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AwEsOmE!!!

Saturday, November 05, 2011

As one of my favourite artists would sing, "Tell those voices in your head to like you instead..." P!NK ~PERFECT.

You are PERFECT to me!

In fact, you are freakin' AwEsOmE!!!!





















  
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CAROLJ35 11/10/2011 10:14PM

    You are so clever!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SHASSYSUE2 11/8/2011 8:37PM

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MIBELLALUNA 11/7/2011 9:46AM

    SO LET IT BE WRITTEN, SO LET IT BE DONE! haha (Can never get Yul Brenner's line from MOses out of my mind. It's our standard couple joke when we make a decision.)

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ANEWBETHSTL 11/6/2011 9:28PM

    YOU ARE emoticon MY LOVELY FRIEND!

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ASRMOM 11/6/2011 11:48AM

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TEXASFILLY 11/6/2011 11:38AM

    YAY! Here's to AWE~someness! emoticon emoticon emoticonBB~ emoticon emoticon

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JENNYBAKER247 11/6/2011 10:13AM

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You are simply THE BEST for reminding us all.
LUV your blog!
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KATHYD82 11/6/2011 9:16AM

    What a positive way to start the day!! That one boy from "The Middle" ( I think his name is Brick or something like that)....he is very awesome and that show cracks me up. Its on before Modern Family if any of you watch MF and haven't seen The Middle. Anyway, thanks for the reminder that we all are awesome :) Hope your Sunday is wonderful! I thought I would be more sore today from the raking I did yesterday, but I don't feel too bad! Its going to be in the low 60's here today and sunny. We also have church this morning and then more outside yard work. Make it a great day!! emoticon

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NAVYMOM133 11/6/2011 8:05AM

    OK, I vote for Kirk!! Hahahaha!! So funny, that's so him. I also liked the little boy: "You! Yeah, you're awesome!" Almost like picking teams for dodge ball. Everyone standing there cringing, waiting till that magic finger points their way.

Hey Liz! You! You're awesome!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

XOXO

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LYNN-LOVESLIFE7 11/5/2011 11:15PM

    Okay, we need to have a day out of every month to celebrate our emoticonness...... emoticon You're emoticon!

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MOSTMOM1 11/5/2011 9:41PM

    One of my favorite states of being.
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WINNIE1978 11/5/2011 7:26PM

    We are all awesome! Thanks for reminding us!

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LENKA763 11/5/2011 2:57PM

    you are awesome, we know that...:)

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MNOT2THICK 11/5/2011 2:53PM

    Awesome programmed in, Awesome given out. emoticon
U R Awwwwwwwesome!!! emoticon

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 11/5/2011 2:47PM

    You ROCK! You're emoticon emoticon

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MAMACAT2_3 11/5/2011 2:11PM

    Soooo needed to read this, it is AWESOME!!

And you are AWESOME...

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I*AM*BLESSED 11/5/2011 2:02PM

    A.W.E.S.O.M.E.!!!

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WILDFIREKRISTIN 11/5/2011 1:48PM

    Okay like always, gotta vote this blog up! Thank you for reminding me of two things today, ONE, YOU my sweetmama are AWESOME and that Two, I am awasome too!

Hugs,

Kristin

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SNOWANGELDIVA 11/5/2011 1:44PM

    DEBBY ~ I love my egotistical men...like a moth to a flame...

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DEBBYFROMMT 11/5/2011 1:16PM

    Great! The James T. Kirk picture looks like one of the demotivational calendar pictures. (ok I belong to the Sarcastics unlimited spark team) emoticon

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REDROSEMARIE 11/5/2011 1:12PM

    Thank you for cheering me up!
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AMANDASHRINKING 11/5/2011 1:10PM

    those made me smile

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REBELBLITZ 11/5/2011 12:32PM

    You are an awesome Sparkler!
Great blog.
Thanks for sharing.

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NORTHWOODSMOM8 11/5/2011 12:30PM

    Liz, THANK YOU for making me feel so good!!!!! emoticon

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† The Air That I Breathe

Friday, November 04, 2011

::again with the t.m.i.......


Ever have someone be the air that you breathe?

