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Tuesday, July 22, 2014

From the garden of my neighbor, who is 87 years old and still works his garden every year.
So, today I am going to visit the local farmers market, hopefully to find some green beans and local honey.
Also hoping they will have some fresh local berries. We picked blackberries in our yard til we got all the good ones, now they are just dried out.
I woke up in an optimistic mood, despite that my shorts are tight.
I am going to eat healthy today!!!
I will stay on track today.
I am going shopping today, going to try on some shoes, make sure I am buying the right size.
It has been a week today since I went to get fitted for my orthotics, still havent heard from them, but hoping they call soon.
In the meantime, I am wearing the old ones and trying to make an appointment with a neurologist, waiting on that call back as well.
Modern medicine!!! pfft!!! I hate the way things are now. Where I live, if the doctor is affliated with the local hospital, you cannot even call their office to make an appointment.
you must call a scheduling service, there is no personal one on one anymore.
Doctors do not know their patient.
And it seems lately all the ones I go to spend more time looking at a computer screen than looking at me.
This is what technology has gotten us.
Even if the doctor isnt the most friendly or has bad bedside manner, at least acknowledge me and speak directly to me and listen to me!!!
So far, its been 2 days waiting on the doctor to call me back about an appointment.
I will give them til Thursday, then I move on to the next one on the list.

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GORDON66 7/22/2014 10:30PM

  You can blame the computer screen on Obamacare, because everything is centralized. Going to the doctor sure isn't what it used to be. Good luck!

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XANA97 7/22/2014 10:58AM

    I enjoyed your post. Quote for the day, "I woke up in an optimistic mood, despite that my shorts are tight." I'll be using that and crediting you. Cheers!

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are you there foot, its me, valarie!!!

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Today I wanted to walk so bad, so I laced up my shoes and went to the track.
For the first time in a month.

After only 20 minutes, sadly I had to give up.
My foot is so numb that all I could feel was my the numbness of my toes to go as a guide.
Fearful of misstepping with my numb foot, but then I began to have some pains up in my bend of my knee.
My leg is beginning to get numb as well up from my ankle.
I am very worried now.
It has been a month since this started, but it isnt getting any better.
My ortho told me the broken bone healed ok, but I havent seen the xray myself, so tomorrow I am going to get a copy of the disc.
He thinks the problem is lack of support and so I am waiting for new custom orthotics.
He says it might also be Tarsal Tunnel Syndrome.
No, I am not a diabetic, but this is a form of Neuropathy caused by what??? possible nerve damage from the long long time it took the bone to heal???

But, whatever it is, he wants me to wait til Sept to have tests conducted to find out.
Hoping new support shoes and inserts might help, but I am not wholly convinced.
I am bitter and angry and sad and upset that I cannot enjoy walking.
Why did these things, broken foot, numb foot, why did they happen to me after I started loving to walk????
Before when I was sedentary, I was fine.
I understand I put alot of work on my feet, but I was doing so good, now I am sidelined, yet again and I am just beginning to worry about this lack of feeling.
I really am.

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GORDON66 7/21/2014 9:29AM

  In our town, the park district runs a fitness center. It has a pool, and there are regular sessions for water aerobics. That would be a fun way to get in some exercise, and you wouldn't need to put weight on your foot.

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CAPECODBABE 7/21/2014 6:22AM

    So sorry. Wait until September? That doesn't sound right. Maybe find a new doctor, you need answers!

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FOCUSD 7/20/2014 11:51PM

  Sorry to hear that you're not able to walk right now. hang in there, you'll be back. Maybe this will give you a chance to do other things and find out you love them? I want to start enjoying some strength training exercises.

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my name is valarie and AM I an addict?????

Friday, July 18, 2014

I am just so beyond ready to get back to healthy eating and eliminating the junk from my life and the toxins from my body.
And I will not be tricked by my mind into believing I am hungry when I know I am full and I wont give in to cravings for that junk.
It is a detox, they call it that for a reason, junk food is just as addictive as cigs and alcohol.
I have been listening to this singer named Jason Isbell, and he sings alot about drug addiction and recovery from that and alcohol abuse.
and while listening to those songs, I find the words inspiring to me in my struggle to overcome food abuse and self abuse.
Because ultimately, no matter what the vice is, addiction is real and why is it we give pity and understanding and offer help to someone who is a drug addict who is struggling, but a food addict, who back slides, is just a pig, or a glutton, we laugh at pics of overweight people in bathing suits, but not at the pic of the wino homeless on the streets.
The young kids who get addicted to their parents prescription pills in the medicine cabinet, we try to get them help, but the overweight children being picked on, who helps them??

