and no laziness....
Tomorrow is hair day and maybe a little shopping, if I get out of there early enough and I am not coughing up a lung.
I hope everyone is doing well and getting ready for the holiday....

  

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LADYFROMTHEWOOD 12/18/2012 9:04AM

I hate that weather effects me so much. My motivation has been waning terribly also. Did you get any of the bad stuff? Our electric went out once and there was some pretty snappy lightening, but then the sunset was GORGEOUS! Orange and purple, then blue and pink. I'm really hoping for that chance of snow on Thursday. (Or is it Friday?) Anyhoo, I'm gonna get something in today, even if I have to get out in the cold and wet. I can't stand beating myself up every night! Report Inappropriate Comment

SLIMINDOWN31 12/17/2012 8:27PM

Get off your ass!!! And I'll get off mine!!!! Lets do a walking video tomorrow! Report Inappropriate Comment

what does santa, bruce willis, puppies and weight have in common???

Sunday, December 16, 2012

The answer is....they are all included in this BLOG!!!
I have been considering getting a new dog. It hasnt been a full year since my Sparky died and I swore off ever loving or allowing another dog in my home or life or heart.
But now that I have had some time to grieve, I am feeling like maybe I am ready.
However, a part of me must feel deep down that I am not.
A neighbor has 4 puppies and they are small dogs, like Sparky was.
A mix of peki and pom...I have seen the parents and I know the dog wouldnt get very big.
But my heart is torn.
If I am questioning if I am really ready....am I really ready?
Not just to love a dog, cause I know I would love it with whole heart.
But to take on the responsibility of a dog, the cleaning up, the training, finding the time, and worrying about illness and leaving the dog home alone, etc.
I have more questions than anything.
I just wonder what all of you would advise....I have no trouble finding love in my heart, as I love all dogs. But can I really look at another dog and not feel as if I am dishonoring my Sparky's memory????
I know that sounds silly....my son seen a pic of the puppies and they look alot like my dog and he said, I am trying to replace Sparky and that no matter how much the dogs look like him, it isnt him and I am just trying to kid myself....
So the woman is wanting an answer today and as it seems I have more questions and fears than anything, I think I am just going to have to pass on this set of puppies and maybe tell her I will be ready when the next liter comes along.
Or go to the pound and adopt, but I really only want a small house dog....
So, according to my scale, I am up a pound, this is odd, seeing that I have really been walking and watching calories...
I guess its just a part of the process, lose and gain and try to level out and start losing for real again.
I am sick again, yesterday started with a scratchy throat and now I am feeling run down, tired and groggy, cold chills and achy.
And with the high high wind and chance of rain here, along with my sore ears ....not sure I am going to make it out to the track today.
But I might go to Subway and get my turkey sub I have been craving.
Is everyone out there ready for Santa???
I am getting there a little each day....still have a few gifts to purchase and since I am mostly giving out gift cards this year...not alot to wrap.
One more round of candy to make, hopefully tonight so I can just get that out of my way.
Then this week, I plan to watch all my favorite Christmas shows...
Little House on the Prarie....Andy Griffith, Its a Wonderful LIfe, Home Alone, A Holiday Affair, the one with Robert Mitchum from way back in the day...and The Homecoming, a Waltons Mt Christmas....
I am really into old Christmas shows...oh and no Christmas would be complete without watching Die Hard once or twice...
Nothing says Christmas like Bruce Willis bloody and barefoot!!!!

  

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DESERTDREAMERS 12/16/2012 8:23PM

Every animal is special in its own way. I've had many dogs and cats over the years - none of them is a replacement for the others, but I love them all - even my crazy half-feral cat! Report Inappropriate Comment

ALIHIKES 12/16/2012 5:08PM

I think each pet has his or her own style and behavior. We miss and love them when they pass on, but I personally don't think the next pet is a "replacement", it is a new furry friend with his/her own personality! Report Inappropriate Comment

LADYFROMTHEWOOD 12/16/2012 3:19PM

I'm a huge advocate for adopting from the shelter. You could most likely find a small house dog that is already housebroken and just needs a new, forever home. Don't feel at all guilty over wanting a new dog. It is NOT dishonoring to Sparky to love another dog, nor is it an act of replacing Sparky. No other dog can "replace" those memories, but they can make new, loving memories. In fact, it is an honor to have an owner who loves so deeply and is able to open her heart to yet another warm soul needing someone just as badly as you may need a dog to share you life with. Just my humble opinion, having had many dogs and cats over their lifetime. I like your list of Christmas movies! I like the old ones best too. Report Inappropriate Comment