I remember being 9 and threatening God at the passing of my Uncle in a drinking and driving accident. My mother was utterly devastated at the loss of her younger brother. My mother was my entire world and my threat to the Creator of the Universe was if He ever took her from me I would die..I promised Him that I could not survive it. She was my air that I breathed, my sunshine, the water for my thirsty soul. My e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g.

Fast forward and I'm married. Not ideally so. I had walked away from my boyfriend to find out I was with his child. Commence shot-gun wedding (f.y.i. the pill and rain jacket -over rated..ya). My mother is not really pleased. My choice is between husband or mommy that doesn't exactly respect the marriage and maybe is kinda hating the marriage. Okay, she hates that she's not my world. Soon she gets voted off my island because she is reeking havoc. It takes a few years of separation from my mother (that tore me inside out) and reconciliation is made. She learns to play nice, but, now my husband is the center of my world. My mother is one of my best friends now and ever supportive of my marriage.

This tendency to hero worship is throwing my entire universe right off. Other people do it with their children, friends, their careers, fitness, food, self-image or possessions just about anything _____________...I make idols out of people for the most part.

I completely ignore:

Exodus 20:2-17 NKJV
1 ...You shall have no other gods before Me.
2 “You shall not make for yourself a carved image, or any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth; you shall not bow down to them nor serve them. For I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God...

I ignore those words and I worship my husband. I go to bed and he is on my mind. I wake in the morning and he is on my mind. I try to do my chores and I'm thinking of him. He is constantly saturating every fibre of my thinking. How would he like this? Does he want this or that done first? Did he like such and such? and on and on and on....

I love him so much, that I actually hate him.



The trouble with having a human idol is that they can NEVER be pleased by me. I will never be enough for my husband. I can not be my husband's joy. He is in charge of his own joy. It's a choice he has to make everyday. I can't make it for him. I am too fragile to be the source of power that navigates his being. Yet, I keep trying to be his air like he is mine.

Oh how I hate the power that I have forced him to have over me. An expression on his face can determine the mood of my entire day if not week. If he doesn't kiss me before he goes to work, I am literally crushed for days. A silly comment can cut so deeply I feel pain of it years after it's haphazard delivery. I've been battling this on and off for years. I tried to project this hero worship onto a BFF and that's when I ended up with the Frenemy from Hades I mentioned back in August. I was her personal verbal abuse bag. My husband was so thankful to not have to be my world that he didn't care that I was being abused, because he was escaping my claws of desperation.

This Spring I had projected that worship onto all those duties with the church. I had that justified so well even the Pastor and his wife were convinced what I was doing was marvelous. I had minimized all my duties at home and home-schooling to accommodate the secretarial, desk-top, trustee, Sunday school and et ceteras they were giving me as duties. In my heart I knew that I was playing the "Idol Game" again. It all came tumbling around me. My hubby saw that one though and he was more sympathetic. Time had worn on and I think he had forgotten how suffocating it was for him to be my everything because he readily took up the position after I went through that mess this spring.

I'm choking the life out of him. That is a lot of pressure on someone. I know....I am that to my children. It is a lot of pressure to be someone's everything. It makes them back away and distance themselves. Which is what I am doing to my children. We have this awful dance going on in our home.

Bobby asked me what was wrong because he knew I was 'off' the past bit. I'm not going to tell him that cutie-pies are making passes at me and I can't find my big girl voice to tell them to go away. Although that is bugging me it's not THE thing that's bugging me (that's where I'm totally miffed with BIGGEEKDAD...which he has no clue about because he's an emotionally stoopid guy and I am emotional genius), THE thing that's bugging me is my Idol Worship.

"The wise man builds his house upon the rock." You know that Sunday School Song?

Who is the Rock?
Jesus.
Not, my husband. I know. I know. I'm disappointed too.

My house is my life and it keeps folding because I keep building it on my Idol.



Funny thing is my Idol was the one that helped me work this out this afternoon. He totally could've gotten a foot massage or some extra *wink* *wink* lovin' and been a totally manipulative S.O.B. and had me do all sorts of contortionist moves to accommodate his ego. He didn't he could've, but, he didn't. That's why this is gonna be so d@mn hard. He is so d@mn freakin' awesome.

The last time I built my house on The Rock, I made one bad decision and my world saw the business end of the monsoon season. [Code for I made a decision that found me in a position that lead me to being raped. In turn I packed on the weight as a protective 'shield'. An experience not wanting to be repeated. Go figure.]

