Thursday, November 08, 2012
Which one of my SparkBuddies counselled me to take a sec and not think of my physical activities I love as rewards that I deprive myself of when I feel completely inferior? Cuz, you rock!
I did a little walking back home from school with the kids, but, I avoided my 5k like the plague.
I saw my hoops as I was cleaning up the Hoop Room for visitors and I reluctantly grabbed one.
I had cleaning music blasting and that was drowning the days high stress from my brain and I realized I was absentmindedly hooping.
It felt so relaxing...
I got to thinking about the 'stuff' I'm letting overwhelm me.
I hate inconsistency and I am the epitome of it.
I'm always changing!
I joke with Bobby that he's unchanging and I adore the security of that. I figured he picked me to give him a challenge. How can he know what I'm up to next when I even don't?
Ha - ha!
I will be working outside of the home. I've been a Domestic Diva for 15 years and the world has changed so much since college.
I'm at Square One.
So many possibilities. I kept thinking, "I have to make a HUGE splash when I return the workforce. Maybe I should return to college and grab an alphabet after my name. Then rub all those naysayers' faces in my success; all those ugly people that insisted I was wasting my life being my family's volunteer slave."
I realized today that THAT pursuit would make my work of the past 15 years void.
I am awesome as I am right now. I do not need to prove to myself what I know I can achieve or prove it to anybody else.
I want to help provide for my family and take my man places (and get my Hoopnotica Instructor Certificate and celebrate with an LED multi-hoop vlog....you know while I'm dreaming here...).
Thank you Sparklers for not leaving me 'alone', but, holding me up when I fell.