SBANSCH 12/16/2012 1:32PM

I agree w/ AUDISP, when the time is right you will know it! Report Inappropriate Comment

AUDISP 12/16/2012 11:18AM

I think you will make the right decision to pass on this batch of pups. Sounds like you have a lot of questions if this is the right time or not. My unsolicited opinion is to wait and when the time is right you will know it. Report Inappropriate Comment

a blog about candy, kinda

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Walked today, walked yesterday, I love to walk.
Hasnt been bitter bitter cold, but cold enough to wear hat and gloves.
Today I began making my Christmas candy, the tradition I began some, oh, five or six years ago or longer.
Bourbon balls and I make them really good and bourbony.
I make them for the men that honey works with and a few close friends.
I caught myself once or twice licking fingers, ruttt rhoooo.
I kept some water in the sink for dipping my fingers in quickly when they became bogged down with chocolatey ooey gooey powered sugar and bourbon.
So, I didnt lick fingers too much and I only ate 2 pieces.
That is a new record for me.
I have made for all the co workers, so on Sunday I begin making for friends, and thinking about another 3 or 4 dozen.
I am also thinking this might be my last year with this tradition.
I do enjoy making them, despite the mess and clean up and expense. I do it as a gift and appreciation to the co workers.
Well anyhoo....
Have stayed very well within calorie range...until the two pieces of candy and I am not feeling overly upset or guilty that I sampled.
Afterall, these are a reflection on my cooking skills.
This is one reason I think this will be my last year, another is, how can I tell people that I am now trying to eat and live a healthier lifestyle when I am contributing to their sweet tooth.
Personally, I am now getting more satisfaction out of the walking than I get out of anything sweet and high in calories.
Going to the mall tomorrow to get in some shopping and am going to indulge in a great cuppa coffee...and eat a light and enjoyablely healthy lunch...no food court!!!!
Hope everyone sees some meteors tonight.

  

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RG_DFW 12/14/2012 11:02AM

I used to get rum balls at this time of year but haven't had them in a long time. Maybe I'll change this year Report Inappropriate Comment

LADYFROMTHEWOOD 12/14/2012 8:12AM

We DID see about 10 meteors in the little snippet of time I was willing to stand outside in the cold. I kept saying, "just one more, a good one." lol. But the woodstove sure felt good when we walked back in! I love, love, LOVE bourbon balls too, and have a good recipe for them. Those and pralines are my Christmas candy crack. I haven't made any yet and am unsure how I'm going to cope with the urge to binge on them. If I make chocolate covered cherries, will that count as a fruit? Have a great time shopping today!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

SHARON10002 12/13/2012 10:37PM

Ooooh, love bourbon balls! I make them once in awhile, too. They're so good! Report Inappropriate Comment

the best laid plans and sticking to them

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

I really really wanna walk!!! It was so so bitter cold here today and so so wet yesterday.
Tomorrow, NO excuses, I am walking, and extra overtime as well.
I finally cleared out a space for my tree and guess tomorrow I will try to get it out and put it up, I hadnt really planned to do the big tree this year.
And who knows, with my mood swings, I might swing by the dollar store and buy a small three foot tree and put it up....
I just dont have the Christmas spirit this year.
I for sure dread all the food...and spirits. I told my friend today that I am officially not drinking anything until Christmas and maybe not even then.
It is my tradition to have some egg nog and rum, well, time for some new traditions.
I just have to stay true to my self and to my plan and to really knowing that ultimately I am responsible for my own actions and my own inactions.
But, get this, tomorrow I am beginning making my bourbon balls....define irony???
I dont PLAN to eat any.
I plan to walk.
I am making them for honeys co workers and a few close friends.
I am not cooking this year, but I am making a few side dishes since I contributed nothing at Thanksgiving.
I do plan to walk that day as well if the weather allows and maybe even if it doesnt.
The walking is as much about my need to be alone and think and work thru issues and maybe just enjoy the music and make my plans in my head and figure out how to stick to them.
Hoping everyone is doing well and sticking to their own plans.

  

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LADYFROMTHEWOOD 12/12/2012 8:08AM

Ugh, I hear you on the cold, wet walks. If I don't do some exercise today, I'm afraid I'll be in danger of giving up on exercise altogether! I know once I start walking that the cold will actually feel good, but it's just getting my butt out the door! lol. Plus our road is mud and gravel. As I've gotten older, I've discovered alcoholic drinks do little for me anymore except make me sleepy. It's taken me 5 years to finally admit it, but I've learned to say no just b/c I don't want to fight the urge to nap after a drink. Report Inappropriate Comment