This weight loss is like what WILDFIREKRISTIN said, "With each pound you drop you discover another drawer to be opened with stuff that needs to be sorted and dealt with." I knew this was the Mother Loaded one. I've been trying to work on the "Weekend Project" that WILDFIREKRISTIN presented last week. I knew I needed to set new goals to focus myself, but, it's kinda murky in my SNOWGLOBE.

Link to Kristin's Weekend Challenge:
www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_jo
urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=4555176

  
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MIBELLALUNA 11/7/2011 10:14AM

    Hey Girlfriend.....I read this this weekend and didn't want to make any comment b/c I kept debating it in my mind (the comment). And I'm still afraid to say it, lest I jinx it. Fear sucks. Keeps us locked in ourselves, doesn't it?

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KATSHIA 11/6/2011 10:54PM

    Prayers and hugs!!

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ASRMOM 11/6/2011 11:46AM

    Prayers my beautiful friend!

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NAVYMOM133 11/6/2011 8:14AM

    emoticon I am thinking of you.
You are doing the hard work and heavy lifting of self-discovery. Who am I now? Am I different? Do I want change? How do I want to live my life? So important, and you are doing the work.
... and the day came... and the risk is worth it...
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MKPRINCESS007 11/5/2011 11:33PM

    Whew...not often I am a loss for words. I feel your intensity. That being said, I think it is awesome to love your husband. I think the idolizing comes from you creating a world around him and limiting your stretch beyond it. It is easy to do. I made my son my EVERYTHING. From birth to 7, I lived and breathed him to the exclusion of all else. Almost ended my marriage by default, because how could my husband compete with our child? So, I realized I needed to find an additional purpose. I began part time work because I was struggling with my balance. Not that I suggest that for you, but my point is that I think the line between love and idol is thin. I know you will work through it in a way that works for you and your family. You know I believe in you, Liz! :)
K

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MNOT2THICK 11/5/2011 2:50PM

    I too agree with Eclipsed. Knowing what the problem is key. You will find your balance. Believe me I know how you feel. emoticon

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BAILEE_GRAVES 11/5/2011 11:47AM

    I think so often we think of "idols" as material things; like the golden calf. And we don't realize that the people in our lives can be made into idols. The fact that you've recognized that speaks volumes!

You've come so far from the girl who started on Spark and it's been MY pleasure to be your Spark friend and continue to watch you grow.

I know that you will work through this. It may not be today or tomorrow but I know you'll find a way to make that house balance and that you'll get your "idols" in order. I know you have the power to do it Lizzy girl!
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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 11/5/2011 10:16AM

    You'll find that balance Liz. Besides God my husband is rock. My safe place in the storms of life. He is the head of the house but has always said I am the neck that turns the head. emoticon

As you continue to trudge through the muck of self discovery you will see that you are shining. That you have come through to the other side stronger, kinder and more self aware. You do and will ROCK! emoticon

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TXCROCHETQUEEN 11/5/2011 8:52AM

    I ditto what Eclipsed said! emoticon... praying for you emoticon

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ECLIPSED 11/5/2011 7:41AM

    Ah Liz, I think you're finally going to come through ok. You know what your problems are and why you have them. You just need to find a balance between idolizing and loving. You aren't living life like a lot of people. You know what you want but need to find the way there. The air that you breathe should sustain you, not smother you. You've got it figured out, and that's half the problem fixed!

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Pitchin' a Wee Wii Fit

Thursday, November 03, 2011


I can prove that I bite @ hoola hoopin'!
Booyah!

Song of the Day:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=yhUOZGkWC1k
Ya I am on a Toby Mac Marathon I own it...

HOLD ON!!!

  
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BEHAPPY0201 11/30/2011 1:11PM

    You have the best hair ever!

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MAMACAT2_3 11/5/2011 11:35AM

    Ha ha LOVED this!! Yep, Wii is so rude, I can't use it in front of my family because it likes to embarrass me. Meanie...

You totally ROCKED the 'hulee hoop'! emoticon

Wish I could still do the splits! emoticon



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MNOT2THICK 11/4/2011 11:05PM

    Move those hips girl. You did a great job on the Wii. That game is just mean. Boooo.

