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Quiet Time

Friday, May 13, 2011

"We live in a very tense society. We are pulled apart... and we all need to learn how to pull ourselves together.... I think that at least part of the answer lies in solitude." ~Helen Hayes

I honestly believe 'Mommy Time' is a farce. I just pick up a phone, head to the bathroom, or settle in for a little time on here and I'm Little Miss. Popularity. Something that has increased in popularity is people taking more 'Me Time'. I think there is a level of ridiculousness to it. How many people have you seen come off of vacation all wired up and in need of a vacation from their vacation?

I've been gardening out in my neglected yard (avoiding my severely neglected home) and once in while a child pops in my radar, but, largely everyone is enjoying their 'Spring Break', which, let's be honest it's really, 'Mama's Sanity Break'. I'm on Day 3 of being pain free. That has not happened in 3 months. Those were the 3 darkest months of my life. These 3 days have been like those old movies, I can't quit remember the names of them right now. I've actually tired my self out. OH! Musicals. I got caught in the Spring rain today....it was so peaceful and magical. I have verified to my neighbours that I'm off my rocker because I stayed out there in that spring rain for an hour. I just puttered around planting my Casa Blanca Lillies, ripping up unwanted grass and just thoroughly enjoying the solitude.

Hubby can't have his wifey-poo living in La-la Land forever, but, he is very content to allow me space to get a steady grasp on my physical and mental health and I can not tell you how much of a blessing He is. If I didn't have my spark peeps, this angel of mine would have burnt out long ago. He wouldn't have been able to bear the burden of his wife talking through her mental anguish. He can't handle emotional chatter. He wouldn't have up and left me in duress, but, he would've gone mad trying to help and not being equipped emotionally to shoulder the weight. I'm slowly, but, surely on the mend. We're definitely back to our old schedule of schooling year round because of the health interruption, but, God had big lessons that He thought were more important for the Clan to learn.

Anyway, I gotta make this quick. I just am thankful that my house is a home and I have a sanctuary for my physical and spiritual here, and that I have spark as my emotional and physical sanctuary. Planned solitude even with the best of intentions is usually disrupted, but, a wonderfully valuable tool for healing and clarity. I think when it's seized as the moments present themselves they have the best effects.

Good Night Peeps it's bath and bedtime for the wee folk.
Love & Prayers,

No vlogs..cuz, well, I burned my eyelids, I'm swelling from the burn and new meds, my eyebrows have gone white from the sun...and a myriad of other excuses...oh, hubby is so happy to be around healthy me he hangs out on the couch until he keels over from exhaustion, thus, sleeping on the couch...I do NOT vlog in front of that man unless I really, really, really need to.
Really.
liz

  
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SUNNYBUNNY112 5/14/2011 1:37PM

    I loved this babe...and yes...we, never have a moment alone...when I was growing up, if the bathroom door was shut, I walked away, my kids walk in....like its nothing...times have changed...lol
I sincerely hope that your days get more and more better and that your days of being pain free get longer...you are an incredible woman and I love you, gurl!
Be Blessed...
xo

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MYSTERYROSE74 5/14/2011 1:16PM

    I'm so glad you are able to get outside and enjoy yourself. I hope you stay pain free like this for a LONG time!

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HANKENSTEIN 5/14/2011 10:45AM

    Liz, the news that you are feeling good, and out in the yard, is wonderful stuff. And perhaps that outdoor time and the excitement of what will become of all your hard work will yield more days of blissful pain-free living as well. And I bet hubs has figured out the best way to be there for you in your times of need. Never underestimate the wisdom of a married man.

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I*AM*BLESSED 5/14/2011 10:41AM

    I'm so happy for you Lizzy. Again, I LOVE your blogs!

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 5/14/2011 10:40AM

    I can't tell you how excited I am for you. I hear such a hope and promise in your words that wasn't there recently. You are emoticon no matter what space you are in. But a good space is a blessing.

We home school year round also. It gives me breathing room to take time here and there.

Playing in the rain is soothing to the soul, not craziness. Okay since I've played in the rain before maybe just maybe I'm a bit biased. Maybe we are both off our rockers. emoticon

Have a blessed and wonderful day. emoticon

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MNOT2THICK 5/13/2011 11:08PM

    So very happy you have been pain free for 3 days. emoticon

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NOW2DAY 5/13/2011 10:08PM

    So nice to hear that you are pain free and enjoying spring. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MKPRINCESS007 5/13/2011 7:53PM

    Couldn't be happier for you, Liz. I understand about those dark days when you were in pain and for real, when you climb back out in the light, it feels like re-birth. You needed the time to regroup and recharge and I am glad you have gotten some.

