Thursday, July 19, 2012
I'm a S.A.H.M. (Stay At Home Mom) and this is what my Laundry Room looks like...
What has that got to do with Healthy Lifestyle?
It's my Trigger. My Laundry Room reflects me.
My goal in life is to put June Cleaver to shame. There is no greater honour than serving the next generation and teaching them to be a loving people. I hate my job and love it in the same breath. My life is the emotional, physical and spiritual well being of seven people. All aspects of our lives look like my Laundry Room. I feel like a failure and as though I'm losing a lost battle.
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God gives His recipe for balance,
1 Peter 5:5-11
“God resists the proud,
But gives grace to the humble.”
Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.
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I've been so rebellious and not submitting. So, I've been experiencing some emotional tsunamis. I felt defeated, overwhelmed, frustrated, and useless. I felt like that was really my worth and I couldn't grasp the point of it all.
This journey in weight loss was the victory I needed. He showed me one day at a time to stop following my own wisdom or the whims of the self-seeking populace of this present world. I'm gradually learning to take problems and LEAVE them in His care. Bit by bit I'm learning to overcome fears that are triggering my compulsion to abuse myself with excess food.
One of the things I needed to work on was being a spiritual leader to my kids. I stopped when we switched churches and I was no longer doing the Sunday School. I was so worn from schooling 6 days a week for X years that I was fried. I had nothing left to give.
† Jesus said in John 4:14 ..."but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.
I was being rebellious and not accepting His water. I wasn't letting Him into every aspect of my life. It was as though I had "Part of Me" that He would never get ahold of. I couldn't give Him everything.
God told Jeremiah to stuff a sash in a rock and then days later he retrieved to find it ruined and "profitable for nothing".
The LORD: ‘In this manner I will ruin the pride of Judah...10 This evil people, who refuse to hear My words, who follow the dictates of their hearts, and walk after other gods to serve them and worship them, shall be just like this sash which is profitable for nothing. 11 For as the sash clings to the waist of a man, so I have caused the whole house of Israel and the whole house of Judah to cling to Me,’ says the LORD, ‘that they may become My people, for renown, for praise, and for glory; but they would not hear.’ (Jer.13)
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Wow, I was fence-sitting and by default I was choosing to allow myself to be ruined. He has never let me down. Ever. The people in my life, yes. Him, no. Look how He gave me victory over gluttony. Anytime I stumble He is as promised right there the second I accept His aid.
† Matthew 6:33
"But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."
I want victory in every aspect of my life. He promises if I seek Him and HIS righteousness (not my own brainiac manipulations), I will be blessed.
I want Showers of Blessing.
The Story of Jeremiah and His Sash was my Laundry Room Story.
All this self-hate will come out in the wash, if I let Him cleanse the hate by accepting His Love.