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What a difference six months makes...

Saturday, January 05, 2013

I look at the goals I posted when I first joined Sparkpeople and think, wow, it would have been really cool if I had actually reached those goals. My first feeling is regret, and of course I immediately jump to beating myself up. What happened? But then I catch myself and recall my last blog: cut myself some slack. So I review the last six months not with an eye for beating myself up, but with the intent to grow and move forward, not wallow in the past.

So, what am I going to change this time? Three things:
1) I will no longer work a 60-70 hour work week. Working 10-12 hour days plus weekends is not conducive to paying attention to my physical, emotional and spiritual needs.
2) I will take my physical reconditioning s-l-o-w-l-y! I will practice patience with myself. I will give myself the time to get reacquainted with my body in its current state, remembering that I cannot work out like the young athlete of my past. Although I will be so completely over-the-moon happy and proud if I manage to run the Philly Half-Marathon in November, it will not be great if I blow out my meniscus by training too hard and too fast. Again. So I will listen to my knees and take it easy!
3) I will pay close attention to the foods I put into my body, but I will not obsess over every single calorie. I will use the tools found on the SP website to enable me to regain control. Not crazy, obsessive holy cow I just ate a cracker my day is shot control, just normal, this is what I need to thrive control.

That word -- thrive -- is a good one. It's how I want to look at my life moving forward. Past circumstances conditioned me to consider myself a survivor, which was good, even necessary, for that period of my life. Now, however, I am ready to thrive. I want to soar. I don't want to just make it through each day, I want to embrace each day with the expectation that it is going to be a day even better than yesterday. Now that will be really cool!

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GEEGEELAND 1/5/2013 11:41AM

    I've done that same thing many times since I've joined spark. I'll log-in set my goals, do well for a few days straight, then forget for a day or two. I"ll log in, catch up, then forget for a week or two....... By the time I remember again it's been 6 months and my "goal" line on the weight loss report is WAY below my actual blue line. Sigh....
I've been active again since August and it truly helps. It also helps to have a few people that will check on you and hold you accountable.
Good luck on reaching your goals in 2013!

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Cutting myself some slack

Sunday, July 10, 2011

I started very strong in late May, but slowed to a crawl in mid-June. What happened? What changed? My attitude, that's what. Personal circumstances have been taking me on an emotional roller coaster. The highs of the roller coaster are nice, but the lows... not so much. I began to push my November half-marathon goal out of my mind, and with each day beat myself up more and more. "Lucy, you can't do it, why did you even try? The goal was unrealistic anyway, you'll never make it now..." Such negative talk! I would NEVER discourage someone else like this, but it's okay to chastise myself? NO! So I am teaching myself to cut myself some slack, providing to myself the same support that I so freely extend to others in similar situations. My goal is excellence, not perfection. So I had a few bad weeks. So what? I can pick myself up, dust myself off, and start over. Which I have. And I will no doubt have to do it again in the future. And again. As long as I continue moving forward, physically, emotionally and spiritually, the journey is worth it.


Moisture-wicking shorts? Really?

Saturday, May 28, 2011

First "what was I thinking" moment: wearing moisture wicking shorts that, ahem, left very little to the imagination. Gotta wait until I've lost a few more pounds before I do that again.

Second "what was I thinking" moment: as I was wandering around the nature preserve at Peace Valley Park because I lost the trail. Discovered no, I didn't lose the trail. The trail ended and I had to go up to the road to get back to the other side of the lake. Note to self: the nature-y side of the lake is creepy, don't do that again without someone to run/walk with.

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RUN4FOOD 5/28/2011 6:31PM

    Lucy, welcome to SparkPeople. You do have to get used to running clothes. You'll see some pretty amazing sights in running clothes. Some you never want to see again. Best of luck to you on your goals including making it to the Philadelphia Half Marathon. That is quite a challenge. Hope you meet up with the potential God has given you. emoticon emoticon

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