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DAWNFIRE72 11/4/2011 10:12PM

    Am I the only one that still likes their Wii? I use it and my Kinect on the XBox 360 as my major workouts and I go jogging on Sundays.

I LOVE the hula hoop even though I suck at it.

I think you rocked the Wii and I think that the "rudeness" is because it's someone translating the games from their original Japanese to English and they extremely correct grammar. I also noticed the Beatles drum kit in the background my youngest would love that set but we already have 2 sets (one for the Wii the other for the PS2...we like our games too).

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WINNIE1978 11/4/2011 9:35PM

    I hide my Wii because it's rude too. Maybe one of these days I'll be able to step on without it groaning! Jerk!

You did much better with the hoopin' than I could have done! emoticon

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KAYELENE 11/4/2011 8:54PM

    emoticonblog. You were great with the hula hoop. I'm useless at it on the Wii and with the real thing. My Wii is rude too. It calls me obese and I have another game with swimming on it and it tells me I'm a lead balloon. emoticon

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SNOWANGELDIVA 11/4/2011 6:25PM

    CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 ~ Cruzer is a lap dog stuck in a big dog body. He 'owns' his diva.

MOSTMOM1 ~ Mr. Wii is a jerk! How dare he diss you on your birthday!! That is so wrong!! The kids are STILL poking fun at my tantrums today. This world would be soooo boring if we didn't have some drama mamas...

NAVYMOM133 ~ I played cool after those splits fully intending to edit it out along with the other half hour of Wii footage, but, silliness won. Kinda regret it now, but, not enough to delete the vlog entirely...which brings us back to the world being very boring without some drama mamas..
F.Y.I. I "really" appreaciate that you didn't air quote your compliment. My daughter needs to be grounded...the little twit!

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NAVYMOM133 11/4/2011 6:01PM

    Hahaha!!! Awesome Hooping, mama!!!
I was very impressed, and that impromtu split was GREAT!
That looked like a really good core workout - and note that I didn't even put air quotes around "really good".
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MOSTMOM1 11/4/2011 7:04AM

    TOLD YOU!!!!! Ha ha, I knew you could do it. Yup, we gots to get you da real thang now.
My Wii is rude too. On my birthday, he was wearing a little party hat and confetti was flying around. He said, "Happy birthday!" I smiled. Then he said, "Don't let your guard down. As the body ages, it continues to degenerate at a faster pace, losing muscle strength, balance and coordination."
Well happy birthday to you too, Mr. Wii.
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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 11/3/2011 11:46PM

    Way to rock the hula hoop. emoticon emoticon But I have to tell you. The pup did steal the show. emoticon

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Nov.1

Tuesday, November 01, 2011

Journalin' for myself... got some stuff rattlin' around in my brain that I gotta unload.
That was the ::DISCLAIMER::...do not say I didn't warn you.
A.K.A. personal. More like a diary? (Sharing because I KNOW I am not the only that digs through this poop and I believe that a battle done alone, in darkness, is a lost one).

My kiddies wanted to go to this party last night. Fine. We go. I was hoping to meet some new mommy friends. Transportation is all figured out. Hubs has worked like 20+ hours he comes home so we can have the vehicle and he crashes (as in 'falls fast asleep'). I see him 20 minutes in 2 days. Fine. We get directions. We get there and it's "Game On" from the time my feet hit the dirt with all the women. I 'play' sweet and submissive. I know they're feeling threatened. So I go on auto-pilot and bury my vivacious spirit.

Why do I keep doing that?

Women are biznotches. (I need to own my biznotchiness and not be afraid of theirs.)

Girl, I don't want your man. I am having a heck of a time with my own (nothing that duct taping him to one location wouldn't cure). WHY would I want your headache? The only reason why he is acting funny around me is cuz I'm new. That's all. It'll pass. It's a guy thing. Take him home and take the frying pan to his head. I don't care. That's your problem. Stop being a beeyotch to me. I'm trying to make friends here! With other mommies.

D@ng.

Do we ever leave high school?
Cuz, this sucks.
Like, I can't eat, or sleep cuz I got no friends kinda sucks. I gets lonely.

[I do have friends...my crazy sis...and my girl that's expecting no.#200th baby, but, they're not here in the new town.]

