SNOOKUMS19   29,673
SparkPoints
25,000-29,999 SparkPoints
 
 
SNOOKUMS19's Recent Blog Entries

HI Friday

Friday, March 02, 2012

Hello. So I had a good meeting with my therapist on Tuesday. We have four things to work on. I small amount of depression is there. I don't want to go to medication yet. She thinks I'm still working through the grieving about Adam. I did start crying when we talked about it. I told her how angry I am. We discuss the changes there has been in me this past year. Many are good. I'm stronger, I have better problem solving skills. Another change can be that I won't put up with what I used too. I think that is true. We will work on how I deal with this. Also we discussed how Joe works so much now and how I just don't seem content with what I used too. I used to love taking care of our home and family and that would be enough. Now it doesn't seem to be enough and I'm not ready for a full time job yet. She said we will work on all of this. She wants me to write down every time I'm angry and why. I've also noticed the huge change in my when I'm pmsing. It seems every other month I go through a lot mentally at this time. I'm going to my first full Zumba class this Sunday. I'm soooo looking forward to that. I think if I do full classes on Sunday and Tuesday for a while that will be great for me. Food choices have been really good. I cut out all sweets and desserts for Lent and have really stuck with it. So I'm being proactive and since my period is almost over I'm feeling better mentally. Have a great day!

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

CELIA1975 3/5/2012 12:09PM

    How was Zumba Sunday? I have bipolar disorder and exercise really helps with my mood. I used to have more depression than mania. Exercise along with sunshine really helped. You are in my prayers.

Celia

Report Inappropriate Comment
ANNESYLVIA 3/3/2012 8:13AM

    You should be proud that you accomplished as much as you have so far!!! I am!! And it sounds like you have a good grasp as what to work on next. That is a lot more than some people ever do.

Why not consider a part-time job to start with? Since both kids are in school. Maybe you can find hours while they are in school? When DH and the boys are home you will still be able to be with them.

hugs, Anne

Report Inappropriate Comment
KAILYNSTAR 3/2/2012 6:38PM

    So many things that go through a person's mind and there is no way to control other people and their choices. Just guide. So hard to do, especially for a Mom.

We've been here for you through this all and we will still be here through thick and thin.

Take care of yourself.

Report Inappropriate Comment
TWEETYKC00 3/2/2012 3:17PM

    I'm glad you're working on things so you can feel better. Take your time and get things in order for yourself.

Report Inappropriate Comment


Monday

Monday, February 27, 2012

Hi friends. Life is feeling better. I got my monthly enemy last night. I'm thinking my irrational feelings were prompted by it coming. It did get me really thinking though. What will make me happy? I'm going to set up small schedules. I'm trying Monday out for groceries after workout and shower. Tuesday Zumba on Wii with my friend Taryn who will hopefully coming over. Wenesday lunch with my good friend Kim and Thursday out for manicure. Let's see how that goes. I will also work on cleaning schedule but I had to work in my fun stuff first. I see my therapist tomorrow. Yay! I'm giving myself a cup of coffee then workout. I know I want to start showering earlier. That will get me motivated. Food has been really good. Getting rid of desserts and sweets has really made a difference. Even since Wenesday. We went to Vermont with my great friend Kate yesterday. It was fantastic. Just what the doctor ordered...for Kate as well. The kids had a great time too. We went to a the great book store in Manchester. We picked up some fudge at the Village Peddler for Joe and the kids :). We had lunch at Zoey's. Our absolute favorite! We drove through Bennington and hit their bookstore on the main street. Josh ended up with 3 books! He is thrilled! :) Love him :). We came home and watched Bridesmaids with Chris. Love that movie! We laughed all day! Thank God! Needed that so much. Saturday we went to the memorial service for Adams friends dad. So sad. I'm happy Adam was there for the girls. We went to my nephews graduation party as well. Nice to just hang and enjoy it all at my sister in laws house. So I"m ready to work on me. What a ride.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

TWEETYKC00 2/27/2012 3:00PM

    I'm glad things are going well, except for the red monster of course! That scedule should be helpful for you.

