Sunday, March 22, 2009
I can't take it anymore.
In my 20 years of living I cant say that I've lived the life I want.
I am too afraid of what I LOOK like to go out there an enjoy myself and thats IT!
Tomorrow I start.
FOR REAL this time.
I start eating healthier, getting my big ass in the gym, and I'm not going to care what it says on a scale. I'm not going to care what people say when they don't see me reaching for the chocolate bar... I DONT CARE.
This time i'm doing it for me.
I'm going to change.
I'm going to like what I see when I look in the mirror.
And I am going to live.
And there's no one, not even myself, who is going to stop me.
If i lose 3 pounds a week in 6 months I'll be who I want to be.
For my 21st birthday I am going to look pretty, and I mean pretty by my own standards (not model thin), and I'm going to PARTY my ass off for my accomplishment.