~(WARNING...TMI)
Dude that owned that farm was crushin' on me. After last night I clued into the other times where he was dropping hints and I realized those times my son's youth pastor was intercepting a few times on my behalf, duh. Cowboy has 100 acres and loves kids (and is partial to happy blonds). Dude is 21. Now, I write this here for accountability. This guy looks like Brad freakin' Pitt!!



Am I a Cover Girl? H3ll no. He is 21...twenty with a 1. I can't even begin to formulate in my brain what he is thinkin'. Really...if I was 21 and was financially secure and looked like a pin up I don't think I'd be gunnin' for the middle-aged, MARRIED, financially insecure, man! Especially if he bore 5 kids.....LOL! ESPECIALLY if he birthed 5 kids that'd be FREAKY!!!
Go away boy! Go find some cute little girl to torment and leave the lonely housewives alone!

O.M.G....maybe the ladies are hatin' on me because I distracted their boy toy for a season. Who wants those kinda friends?!!

Life is just High School on repeat.
D@ng.
I was a Loner in High School.
I'd float through the other groups. A little bit of this and a little bit of that...
*Le Sigh*
~If my Bobby is stalking me on Spark...I bet 'Brad Pitt' gets laid out flat on Sunday...or Bobby won't let me leave the house...



I don't know if I mentioned it to you before but I was part of an organization where the leadership (of which I was in) were prohibited to dance or listen to a vast majority of music. Music and dancing are so therapeutic. These are my songs of today.

www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player
_embedded&v=BOAV6ml1hbs

Jamie Grace ~ "HOLD ME"
(I love, I love, I love, I love the way You hold me)
(I love, I love, I love, I love the way You hold me)
(I love, I love, I love, I love the way You hold me)
(I love, I love, I love, I love the way You, the way Ya, the way Ya)

VERSE 1:
I've had a long day
I just wanna relax
Don't have time for my friends,
No time to chit-chat
Problems at my job,
Wonderin' what to do
I know I should be working
But I'm thinking of You and
Just when I feel this crazy world is gonna bring me down
That's when Your smile comes around

CHORUS:
Oo, I love the way You hold me,
By my side You'll always be
You take each and everyday,
Make it special in some way
I love the way You hold me
In Your arms I'll always be
You take each and everyday,
Make it special in some way
I love You more than the words in my brain can express
I can't imagine even loving You less
Lord, I love the way You hold me

(I love, I love, I love, I love the way You hold me)
Whoa oh oh oh oh
Oh Whoa I love the way You hold me
(I love, I love, I love, I love the way You hold me)
Whoa oh oh oh oh whoa
(I love, I love, I love, I love the way Ya)


Well Ya, took my day
And You flipped it around
Calmed the tidal wave
And put my feet on the ground
Forever in my heart,
Always on my mind
It's crazy how I think about You all of the time
And just when I think I'm bout to figure You out
You make me wanna sing and shout


BRIDGE:
I'm so grateful and thankful for all You've done
Wish I could tell You in a short story or poem
But, all I have is my voice and this guitar
And You have my heart


www.youtube.com/watch?v=MX5OqyBYKh4&
feature=artist

Toby Mac ~ "GET BACK UP"

You turned away when I looked you in the eye,
And hesitated when I asked if you were alright,
Seems like you're fighting for you life,
But why? oh why?
Wide awake in the middle of your nightmare,
You saw it comin' but it hit you outta no where,
And there's always scars
When you fall back far

We lose our way,
We get back up again
It's never too late to get back up again,
One day you will shine again,
You may be knocked down,
But not out forever,
Lose our way,
We get back up again,
So get up, get up,
You gonna shine again,
Never too late to get back up again,
You may be knocked down,
But not out forever
(May be knocked down but not out forever)

You're rolled out at the dawning of the day
Heart racin' as you made you little get away,
It feels like you've been runnin' all your life
But, why? Oh why?

So you've pulled away from the love that would've been there,
You start believin' that your situation's unfair

But there's always scars,
When you fall back far

We lose our way,
We get back up again
Never too late to get back up again,
One day, you gonna shine again,
You may be knocked down but not out forever,
Lose our way, we get back up again,
So get up, get up
You gonna shine again
It's never too late, to get back up again
You may be knocked down, but not out forever,
May be knocked down, but not out forever!