I bet there is no answer to those questions that I havent told myself a million times.
well we just have to deal with our own demons. whatever the reason is that we eat, or gamble or cheat, or steal or get high for. Well, onto healthier thoughts------(we just try to ignore the elephant somehow)!
Last night, realizing I had red, yellow and orange bell peppers in the refridge, that had been there a week at least, I decided to make a nice sauce.
So, I added some oregano and some mushrooms and onions, and olive oil. I added some ground beef, and ground pepper, both black and red.
I put it all in the crock pot and let it cook.
Honey had a bowl of the sauce alone when he came in from work at 4am, but my plan had been to cook some whole wheat pasta and have it for dinner.
I think I like cooking sauces and other foods in the crock pot.
Next I am going to make some non-rolled cabbage rolls, adding basically the same ingredients as before, only with brown rice and cabbage, if you like added flavor, you can add spicy rice, and myself, I always add a can of some kind of beans, usually just Lucks pinto beans, but red beans or black works too.
After that, I am going to make some chicken breasts, I add the mushroom onion pepper mix, but leave out the sauce, although some people enjoy marinara on chicken.
I usually add veggies and chicken broth and make more of a soup.
And I add carrots to everything, sometimes celery, but always carrots!!
So, planning out all these veggie laden meals, I have to get my veggies in and sometimes I just add a big bag of frozen mixed veggies, although to me they taste too waxy, so I prefer fresh.
I plan on getting more than my 5 servings of veggies, I plan on focusing my meals around the veggies.
And today I plan to stick to my calories, I will eliminate alot of processed foods, such as the frozen dinners I have been having.
Not that I dont love them.
Pecan chicken is a favorite of mine.
Water, veggies and fresh fruit is a must for me. but I cant forget my protein right now either.
I guess I enjoy reading blogs and articles and researching foods.
Any helpful hints from friends are welcome.
Hope everyone enjoys the weekend.

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SARAHSTORY23 7/19/2014 9:46PM

    I've been struggling with similar thoughts. It's funny that I can actually ignore hunger pangs but can't seem to avoid eating when stressed. Hang in there, and thank you for your input. For me, and I think for many others, writing about the journey helps work things through.

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GORDON66 7/18/2014 2:42PM

  Obesity has finally been labeled a disease. That being the case the health insurance industry will find it prudent to help tackle the problem. With Obamacare being the law of the land, this should get interesting. Since comedians continue to make fun of people with weight issues, there will others who will not take the problem seriously. As for Dr. Laura, her statement is just plain stupid and insensitive. An emotional addiction to food is extremely complicated and takes a lot of work to conquer.

I seriously LOVE my crockpot!!! I use it all the time. Check the Cooking Light and Eating Well websites for tons of recipes and ideas.

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GREEN-EYED-LADY 7/18/2014 12:06PM

    Very interesting blog how addiction to food is as real as other addictions such as alcohol, nicotine, gambling, narcotics, shopping. I never really thought about it that way because we all need food to live but WHAT you eat or HOW MUCH you eat certainly can get out of control. Thanks for pointing that out. ANY addiction is certainly difficult to recover from. I don't think it's "easy" to just STOP. You HAVE to eat, right ? Dr. Phil says you don't just quit a bad habit, but rather replace it with a healthier option. Definitely all your veggies are the perfect option ! You are on the right track. emoticon

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BOOKLOVINGGIRL 7/18/2014 10:50AM

    Oh yes, food addiction is very real. Like you said, we all have demons to fight. Your crockpot meal sounds quite yummy.

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CLAIRELINN 7/18/2014 10:34AM

    I too am trying to figure out what causes me to eat... For me it's mostly stress... To sate my stress I eat sugar and salty foods. Once I start on that's hard to stop. I heard on Dr. Laura the other day... "What do you do to stop something?" She says...'You just stop. It's just that easy." I guess Nancy Reagan wasn't so far off when she said..."Just don't do it." :)

Wishing you the best!

