Aloha!

Monday, October 24, 2011

What an amazing trip! So gorgeous. So heavenly. Weather was perfect. Breathetakingly beautiful. We are so blessed to have had this moment in time. From a Spark perspective I didn't do well.... The mia tia's seemed like my friend at the time. Yum.. The desserts....decedant. So... I haven't tried on my jeans yet. I'd been wearing shorts for the week of course. They were a size 10. Hmmm...what happened to those size 6's on was rocking before my foot injury? At home mad at me I"m sure. I'm ok. I will get back on track right now. I ate well yesterday except for some chocolate last night. The traveling was crazy. We left Kona Saturday at 1:18pm and got into our airport at 11:30am Sunday. Wow! I had a burrito bowl with pulled pork with salsa and lettuce for lunch. I had a yogurt for snack. I had chinese take out...shrimp, chicken and broccoli for dinner. No rice. So not bad. I'm going to buy some Zumba sneakers today. My first class back tomorrow. I'm looking forward to it. The boys are awesome. I missed them sooooo much. They missed us too. I think that was good for all of us :). I woke up today at 1pm! Yay! Hopefully I slept through the jet lag! I have laundry to do today. Life is good. I'm so happy to have my Sparkies back! HI! Hope you are all having a great day!

  

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TWEETYKC00 10/24/2011 8:31PM

Aloha! It sounds like the best trip ever, minus the gained pounds that I'm sure will start melting off now. You were missed plenty here and it's so good to have you back now. I'm glad you could enjoy yourself, you deserved the break. Report Inappropriate Comment

KAILYNSTAR 10/24/2011 5:46PM

Great that you had a good trip. How is your foot doing? Sounds like it must be okay if you're going to teach a class tomorrow. Getting right back into the swing of things! Report Inappropriate Comment

TABBYARTS 10/24/2011 5:00PM

ALOHA! I wondered where you were. I'm glad you had a wonderful time! It sounds like your foot healed up just in time! Yea, I've had a rough time. My co-captain mutinied for no apparent reason. I'm assuming she was motivated by homophobia. It might have been something completely different. When I told her how hurt I felt, she quit Spark People rather than explain or apologize! She has been under a lot of stress and I am praying for her still. Send a prayer in her direction, please. God will apply it where it belongs. I'm glad Adam has a Mom like you. I know he will be supported through his hurtful times. your Sister in Christ TOBY Report Inappropriate Comment

ANNESYLVIA 10/24/2011 3:01PM

Sounds like you had a wonderful experience! I went to Hawaii on our Honeymoon 10 years ago. Even thought if was one of our best trips, I doubt we will ever go again. Good luck getting back to Zumba! Report Inappropriate Comment

BLACKROSE_222 10/24/2011 1:59PM

Glad you had fun - the important part is to get back to it. HUGS! Report Inappropriate Comment

One day to go....

Thursday, October 13, 2011

OMG...I've got lots to do! So psyched! Packed most of my things. Organized alot of things here. I got myself a nice manicure and pedicure. Things are going well. I still have lots to do. I'm taking a bit of a break. I will miss my boys so much. The flight will be forever....but I know I'm going to have a great time when I get there. I do have some more cleaning to do. I'm not in my skinny clothes but I am in cute clothes. So thats good enough considering the lack of exercise. I won't be sparking until October 24th. Have a great couple weeks!

  

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TWEETYKC00 10/13/2011 9:44PM

Enjoy yourself, you deserve the break. You'll probably be able to handle things at home so much better after a time off like this. Report Inappropriate Comment

KAILYNSTAR 10/13/2011 7:40PM

Have a great time! Report Inappropriate Comment

BLACKROSE_222 10/13/2011 4:16PM

You too! We will see you when you get back! Report Inappropriate Comment

Thanks for the kind words.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Thanks again...I got through the rest of the day well. No more binging and a healthy dinner of roasted chicken with broccoli. I ran errands and saw my therapist. The entire hour was about Adam and the video blogs he made. We agree he shouldn't be able to use the computer until his birthday November 1st. and no Ipod either. Also, while we are away he won't be going out with friends. I don't want to worry about what he is up to while we are in Hawaii. I explained this to him and he wasn't happy but is dealing. I bought some cute shoes for our trip and Joe bought me some good sneakers as well. :) I will start packing today and that should make me feel better. I sent the director of the gym an e-mail about only taking classes for a while when we come back from my trip instead of teaching right away. I realized that was a main reason I binged. I was dreading that e-mail. I'm relieved its done and I can focus on easing my way back into my exercising when I get home. I feel much better today and I know I'm back on track. Thank you so much Sparkies!