  
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_SINGFORLIFE_ 11/3/2011 9:21PM

  There is nothing more beautiful than a woman who is at peace with herself, and radiates inner happiness...that is what he saw, and what the "haters" saw in you, but reacted with different reasons...lol.
Keep on shinin' like a morning glory!!
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DXP6028 11/3/2011 4:09PM

    They are just threatened by your awesomeness!!! Let that be the fuel that keeps you going, not what tears you down.
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ACAWTHORN 11/2/2011 12:46PM

    I remeber going to a restaurnt that has a bar in it and im getting sneared at by the girls.. Women can be ruthless and little insecure freaks.. It is crazy.. im a woman.. But i know these things are true.. just keep your head up and show them who the women is...lol

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LENKA763 11/1/2011 11:09PM

    this may sound harsh ,but that is how I see it..
well, most of the time

you give a woman a power and she turns in to instant witch (well I meant the b-word). :)



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MKPRINCESS007 11/1/2011 10:27PM

    Don't you think it is ironic that so many women here on Spark feel the same way that you do? That they wish they could have friends in "real life"? So, does that mean we are all drawn to this type of online support because we manage it better for us "more introverted" or unique types? Think I might be on to something?

That being said, I feel WAY more comfortable in a room full of men that I know then a roomful of women. I Know that some may not see it this way, but in my mind, with men, you know where they stand. Women often play games and create drama. I couldn't agree with you more. Just know how much you are loved here, by so many. Especially me!

K

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DAWNFIRE72 11/1/2011 10:18PM

    This is why I don't really have any friends. I sometimes (as in 2-5 times a year) hang out with the Mom of my youngest daughter's friend but we don't go out together to the mall/bar/gym and we don't call each other unless we are looking for our respective offspring. I don't hang out with my sister, sometimes with my oldest niece but I am quite content to just let everyone have their life and I will remain the wallflower who stays home and knits hats/scarves/blankets.

I think you are right and life is just high school in an infinite loop. Sucks but what are you going to do? I also think that I would be clueless if a younger man was hitting on me, as I was pretty clueless in my younger days as well when I'd venture out to the bar without hubby or he'd meet me there later. I'd dance and laugh but if the guys were flirtin' I was in the dark until after the fact then I'd realize and turn bright red at how stupid I was not to realize.

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX10 11/1/2011 8:38PM

    Hey woman... emoticon I've always been a bit of a loner but not by choice. I've yet to meet a stranger in public. One on one is a different story. Understand lonely. Just asked myself the other day how I got to be almost 47 with no friends. Ahh is the life of an isolated home school mom.

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MNOT2THICK 11/1/2011 8:35PM

    Girl, bring you sexiness around here. I would parade you around with pride emoticon. Not in a demeaning way but an endearing one.

God gave you the clay and you are working it. Let the true you show. It may be a blessing to someone else who is afraid of letting their light shine fearing they would not be accepted. emoticon emoticon

I do like those two songs. Thanks

PS, I am amazed at how unchristian-like Christians can be in the church and at church functions.



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SNOWANGELDIVA 11/1/2011 8:22PM

    After a day (yes, I dedicated a day to to this), I realized I am being way too kind to these women that are monopolizing my emotions. Now, I own my biznotch.

They do not get to be called, "women" by me anymore. Real women would be kind, friendly, and oh-my-gosh Christ-like to an outsider. No, they do not deserve the honour of the title "woman". No, they shall henceforth be dubbed as 'silly little girls.' I will be friendly me to everyone. No more 'toning it down' or burying myself. Would I really want to be friends with someone that wants me to keep it under a lid? No. Why begin a friendship under false pretenses. I am vivacious...there is some chicky-poo that needs me out there.

I love my friends here. I do not have to have 'live arms' to hug me and cheer me which is what I was referring to when I said I didn't 'have friends'. It would be AWESOME to have you over. Oh, how I would love for you to be here...

We'd dance in the storm...and vlog. (Eat TYLIGHTWUNDER's birthday chocolate ;)

As for being completely and totally insecure with my image and Brad Pitt....I'm still working on that one. I dunno. I'm invisible (90% of the time) to my husband so being visible kinda, well, messes with my thinking a lot...
I'm all for giving the boys a little whiplash...but, not so much with whatever the heck this is.

