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And then it hit me

Friday, October 15, 2010

I've been very active for years. I've been a gym rat for more than 20 years, mastered all the cardio machines,earned trophies for bench press. More recently I took up cycling, and riding 60-70 miles at a time got to be no big deal. All of which combined to make me extraordinarily frustrated at my weight issues. I have a healthy diet, primarily fruits, vegetables, and whole grains. I looked at the other women I ride with, or the slender women in the gym who weren't working half as hard as I was, and I felt horribly bitter at the unfairness of it. For the life of me I don't know how I get so heavy and why all my attempts at trimming down failed. I was healthy as could be and knew the value of it, but my body image was simply miserable and it affected me every day.

And then it hit me. "It" being a Honda Civic. I got hit by a car.

On Thursday, September 30, I was out for a pleasant after-work bike ride, a 15-mile route that I do often. I was about four miles from home heading eastbound on a low-traffic street when I entered an intersection. A westbound car approached to turn left. Instead of yielding the right of way, he made his turn and hit me broadside. Didn't see me. I remember the impact to my leg. I don't remember sliding across the hood and taking out his windshield with my helmet. I remember everything after that, and it wasn't pretty.

Five days and two surgeries later I came home. I have a titanium rod in my leg and won't be able to put any weight on it for another six weeks, getting around the house with a walker and anywhere else in a wheelchair. I have a fracture to the C2 vertebra in my neck and must wear a cervical collar for three months. I can't drive till that comes off. I can't exert any force on my neck (which means nearly none to my upper body at all.) It's hard to lift my arms around the collar so I can't bathe or necessarily even dress myself. Someone is with me full time. Life as I know it is on hold for three months. Cancel everything I had planned through the end of the year. And yes, I am very aware it could have been much worse, though I don't let myself dwell on that.

I'm two weeks into the journey of recovery and have two and a half months to go, which from here seems an eternity. Being fit and strong to start with is making all the difference.

I'm still looking for the lesson, the silver lining in this cloud. My mother is my primary caregiver now, so maybe down the road I'll appreciate the extra time I'm spending with her. Maybe it will be appreciation for the outpouring of love and support I've received from the people around me. Maybe something else, I have no idea.

One thing is certain. I am in awe that my body can take a direct hit from thousands of pounds of moving steel and be able to come out of it. I may never be happy with my thighs, but my body is handling something I never dreamed it would have to take. I have a respect for it that I wouldn't have had before. It may not look the way I want it to, but it performs. I will always remember that.

  
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SOCALDEBBIE 10/2/2013 11:24PM

  Thanks Meadsbay! I've just passed the three year mark. While my life has returned to normal - except for the bike, I haven't found the guts to face that - I'll never be quite where I was. I was on crutches for a year. I had five surgeries on my leg and now have arthritis in my knee, and that's just going to be the way it is. But I do remind myself regularly that I can walk up and down my stairs all by myself - even that was beyond me for a while.

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MEADSBAY 10/2/2013 8:41PM

    Hello,
Just stumbled on this (from the fast diet team) and wondered how you're doing.
Hope you are whole and sound and good as new.
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SOCALDEBBIE 10/21/2010 7:29PM

  Thanks everyone for the encouragement. The one thing I do feel lucky about is the people in my life who are stepping forward to help in any way they can (which mostly means bringing dinner - not very Sparky, but it gives my mom a break.) Rehab is still weeks off and it's going to be tough, but that is pain I'm looking forward to.

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ETWOLIE 10/15/2010 6:07PM

    I hope you make a complete recovery and are back enjoying your active lifestyle soon. I agree that you are lucky you were in great shape when you were hit by the car - I'm sure your body was in much better condition to handle the stress it has been under.

Take the time you need to recover, think about all of the little things that will be a joy when you can do them again. Enjoy the company of your mother and any other people who are there to take care of you. You should feel great knowing you are so loved.

Here's to your speedy & complete recovery.

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RHCOOKSON 10/15/2010 6:04PM

    Thank God you're alive. Wishing you a speedy recovery. emoticon

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AWADAWRIGHT 10/15/2010 5:59PM

    Hope your recovery goes as smoothly as possible!

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DLDROST 10/15/2010 5:43PM

  Prayer for a quick recovery coming your way

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AIMIE32 10/15/2010 5:43PM

    WOW!!! I hope you heal up quickly and so glad you're here to write this post.

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DIANESLONE 10/15/2010 5:42PM

    I will be praying for your recovery! Sounds like you are a lucky lady!!

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