  

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TWEETYKC00 10/12/2011 10:10PM

It's good that you're back up and going again, now you can get back to feeling yourself. Time to break in those new shoes for the trip! Report Inappropriate Comment

KAILYNSTAR 10/12/2011 11:19AM

I knew that you would smarten up fast! At least you knew what was causing you to binge in the first place. Have a great day. Report Inappropriate Comment

VENISEW1 10/12/2011 9:20AM

on finding a solution to your binge. Have a great trip if I don't speak to you before you leave I love Hawaiin vacations. My favorite is Maui, what about you? Report Inappropriate Comment

BLACKROSE_222 10/12/2011 9:16AM

Good for you for figuring out what caused the binge! That is great. HUGS. Report Inappropriate Comment

binge

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

I just binged. I haven't done that in soooo long. I got my period this morning. I just don't know. I had a fudge from yesterday, chocolate cream pie from Saturday and 3 pieces of pepperoni pizza. Ugggg...... I feel awful. I feel sick from period and overeating... Wow...I don't know what to do with myself. Wow. I'll have to move on from this. I know. I just feel sick. I feel like I've failed. One moment at a time.

  

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SHELLYKOCH1 10/11/2011 10:49PM

Oh, Shrek. Don't worry. Things just seem bad because it's dark and rainy and Fiona's father hired a sleazy hitman to whack you. - the movie Shrek 2 See things can always be worse. So you stumbled a little. We are human, imperfection is in our nature. All you can do is pick yourself up and start again tomorrow. The world will not end because of pepperoni. The good thing is you recognized the binge. Don't beat yourself up for being human. Laugh at the fact you let a pizza set you back a bit. Now that you've recognized the problem, stop and do something positive for YOU! Readjust your goals, take a long relaxing shower/bath, pre-plan your meals for tomorrow, anything just do something positive. Tomorrow is your chance to redeem your self esteem. Start now and set your self up to be successful tomorrow. Report Inappropriate Comment

SURLYGIRL 10/11/2011 10:25PM

OMG - The SAME thing happened to me this weekend. I ate a half bag of pretzels, 2 slices of pizza, crackers, cereal and Kashi bars. Then I got a migraine that lasted for 3 days and also got my period right in the middle of all that! It just sucks doesn't it ? Then all that self loathing and guilt and embarrassment hits you. I have spent all day telling myself the same things I am going to tell you. It was a lapse, a flat tire on the journey we are traveling. If you get a flat tire on your car, do you abandon it and forget about the rest of the trip? NO!!! You change the tire, get back in the car and continue on your way! And that's what you and I are going to do. Let's check the oil and battery while we're at it - gas up and GO !!! See you on the road my friend ! Report Inappropriate Comment

TWEETYKC00 10/11/2011 8:59PM

You are not a failure, you just had a setback, this can happen to anyone at anytime. Maybe it's a good thing that you're going to see your therapist tomorrow. If you don't feel any better about the binging by morning, maybe that is something you can talk out then if you need to. You can get right back on track after this, it is ok. I know it is bad when your TOM hits and everything can get out of whack, been there, done that. One step at a time, that is all you can do sometimes. Report Inappropriate Comment

MIQUEY73 10/11/2011 8:34PM

Don't let one moment derail you. It happens to everyone. Dust yourself off and get back to your normal routine. Report Inappropriate Comment

KAILYNSTAR 10/11/2011 6:30PM

Just because you messed up today, doesn't mean that you'll mess up the next day. Tomorrow, you'll do soooo much better. Report Inappropriate Comment

KRISZTA11 10/11/2011 2:57PM

Too bad - but try not to be hard on yourself. Nobody is perfect each and every day. I also had a (smallish) binge yesterday, thought it was because of tiresome work, cold weather and darkness - but as you mention, period may have played a role in it... Report Inappropriate Comment

BLACKROSE_222 10/11/2011 11:03AM

Try to move past it - drink lots of water, and get back to it (Now, not tomorrow) with your proper eating. It happens. Look at what caused it, and what you can learn from it for the future. Report Inappropriate Comment

Beautiful day

Monday, October 10, 2011

What a gorgeous Colubus Day...Adam had his therapist meeting this morning. We haven't been able to discuss it yet. We will tonight. We then went to Manchester, Vermont with my great friend Kate. It was awesome. Very high carb but worth every bite. We went to Zoey's resturant and had their awesome Granny Smith sandwich... sourdough bread with apples, ham and cheddar cheese with honey mustard...OMG....amazing. Then we drove through the scenic mountains to East Arlington's Village Peddlar with scrumptious homemade fudge. We sat by a roaring brook whle eating our treats and headed back home. Just perfect...well...Joe was at work so not quite perfect but great friend time. The boys just love her and we had a blast. Oh...by the way...Adam is dating a boy from the play. Yeah... here we go. News to come I"m sure. One day at a time here. I'm going to my therapis tomorrow. Thank God. Waiting for Joe to come home so we can get a healthy bite to eat and pick up the boys from rehearsal. The party yesterday is done...Thank God again for that. Adam enjoyed himself and that is what matters. Nothing was broken...another plus. I don't have to entertain again until Christmas...so I have that :). Hope everyone had a great holiday!

  

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BLACKROSE_222 10/11/2011 10:28AM

Sounds like a good day, and hope that things were updated from Adam well. Report Inappropriate Comment

TWEETYKC00 10/10/2011 9:38PM

What a good relaxing day, you deserve that break. I'm sure there are a million and one things to go over with your therapist and that is what your appointment is for, get it all out. Now you can take a breather in your life hopefully. Report Inappropriate Comment