Luv ya bunches...........

P.S thanks for my beautiful flower goodie and your beyond lovely words on my page. You are a blessing to me, and so you return the favor every day just by being who you are. :)

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KAYE454 5/13/2011 7:31PM

  I am a firm believer that we all need our daily quiet time I always take for me after my exercise time each morning.

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Spring Dirt with photos of, um, dirt.

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Good Evening Friends,
How has your day been? It's been smooth sailing over here. I'm finding it a bumpy ride with my calorie intake being above range but, I think with the amount of calories I'm burning chucking dirt around the yard it'll even out somewhere along the line. I'll try not to fret.
I'm enjoying getting a breath of fresh air. It's been great for my mind and wonderful for my daughter and I. We've had a trying winter with my illness and my eldest son pulls the weight leaving my eldest daughter to be co-pilot and she's not a fan of being co-pilot. So, she has been in her zone working hard and showing her stuff to her mama these past two days with the gardening. It has been beautiful.
This is going to be a picture blog to show you where I'll be playing. I may come across sounding like an experienced gardener, I'm not. I'm a professional weeder. My mom shared her gardens as well as she shared her kitchen. In the kitchen I was allowed to do prep and clean up and that's the extent of the gardening. It helped me develop a respect and passion for the actual 'fun' part of either, so, it's a win-win situation, eh? ( I love you Mommy!!!, I know you're reading this and not leaving a comment cuz you forgot your password xoxox)
I try to stay away from annuals, but, I can't OH, they suck me in every year. Last year I HAD to try these massive sunflowers. They're KONG and MAMMOTH. I took pictures and posted them in a blog. Here's the link. I'll be doing that again behind the veggie gardens here:
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In the left bed I have alternating rows of Marvel peas, Radishes, and carrots. Once the last frost passes (May 27th) I will be planting my cucumbers (that I'll be starting in their Green House tray) in the right bed and planting my massive sunflowers behind both of the bed to form a wall to block the road view.


This is the bed Katie and I did two days ago. The birch is from my nieghbour's tree that the hydro company cut down. Do you remember the Walk Blog that I mentioned how I adored her birch. She just volunteered its remnants when I got home that same day and I had no idea (save fire wood) as to how to cherish them. She's 93 and she is daily active in her yard. She has everyone in the neighbourhood put to shame with her vitality. Her name is Lila, we call her Jedi Master. In this bed is alternating Hostas and Canalilies with an Ivy on the trellis...whichit will be sharing with some...you guessed it, Morning Glories...or Everlasting Peas.

Cana Lilly

Hosta...I love me my hostas...
Jedi Master came over and gave us a most precious compliment on our newest bed we've created. I took an unused twin bed and redesigned it into an arbor. I'm in LOVE with Morning Glories and I wanted them to drip off an arbor and because I contribute zero income, I had to get creative. Jedi Lila came over and gave her blessing today and that was wonderful to Katie and I. Katie knew how special it was to have that compliment of encouragement from this particular neighbour. The girls and I planted 4 packets of Butterfly perennial mixture at each side of the arbor. We had to mix up some extra, so, we'll see how that comes out. I plan on lining the back near the gate with the lupins and then have multi-coloured morning glory (of course) grow up and drip off of the trellis. I'm too excited.

Butterfly Mixture: Alyssum, Daisy, Bachelor Buttons, Butterfly Weed, Cadytuft, Columbine, Coneflowers, Coreopsis, Cosmos, Scarlet Flax, Marigold, Poppy and Wallflower. I tossed in more Buttons, and Coneflowers...I couldn't help it.

Morning Glory...

Lupins/Russell Hybrids...


This area was naked (save a decrepit bush) and I did this last year. Right now I just have some Hosta and Morning Glory planted in there...it will be lush!

My favourite peony and my Teiki Torches.

Pink Hydrangea in here.
I plan on getting some climbing Hydrangeas for this garden bed I did last year. I has Hosta (surprise) and ribbon grass.

I have oodles more pictures, but, I think I'll save some for BEFORE and AFTER garden photos.

