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Friday, November 04, 2011

Adam talked to the director and is out of the play. He felt better. We went to his therapist after that and he let me come in with him....I haven't done that in a long time. He felt better after that. It went well. Joe talked to the director of guidance at the school. He was very happy we had Adam in counciling. He thought Adam scaling back with things was great. We texted Adam this morning. He said he is doing good. One day at a time. I got my period this afternoon. That explains the binging the past few days. Today is better. We are having dinner tonight with family. I hope I get more into that. We will see. Have a good day.

  

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TWEETYKC00 11/4/2011 8:25PM

Well, it's good to know that things are getting better and that Adam is getting back into perspective and coping. Take care of yourself now. Report Inappropriate Comment

KAILYNSTAR 11/4/2011 3:38PM

Sorry that I haven't been here for a bit. Things are getting crazy. I'm sorry that Adam is depressed. I do hope that he gets his therapy regularily for a while. As for letting you come in. Fantastic. It's fine if he is feeling overwhelmed and decided to drop some activities. Obviously, his heart just wasn't in it anymore. Give him a hug and love him. That's all you can do. I have read your previous blogs and good on you for picking him up from school. You are a wonderful, supportive Mother. Report Inappropriate Comment

Quite a morning

Thursday, November 03, 2011

I was on my way to zumba and got a Text from Adam. He said he was depressed and wanted to cry. I picked him up and Joe and I talked to him. He says he is overwhelmed with being in two plays and wantS to drop one. Also his friends are busting on him because he wants to Give up the fish keeping. We decided he was going to find out if they have an understudy. We are fine with him giving Up the fish keeping. I havE a call into his therapist. He wants to see her. He is napping now and I'll bring him back to school in a couple hours. I feel sick. This parenting stuff is sooooo sTressful.

  

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HARTKITTY 11/4/2011 11:29AM

You are a great parent, just keep looking at the Father and you will find your way Report Inappropriate Comment

TWEETYKC00 11/3/2011 8:01PM

Maybe the therapist can help Adam sort things out. He has a good family structure and wonderful role models in you and your husband, I'm sure he will come out of this just fine. Report Inappropriate Comment

FLUTTER-BY)L( 11/3/2011 6:11PM

Good luck guiding him in the right direction. Follow your own instincts. My son once quit a play, when we were new here. It ended up fine. He was even friend with the director before he graduated and they had a good talk about it that came out wonderful. Report Inappropriate Comment

BLACKROSE_222 11/3/2011 11:05AM

HUGS! I'm so sorry. Report Inappropriate Comment

Didn't get to finish blog

Wednesday, November 02, 2011

First time with the iPad... I'm adjusting. So I hope it will be an easy transition. I feel stronger. I feel I just have this as a habit now. I need tom find something else to drink at dinner and when we are watching tv. Thanks for being here. Youmall have helped me through sooooo much this past year. I could never repay all of you. I am here. I will keep coming back here.

  

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TWEETYKC00 11/2/2011 8:16PM

I love having you here and as one of my best spark friends. Get that ipad under control, it'll take time, but you can get it. Report Inappropriate Comment

getting used to the idea

Wednesday, November 02, 2011

So Adam is officially 16. I'm so glad I saw my therapist yesterday. I cried my way through it but I 'm glad I went. I threw out the chocolate that was left here yesterday. No more for me. I had Josh hide his candy :). I'm having breakfast with mom this morning. Healthy omlette is in order. My food choices were bad yesterday but that will change today. I feel better today. I told Joe today that I'm not buying anymore wine for the house. I'm feeling clearer lately. I think I had been drinking much more the past 3 years. I've also realized that is when we first realized Adam was struggling with his sexuality. He really didn't want to deal with it unil a year ago this month. I think I began using social drinking as a coping skill. Dr. Oz was sating a glass a wine a day was good for ones health. There are antioxidants in red wine. All my friends and half our family would partake often. These were my excuses. They seemed valid and since no one new about Adams struggle they just thought I was being social. I did as well. Now I see differently. I need to

  

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BLACKROSE_222 11/2/2011 12:03PM

You are doing the best you can. That is all that matters. Report Inappropriate Comment

Happy sweet 16 Adam!

Tuesday, November 01, 2011

Ok...So I am sooooo emotional today. I really can't stand myself :). 16 years ago today I gave birth to this perfect baby boy. Here we are! I can't believe 16 years has gone by! He is such an amazing strong, caring thoughtful, wonderful person. We are so blessed. Here I go again... I need a tissue :). I had an appt. with my therapist and cried like a baby through it. Oh well, I guess thats therapeautic right? So... food was horrible yesterday but today has been great! I went to my first Zumba class this morning! Yay! It was amazing. It was the class with my positive awesome fun supportive ladies. They rock. I caught them up on my life for the past 6 weeks. I stayed in the back and only did what felt right. Pat on the back... After class and a shower my foot actually felt looser and better! So classes only every other day for a while. It will take alot to make sure I don't go tomorrow. I can get used to having this back in my life every day. I know...every other day... So we are going to get Adam his learners permit book today. He will be soooo psyched! We can't wait for Glee tonight!!!! Yay! Have a great day!

  

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TWEETYKC00 11/1/2011 9:51PM

Happy Birthday Adam! Sending some love for you both today. I bet going to the therapist was a blessing today, right? Take it easy on your foot, I know you want to jump right back in with your Zumba, but you don't want to hurt yourself either. Have a great night. Report Inappropriate Comment

KAILYNSTAR 11/1/2011 5:28PM

My son got his learner's at fourteen. I think that we have the youngest starting to drive in Canada. (Could be wrong). Congratulations Adam for turning sixteen and good luck on your learner's permit. Snookums, you did great for not over doing anything during Zumba. What a day! Report Inappropriate Comment