Monday, June 27, 2011
Am I seriously this close?
13 'ish' lbs from my my goal weight...
I don't even know why I picked that as my goal weight. I felt good once that size?
That sounds about right.
It's not in my healthy range...I'm feeling pretty great now.
I feel light. I'm overweight, but, light. It's fabulousness!!!!
I'm doin' it.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Isn't he just a cute tree?....ahhh, he keeps an eye on me...
Jack-In-The-Pulpit that hangs out under the Spruce by the path...one day when I get a digital cam (no offence to Johnny's DSI XL, it took great photos), I am looking forward to walking and vlogging...
This is the path....I have lots of work, but, I get so distracted (I know, I know, you're utterly SURPRISED!!! That fabulous, focused me gets distracted. )
I did this bed this year...It's Cana Lillies and Hostas...further down by the lattice is ivy and morning glory. The birch is sentimental...my 93 yo Jedi neighbour gave it to me. It's my favourite tree.
WHY? would she include this ugly pic? Because I have Morning glory planted all over my compost (grass box) and later on it's gonna look so AWESOME!!!
What I was fighting with today. It doesn't look like much, but, the root from the monster cedar hedge are out of this world!!
See the blue Pot-of-gold Pool in the back with my McGuyver fencing? That fencing has morning glory growing up it too....hee hee....hee hee hee
The tree is the Butternut that is endangered in Ontario and I am not allowed to hack down....grrr....I have Sweet Peas growing up it... In the log there I have Everlasting Peas...
I have Scarlet Runner Peas on the Teepee contraption and at the opening of the teepee are two Kong Sunflowers started...they grow to 7ft.
The garden that I hav here will be in the shape of a reveresed heart with it's tip to the BUtternut tree and I'll have room for my baby girl to have her Crazy-8 cucumbers to grow...
David showing of my peonies...remember when I told you they were pretending to be asparagus...they are so fragrant I almost choke on their perfume. It's FABULOUS!!!
David took this picture of the White Peony...he did great!
Teiki Torches, Hydrangea, Ivy and Clematis...
This is a side view...my Virgina Creepers are doing so awesome....I spend the summer last year taking snippets and rooting them in tea cups in homes that I could cultivate a bunch to get a wall of them. I was over-the-moon when it worked.
Last year this whole side of the house was dirt...we had to raise it because the slope from years of wear had the water running intot he basement. This next photo I call my Katie Garden (my eldest daughter). She made me the foot stone for Mother's Day last year.
It has hostas, shasta daisies, lillies (that are purple) and I think...a violet to the front right...I'll find out soon!
Introducing the sexy Van Cherry Tree...she's strttin' her stuff...Her mate Bing is in sad, sad shape...he has got like 8 leaves and they're the same age...I h*a*t*e moles.
I'll let you know when they get busy and I get me my grandcherries.
Hostas and ribbon grass ( I'm renaming it Zebra Grass)...some Solomon's Seal and Virginia creeper started in here.
Here are my cucumbers that I started inside this year, them hardened off in the shade and have planted 3 Times over because they're hateful little creations and refuse to take. I love my cukes, but, GRRRR!!!!
Jedi Lila gave me a tomato plant...I'm pretty sure it's a Beef Steak variety, but, ya never know! I also tried a start on some sunflower seeds that I harvested from my sunflowers that I gres last year. I never tried that before. I dried out their flowers and collected the seeds...it was SO COOL!!! Cuz, it worked!
Pitiful Bing and our eclectic radish, carrot, and pea bed.
Wildflower Bed, and Morning Glories...we started this one this year..
Psssst.....some more Morning Glory....
The Garden is my gym in ruralville...
Yup, David got a great shot of my butt munching on my pants...yay, you!!!
We used to live in a townhouse 1100sq.feet and NO yard. I had a 3x5 area that I could put some flowers in. I chose some hostas because it was a shaded piece. I've been here 2.5 years...2 summers, I am on CLOUD 9!!!
I am loving gardening.
Just last month
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Oh, my word?! Who is calling me now?
I just got off of the phone with my mother. Who is this going to be? I briefly tried to check the decrepit call display that shows a semblance of what look like numbers only I'm not sure if they're roman numerals or ordinal at this point. I pick it up with a cheery, "Good Morning!!", and a happy heart looking forward to the gift of someone wanting to spend their time on the phone with me.
This change is a miracle. A few short months ago I was crying when the phone rang, physically ill from the pressure it entailed and leaving their messages to die on my graveyard answering machine....
BUT.... thanks to Spark....it has changed!!!
I have an eccentric God-given family and we've had our drama and come out the better for it. I had severe pain-induced depression this Spring and I couldn't/wouldn't confide in them because of a feeling of overwhelming failure and my pride kept me bound from reaching out to my family.
Unfortunately, I had just been released from my retired Nurse Practitioner and was waiting for health care openings and didn't have immediate Mental Health intervention.
I had relinquished my secretarial, web-design, and desk-top duties suddenly with my Church Family and the shock had unfortunately left them offended and unavailable to help me through this time. Months later that drama is almost worked through as well.
However, I was in a place of dark...it was me and my hope in my faith and this relentless pain.
"His ways are not our ways!" we hear so often, and I know it to be so true today. He used cyber communication and this site to help me in my darkest of hours.
In the beginning, I was an Armchair-Spark as we all are. I was tracking my calories and sponging off others motivations and giving nothing in return. Which I will reassure you Armchair-Sparks IS fully acceptable in the beginning. Like entering school, we don't start off in College!
After logging my food, I knew exercise was out of the question until I could get the pain maintained, so, I began on the emotional journey and I used the blogs/vlogs as my journal. I know that many debate this subject.
I am for this medium being used for this purpose. It was the tool that was used in my personal Miracle.
Daily, I faced my demons of defeat, disillusion and discouragement. Daily, I would try to regain the positive perspective in this darkness that was choking me.
I began taking steps and moving to the next "Level", but, the next "Level" isn't one that you can get a flashy award for.
I began to allow myself to be vulnerable with vlogs/blogs and be open with my journey.
I was able to connect with people of similar interests and build friendships.
I have a circle of interactive, caring and positive Sparkfriends. I call them my Sparkfamily.
You know the saying, "You can pick your friends, but, you can't pick your relatives." ?
I challenge it
My personal journey became a team effort. I was not alone.
Daily, I would not remember to spin the wheel, but, I was checking in on my virtual mama, funny big brother, wise gramma, sassy/sexy/spiritual sisters, saucy aunts, and fitful cousins!
Love and support was being bounced from page to page and heart to heart.
The world was shrinking and the lights were brighter.
The darkness was ebbing away.
I was getting stronger day-by-day.
Today there is barely a cloud in the sky of my heart. I have been pain-free for almost 3 weeks and my Sparkfamily has been here through one of the darkest times of my life.
I beat depression with the help of my SparkFAMILY.
Spark is My Miracle.
Make it yours.
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