  
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MNOT2THICK 5/14/2011 3:27PM

    Liz, can't wait to see the fruits of your labor. Sounds like it is going to be gorgeous. Wonderful job planting! emoticon

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KANSASCHICA 5/13/2011 1:33PM

    Wow Liz!!! Your yard looks amazing!!! Dang I wish I knew even a little about flowers!! I took a picture of the vine at my place you were asking about. Remind me, and I will get a pic of it on here. They are big purple flowers!! Anyway, enjoy!! I'm jealous of your outdoor activities as a cold front came through yesterday leaving a cold 55 degrees here today!! Had my air on yesterday, and the heater on today!! Ugh for real?!?!?! Anyhoo enjoy your day!!






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MYSTERYROSE74 5/13/2011 10:46AM

    So pretty! emoticon emoticon

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SHASSYSUE2 5/13/2011 12:47AM

    Oh how I love flowers, the problem is I love everyone else's flowers, because I hate gardening!! LOL!!! Your pics are wonderful... I am an indoor kind of girl who loves to cook, so if you were closer, I would let you grow the vegies and I would cook them!!!! I can't wait to see more pics!!!! Love ya, and keep enjoying that dirt!!! Shannon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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HONORINGGOD 5/12/2011 10:03PM

    nice job emoticon

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MKPRINCESS007 5/12/2011 9:32PM

    I am so happy that you got to have some time in the dirt. :)

super jealous, cause my yard looks bad, and I don't have enough time/energy to tackle it. I need to fly you to me and pay you GOOD MONEY to fix up my mess! Deal? lol

Looks beautiful, Liz. :)

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I*AM*BLESSED 5/12/2011 9:20PM

    Looks beautiful, Lizzy! Nothing relaxes the mind and soul like a wonderful garden...

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BAILEE_GRAVES 5/12/2011 8:37PM

    It's beautiful Liz! I can't wait to see the finished project and everything in bloom. You'll have your own slice of Paradise right there with you!

Enjoy it my friend!

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RIPLEIGH_MICH 5/12/2011 8:35PM

    Looking good!

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 5/12/2011 8:32PM

    You are doing such a good job. It is going to be amazing. I can't wait to see the after pictures. emoticon

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JOYFULMOMTO5 5/12/2011 8:20PM

    emoticonYou've been VERY busy! emoticon

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LENKA763 5/12/2011 8:17PM

    It looks really nice, the morning glories remains me of our old railing on the front porch (it looks like I had it one year).


I had no luck with Lupine...so I give up on those , I would love to have then but for some reason they just don't make it( I have tried for 3 years).


I LOVE sunflowers ,but we have way to many squeals here and they like to eat the blooms..this year I'm trying Mexican sunflowers .

pictures coming soon too!

Thank you for sharing!

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MALKS_ARIA 5/12/2011 8:09PM

    Looks wonderful ... planning is half the fun.....

:) Glad you got such a compliment from the Master Jedi :D

aria

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JOHNTJ1 5/12/2011 7:58PM

    Looks like you are going to have a nmuber of beautiful gardens

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Hedge of Protection

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

I finally went to the long awaited Head Pain Specialist today. It was a long drive and it was wonderful that hubby took tonight off of work so that I would have his company (and his chauffeuring, I am no good with all that city driving).
I'm tired, so you're lucky, I'll be brief. In short the doctor was amazed at the lack of care I was getting. He rediagnosed me to Classic Migraine with Aura from the Hemiplegic Migraine which takes me out of the stroke danger zone and gives me the opportunity for more pain options for intervention. He upped my seizure medication that they prescribed for me as a preventative medication and he gave me two pain relief meds to try. He was appalled that I was only equipped with Tylenol extra strength (the 'migraine' ones are just extra strength with caffeine) He's sending me for an MRI ASAP and there was something else...oh, I go back in 6 weeks. Which is lame, cuz, my migraine times are Feb-May and Sept-Nov....nothing is going to be going on in July people! Wait, it might be to follow up the MRI, that wouldn't be so lame....

I was impressed that he was so efficient with his assessment. He knew what he was doing even though I was not the best patient. Bobby drove me but didn't come in with me. I hate new situations and I was so stressed, but for some stupid reason felt embarrassed about inviting hubby along for the visit. I guess I didn't want him to have to go through that too or something and was trying to save him the snore. It wasn't wise because I ended up asking the doctor to repeat instructions because I was so nervous. I know I've become anti-social with this pain, but, I think it is understandable. I just need space to heal and adapt.