I'm ready to take on silly girls though. Goal met for today.

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SHASSYSUE2 11/1/2011 6:58PM

    I LOVE both of these songs!!!! I feel like life is still like highschool too at times. Especially with dealing with women. Do we ever grow up!! I have had to face this in church many many times, and it really pisses me off!! I am at the point that I don't want anything to do with Womans Ministry of any capacity, because it always ends up the same way!! I HATE DRAMA!!! I would rather stay at home, and keep to myself, than deal with it all!! I just wish we were closer, we could hang out all the time!!!! HUGS!! Shannon

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ANEWBETHSTL 11/1/2011 5:51PM

    Lizzy, NO, we don't ever leave school and that drives me crazy. And women are the worst at it. Why can't women and men just be friendly to each other without people thinking you want to sleep with them?? LOL

Well you know you have like a gazillion friends on here, but I understand having friends in the "ether world" isn't exact the same as having them in the real world.

I am sorry you haven't spent alot of time with your Hubby! I am sure you miss his cute self! emoticon

We LOVE you on SP!!!

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ECLIPSED 11/1/2011 5:30PM

    Awww, don't be lonely, you've got me here but not there. You know I'll always be around if you need anything. Hope you do meet some new mommie friends just so you won't feel so lonely. And you still don't get it yet, do you? You are one smokin' lady, whether or not you are married, have 5 kids, a cat and a dog! That boy didn't care how old you were, he was looking at the goods! Not saying it's an ok thing, but you know, it kinda is :)
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ASHIKIME 11/1/2011 5:28PM

    ugh! I know! I'm only 22, but I already feel that way... Me and my boyfriend have become hermits! It's horrible! But at the same time.. it's better then dealing with all the BS that comes along with leaving the house... bleh.. I hope you figure it out soon!

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WINNIE1978 11/1/2011 5:06PM

    You are right... life is high school over and over again! I deal with that at work on a daily basis. It gets old... but it never ends.

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MESAJOGGER 11/1/2011 5:04PM

    It is soooo difficult to make mommy friends. I feel your pain for other reasons. :-( Hopefully things will get better soon??? At least you can feel flattered, right? emoticon

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MOSTMOM1 11/1/2011 4:49PM

    I was just explaining to Audrey how relationships with other women can be tricky. Sometimes we just can't keep our claws to ourselves. Sigh...
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Oct. 31

Monday, October 31, 2011

Log


Right after I vlogged I got a visit from Sparkgoddess Coach Nicole!!! I'm SO glad I didn't demonstrate Britney's tummy crunches for you...what if she found out?! What if she saw me fall off of the bench? You know, now I kinda wish I had a clip to tag on....I think it woulda made her realize how much we need her.

  
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SHASSYSUE2 10/31/2011 11:53PM

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MOSTMOM1 10/31/2011 9:46PM

    Hope you had fun tonight. You should've done those Britney crunches. Guess that can be your next vlog. Drink YO water!
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MNOT2THICK 10/31/2011 7:25PM

    Bottle some of that energy and send it my way. Your crew is soooo cute!

Happy Halloween, enjoy the Harvest party! Get a hay ride for me. emoticon emoticon

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WINNIE1978 10/31/2011 5:19PM

    Have fun at the harvest party!! emoticon

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BIGGEEKDAD 10/31/2011 4:24PM

    I love your vlogs - you and your family are completely awesome.

You can break the cycle, I know you can! I say that even as I TOTALLY struggle with the exact same things. I would much rather sleep those extra 35 minutes vs getting up to have breakfast. And water - I do okay at work where I have stored an endless supply of water bottles, but at home? Not so much. I haven't noticed the headaches, but I certainly do feel hungrier when I don't drink enough.

Again, keep up those vlogs, because I look forward to reading them.

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LENKA763 10/31/2011 4:17PM

    Girl, you own your own circus!
lets make some $$$ with it :)

happy Halloween!

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CHRISTINCOTA86 10/31/2011 4:00PM

    So fun hanging with you today Lizzy, it's been awhile.

Wish I had half that energy that's going on in your house.
Nice whistle, my whistler doesn't work :(
My sister didn't have school today, teacher's inservice or something.

Your hair looks FAB today!

Hope your old lady is okay! Isn't lawn-mowing season over?

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