Monday, December 05, 2011
K so not so good choices this morning. I was doing good...eggs with lowfat cheese , ham and broccoli. Sounds good right? Then I ate 2 pieces of pizza. Ugggg... I'm stressing out about this holiday party my in-laws asked to have at our home. The guest list has now popped up to 65ish!!!!!! I keep hearing many won't make it but it seems like when I have something everyone shows up. A compliment but we need to be realistic about things. There will be many children here. I have no choice. This is going to happen. I guess that is my problem. I have a few control issues and I feel out of control about this. My mother in-law is not well. She is the one who asked to get the whole family together. I know she is worried there won't be another Christmas to do it. Who am I to say no? I won't be the daughter in-law who did that. Oh no. Still I'm making bad choices. I need to let go and let God take care of this. I know this. It's not easy. I know this too. One moment at a time here. I will make a list of what I need to do. Feeling bad. Sorry friends. Not my upbeat self. I'll get myself a glass of water. Drink up!