Report Inappropriate Comment
SIMPLE_IS_BEST 2/27/2012 10:49AM

    You've been busy! I'm glad you are feeling better. Cutting back on sugar can really help our emotions be more stable. I'm doing okay on my no junk food. Not quite as good as I hoped, but okay no junk food completely is a huge change and hard to do cold turkey! I've cut way back and had about 3 days with totally none so far, and I'm working on getting there completely.

Have a great week!!!

Report Inappropriate Comment


Hey Friday.

Friday, February 24, 2012

Happy that it's Friday. I'm able to spend the whole day with Joe. This is good for us. He suggested I start my own business :). Not sure what to do with that yet but I like the idea. I'll ponder this. I'm feeling really good about the abscense of sweets and desserts for Lent. I'm actually loving that. Adam is hanging with his cousin at my inlaws and Josh is hanging with his friends after a movie. Joe and I are hanging now. We bought some sushi for dinner. Yum. I had a shrimp bisque and side salad for lunch. Yum again. I will consider this entrepreneur life for a bit. Have a great day.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

TWEETYKC00 2/24/2012 8:12PM

    Glad you can have a nice day with Joe, enjoy yourselves.

Report Inappropriate Comment


Hi Thursday!

Thursday, February 23, 2012

So not such a great day. I'm wrapping my brain around life with Joe's new job. Not doing such a great job of it. Joe has basically spent no time with the kids this week. He has to work this whole weekend. He only has to work a couple hours tomorrow. We will see. I need a life. I realize this. I need something to give me a purpose for my day. I'm going to talk to my therapist about this on Tuesday. I'm just not feeling right. I am working out...so that is helping but not enough. I'm feeling a bit lost in life. I feel like Joe has this new job, the kids have lives ...I'm just walking around this house. I gave up sweets for Lent. I'm very happy with that decision. I think that will be good for me. I will work on me. I just haven't felt any answers. Thanks for being here.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

KAILYNSTAR 2/24/2012 11:20AM

    Sounds like empty nest.

What about volunteering somewhere for a few hours during the day when you're alone? I don't know what or where your interests lay, but there has to be something.

Keep up with the Zumba and hopefully, you can start teaching again.
emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
SOPKAMANJU 2/23/2012 8:57PM

    I beginning to see myself out of my depression because I want to give you encouragement and help you get motivated but I do not know where to start...All I can say is that you are a good person and you will find your path. emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
TWEETYKC00 2/23/2012 8:37PM

    Ok, it's time for a hobby. What do you like to do? I'm sure you can find something to keep you going.

Report Inappropriate Comment


Hi Tuesday!

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

So happy that it's winter break. I do feel so bad though. We found out that Adams very good friends dad suffered a massive heart attack Sunday night. He passed away yesterday morning. He worked with Joe and we were just with him at his house the night of the Winter Ball when Adam and CHris went to take pictures with his daughters. Adam was devasted. I think it reminded him that his parents are mortal. That we could not be here. He spoke to his friends and told them he is there for him when ever they need him. He was at Chris's when we found out and wanted to come home. We did and hung out on the couch together all day. I felt awful for him. I'm waiting to hear when the services will be. Josh stayed over at Connor's last night so he doesn't know about this yet. Food was ok yesterday. Not great but could have been worse I guess. I did Zumba for 23 minutes. Love my Zumba! Today I'll be dancing. Hope you have a great day!

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

KAILYNSTAR 2/21/2012 4:44PM

    What a sad, sad situation.

I myself lost a first cousin once removed, last week. She was always at the yearly family reunion and did free catering for my wedding. She was a lovely person.

My heart breaks for the family and the shock that everyone must go through.

My deepest sympathies.

Take care of yourself and hug your husband tighter!
emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
TWEETYKC00 2/21/2012 3:16PM

    I am so sorry for the loss to you and your friends family. As bad as it seems, at least he didn't suffer with an illness.

Report Inappropriate Comment
HIPPIECHIC68 2/21/2012 2:23PM

    Have fun dancing...so sorry about your friend! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment


First Page  1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59 60 61 62 63 64 65 66 67 68 69 70 71 72 73 74 75 76 77 78 79 80 81 82 83 84 85 86 87 88 89 90 91 92 93 94 95 96 97 98 99 100 101 102 103 104 105 106 107 108 109 110 111 112 113 114 115 116 117 118 119 120 121 122 Last Page