Saturday, January 05, 2013
I look at the goals I posted when I first joined Sparkpeople and think, wow, it would have been really cool if I had actually reached those goals. My first feeling is regret, and of course I immediately jump to beating myself up. What happened? But then I catch myself and recall my last blog: cut myself some slack. So I review the last six months not with an eye for beating myself up, but with the intent to grow and move forward, not wallow in the past.
So, what am I going to change this time? Three things:
1) I will no longer work a 60-70 hour work week. Working 10-12 hour days plus weekends is not conducive to paying attention to my physical, emotional and spiritual needs.
2) I will take my physical reconditioning s-l-o-w-l-y! I will practice patience with myself. I will give myself the time to get reacquainted with my body in its current state, remembering that I cannot work out like the young athlete of my past. Although I will be so completely over-the-moon happy and proud if I manage to run the Philly Half-Marathon in November, it will not be great if I blow out my meniscus by training too hard and too fast. Again. So I will listen to my knees and take it easy!
3) I will pay close attention to the foods I put into my body, but I will not obsess over every single calorie. I will use the tools found on the SP website to enable me to regain control. Not crazy, obsessive holy cow I just ate a cracker my day is shot control, just normal, this is what I need to thrive control.
That word -- thrive -- is a good one. It's how I want to look at my life moving forward. Past circumstances conditioned me to consider myself a survivor, which was good, even necessary, for that period of my life. Now, however, I am ready to thrive. I want to soar. I don't want to just make it through each day, I want to embrace each day with the expectation that it is going to be a day even better than yesterday. Now that will be really cool!