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theres a reason going down hill to the bottom is so easy

Thursday, July 17, 2014

Today I got on the scale for the first time in about 3 weeks and I have gained 8 pounds!!!
I knew vacation I had let things go and since returning home I have found it very difficult to get back on track.
I had assumed maybe I had gained 2 or 3 pounds, but EIGHT!!!
So, all games end today and all the relunctance to cook and eat healthy and make better choices when deciding what to eat.
It all has gotten out of hand and this isnt the first time and this wont be the last time that I find myself here, in this place, of anger and self blame.
It is just time to stop the nonsense, stop the insanity and stop the weight gain.
No, I cannot walk for health right now, that bothers me deeply, but due to the problems, unresolved with my foot, I cant chance making it worse.
But, I can lift weights, I can use the elliptical, I can find other ways to exercise and why am I not????
Well, its time to stop making excuses.

So, today I get back to reality and had to take a good long hard look at myself and say ok enough is enough.
I also said to myself, "start right now, and decide, continue bad behavior, continue gaining, stop even trying or, live and find your way back and be healthy again".
I chose happiness, and believe me, happiness you find in the good taste of a cheeseburger or a brownie isnt the happiness I speak of.
It is the happiness you find, when you can look at yourself in the mirror and not feel disappointed, not feel hatred and heart break for your own failures.
I want that feeling back again.
I have heard it said, nothing tastes as good as weight loss feels.
Well, I will let you know how good weight loss feels when I actually begin to lose this weight once again, but, Nothing tastes as good as being healthy feels.
Nothing tastes as good or gives you as much pleasure, as seeing results.
I start today.
It is a long road back.
It always is.

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GORDON66 7/17/2014 10:19PM

  I hear you. Been there, done that, have the T-shirt. Something tells me by starting to eat appropriately and watching your sodium, those eight pounds are going to come off pretty quickly. Having an injury can be really depressing, but you do have other choices. A swimming pool would be excellent!!!

You go girl and take care!!!

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DANDEELUC 7/17/2014 9:40PM

  You're not alone, but vacations are tough. Don't let 8 lbs ruin the memory of a vacation. Accept you gained weight, quit beating yourself up and move forward. Forgive yourself and be kind to yourself. Most importantly.....never give up emoticon

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SARAHSTORY23 7/17/2014 9:20PM

    I too am tired of failing. I keep letting the stressful circumstances of life be my excuse for making horrible dietary choices when what I need to do is get strong to deal with the stress! Three cheers for you, and you can do this.

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IWANT2DOTHIS1X 7/17/2014 9:02PM

    Yes! I needed to hear this today. I have been on track all week but struggled with craving and today I caved. I knew when I did it, but didn't stop eating chips. Oh well. what done is done, but I can start back now. I choose happiness too. I choose health, and weight loss. Thank you!

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the impatient patient

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

The last few days have been pretty much playing catch up from vacation.
Cleaning house, laundry, grocery shopping and two doctors appointments.
Here is what is going on with my foot----the numbness set in around June 20th and hasnt let up, even on vacation, which meant for me not alot of sight seeing and walking.
So upon my return home I went to see the orthopaedist who treated my broken foot last year.
According to him and his xray, my broken bone has healed nicely and there are no indications the numbness is related.
Of course I am keeping my options open to get a second opinion and a copy of my xrays/
He thinks the numbness is most likely caused by my flat feet and the fact I have been going barefoot more and not wearing my orthotic inserts.
So, yesterday I got fitted for a new pair and was told to look for a good pair of supportive shoes, such as Brooks, for flat feet.
I have been online browsing for a pair and have found some I like.
I just hate to order shoes online because one pair is never the same as another and what fits in one size might not fit in another shoe.
But since Zappos has free shipping and returns, I am going to take my chances.
So, Honey is back to work tonight since vacation and things are getting back to routine.
I am planning healthier meals and while I dont even know if walking is a good idea right now, I am going to be using the elliptical and doing upper body workouts.
I am wearing my shoes with orthotic inserts all the time now, even though, when I wear shoes my foot seems to become number.
At this point, I really dont know what to do.
He told me to wait 2 months and come see him again, if the problem persists, he will order nerve conductive tests to indicate where the problem is coming from.
He told me it can take as long as 3 months from the onset of the numbness to pinpoint the problem.
So, in the meantime, I wear the inserts, dont overdo it on this foot. I will try to walk at the track a little to feel it out and see how it goes, but not too much til I know something for sure.
And try to get back to losing some weight, that might help take some of the burden off my overtaxed feet.
I hate waiting, not knowing and maybe find out it was a problem that could have been treated sooner!!!

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GORDON66 7/16/2014 2:33PM

  I completely understand your frustration. Walking on a flat track is certainly you're best option. Take it easy and take care!

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