You know that sit com, Home Improvement, and how the family had that HUGE fence between them and Mr. Wilson? I want one. My neighbour BEFORE I had finished talking with hubby when we pulled in the drive, was tapping on my passenger window demanding results. Which everyone is probably thinking, "aw, lucky Liz, that sounds like a sweet neighbour." No, it's not sweet to be forced into social interaction. It's selfish. People seem to want me better cuz they need me for this-that-or-the-other-thing, but, mostly because they're bored. I hate it. I have just spent the last three months of my life battling sanity and fighting the chaos inside my head, I do not want social hour. I want PEACE. I post signs on my door telling people (in a nice way) to go away it's 'Quiet Time' here, and am ignored. I need a fence. A ten foot tall fence with gates....I need privacy and I'm not getting it from people. I feel like there is a pressure to be instantaneously healthy and I'm willing now to accept that I'm not, I wish others would listen to me and give me time and space. No, really....I wish people would see me talking with my husband or child and not interrupt and demand my undivided attention. Wow.

  
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KANSASCHICA 5/12/2011 10:18AM

    Glad the doc appt went well. If ever you have any questions about what the doctor instructed, call the office and they should gladly answer any questions you have. That's what they are there for. Lots of people get nerves, and forget what they were told, or forget to ask questions. Sounds like you've got a great doctor and he is going to get to the bottom of this once and for all!!! Aggression is the good in this situation!! lol Big Big Big emoticon

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MALKS_ARIA 5/11/2011 7:42PM

    Knowing the Frustration of Migraines... and Chronic pain... You aren't alone

hang in there! A Day at a time...

As for those who can't respect your space... do your best to keep going...

blessings
aria

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CHRISTINCOTA86 5/11/2011 6:57PM

    emoticon and emoticon to you Liz. You sound like you are on the right track, and I'm glad that you are sane enough to realize that this may not be cured overnight, but you will be.

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DRAWNTHISWAY 5/11/2011 10:06AM

    Snow, I have another friend who recently had an mri for her migraines. Even tho this is not her peak season for migraines, the mri was able to show that part of her brain had developed lower than her skull and that area actually gets pinched by the skull and vertebrae which then contributes to the pain that she feels. So while this may not resolve all of your issues it may give them some very valuable information for treating you! I'm sorry about the invasion of your time and space. I will pray that you get the time to heal that you need.

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SHASSYSUE2 5/11/2011 10:01AM

    I am so happy that you got to the Doctor, that is the first step of getting well!!!! We all want you healthy and happy!!!! I agree also with the fence idea!!! In the meantime, remember you don't have to open the door, or answer the phone... I have days where I don't want to deal with the world, so I keep the blinds drawn, and I don't answer my phone, and just shut everything and everybody out!!!! I am protecting my Sanity!!!! Hang there my dear friend!!!! Luv and Hugs!! Shannon

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MYSTERYROSE74 5/11/2011 9:46AM

    Sounds like a great doctor's appointment! I'm glad to hear you are out of the stroke danger zone. Fabulous news! Good luck with your MRI, and keep us all posted on that. Sorry to hear about the nosy neighbor. I really don't like it when people interrupt my conversations with my hubby. Aggravates me to no end.

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 5/11/2011 9:32AM

    So glad you liked your doctor. emoticon

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I*AM*BLESSED 5/11/2011 6:50AM

    Lizzy~

I'm glad you went and happy for you that maybe this doctor will help you get some sanity soon. I always like it when a doctor seems to know their job. Hopefully the MRI will also help with the diagnosis and finally, you will receive the right treatment.

Hang in there girlfriend!
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MKPRINCESS007 5/11/2011 12:47AM

    Hooray for competent doctors that actually can "name that medical problem" and come up with real solutions. We need some more of that in the world, for real. So, sounds like you have a game plan, some meds, and some follow up. That is amazing!

As for the issues around feeling uncomfortable in situations such as you were, I can relate. Some times I feel like I could fold inside out, ya know? Hate that feeling. I am pretty sure everyone thinks I am a dork, they hate my shoes, they are waiting for me to say something dumb. You know the drill. I really can relate.

The neighbors.............sigh. I have been running across a few others here on Spark who share your pain of late. It seems that neighbors are either obnoxiously up in your world, or they treat you as if you are invisible these days. What is the deal? Could we have friendly without intrusive? I vote for a fence. If they can't read the signs, quite literally, then what else could you do? Seriously, in the meantime, when they come to the door and you have a sign up.........open the door, point to the sign, and shut the door. Maybe then they will get the hint. YOU DESERVE SOME PEACE!

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Week 13 Day 3

Wednesday, May 04, 2011

I must be mad. It's only the beginning of Day two being pain free and the heartache of the past months from migraines is becoming a faded memory. Which is both convenient and inconvenient being that today is the day I FINALLY get to have an interview to see if I will get my nurse practitioner. Which I have 5 minutes here and this is why the blog and not the vlog. I have a tendency to lose track of time when I get talking. Ahhh, I do love talking.

I am laying out my goals for the day and goin' for the gold, peeps.
Asides from the mama school stuff the personal stuff that I have been neglecting and I want to focus on:

1. remember every meal (I have been skipping breakfast and 'making up for it later', because it gets so busy and I neglect my meal).
2. water. I used to be a camel and drink 2 cups of liquid maximum a day. I love that little cup that I can visual fill up in my nutrition tracker, it has been a blessing.
3. cross off my to-do list. I noticed I really fly-by-the-seat-of-my pants and revolve my life around hubby. There is nothing wrong with that. However, I am getting stressed because I lose track of the 'stuff', responsibilities and don't get them done. Of course he thinks it's adorable because I am focusing on him, but, people, the laundry clearly does NOT do itself!!!
4. What was four again?....set a timer for when I'm here, I get lost in time when I get to visiting y'all. It's not really good.
5. Track for the day.

That's the 'Bucket List' for the day. I gotta run. Kids are yelling and Daddy is trying to sleep....and I gotta go to the NP and get the kids passports pics done......

Have a wonderful day everybody!!!

  
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MAGGIE620 5/4/2011 2:45PM

    SO happy you are feelin GOOD! You go girl..."get er done" as we say here in the South.

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 5/4/2011 11:23AM

    Hope you have a super day and accomplish all that you have on your list. emoticon

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MYSTERYROSE74 5/4/2011 9:58AM

    Wow, I could've written your goals 2, 3 and 4 for myself. I really need to drink more water. I really need to focus on my responsibilities and not "wait for my husband to leave" before I get started. And I need to use a timer also to focus and be more efficient with my time.

Let's do this!

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MNOT2THICK 5/4/2011 9:38AM

    My best wishes on the interview and staying focused. Praying for the best. emoticon

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KANSASCHICA 5/4/2011 9:31AM

    Best of luck today Liz!!! emoticon

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BAILEE_GRAVES 5/4/2011 9:16AM

    Good luck on the interview. I have no doubt you'll do well. And I LOVE Miss Piggy!! She's the ultimate diva and rightly so!!

Have a great day, doll!

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FrIdAy DaNcE PaRtY!

Friday, April 29, 2011


In celebration of the Royal Wedding, I picked Paparazzi by Lady Gaga.
Many may feel it's a dark reminder of Princess Di and her untimely death, but, I couldn't help but think of her today as this was the Dance Party song that was on my drive the day i finally drag my butt to the chiro. It reminded me that she didn't get to be on Earth for her son's wedding and since there are no tears in Heaven I can only imagine that Princess Di was smiling on her son today.

  
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SNOWANGELDIVA 5/3/2011 10:20AM

    Ya, this was fun. I did it window movie maker with a click of the button it does all sorts of effects. I think this is what I'll keep doing...it's neato.

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HANKENSTEIN 5/1/2011 12:34PM

    cute Snow. Good to see you out and about

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MAGGIE620 5/1/2011 9:26AM

    Oh, the many skills of our Liz! very cool, my dear...have a healthy week.

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SUNNYBUNNY112 4/30/2011 1:50PM

    Very cool...great effect :)...and I thought the song was very fitting...I hope you continue to feel better and better everyday!

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I*AM*BLESSED 4/30/2011 11:56AM

    I emoticonyour vlog!!!

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MNOT2THICK 4/30/2011 10:55AM

    Very, Very Nice. emoticon Hope the chiro helps you feel much better.

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LINTPICKER 4/30/2011 8:15AM

    cool vlog

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JEANUT 4/30/2011 8:05AM

    I love the way you did your blog


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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 4/30/2011 1:07AM

    Neat v-log. It looked like a music video. emoticon

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MKPRINCESS007 4/30/2011 12:30AM

    Loved it! Special effects, cool scenery, different locale, fabulous voice and ............you are driving to the doc to help you feel better!

Now, that is something for me to sing about ..........

if only I could vlog! LOL

Awesome, Lizzy! emoticon emoticon

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